It had been quite a while

Yesterday morning, i had a nightmare that scare me out of my bed in the morning. Although i suppose to meet my friend in the morning for breakfast and helped him to settle some study stuffs, ended up i push the meeting from 9.30am to 10.30am. A few years ago, these two persons who i saw in my nightmare were the most important people in my life. But at this moment, they are no longer important to me. Or rather i should say that i am no longer important to them. Everyone leading a good life now, why should i still look backward about what had happened? Or is a hint telling me something not good going to happen? Recently, i had slow down my pace at work. What happened to me? Somehow, i lose my motivation and passion at work, i no longer worked that hard. But yet i am afraid i will lose my job. Without a job, i guess i will no longer be able to provide for the homes money for my mum nor be able to survive through. I start with a pathetic pay in 2005, yet at this moment, my pay is still not fantastic but i still cannot be able to survive through with what i had now. What happened to me, last time i can barely survive with that amount yet now i can't? Because of the bad economy or inflation or i had started to look at stuffs that are much more expensive? Maybe i know even at the end of the year, i will still not be able to meet my boss's expectation to get promote. No matter how hard i try to work, i will never be able to get recognize by my bosses. What is the point of working so hard? Maybe i am stupid, so i need to work harder to get a 3 as compare to others. Or i had limitation using in my language for communication. I guess i need to buck up on my english vocabulary in order to push me up for the promotion. As for relationship wise, i don't dare to think too far. I had been out of love for quite a long period of time. I don't even know what is the feeling to be in love again. Now i only want a peaceful life, i will know i will lonely at a time when my parents left me but this is parts and parcel of life. now i am contented to live under the care and love shower by my parents. Somehow, love and career doesn't work well for me at this moment. But i will try harder to make my career work. While for love, nothing can be force. Opps, somehow i am disappointed that such a good catch is already taken. But too bad, i am not someone who will approach first. haha.. even if i will make the first move, don't think he will like me also. hahaha.. when will an ugly ducking turn to be a swan? that will only appear in fairy tale. I should concentrate to be a career woman instead of thinking so much. As for my granny, she is still the same. Sounds contradicting but somehow i still wish i can meet the correct one and bring him to show her. I hope she will be able to see that day before she leave me. Ah ma, without you, i will never be able to be who i am now. I am grateful to you, without your love, i guess i will be a different person and head a different path.

A Dream

最近我的伤口一直被挖开,可是我已经把他忘了,从新开始生活了.. 可是昨天的一场梦把我吓坏了.. 我梦见他和别人结婚了,也有一个幸福的家..我一直哭个不停,我是真的哭,还是在梦里哭.. 可是起来时我的眼睛好干... 其实如果当初我听了korkor 的话,说不定我现在已经得到我的幸福了.. 哈哈.. 可能,我对自己太过有信心了,以为他对我好是因为他喜欢我... 傻傻的还以为,他就是我的老公.. 哈哈... 我真的觉得我好苯,好天真.. 现在的我,没有想躲在爱人的环抱,我想躲在家里和朋友的环里.. 我是真的有很多很好的男性朋友, 可是我们都不会有开花结果的.. 因为经历了和他的事,我开始分不清什么是爱情与友情.. 而且,我没有那个美丽吸引到任何一位男人...

今年， 应该不会有那么多人陪我过生日，今年我应该会跟家里人庆祝吧。。 也会躲在genting到我生日那一天才回来跟papa度过吧。可能是应为家里这几个月家里发生了很多事，从我才一点失去了我的最爱，到她好了很多。。 是时候在家里多陪一下我爱的人。。

其实如果以前我没有假假的想知道你对我的感觉，可能我们还是好朋友。。 现在我对你的影响也开始越来越模糊了。。 我只有记得你说过的，min ai zai.. 不如老天爷，你给我一杯忘情水，把你给我的回忆洗掉，还是给我一个比你更疼爱我的人出现在我面前。。

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Really speechless.. i also don't know what i wants in life.. Pls enlighten me..

Hahaha.. Really Crappy leh.. the insurance acting like my close friend like that.. Talk so much rubbish with me.. or recently, i become more and more crappy.. =x

hai~~ recently quite sad.. my back once in while, will give me problem... sob sob.. seems like my health is giving me green light.. =x

How have i been recently

Erm.. Recently been busy with studies and work. Hahaah... Sad hor.. this year cny cum vday.. nobody accompany me to celebrate my vday..

Today very funny.. i was trying to check my air ticket to bkk.. Therefore,i need to go out and send email.. keekekekee.. =D Uncle came in wor.. lol.. =D he saw me go to job website.. hahaha.. sometimes is happy to see uncle.. he very nice.. but there are times his face very black. Consider he is approachable.. he asked me.. really got so bad that cannot tahan until june.. Actually hor.. i also dunno whether i will change my job or not. But at the current moment, guess all of us are very tired.. tat's why we keep saying we wants to change of environment.. seriously now still not as bad as wat i had in my ex-company..

Last weekend

It had been ages that my aunty and my cousin came back to singapore for a
short trip. This time mainly bcos my auntie's mother-in-law condition consider quite bad. They came back to visit them
and my granny. This month, I bought a lot of Xmas gifts
mainly for family member. Tat include one for
my cousin. After he passed away, this is the first time his sister visits
sg. When I am young, auntie dotes everyone a lot. Mainly bcos of that or maybe bcos I am a crybaby, when I knew
he passed away. It affects me quite badly. Guess that blow is worst towards my auntie. Furthermore, we are not there together with her. She always wish us to go over an visits her. I was telling her if next year got chance, we will
go over there and visits them. Min arh min, must work hard, faster finish yr degree and earn more
money. I hopes they are happy with the shopping spree. Min dun really step in
the branded goods shop. Just accompany my cousin walked around. Hopes she likes the bag sher
bought. She leads a very simple life now.. Last time she still have a brother to bicker.. Actually life
is really short.. I wants them to be happy. Haha... Min trying to act
fillal or too sensitive towards things ard her?

Ytd I walked one whole day at orchard. Haha.. I gt a friend like a kid... Haha.. Seriously, I also dunno.. My feelings are very weird.. Haha.. Mainly bcos of an incident occurs a few years back.. I dun wish to enter one sided relationship again. At one moment, I really have tat kind of feelings toward him.. Haha.. But I know both of us will not be together. I still trying to match make him with someone else. Haha.. I really dun have the fate to meet the right or the correct one haven
appears ba.. Haha.. Ytd he really very nice to me.. Haha... But guess both of us knows our stand very well. He treats
me like a sis, futhermore he already gt someone in his heart. While
me, I also dunno.. I am quite sensitive to one word ks.. Haha... Dun mention him
in front of me. I wish to have a new beginning. Tat time is jus one sided love ba. Haha.. Maybe tat time I should head my friends's advice then I will
not hit so badly. Or maybe I am a person who dunno how to cherish things or I am very stupid. So next time relationship problems, pls be frank to me. Otherwise, I really dunno what it means.

Today, I wheel my granny to parkway to have lunch. She was very happy. Thanks for the people for giving me the seats. They quite considerate. There even gt one uncle walked over an offered us a seat.

erm.. twlight part 2..

Erm.. Recently, i went to watch twlight part 2. Erm.. Seems like this movie was my cup of tea. Opps, i tot i like to watch romance movie? I guess only cartoon, horror and action pact movie suits me. That nite, i watched till i fall asleep for a while. Guess it is because, i was not feeling well too. That night, i went out with my good friends to celebrate their birthday. I went to my friend's gf house for dinner and played with their doggies.. :P kekee.. It had been ages that i ever touched with dogs. Haha.. Last time, i worked in a petshop wor. kekekekee.. =D

That movie let me think back of the past that i had.. Hahaha, i haven let go of the past? Erm, no lah.. I had let go of it. Just i hate myself that i am being so indecisive. Min arh Min, so long le, u still haven grown up.

Hahaha.. Guess, i very steady that nite wor, i was having gastric upset yet i still can tahan till 5 plus then reached home.. Hahaha.. Brother asked me to go home and rest.. Yet in the end, i choose to stay out for the movie. Hahaha.. I puked out all my dinner.. =x OMG!!! Erm.. i never drink at all lor.. haiz.. Ended up Sunday, i was on high fever.. Hahaha.. Monday, bo bian go work.. LL hor..

Erm.. Sad arh... My work recently not that good.. Sian.. Maybe i lost favour le.. hahaa.. guess my boss dislike me to the core.. haiz.. sian.. hopefully i can work well in the other project now.. and get a better grade.. hahaa.. maybe i am a bit greedy, i wished to get a 2 and promote next year.. Hahaha.. guess no chance le.. should be the girl who is coming back from aus have a chance to promote ba.. sad hor... study until now i still haven graduate.. work hard liming!!!! die die also must pass this time round..

As for love life, i am still single.. hahahaa.. teach me leh.. how to find the correct one.. =x

8 years le...

不知不觉8年就这样的过去了。。 哈哈。。 如果真的在一起的话， 我们会不会在一起。。 还是我们还是会分开。。 还是我们还是会是好朋友。。 你还过的好吗？我现在过的还好，现在这分工作没有我以前的工作来的辛苦。。 没有那么难挨的日子。。 还是我也跟随时间的脚步，慢慢学的放开，不要那么冲动。。 哈哈。。 我猜你身边有了你深爱的老婆了吧！哈哈。。。 还是可能已经是爸爸了。。 哈哈。。 事情都过了那么旧，为何我还会偶尔想起你。。 这不是应为我放不下你。 只是你跟korkor给我的影响太过深，在我最彷徨无助的时候，你们会在ah min身边给她依靠。。 这份人情会陪我到老。。。 谢谢你。。 你真的帮了我很多。。 有些时候，你就是那么傻。。在我最穷的时候， 是你伸出你的手帮助我。。你从来都没有向我讨回。。。 只会在我身边唠叨的叫我不要那么会花钱。。 还是学生的我却喜欢跟朋友吃好的。。 有一次买了一杯泰国的chendol,$3.80。。。 给你说了一正晚。。 八年后，吃也没有了~~朋友也没有了~~ 哈哈。。。在你通电话时，我会说korkor..失去你后，korkor总会提起你。。 哈哈。。 真得很好笑。。

人情

hahhaaha... shifu~~ recently tot me some stuffs.. hahaaa.. i am trying to improve on it~~ based on her comments.. heheheee... see lah~~ her comments weight a lot to me~~ although she is not my reporting officer.

hahahaahaaaaa.. maybe is 我欠他的人情，所以我一直忘不了他。

不知不觉

哈哈！不知不觉， 我已经在我现在的公司做了一年多..

hahahaa.. . Realise that if i am type that in chinese, i will not be able to type finish this post in about 15 mins time. Wahahaaa.. :P

Last week, i did my performance review report. Hahhahaaa.. Guess what i get? Seriously i was hoping for a better grade, but it ended up having disappointment. Hahaha.. Recently, i been very close with my shifu. Sometimes i will just disturb her whenever i am in office. Heheheee.. Of cos she is like my da jiejie like that.. Hahaha.. She actually taught me a lot of stuffs but too bad last time in my ex-company, she only guide me a while. Of cos i am in deep trouble, she was the one who help me to tell others that. That is when my help came over to save me from that pile of shit. Instead of being pressure by a lot of people, i started to get attention from others that without help, i will die there. HAhahaa.. Pressure from users, bosses and dateline. Is a DAMN shitty job. But not to mention, maybe without encouragement from everyone, i doubt i can survive.. :P Hahahaa.. Shifu told me that my grade not too bad le, cos i am only being review for half a year. When i signed my letter, the lady already told me that everything will starts from when i signed that letter.

What my big boss told me was that i got what i had was because based on what i had contributed before i was being converted as well. Hahaha.. I saw my director comment. She said i need to build up my confident and i can try out others position. Does it means that if i show improvement, i will be promote one level up? Hahahaahaa.. Guess i must be dreaming right. Furthermore, my boss said that i dunno how to articulate things that i want to said. That is true. Seriously, i am not a person who are good at words. Normally i will just provoke people ba. Hahahaa.. Tat's why i dun have a lot of friends?

Hahahaa.. Last tuesday, i was very pissed off that my big boss only praise my colleague for the work that she put in to get things done. Hahahaa.. Then i went over to server room to hide.. wahahaa.. Opps.. Sounds like i am showing attitude, but of cos i got stuffs to do, that's why i go over, just that i go over earilier.. =p

Opps.. This coming Sat, my gd friend going aus for a month le~~ opps.. Without her.. can i still survive.. Normally i will sms her to complain/grumble~~ but hor~~ nvm~~ still got two persons.. Although both of them are attached, they will be there for me de hor~~ ahahaa

Last wk, i saw korkor's blog.. Erm.. Seriously, he had been very different since i know him when i am sec 1. Hahahaa.. Time Files~~ We used to be very closed but of cos now we are still good friends. Hahaha.. Korkor scold me before. When i need him, i will wish that he be there for me. When he needs me, he also cannot find me. Guess i am a selfish freak~~ Seriously, korkor.. You had been there for me whenever i am really down. Without you, that time i had already collaspe, would not move to be what i am now. I still remember, there is one night.. HAhaahaa.. Some stuffs happened.. I said i dun want to be friends with you. You call me immediately asked me what had happened.. Hahaha.. Tat day, u hear me cried like siao~~ hahahaa.. Before you go back, u handed me a packet of sweets telling me work hard for your o level, ok.. dun think too much..Hahahaaa.. What happened that day arh.. that makes me cry like mad.. Hahahaa.. Of cos is bcos of adults~~~ hahaahaa...

hahahaa.. Very Ridiculously hor~~ is when Korkor burst my voicemail, is when i met him. Wahahaha... These two nan ren arh~~ haiz~~ one of them i had lose him le~~ i should try to keep the other one hor~~ arbo, lose both of them.. How...

hahaahaa.. seriously i think i very thick-skinned leh~~ Min arh min.. He never loves you before.. When you had such a strong feelings with him, even now you still hopes to have him as a friend.. Yet pple is still so scare of you.. Hahaa.. Min, i thinks you are just being silly. When you had feelings with someone who don't loves you at all. Hahaahaa.. I also dunno why leh~~ is had bcome of habit or ? Haahahaa.. Erm, seriously now hor~~ i just wants to be friend with you. I just dun want to lose a good friend. I know both of us will not be together but i really wish to be friends with you. Bcos i feel that u are the person that i get opened up to talk with. Hahaaha.. You know lah.. Min dun have a lot of friends.. I just wants a few friends that are close can le~~ Hopes we still have a chance to be friends..

Oppss.. Min arh Min.. You are really damn thick-skinned leh~~ hahaahaa.. Is ok lah.. He will never know all these.. To him, i am just a passby person.. HAhaaa.. I scold you before~~ is my fault~~ Maybe.. Opps.. Should not said maybe.. Should said is i am the one being rude, tat's why i had lose this friendship~~ Hahaaa.. When we had our cold war, i never feel that pain.. Hahahaa.. Just like what jil said.. When u are away for one month, i cried one month.. HAahaa.. How come i dunno that u are so impt to me.. WHen i totally lose you, i feel so pain~~ You know why.. Let me tell you ba~~

HAahaahaa..

Korkor pull me out from O level. You had also heard me cried when i quarrel with him when i just met you. Hahaa.. You told me.. Dun cry le~~ everything will be ok de.. Hahaah... You two hor are the most important persons in my life leh~~ hahahaa.. Everytime helped me yet dun let me do something for both of you to express my gratitude.. Hahaahaa.. But as time goes, i had bcome closer with you than korkor.. Hahaha, i also dunno when i had fallen for you.. Wahahahaa.. The only time when my hp bill burst is becos of u lah... Hahaha.. I miss those simple days.. Maybe just like what brother told me.. You hor~~ belong to stupid woman where guys won't like de.. HAhahaaa.. =p

I scold you before yet i wish to be friend with you.. Very confusing right.. Hahahaa.. Maybe i am just trying to make myself feel better.. HAahhaa.. I dunno leh is because i dunno the reason why we were being apart for so far or ?

HAhaahaa.. 我讨厌你们lah.. 每一次，让我想起你们曾经为我这个傻瓜的事， 我都会哭了。。我真的很想念那段日子。。 可是一切都过去了。。 我还有korkor在。。 =)

HAhaahaa... Tell u all a truth ba~~ Hahahaaa.. I told jil before that i had forgotten about you. Hahahaa.. Maybe i am lying to myself ba~~ bcos you had a placed inside me le~~ hahahaa.. I know why i lose you.. Bcos i am just a wildful person.. A person who is extremely selfish.. Who scares to lose.. Who throws temper on you.. Who scold you when i dun need you.. who dun wants to change.. who is extremely selfish~ 6 years ago, i told u i want to go diet.. diet until dunno where le~~ even my the other gd friend slim down le~~ yet i did nothing.. Just like wat da jie said, i dun have any reputation.. What i said are always lies~~ Such a failure.... 我哪里配得起你这个朋友。。 你是一个笨笨的朋友。。 朋友有事，你一定会帮他。我知道那时你帮我是你相信我。可是你不知道应为这样，我也慢慢的爱上你了。我从小到大，我知道我是一支丑小鸭。我也没想过会有一个人会对我那么好。。 也应为这样，我在那里时，我好想您。哈哈。。 笨笨的。。 我以为丑小鸭终于有人要了，没想到适应为你对每个人都一样好。 我就那么笨的以为你就是我的真名天子了。。 哈哈。。 从失去你到现在，我以定要find一个比你好的男人。这样才对的起我自己吗。。 =)

sad week..

hahahaahaa.. sad week for me last week.. hahahaa... why.. .

erm.. exams flunk~~ hahaha.. surprising hor~~ hahahaahaa.. so sad..
but wat can i do... fail le already fail le.. there is nothing i can do.. now is time to work harder and make sure i pass it with flying colours..

jia you jia you~~ min u are no longer that weak right.. :x

being dumb~~

hahahaa.. being dumb~ i dunno hw to differentiate wat is love and wat is friendship~~~ hahahaaaa.. but i am happy to be with him~~ hahahaa.. but of cos to maintain as per our current situation~~ hahaaaa.. as friends.. lol..... :P i miss the memories i had with him over there.. lol... :P dunno why leh~~~ but we fated not to be together.


haahahaa.. so overall.. i am still single... wahahahaa.. :P

IRAS

hahahaa..

damn disappointed with the service tat they provided me.. hahaa.. is i understand the system works too well or is it bcos i am pissed off with the sum of amount that is being deducted. Hahahaa.. to be frank, i am just pissed off with the system on how it works. If you are telling me that, i had received a letter that the debts will be deducted through CPF. I will not be so pissed off. Hahaa.. What to do.. That's the way how government do things. Today morning i called in and talk to the officer. Haahaa.. She insisted that i had received the letter. The problem is hor~ Maybe she is too dumb or she pretended to be dumb, which a lot of people choose this method. Hahahaa.. :P If i had received the letter ages ago, why didn't i call in to ask about this matter or to clarify this method. Instead of now then i called in to ask about this matter. Haiz~~ I am utterly disappointed with the services that iras provides me. Are you trying to tell me there is a flaw in your system or CPF system or Sing Post, which lead us that we never received the letters from you? If you had tried to recovering the debts since 2006, why aren't we received any letters from any agencies regarding this matter? As stated inside IRAS website, the letter will only be send out to one owner even though the property is own by multiple owners. But the lady officer who i talk to said that we should received a remainder letter. Confusing right? Isn't there is a conflict between what you had said and with what you had indicated in your website?

First, i would like to said that this lady who i spoke to. Thinks that she is always right. How do i know that? I know you are sad that this sum of money is deducting from your dad's account. This is assumption, which is wrong. As a customer service officer, how can you make assumption? If what you said is correct, why i didn't i called in to iras since 2006, instead of wait until 2009? You said during these 3 years, IRAS had took multiple actions to recover the debts. But, it doesn't seems to work. It seems like IRAS is not reciprocate enough to recover the debts. Is only when CPF informed them, then they took the action to recover the sum money. CPF money is help Taxpayer or Singaporeans like us to tide through their retirement. Now it seems like CPF money is to repay other government agency, instead of for retirement.

For example, a poor guy worked for 55 years old. He only allowed to withdraw around 6k from his CPF account. Ended up, IRAS took 4.9k from him. Therefore he only left ard 1.1k. Is this enough for his retirement? Not at all. What about those people with bank account who are much more richer than him? The poor guy dun even had a bank account lor~~ hahaa... this poor guy destiny to be poor. Even government also dun let him off to have a little savings for his rainy days as he is getting older each year.

I am so disappointed rather than sad. So the customer officer, don't assume it when you don't know it. Don't act smart when you are not.

Career?

Hahahaaaa.. After i had changed company for 1 years plus, i attended a company event today. Pretty Surprise? I feel home over here. Hahaa.. :P But i need to brush up my communication skills and confidence plus my connection.

Erm, any regrets of joining yr current company? or thinking to change of career path or thinking of looking for a new job opportunities. Hahaa... At the moment, i guess nope. I am contented with what i had now. Sometimes dun be greedy; when you asked for more, for me: i will always fall down and hurt myself. Wahahahaa.... Seems like very pessmistic. Life is like a roller coaster, there is always ups and down, otherwise u will NEVER learn to cherish or to be contented with what you had in life.

Of cos, in every job, there is politics, depends on whether is it obvious or not obvious. But i guess i choose to ignore it. As for currently, i just hopes to finish my studies co-currently doing at a moderate standard of my work. But of cos, is not easy to handle, especially based on my mischievous character. Sometimes work too hard, i would like to go for a break. But the leave that i took every month, is making damn pai sei.. I will try to compensate whenever i am not schooling. Maybe my boss do not knows that sometimes i tend to work late to get my things completed. Just like when you reach office early, everybody will knows. When you are last person to left the office, nobody will knows. But i think my immediate supervisor knows that, sometimes i will work until very late. There are times he told me, "Don't always work until so late." Erm, as for pple who knows me when i am working at my previous company. I had a sulken face each time i come out with my brothers, and each time, i will drag them to sit down to chat and complain as much as i can. But now i cut down on my complain. Haahahaa.. Sometimes when you been through the rainy days, you will learn to grow a bit. Each time a rainy day come, is a challenge. Once you overcome the challenge, you will become stronger each time. I am still trying to learn to be stronger and independent. I know this path is hard but i believe my hao jie mei and my brothers will be at my side when i need them? hahaahaa.. :P

A Dream~~

Wahahahaa.. Korkor confirm will said me de.. u know hor~~ i dreamt of him calling me.. and in the end, i went to buy 4d.. TMD!!!!!! this 4 digits came out 1st price but i never strike~~ -_-''''' haiz~~~ cos the position incorrect.. haiz~~ no luck~~ is it bcos it will never happen to us.. he will nt call me.. whaahaha.. am i still missing him~~ or he had a placed in my heart.. maybe is used to have ba~~ now is no longer le~~

Let me dream of someone else better.. hahaa.. :P rather than "him"...

Erm.. one of my buddies having operation on monday~~ is a small operation.. everything will be fine~~ hopefully his feelings will be the same also ba~~

last wk, my colleague just had an operation.. now in the progress of recovering.. hehee.. she very sweet de.. sometimes she will make sushi and treat us eat.. but hor~~ she gt a lot of funny ideas~~ next time gt chance, take the photo of my plushies in office...

hahahaa.. of cos, exam is coming le~~ hopefully, i won't screw up this time~~ things will be better..

supposely, this weekend, i should be at KL!!!! my friend actually wanted to sponsor me air-tickets cum accomdation~~ hahaa..but hor~~ dunno.. just dun have the "trust" but hor~~ i should have trust her~~ erm.. actually maybe is nt abt trust ba~~ guess is bcos of my mum's hand~~ haiz~~ her hand getting worst~~~ maybe down the road, still haven recover~~ i will bring her to genting first~~ then persuade her to go for operation~~ cos... she can't hardly open her hand.. she can't take heavy stuffs~~ the doctor said is bcos of nerve.. is either go for operation or injection.. haiz~~ i actually also dun really know wat is happening~~ cos recently been busy with studies.. hadn't really spend time together with her and bring her to see doctor~~ haiz~~

My Good Friend...

hahaha.. I am happy for my good friend.. but luckily she never tell me on April Fool, otherwise i might take it as a joke. Hehee.. :P

Although i dun have siblings, dun have the joy to countdown to my baby niece or nephew.. But hor.. i will countdown to my gd friend's baby.. hahaha.. very dramatically, last time we are not so close.. ever since when we bcome so close arh.. hahaaha.. i also dunno leh.. :P

hahaa.. pple ard me are happily in relationship.. suddenly, i feel so lonely sia~~ hahaa.. maybe work and study can help me to wash away this feeling ba~~ maybe i really fated to be nun.. cos even now i am in a relationship hor~~ i also dunno hw to handle it.. most imptly.. my the other half must accept my brothers.. hahaa... they are my closest pals, include my this going to be mother.. :P

last weekend.. although i chionging my assignments, i still met up with my brothers they all.. heheee.. just a relaxing weekend with them... we had ichiban sushi and after that we went down to minds cafe~~ hahaa.. this is the first time, i been there wor~~ heheee.. :P not bad~~ quite fun.. :P

i didn't know there is an escalator near the museum there.. surprising right.. haahahaaa.. :P i realise that a lot of couples like to go museum to pa toh.. why arh? hahaa.. i am not there to pa toh..just happen to pass by there.....

Complex feelings~~~

Hahahaa.. I met my gd friend for a drink. Two crazy women bought 2 cans of beer go sit at the beach there and talk. Hahahaa.. She asked me about how's my relationship life. Erm.. this is a question that i dun really know how to answer. Not bcos i am in relationship that i dun dare to let pple know. Is i am in such a dilemma situation which i dun even know wat i really wants deep inside me. Of cos, we did talk abt the past that i had. Hahaha.. Surprising that i can be so opened. I guess i did change a bit? I reached home around 3am in the morning ba~~ I got another surprise was she gave me a guess bag for xmas exchange.. OMG!!!! no matter how much it is, guess is the tots that count ba~~ hahaha.. u know hor~~ she sometimes really very sweet..

sat, of cos i had a very shag look to go school, especially i slept at 4 plus, while i had to wake up at 9 to go for lesson. There are times that i struggled to go to school. In the end, i still drag myself to school. After my lesson, i went to parkway there to have lunch with my ex-colleague. Erm... Out of my surprise, i met nanny!!!! OMG!!!! i think hor, i had never met up with him about 2 years? hahaha.. i had a super shag look on my face.. that i just said a hi to him while we crossing the road. But i gave him a call to apologise to him, cos i am really tired. Furthermore, i am going jurong point at nite to meet my dearest brothers... haha.. i reached home ard 2plus but hor~~ i knocked out at 3 plus and i overslept~~ luckily one of my brothers going to be late.. :P otherwise i think i dun need to go le~~ they will come over to my house to wake me up.. haha.. we talked quite a bit~~ tat day was a treat from me to them.. haha.. :P although brother wanted to pay, in the end still i pay.. haha.. u know hor~~ we talked abt all sort of rubbish.. haha.. of cos talked abt my past also.. which makes me dreamt of him on tat nite.. So stupid sia~~ i was sad when i heard he and his gf had been together for one year.. OMG!!! i already let go, how come i still got this stupid dream.. :X

Sunday, my brothers they all came over to my house. Haha.. :P one left early bcos need to pick up his gf. While another one stayed until 6pm.. :P Ard 7pm, i went out with my parents to have dinner. Erm.. I treated them for dinner at xiao dian er, since they never been there before. How can daughter enjoy her life always? of cos once in a while need to share my parents right.. :P Act filial or really filial.. it is up to individual to think, as long as i know the answer myself can already.

haha.. during cny second day, my maternal grandmother asking me a question which i dunno how to answer leh.. :X erm.. she asked me to bring my bf and let her see. I said wait until i find one then i bring him and let her see. Her reply is damn cute.. "When you bring him back, i already eat salted egg." ....... "No lah~~ won't lah~~" haha... is she trying to hint me that my expectation is too high or i nobody wants~~ hahaha.. :P i dunno leh.. let fate decides for me ba~~ Erm.. if one day she really in a crucial state, guess i will ask someone to help me to solve this problem.. lie to her and make her goes happily? Am i being cruel? I just want to make a white lie and let her go happily.. Hopefully, someone will help me to do that.. haha.. who will be that someone.. i dunno sia~~ see, by then who will be my closest friend plus provided his gf won't mind.. .

recently i think i kana ban in someone's gf list. Opps.. I better stop message him, otherwise nextime we meet up for dinner.. it doesn't going to look good? haha.. my friend said... u lah.. always msg him.. erm.. no lah.. maybe once a wk? or nt even once a wk?

i like this weekend.. can hide away all unhappiness in work.. cos i feel happy that i still got friends ard me when i need them.. :P

Screwed up at work~~

haiz~~ nowadays had been quite screwed up at work.. is either too careless or do something wrong.. hahahaa.. and i always go against my big boss.. Opps.. he will be the one who determine my bonus.. :X haiz~~ this year gt bonus or not also a big problem, since now everywhere is retrenching.. as long as i can keep my job, i should be happy, right... dun ask for too much... haiz~~

recently i got talked to him.. maybe i grumble a bit abt my work and studies.. haha.. dunno leh.. i think bcos he always reply me with caring.. makes me hor~~ so scare i will fall again.. haiz~~

work not doing well + studies not doing well + relationship also not handling in the correct way... haiz~~ i also dunno..

tiring week~~~

Hahahaa.. What had i been doing for the past one whole week? Nowadays, i starts school le.. of cos i had become more and more busy. Furthermore this module is mainly on english~~ omg~~ tat is something i am damn weak at it, especially i still need to write essay for it. -_-'''' i hoped i can pass ba~~~

Last week, i did a lot of stupid stuff sia~~ I met up with korkor and his partner.. haha.. they brought me to mandarin oriental hotel lounge there for drinks.. haha.. damn high class hor? so unlike me sia~~ such high class places not really suit me ba~~ maybe based of my character, furthermore i am so clumsy..

Sat, i went out with my mum n my friend to buy cny's clothes. Something weird happened on tat day. Someone sms me to ask for a loan, furthermore the loan that she requested from me is consider quite a big sum of money for me. Erm, i just make payments for my school fees, how to provide loan for others? Guess she really look for the wrong person. How come she come and borrow money from a poor student? It is such a big joke sia. If i am so rich enough, i will not ought to study part-time. I will go for full-time studies. Cos currently seems like i am pretty screwed up in my studies and work. Hopefully, my boss not going to kill me soon ba~~ News everyday mentioning abt retrenchment.. Seriously, i start to scare whether will it happen to me or not. Time to make plans during rainy day ba~~~ my job won't be stable as wat others thing cos mainly it will be based on performance. Guess my performance is the bottom last, but i will try my best to muggle my studies and work.

At Night, i went out with friends. I met up with my friend at mustafa first bcos he wanted to get a new hp, samsung pixon. Wah lau.. he damn rich lor~~ keep changing phone.. :X heheheee.. finally persuade him not to eat sushi tei.. :P He met up with my another friend also.. hahah.. bcos i am meeting her for ktv.. :P it had been ages that i had been to ktv sia~~ luckily is cheap on that day.. :P haha.. my friend and her bf and brother came over to join us.. Wow~~ first time met her bf's brother sia~~ looks damn young lor~~ haha... later at nite, they send me home.. :P heng~~

Sunday, i went to do hair with my colleague~~ :P supposely to meet up with brothers they all.. but ended up.. i am really too tired...

haha.. today got someone msg me.. abt him and his gf.. haha.. surprisingly.. i dun feel anything when he told me wat happened.. hopefully both of them will be ok~~ dun think so much..

静静的一个星期。。。

这几天我过着一个很平静，也想了很多。。 如果人生能这么简单该多好，可是往往都不会是这样的。。 在星期五，我拿了一天的假期， 去了马拉西亚走了一回。我好久都没有陪妈妈出去走一走。。我知道从下星期开始，我又要过着一个忙碌的一年了。 休息了三个礼拜，又是开学的时候了。

心理有点痛痛的。。 哈哈。。 我想到好多以前的事情。。 其实hor.. 可能我真的喜欢他那么深，只是我有一点放不下吧。。他很疼我，每天都听我唠叨，诉苦，所以让我习惯的被人疼得感觉，可是一切并没有持续很久。好像一切都是我一厢情愿的吧。其实对感情这回事，我已经不想去想了。有了好，没有也算了吧！

在这新的一年，我希望能减肥成功，并不是为了要赢我的好友。。 只是我觉得我堕落了好久，是时候为自己做一点事。 我好像从来都没有为我自己打算以下。。 不应该这么stubborn.

这几年我也想清楚，有一段时间我真的很气他，一切都过去了。。你hor， 让我学会了很多事情，我也学会坚强了许都。。谢谢您。。 :)

我也学会了一件事，不要爱上你的好朋友。我因为爱上我的好朋友而失去了一个很要好的好朋友。 如果每有他，我相信有很多难关我都挨不下去。 其实你离开了我也是一间好事，让我有一个理由难过伤心，也有个机会让我自己知道自己的酒量到底有多好。哈哈！！ 从以前开始我说过我要学会珍惜身边的一切， 可是那一次和他分开后，我并没有应为那时的事情而变得成熟，而却是应为你我学会了珍惜。

哈哈！！ 真好笑， 这几年我都过着一个很愚蠢的生活，希望新的一年我会学的变得更聪明，在事业与学业能够兼顾的好。不要向以前一样，胡里胡涂的过日子。

在这一年，我希望我不要依赖brothers们那么多。以一个woman的直觉，每有一个woman希望自己的男朋友和他的好朋友那么好吧。。 谁不会吃醋的阿！！ 哈哈！！ 这证明了一样事，我是一个醋坛子。 :)

Had been very busy recently~~

Hahaa... i overslept on my gd friend's wedding. Hopefully tat day, 我不时很失态吧！！我好像说错话了。 yy, you are so pretty that day.. hehee.. 我会加油的， 赢到我的台湾机票！！看齐来我已经决定我明年要去台湾了。。 会去的成功吗? 明年就有答案了。

haha.. during that week, i was on two days of mc and one day of leave. No choice, i had to go back to work on sunday when she was having her dinner.. :X I rushed to parkway to get a birthday gift for her which i saw it a few days ago.. hahaa.. :P should had bought it earilier hor.. otherwise i won't be that late.. Hahaha.. guess i looks a bit weird that nite.. looks like a kiddy sia~~ haha..

after tat week.. wat did i do arh.. erm.. let me think.. i cannot recall of anyting~~~ orh~~ i went to changi airport to do my assignment after my lesson. when i reached home is ard 9plus am~~ super shag hor~~ take a nap le.. then my uncle came over to my house and said something happened to my auntie~~ haiZ~~~ i..................... at nite, i went to meet up with my poly friends.. lol.. had my dinner at waraku pasta.. once a while gathering.. still consider not bad ba~~ as when u gets old, everyone started to have their different life, is hard to have a gathering session. haiz~~ sob sob.. seems like i am eagerly to find one now~~ haha.. i also dunno... maybe just like my korkor said de.. i too long never been in love le.. i had lose the way how to love someone le.. or so called i dunno how to cherish pple. guess is still better to stay low profile.. once in a while, i got friends asked me out can le~~~ hear me su ku.. complain can le~~ dun need always i entertain them.. haha.. :P
Sunday, i met my brothers.. haha.. my friend called me out, i asked her to join us together.. hehee.. after we bought the tickets hor~~ brother said he is going to treat me.. :P so nice of him~~ treat me eat... wahahaa.. i stole his phone.. still got free meals.. not bad hor... hahaa.. :P my brothers arh.. they are like that de.. treat me like a male de.. haiz~~ of cos i kept quiet to my friend that he actually treating me~~ otherwise very weird leh~~~

last wk... was a wk of chionging assignment.. chiong until like mad woman.. skips lunch, no lunching outside.. stay in office.. everyday sleeps 3-5 hours.. sob sob.. complexion getting worst.. haiz~~ luckily nowadays never met up with korkor.. otherwise he sure kp abt me.. he sure said u sure nobody wants le.. hahaaha.. i know this is the truth le.. :X 我应经看开了`。。。 lol.. :P

My friend got her bonus le~~ haha.. she treats me kushinbo.. hehee.. i kept quiet in front of another friend also.. paiseh~~~ go eat together mah.. after tat we went to watch Madagascar.. then i took a bus home.. hahaa.. my another gd friend asked me to go clubbing.. i super shag le~~ where got energy to go clubbing.. in the end, i miss a chance to meet up with a yandao.. sob sob.. :'( based on wat she said arh.. tat guy very yandao leh.. cos she seldom will said guys yandao de.. hahaa.. she is a chio bu wor~~ of cos her taste for guys is higher..

Sunday, i went to loreal fair.. haha.. bought some stuffs.. of cos 大少爷complain that i am always late.. Ask me to learn punctuality.. sob sob.. :( dun he knows bcos of late.. i lose someone.. hahaha.. but everything over le.. no point to mention it again le...