原来你一直住在我心里

分开了16年，我开起我任性寄给你的email,眼泪也跟着流。没有想到我原来那么的固执的一直把你藏在我心里，一直不肯面对现实。 原来我那么幼稚的跟你发了那么多小姐脾气， 对不起，当初的我还没长大。 从今以后，我再也不会想起你了。人生有多少个16年，明天的我是要对我自己而活，而不是回想以前的一切，为什么没有让你爱上我 。

不知不觉

过了那么多年，我也不知道自己为什么昨晚突然就想到你。就搜了下，知道你过的很好也很成功。 我们彼此都过了很好， 只是偶尔我的伤口会突然列开。 是我太过倔强了吗？即是我现在看到你， 我想我也认不出你。 为了一个答案，结果让自己伤了遍体鳞伤，真的很傻。 可是我也不懂为和我那么傻？ 祝我们大家都幸福美满

You still looks good after 11 yrs, just that u had put on weight. Wat had causes the apart 11 yrs ago? Without the answer, i will always stuck with it. I rather u hurt me at one goal instead of this wound keep opening n healing.

My health really went haywire

Recently, i am struck with Sciatica which causes me to lose my walking disability temporary.As long as walked or sit or stand for more than 5mins, i will feel that i am going to die bcos of the unbearable pain. No matter how many types of painkillers did not solve my problem at all. My facial expressions changes whenever the pain strikes me, i only got relieve by lying down. But lying down too much, makes my muscles getting more and more lazy.. Guess i am must be crazy, the first few weeks, i been thinking that when i woke up the next day, everything will be fine. But this is not case after a few wks, i finally woke up after my sisters came over to my place and gave me scolding.. Then i finally woke up from my dream, i need to be realistic, don't runaway from it.In the end, i went to fix an appointment with the specialist again. Somehow i am glad that i got recovered before my birthday.. Guess after this incident, i learn to be stronger and slightly more independent. Last friday, when i went out dinner with my friend.. After that, we had a drink.. Somehow i sprout out my feelings... i also dunno why i said it out so much.. hahaha... guess i still dunno wat is called love.. or maybe i will not get to understand wat is love till the day i had leave this world... At first, i might feel jealous about people falling in love.. i will be thinking when will it be my turn.. slowly.. i learn to accept the fact... i might not be able to start out a new relationship... if i dun clear my tots.. I might be tot that he is the one for me previously.. but after so many yrs.. pple will tend to change.. why am i still stuck at the same position again.. At times, i might tot that.. i gt feelings for someone.. but actually is all fake ? or i did once had feelings for that person? What i want now.. Is to build back my health and cherish whatever that is around me.. If die die cannot find the one who i want.. learn to be more independent and mature plus stronger.. Bcos i had to learn to be alone....

health ..

My health seems like getting worst.. yet my mouth cannot stop me frm not eating stuffs tat will make myself happy... min arh min.... u only have one life... if u dun cherish and treasure urself, nobody can help u... recently i heard frm my friend tat his gf suffer frm stroke.. seriously i am very shock.. nvr tot tat it can happen to such young girl... now i must make a change of lifestyle.. if really.one day i really kana stroke.. my parents will have a hard time .. now is i look after them.. not they have to suffer...