Out of the suddenly i miss him

hahaaha... i guess it had been more than 8 yrs that we ever talk.... within 8 yrs, he got his career and a family yet i got nothing... plus my dearest granny also left me... Maybe if he is with me last year, he will understand how i feel? I always think that he is the only one that understand me very well and he will be the prefect one for me. But i should know, who am i ? How would be possible that he will like me? Within these 8 years, he got almost everything which i don't have. Somehow i really feel very jealous of his wife.. But i am nobody towards him.. how could he be possible still remember me... why i so foolish that till now, i still haven forget about him. Is it because i haven met someone tat can replace him? Min arh Min.. You are just an ugly duckling... forget him ba... he had never place you in his heart before... NEVER!!!