古巨基_-_爱得太迟
a song recommend by someone..
男:我过去
抱紧她
早晚共对
到了扎职以后
自觉太累
而即使相约到
亦无言共对
疏淡如水
女:我过去
也只因
工作万岁
我爱侣极介意
跟他比对
而最怕再奋斗
做强人下去
有哪个能追
男:最心痛是
爱得太迟
女:有心倾诉
不可等某个日子
男:盲目地发奋
忙忙忙其实自私
合:梦中也习惯
有压力要我得志
女:谁会在意
谁会及时
男:只差一秒
心声都已变历史
合:忙极亦放肆
见我爱见的相知
要抱要吻要怎么也好
男:偏要推说等下一次
男:我最爱
等不到
早已别去
却发觉心太累
没有眼泪
穷一生
想再追
但难寻旧爱
都似独居
女:我也怕
习惯了
不靠伴侣
谁和谁又约我
一一婉拒
难碰上
我最爱
便独立下去
却怕有人催
男:错失太易
爱得太迟
女:怎么补救
心中的刺永在此
男:盲目地发奋
忙忙忙从来未知
合:幸福会掠过
再也没法说钟意
女:忘记上次
唯有及时
男:只差一秒
心声都已变历史
合:为何未放肆
见我爱见的相知
要抱要吻要怎么也好
男:不要相信一切有下次
女:珍惜我所爱又花几多秒
这几秒
男:能够做到又有多少
女:虽一秒
男:未算少
合:足够遗憾望掉
男:多少抱撼(女:不要)
多少过路人(女:抖震)
几多相爱
合:几多相处了又分
男:人人在发奋
想起他朝都兴奋
合:但今晚未过
我要过也很吸引
女:能吻便吻
谁也是人
男:理想很远
爱于咫尺却在等
合:来日别操心
趁我有能力相亲
世界有太多东西发生
男:不要等到天上拥吻
女:天空海阔谁与你俯瞰
Saturday, September 23, 2006
Monday, September 18, 2006
erm.. dunno when.. my life start to get happening again.. dunno when.. i start to have the feeling tat is time to forget him.. dunno when.. i think i am getting on with me.. but guess i had for someone who i can't fall with.. or... maybe is a crush.. this kind of feeling will fade away very easily?
guess three weeks ago.. my life is revolving between work and still work.. currently i am back to the state tat on my desk, i am being piled up with tons and tons of work plus i had to deal with a two months backlog which was being accumlated before i took over from someone else. Guess from there onwards, my life had been really terrible and sad with these pile of work.. sigh~~ when can this all end? can i leave when contract ends? or whether i will renew? last time korkor kept complaining that it had been quite a while when i meet up with him.. is it bcos of this job, i lose this friend or bcos i dun make the effort to meet up with him? but i guess alot of pple i haven't meet up with or catch up with.. if pple ard me should understand well how my work does an impact to my social life. just like when my friend want to borrow a cd from me, she took months and months just to take the cd from me. And whenever she meet up with me for dinner.. she will be waiting for me at the mrt station for more than half an hour. guess almost everyone knew that i am a super workalcholic during weekdays and when it comes to weekend, sometimes i might be too lazy to go out and rot at hm for two days.. usually weekend is very short.. just to let my friends know.. my working hours had been hitting 16 hours a day which is causing me to lose contact with you all.. hopefully, you all will be able to forgive me for tat part..
More on my work.. When i start to join this company, they are in testing phase. And when it is moving towards production. Stuffs get harder and tougher, sort of like standby make sure things won't go wrong at the very last min when it is going to be on live.. As for now, being live, doesn't make me feel proud of anything due to i gt to do something which is very different with wat i does half year ago. Therefore, a big changes had come to life, furthermore i am dealing with live, if anything goes wrong i will have to responsible for it. Dun dare to deny, taking up this job i feel so stress that i burst into tears when i first took over from the guy. Do you know how tuff i feel?? I went to office at 9.30 and i left office at 3am in the morning.. hw i feel during the weekend? terrible till i dun feel like going anywhere, just to rot at home..
as for the last 3 weekend, once or twice in a week, i had been working for more than 12 hours.. it lead to my health a bit haywire.. furthermore, my boss tender.. i feel more stress.. cos i might land up with be the only to do support for 200 plus of reports which i dun even know the details for it.. sob sob.. ~~~ hopefully me and tat new guy can work out a way but we are doing different stuffs. As for datastage is a totally new program that i learn.. i dun even know how to debug, guess i am stuggling to survive in the swimming pool.. and complaning to my colleagues.. Normally, i won't be the only one to be in office till tat late.. always got one female colleague accompany... sometimes we did something funny is to call mac delivery at late nite.. hahaa.. :P
conclusion for last 3 weeks..
1) watched two movies - Devil wear prada with nanny.
John Tucker must die with yy, g, ant
2) Merchant court high tea with my poly friend
3) Agite and Thai Express with my colleagues
4) Bintain Trip with my ex-team mates.. hahaha.. i think i almost drunk.. imagine..
wednesday, i work till 3.. thursday, i work till 2.. and friday, i slept at 1 plus.. and sat, i woke up at 6.. i fell asleep on the sofa in bintain.. and sun, i woke up at 6 to catch the first ferry to come back to sg.. shag week~~~
5) A vegetarian restuarant - team lunch (is free~~~)
guess three weeks ago.. my life is revolving between work and still work.. currently i am back to the state tat on my desk, i am being piled up with tons and tons of work plus i had to deal with a two months backlog which was being accumlated before i took over from someone else. Guess from there onwards, my life had been really terrible and sad with these pile of work.. sigh~~ when can this all end? can i leave when contract ends? or whether i will renew? last time korkor kept complaining that it had been quite a while when i meet up with him.. is it bcos of this job, i lose this friend or bcos i dun make the effort to meet up with him? but i guess alot of pple i haven't meet up with or catch up with.. if pple ard me should understand well how my work does an impact to my social life. just like when my friend want to borrow a cd from me, she took months and months just to take the cd from me. And whenever she meet up with me for dinner.. she will be waiting for me at the mrt station for more than half an hour. guess almost everyone knew that i am a super workalcholic during weekdays and when it comes to weekend, sometimes i might be too lazy to go out and rot at hm for two days.. usually weekend is very short.. just to let my friends know.. my working hours had been hitting 16 hours a day which is causing me to lose contact with you all.. hopefully, you all will be able to forgive me for tat part..
More on my work.. When i start to join this company, they are in testing phase. And when it is moving towards production. Stuffs get harder and tougher, sort of like standby make sure things won't go wrong at the very last min when it is going to be on live.. As for now, being live, doesn't make me feel proud of anything due to i gt to do something which is very different with wat i does half year ago. Therefore, a big changes had come to life, furthermore i am dealing with live, if anything goes wrong i will have to responsible for it. Dun dare to deny, taking up this job i feel so stress that i burst into tears when i first took over from the guy. Do you know how tuff i feel?? I went to office at 9.30 and i left office at 3am in the morning.. hw i feel during the weekend? terrible till i dun feel like going anywhere, just to rot at home..
as for the last 3 weekend, once or twice in a week, i had been working for more than 12 hours.. it lead to my health a bit haywire.. furthermore, my boss tender.. i feel more stress.. cos i might land up with be the only to do support for 200 plus of reports which i dun even know the details for it.. sob sob.. ~~~ hopefully me and tat new guy can work out a way but we are doing different stuffs. As for datastage is a totally new program that i learn.. i dun even know how to debug, guess i am stuggling to survive in the swimming pool.. and complaning to my colleagues.. Normally, i won't be the only one to be in office till tat late.. always got one female colleague accompany... sometimes we did something funny is to call mac delivery at late nite.. hahaa.. :P
conclusion for last 3 weeks..
1) watched two movies - Devil wear prada with nanny.
John Tucker must die with yy, g, ant
2) Merchant court high tea with my poly friend
3) Agite and Thai Express with my colleagues
4) Bintain Trip with my ex-team mates.. hahaha.. i think i almost drunk.. imagine..
wednesday, i work till 3.. thursday, i work till 2.. and friday, i slept at 1 plus.. and sat, i woke up at 6.. i fell asleep on the sofa in bintain.. and sun, i woke up at 6 to catch the first ferry to come back to sg.. shag week~~~
5) A vegetarian restuarant - team lunch (is free~~~)
Saturday, September 02, 2006
My sentosa trip before i go genting and kl...
Scenery of Sentosa
Sentosa Tram
Nothing to do while waiting for the guys to finish their skyride and lupe..
Saw this sandcastle before we going cannoing..
Chocolate pot in tiong bahru after sentosa trip
Trying to melt the chocolate
Durian ice cream.. bagus!!! : )
yummy.. delicious.. :P
Scenery of Sentosa
Sentosa Tram
Nothing to do while waiting for the guys to finish their skyride and lupe..
Saw this sandcastle before we going cannoing..
Chocolate pot in tiong bahru after sentosa trip
Trying to melt the chocolate
Durian ice cream.. bagus!!! : )
yummy.. delicious.. :P
erm.. so fast.. another two weeks passed le, my contract going to end soon. will i be able to extend? or i be able to renew contract? Although i grumble a lot abt this job, i can admit that this job pay is quite high. I might not be able find this pay outside the market. Or either tat i might nt be able to go out with my colleagues after work? or nobody to accompany me for lunch time? As from long time ago, i knew that i am nt tat independent as wat other pple tot of. I can't do things alone, always want pple to accompany. No matter is shopping, gym, sports activities, oversea trip or even lunch. I just can't make myself to survive on my own. why? alone? lonely? Or maybe i feel that human tends to like to have a companion. Why does pple tend to or yearn to step into a relationship? For my opinion, bcos we all yearns to get protect or protect others to show that u are strong. When you are down, you will hope to find a hand reaching out there to hold you and make sure u won't get hurt. Humans are selfish, they want to find a shelter and someone who will be there when they need it. That's why pple wants to step into a relationship. Long long time ago when i am still studying sec 4 ba, i met D. He asked me a question, between friends and bf, who will you choose? My answer to him was FRIENDS!! Am i very silly to make this decision? As recalled back, i remember i asked my friend about this question. She answer me the same thing and she told me that the guy who she love, asked her the same thing. hai~~~maybe we scarficed our relationship to maintain a friendship but ended the friendship also turn sour and just that everyone is trying very hard to save it. Whether it can be save or not, all depend on the person herself.
My life seems to be only revolving between work, work and work.. I planned to work and study at the same time. Am i trying to be very silly? Maybe i just want to keep myself busy instead of give myself more free time to think of something else. My life is no longer that happening as wat was in the past. Last time, might go clubbing with ester they all or drinking session with some friends.. guess i had stopped drining for quite a while.. or maybe bcos pple ard me seldom drink, tat's why stopped me for drinking.. but i can't deny tat my friend, mr bulldog, asking me to join he and his friends for drinking session.. haha.. but i keep rejecting..
Last two weeks, nothing much happened at all. I did not meet nanny on his birthday due to i got a bad cold. I fall sick immediately after the last post. Took one day of mc and stopped all medication. Don't know how i recover from my illness by stopping eating medicine? Or maybe next time i should not eat medicine, therefore i can recovered faster?
Last wk, i got ard 6 birthdays.... Although i miss nanny birthday, sat i went for two birthday celebration. One was with my poly friends, it was at suntec city sizzler. My friend gave us a treat, from her, i get to know that one of my poly friend got married at the age of 24. Furthermore, he is a guy.. Can you believe it? His wedding was in indonesia and his wife is a bit older than him. Ard evening, i met my secondary friends. Sort of there are abt 3 birthday boys there and another birthday boy was in hospital. They went to swensen at marina square, i did not had another meal there but ate free ice-cream by my gd friend.. lol.. :P Sad to said that the two girls who i am close with are not there. I was sort like alone there, although there is another girl there, i am not very close with her. We did not even said hi.. see lah.. so jialat.. hai~~ but lucky.. my gay friends all there.. i tend to hide between g and anton.. lol.. : P They keep me accompany throughout the whole nite. When they go play game, me and g went for coffee. We had a short chat but i realised that i dun understand as wat i had for other.. He seems like changes a lot.. Just when we walking towards the train station, we all lost each other.. haha.. split into different grp.. When i preparing to board the train, kelvin stopped me and anton. Ended up, we did not went home. We went to cafe cartel, actually we want to go haagan daz, maybe bcos evening time i keep saying i want to go haagan daz but anton thinks that is too ex.. in the end, we went to cafe cartel to have another round of drink. From there i can see my friend happiness, haha.. yy.. in case u know.. i will keep as a secret.. will not mention i saw whose face having happiness.. bcos we promised watever was said at that nite will not go out of it.. he was happily on the phone while me and the guy walked aimlessly.. Now i finally understand last time i was on the phone with XX, while i left my friends walking aimlessly.. but lucky still got someone else accompany me.. From him, i saw the past of me, how happily i am to be with XX.. How i am being protected by him ba? We encouraged him to confess but he said maybe not. Guess maybe i got a very bad experience, tat's why i asked him to confess it rather than next time he might get hurt. As for the chalet, i challenged both of them to bring there gfs. Erm? Am i being very bad? Erm? Am i considered single now? I dunno whether i am being attached or i am single? So far yet so near? My relationship was in a mess. Of cos, they send me a challenge was to bring my bf there? hahaha.. :P Nanny asked me wat i wan for birthday. I had the same answer as i told yy. I want a DIAMOND.. i am being too gready le ba.. HAHAHA!~~! Seriously, i want nothing bcos most of the stuffs i can get by myself.. Or i just want a simple life? Saw how my colleagues was so happy in her relationship.. i am so happy for her.. and tat's why i yearn to have the same feeling also.. but guess till now i still can't accept any relationship.. cos.. i am still not very stable to accept it. I am utlimately sorry if i rejected anything.
As for the chalet, of cos my gd friend challenge me... He wants me to get drunk on tat day... haha.. i hopefully i will get drunk also.. and the pain inside me might just fade away.. and can accept reality and not keep staying in my neverland. Although i am yearn to go to the chalet, if i couldn't be normal tat day.. Guess the best is i will not attend it.. i dun wish to spolit the fun..
Anyway next weekend, i will be leaving singapore for a short trip again..
My life seems to be only revolving between work, work and work.. I planned to work and study at the same time. Am i trying to be very silly? Maybe i just want to keep myself busy instead of give myself more free time to think of something else. My life is no longer that happening as wat was in the past. Last time, might go clubbing with ester they all or drinking session with some friends.. guess i had stopped drining for quite a while.. or maybe bcos pple ard me seldom drink, tat's why stopped me for drinking.. but i can't deny tat my friend, mr bulldog, asking me to join he and his friends for drinking session.. haha.. but i keep rejecting..
Last two weeks, nothing much happened at all. I did not meet nanny on his birthday due to i got a bad cold. I fall sick immediately after the last post. Took one day of mc and stopped all medication. Don't know how i recover from my illness by stopping eating medicine? Or maybe next time i should not eat medicine, therefore i can recovered faster?
Last wk, i got ard 6 birthdays.... Although i miss nanny birthday, sat i went for two birthday celebration. One was with my poly friends, it was at suntec city sizzler. My friend gave us a treat, from her, i get to know that one of my poly friend got married at the age of 24. Furthermore, he is a guy.. Can you believe it? His wedding was in indonesia and his wife is a bit older than him. Ard evening, i met my secondary friends. Sort of there are abt 3 birthday boys there and another birthday boy was in hospital. They went to swensen at marina square, i did not had another meal there but ate free ice-cream by my gd friend.. lol.. :P Sad to said that the two girls who i am close with are not there. I was sort like alone there, although there is another girl there, i am not very close with her. We did not even said hi.. see lah.. so jialat.. hai~~ but lucky.. my gay friends all there.. i tend to hide between g and anton.. lol.. : P They keep me accompany throughout the whole nite. When they go play game, me and g went for coffee. We had a short chat but i realised that i dun understand as wat i had for other.. He seems like changes a lot.. Just when we walking towards the train station, we all lost each other.. haha.. split into different grp.. When i preparing to board the train, kelvin stopped me and anton. Ended up, we did not went home. We went to cafe cartel, actually we want to go haagan daz, maybe bcos evening time i keep saying i want to go haagan daz but anton thinks that is too ex.. in the end, we went to cafe cartel to have another round of drink. From there i can see my friend happiness, haha.. yy.. in case u know.. i will keep as a secret.. will not mention i saw whose face having happiness.. bcos we promised watever was said at that nite will not go out of it.. he was happily on the phone while me and the guy walked aimlessly.. Now i finally understand last time i was on the phone with XX, while i left my friends walking aimlessly.. but lucky still got someone else accompany me.. From him, i saw the past of me, how happily i am to be with XX.. How i am being protected by him ba? We encouraged him to confess but he said maybe not. Guess maybe i got a very bad experience, tat's why i asked him to confess it rather than next time he might get hurt. As for the chalet, i challenged both of them to bring there gfs. Erm? Am i being very bad? Erm? Am i considered single now? I dunno whether i am being attached or i am single? So far yet so near? My relationship was in a mess. Of cos, they send me a challenge was to bring my bf there? hahaha.. :P Nanny asked me wat i wan for birthday. I had the same answer as i told yy. I want a DIAMOND.. i am being too gready le ba.. HAHAHA!~~! Seriously, i want nothing bcos most of the stuffs i can get by myself.. Or i just want a simple life? Saw how my colleagues was so happy in her relationship.. i am so happy for her.. and tat's why i yearn to have the same feeling also.. but guess till now i still can't accept any relationship.. cos.. i am still not very stable to accept it. I am utlimately sorry if i rejected anything.
As for the chalet, of cos my gd friend challenge me... He wants me to get drunk on tat day... haha.. i hopefully i will get drunk also.. and the pain inside me might just fade away.. and can accept reality and not keep staying in my neverland. Although i am yearn to go to the chalet, if i couldn't be normal tat day.. Guess the best is i will not attend it.. i dun wish to spolit the fun..
Anyway next weekend, i will be leaving singapore for a short trip again..
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