What is your new year resolution?
>> I don't know...

What is the greatest regret you had?
>>Too many to state it out...

'He' -- appear too much times in my story.
Min -- created by him 3 years ago. ( always yearn to have a fairy story tale in her life.. but as time passes, she realize there are no such thing called fairy tale in her life... )
Jie -- came into my life 3 years ago too. (3 years ago, you were really very weak. 3 years later, you become stronger. And accidentally, you hurt the guy who love you the most. )
Jiefu -- 3 years ago too.. (always hear me cried.. hahaa.. the first time i heard u cried... i am stunned... Know you for 3 years le, the only time i heard you drinking like crazy was when you got hurt deeply. Maybe it reminds me is time to let go my own fairytale story)
Justin -- my gd friend who came into my life when i am sec 1

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Today is 31 of Decemeber, is also the last day of the calendar. Maybe my story tale should end on the dot of 12 midnite and let it to kept in a book instead of my poor heart. My poor heart been thru so many sad events, i think i should let my tears stopped and create a brand new life for myself.

If i am nt wrong, i broke up with L not long after i got my 'O' level result. A few months later, i met 'the guy', jiejie and jiefu. Erm...... The conversation of us turn sour. When i knew this guy, he was still studying in uni. A poor guy staying in his hostel and don't like to talk on phone. The first time, i talk on the phone was when Justin scold me thru my voicemail. Couldn't remember what had happened at that moment. I told him that i am so sad, that was the first time Justin scold me. Slowly, we bcome quite close friends. The four of us will play daidee or mahjon online. The worst thing is i am always late when i met him. He was a very impatient person who couldn't stand pple late. The problem is he had met LATE QUEEN...

I went to watch Lord of the Ring Part 1 with L. Supposely, i should meet joanne after the movie but we sneaked off after that show. Tat time, i still complaining how come the show was so long. Plus we went to Simei to watch. Hai~~~~ While about a year later, I watched the second show with jiefu, a friend of mine and him. Actually jiejie wanted to catch with us on tat day but too bad she needs to meet her cousin. Jiefu asked me a very stupid question, "You very cold arh? Keep pulling your jacket..." "Ahem, of cos i am feeling very cold lah, imagine you sitting inside the theatre for more than 3 hours leh"

'The guy' met my Justin before too. He waited for about less than half an hour ba over at 'K......... ' mrt station. After that, we went to KFC for supper. I guess he don't like tat supper. He seems like was being questioning Justin but i do not dare to utter a sound at all.

'The guy' met my mum before too. It was just a very conincident that we met my mum at Bugis while she went out with friends. He was coming down from Bukit Timah and keep telling me not to be late but i ended up i am late. His face was like Justice Bao like that. So 'Black', even my mum knew tat he was angry also. When i reached home, mum seems to approve me and 'The guy'. I kept emphasing that both of us were just gd friends.

Last year July, i got my first part-time job. It was waitress at Siglap Cafe Cartel. That job was pretty fun, met a lot of new pple. They were quite friendly and nice pple. Everyday after work, he will always give me a buzz and accompany me to talk on the bus. Just don't understand why do we had so many endless topics to talk about.

In August, a lot of pple knew that min had a very big blow. She started to know how the feeling to lose a kin in life. She also gave up the friendship or the like she had for this guy. They were just so close but did not stepped into a relationship ba. She tot she need time to build herself up but two weeks later she regret. The pain been piling inside her deeply, trying so hard to find back the friendship. Yesh, she got it back but he still fly away without telling her. She only knew it from his friend's msg. I knew he was at airport when he msg me "Take care of yourself". I woke up before he is boarding the plane, i had a short chat with him before he left sg for one and half months ba. Jiefu been hearing me cried during that period of time. Too many things happened. Justin admitted to hospital due to accident. I left when the moment he is going to operating theatre but just that min really afarid of hospital. Not to mention, Justin was angry with me and msg me "Don't need you to come and visit me again". Slowly getting used to the temper he had, he seldom wants care from me. Normally is i seek care and a listening ear from him.

'The guy' and i used to have a bet, "Who will graduate first?". If he never met me, he might already graduate and working now. He move from hostel to home and from then onwards, his results starts to drop. Seriously, from this friendship you had for me is really sweet. Holding on phone when both of us were studying for exams and when i got questions, you will always help me. When i need reference books, you will always tell me "I got lah, don't need to waste money to buy." No matter what happened to me, you will just be there for me. Slowly, you had bcome part of my life that someone who i don't wish to lose. But i still lose at the end of the story. Even though we do not have anymore topics to talk about, i think we are still friends ba.

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Conclusion...
>> That's the end of my story...
>>Greatest regret of the year, i lose four gd friends who can always lend me a ear when i needed it.
>>Hopefully, i can met someone better than you or like you. Few more thing to add:
'The guy' -- you had changed to be better than who i know you three years ago
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'Jiefu' -- I know you are numb abt wat is going. Hopefully, you will have a better fruitful year tomorrow. And in relationship prospect, you and that girl will be officially together ba.. Plus let go of the past, dun let it always stay inside you.
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'Jiejie' -- If the guy you like is hurting you deep, why not let go. I don't wish to see you get hurt again. As you see how min fell so deep and how long she takes to stand up again.
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'Justin' -- So fast, kor i had knew you for going to 9 nine years. Knowing me for so long, you should understand me much more than other ba?? But i don't think so bcos i dun even understand myself. You been telling me this three years to let go but i just don't know why i had landed myself so deep. But don't worry, i am fine. I just wants my brithday surprise from you. You are always so sweet, bring a black forest cake to my house here and celebrate my birthday. Kor, i wish you had a fruitful year and good luck in relationship. If you never try out you and her, you will never know the results. Try looking for her again ba.
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'YY' -- is time to let go le..... is nt easy to do tat.. but if i willing to give it a try, why not? is either you go for it or u let go.. My pal, i really wish to see you will find your happiness... :) Take care...
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'Banana' -- The happiest woman between us.. Good luck and all the best to you... I also want to see you to find your happiness next year wor... Then i opened chalet and you shall bring him to come and see us...
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Not to mention, i still got a lot of pple to wish them happy new year...
i will cut it short and sweet...

To all my friends:

I hope that everyone will have a fruitful year and find their beloved ones from tomorrow onwards. As for career, everyone of us must work hard. If there is a chance to climb higher, don't forgo the chance. Bcos chances don't come that easily. Most imptly is MUST TAKE GD CARE OF HEALTH!!!! don't drink too much on festival seasons arh... (especially ESTERLING AND LEE NIAO YING!!!) :P

erm... Monday...... left office quite early.. supposely to meet rena for shopping spree.. ended we change to another day.. due to too tired and restless to go out...

Tuesday.... went out to have dinner with my parents.. it was pretty nt bad.. but there was dropped of standard for the food... (had a pretty late dinner) plus had a terrible gastric pain...

Wednesday.. took a day of mc... dun really have feel like eating any thing...

Thursday.. met banana and her 'husband' for dinner.. waited for half an hour for my grilled chicken at a CAFE over PS.. The supervisor just told us.. "IT TAKES TIME TO GRILL THE CHICKEN" After that, the missing of lingrine was bcos THE KITCHEN HAD NO MORE. The cashier did not inform you abt tat arh?? Guess Irene they all never do their work... Therefore i diam diam liao.. since banana said nvm... then.. lot of terms and things happend during dinner table.. hahaahaa.. 'somebody changing target lah', who is the target lah n blah blah... ( ask me for more details ba...hahaha.. )

Friday..went to had pizza hut for lunch.. on company treat.. hahaa.. received a msg from kw... "Help help, whose birthday is coming... " first reaction, u are dead.. hahaha... discuss with him abt sat outing which is nt confirm.. plus asking him to go eat paris international buffet...

Saturday, took abt less than 8 hours of sleep.. plus drank vodka the nite before.. makes me feel a bit giddy.. planning to watch king kong but tickets were selling super fast.. make me this organsier head a bit very big.. therefore change to dinner with them... met kelvin, winston and soo yuan for dinner at parkway... hahaha... went to JB tat day.. nothing much to shop ard.. but the egg tarts were gd..

Last Monday, i went to watch Chicken Little. The movie considered so-so, i gave abt 3 out 5 stars.

Tuesday was a very shagged day. Can you imagine tat i had to work till 2plus am...

Wednesday, i went to work at 10am... But i am really very chagged and tired. Try to leave a bit earilier by seeking my team leader tat i need to left a bit earilier. Surprisely, she approved and i left a bit earilier. I went to have some time for myself. When to Liang court to read magazine, follow by i met someone for dinner. I will nt miss my favourite ice-cream, green tea with red bean. Heehee.. :P After dinner, immediately took cab home and sleep early.

Thursday, sort of work OT again. Hehehee.. :P In actual fact, i also must wait for my cousin. I am meeting her for coffee session. Sort of discuss our plans for next year june holiday. Seems like my schedule quite packed hor?? But in actual fact, it was not quite packed. Just tat when you start working life, you will have lesser time to spend with your friends and family. My cousin treated me NYDC.. haha.. bcos i am so hungry, i miss my dinner again. But i got my starbucks coffee... =p I went ard 6pm to downstair and collect it, plus i got one more free latte due to the slow service.. hahaa.. Seems like i very cheapo hor.. No choice arh, almost half of the pple went down to queue for it. So why not i just join in the fun. Anyway, i went down is almost knocking off time..

Friday, i went to eat seoul garden with my colleagues. It was quite fun though i only i know them less than a month. Maybe bcos last week, i did not have a gd rest. My body felt so resltess, whenever i finish my dinner, i will feel extremely tired.

Saturday, my auntie and uncle came over to my house. Kept them accompany for a while. Before my auntie left, she asked us next time go over to her house. Erm... Maybe it really been a long long time tat i went over to visit them... Jialat.... Seems like i am neglecting my family... I always reached home ard 12am.. then had so little time for them, felt tat i am staying at hotel sia. Wake up already, go to work. Sometimes i will reach home late. There doesn't seems to have anytime for myself to do stuffs tat i like. During evening time, meet those guys and yy for dinner. They called me and wait for them downstair. BUT they thinks i will be late. Tat's why they still at home play game. Seems like they had bcome much more smarter.. lol.. :P Therefore i went upstair to winston's house. Hehehe.. He bought quite a number of CDs and offer me whether i want any CDs.. YES!!! i borrow 4cds from him... hehee.. :P We went to eat Pasta Mania, followed by a drink at coffee bean. Seriously this bunch of guys really changed a lot. No matter is in physically or behaviour. Lastime during sec school time, cafes is totally out for them. BUT now, they are the ones who wants to go there. I planned this coming thursday to go watch king kong. Don't know some of them on or nt. Hopefully YY can come... pls.... (very pathetic look wor... :) ) while my 'lao po', she is having exams now... so study hard.. jia you wor... :P

Last week, i got a busy week...

Monday, i knock off at 6.15. That's was pretty early as the whole team was still over there working very hard and i just leave early due to i pretty shag and tired...

Tuesday, got to work OT.. Again.. haha.. and sort of we are the latest to left office.. i left office at 10pm with my colleague. When we stepped out of US, it was raining heavily outside.. :'( Tot of sharing cab home, since he stayed at Pasir Ris. But there was long queue, so we choose to take mrt home. I was much more poor thing. I went to took bus home. On the way home, i feeling so cold and hungry.. jialat leh...

Wednesday, met CYY for Harry Porter.. Erm sort of i watched tat before, just dun want to mention to her. Bcos i had promised to watch together. Therefore i did not make any comment for this movie in my blog.... hahaha... But she waited me for quite a while over at orchard due to i got some stuffs to do on hand. Actually i wondering, if i going to meet her to watch Chicken Little on this coming week. Will i be able to go? I got to do a throughly testing for this coming week. Hopefully, it will make my time to pass easily and learn more things. Rather than slacking thru the mornimg and afternoon and need to work OT at nite... A bit touched tat my friend all the way from paya lebar took train down to have lunch with me.. :) thanks..

Thursday, AGAIN OT.. ***** too much OT to be done. Sian.. hopefully my christmas and new year will not be burn. btw.. my friend asked me a question, "Want to watch Harry?" I said NO... i am not going to watch harry for so many times.. hehee.. paiseh arh...

Friday, quite tired but whenever i got the tot of the outing. I was pretty awake but is sort of forcing myself to feel awake... At nite, we got a team outing.. Heehe..:P Luckily, i just managed to clear things on hand before we set off for the outing. Our first stop suppose to be Chong Chong(Serangoon) in the end change to opposite Bedok Camp. We had a whole table of food...Since i am the newest.. I was being force to eat more.. so full... and we proceed our way to Marina South for Bowling.. Heehe.. still not bad lah.. 14 of us, only 10 of us played while the 4 of them be cheer leader. But we exchanged shoes after one match of bowling.. :) some of them left early.. therefore, we only left with 11 pple in the van. Actually, two of them wanted to left early but one of them can't stand the tempation of DURIANS.. They manged to stay thru the whole nite and we even drove thru orchard to see the lights..

Places where we had went:

1. Dinner at the Hawker centre opp. Bedok Camp
2. B0wling at Marine Bay
3. X.Mas Lighting at Ochard Rd
4. Durians and Bean Curd at Geylang
5. Drove thru the red light district..
6. Went to Changi Village to see ..............
7. Went to changi Airport at 2.43AM(had a feeling tat i was in oversea, and i am rushing to catch a flight.. hahaha.. :P)
8. Had MacDonald Breakfast at 5am in the morning
9. 6am- Sunrise at East Coast(due to drizzling, we miss the sunrise.. :( )
10. Home sweet Home (I am the one who stayed very near to east coast, therefore i am the first one to alight and go back home to sleep. :) )

Places where we planned to go before the whole outing.....

1. Dinner at chong chong
2. Bowling at Marina South
3. Cozy Bay (luckily we never went there, a place where there are tons of memories for me)
4. Durians at Geylang
5. Mt Fabar(which i wanted to go a lot, who can bring me there again?)
6. Tunnel at Labordor Park (so scarely, luckily never go.. hehehe.. )
7. Prata at Fong Sheng
8. Jurong Fish Port
9. Sunrise at Marina Bay
10. Home sweet Home

**A great difference better where we had planned and where we had go right?? haha.. maybe bcos of the rain, we had to change our entire plan.. Hopefully next time we can go tree top walk.. :)

Sat, had been a very busy day for me. Can u imagine tat min does not had enuff sleep for the past few days and she reached home at 6.30am on sat morning. She woke up at 1.30pm but she was so tired and went back to sleep till 2 plus.. Then followed by called daddy where is he? He dropped me off at Yishun. And i am so blur tat i had mistaken Redha's wedding address. I tot is 834, i realised i got the wrong address when i reached there. Therefore, i ringed up Lydia. Haha.. then she told me is 824.. I went to pass him hongbao and took some pics before i leave. I never ate anything over there. And i heeded home after tat.KM asked me whether i want to join them over at wala.. I was complaining my head is so painful tat i rejected that even there was free transport home. Ard 9 plus, i went to joyce's bbq at east coast. AGAIN, i mistook the bbq pit number.. I tot is 16.. When i reached there, i saw a grp of Malays. I know tat i went to the wrong pit.. then i walked further down.. hai~~ sotong queen sia..

Seriously, i do had a lot of feelings for this week tat i wanted to post it out. But just couldn't find the time to go do any posting. Ever since min is young, she always wanted a fairy tale relationship. But everytime it doesn't seem to be a happy ending. Now is she getting more and more puzzled, wat does she wants in a relationship anymore. Everytime when the relationship had came to a stop, she will be hoping tat she will meet someone better on the way. As the way seems to get longer, she seems to be more tired to wait. She wanted to find a stop and rest or just give up to wait for the bus and keep walking alone on her own. On the way of walking to her destination, she got friends to keep her accompany on the way. Till certain destination, they will still drop off and said goodbye to her.

Seriously, L and k seems to walk into my life again. Haha.. Suddenly i had this tot of them again. Why? Maybe was bcos they used to pamper me a lot. Just give in to me plus they sweet memories that they had given to me once. But from now, min will just walk alone to the destination till she really met someone nicer than L n K or someone who can understand her as well as they do... :)