Hehehe.. :P

Next year holiday trip

hahaa...Fix destination for next year will be Taiwan.. hahahaa.. I had a bet with brother.. lol.. :P if i manage to slim down by next year.. one free air ticket to taiwan.. lol.. :P

i had another agreement with niao niao wor~~ if we both manage to shed away extra fats.. next year, we will all go taiwan to celebrate my next year birthday.. :P

hahaha.. i must determine to do it.. :P

Min.. JIA YOU!! cannot lose this bet wor~~

Birthday Celebration

hahaa.. i had a very very very tired birthday celebration..

guess i wondering izzit bcos i am so stress up with studies and work.. tat's why i dun enjoy it.. hahaha.. i also dunno.. or bcos there aren't any surprises?

I starts my birthday celebration on friday nite.. after my lesson, i went to vivocity to meet niao niao.. haha.. she very poor thing leh.. waiting for us till late nite.. luckily got her colleague accompany her, otherwise she will curse and swear at us. lol.. :P we had our dinner at terra cafe while waiting for da jie to join us.. hehe.. da jie joined us at 11plus then we headed down to clarke quay. sad to said, most of the pubs that we wants to go, all were quite packed. Actually i wanted to go pump room, too bad, too crowded. So we went back to iguana, same place as last year. :) so sweet hor, da jie they all always accompanied me to celebrate my birthday. haha.. guess they knows i dun have a lot of friends.. :P As usual kiddo haven grown up, haiz~~ Among three of us, although i am not the youngest yet i am the most kiddo de. 1 years older le, yet i still haven grown up. sian~ hope next year, i still can have my birthday celebration with da jie they all, and this time i will be much more mature. Guess da jie that day was deadbeat, she worked until 11plus. Then still need to entertain me till 1 plus.. hehe.. :P da jie and niao niao so wei da.. lol.. :P

Sat, went to school for lesson. Sob sob.. :( no mood sia~~ haiz~~ tired plus sian~~ no choice lah.. pay school fees le, still can dun want to go meh? plus i study to get a degree, in order i can support my parents next time. haiz~ can give up meh? dun study , cannot get a good pay, then next time how can i support them? After school, got a call from kelvin... lol.. :P end of up quarreling bcos of timing for bbq.. too busy le lah~~

Meet Edmund for dinner before he fled back to aus. Haha.. although he came back for four days hor~~ he still meets me for dinner.. hehe.. so good.. :P sweet sia~~ lol.. i knows him for too long le.. :P

After dinner.. meet kelvin they all to look at the bbq food.. haha.. when he first met me, face super black lor~ haha.. :P ended up.. we went to have dinner at food court, followed by sashimi.. yummy.. my favourite sashimi swordfish.. :P, and dessert at swensen.. haha..

Ard 11plus, i went back home to change.. haha.. I went st james with my friends plus my brothers they all.. lol... :P so ke lian~~ they need to entertain me till 3 plus.. haha.. furthermore my friend's bf need to work at 8am the next day.. lol.. :P

I slept ard 5plus lor~~ sob sob.. :(

erm.. early in the morning, kelvin called me to go downstair and pick up food.. haiz~~ not enuff sleep sia~~

haiz~~ i also dunno leh.. dun really happy during the bbq.. i also dunno..

is bcos i am too tired? or bcos i am too sian ? or ?????

on the way back, i kept very quiet wor~~ haha.. brother very sweet.. he called me when he received my msg.. i told him i wasn't happy for this year birthday~~ he called to concern for me.. haha.. after hand up the phone.. i wanted to sms him to tell him.. haha.. dun let me rely on u.. but ended up, i never send.. :X

SO tired.. now need to chiong for assignment.. hopefully both of them will support me till the end.. :P

hahaa.. my colleague also very sweet.. hehe.. she said if i got any problems for my assignment.. i can ask her.. she will be guiding me.. hehee.. :P

Tired

Haiz~~
nowadays very busy.. got a lot of things to be handle.. haiz~~

1) School starts already
2) Work getting more and more
3) Assignment date due next week..
4) BBQ this sunday
5) My best friend's wedding coming soon..

hahaa.. seriously.. nowadays i see so many pple ard me having care and dotes by their bfs.. i feels so envy sia~~ haiz~~ maybe i dun have the destiny to find the one yet ba~~

last sat, i went ktv with a niao niao.. haha.. her bf's very sweet wor.. waited for her till late nite when she goes home.. then when she sings, she will call him and let him listen.. wow... sweet hor~~ miss my old past.. where got someone waits for me to reach home.. haiz~~

其实我又开始迷失我的方向了

不懂为什么最静越来越喜欢用华语来述说我的心。当我觉得我有迷失我的方向时，我一点多不觉得很奇怪。为什么，我又有了这种感觉？是不是因为，我周围的人都得到爱他们的人或者都遇到疼爱她们的人， 而我还是一个人走在这个人上吗？其实自己的人生道路并不比那些在生命边界徘徊的人来的痛苦。我想开一点不是没事了吗？可是，是我不懂得珍惜过他吗？为什么我动不动又再想起他？是我还没放手吗？ 还是我一直以来都不懂我自己要的是什么？其实，时间都过了那么久，我真的没放过手吗？ 还是我根本不懂得什么是爱？我有没有伤过人或者是他吗？其实，我也不知道。 很可能，他现在已经是别人的爸爸了，我还在这里不知道该如何是好？哈哈，我真的觉得自己很傻，也很愚笨，笨到不懂极点。

我可以不可以醒来，真的要那么愚笨的过我的人生吗？我已经傻傻的过了要到24年了，在这么过下去，我会得到我的幸福吗？ 虽然别人总说傻人有傻福。。 哈哈！！！！ 我觉得是假的。

这段日子不要爱上任何人!! 一定要找回自己失去的方向才来说。我相信我可以在自己25岁时找到我自己的方向！！ 黄小姐，加油wor！！ 不可以那么轻易就放弃自己的未来，我相信我自己可以找到我的彩虹!!!