Guess Min has blur blur spend her 23 plus years in singapore and in life.
In kindergarden, she met a few friends.. 4 from her mum's friend sons~~ 1 close kindergarden friend.. Of cos being so mischevious at young age, of cos there are things that she cannot forget. She causes one of her friend to lose a teeth, luckily was so young at that time. One of my mum's son who is always in the same sec as me, also had the same birthday as me wor~~ But now of cos he had grown much more mature than me...
In primary school, being so conincident, me and my kindergarden study the same class throughout the 6 years, not to deny during this period we did quarrel before. Friend or dun friend, this kind of thing.. Later wat lah~~ u like this guy or this guy like u.. all this~~ haha.. first time skip lesson was in my primary school.. So stupid sia, i went to marine parade theatre to watch sammi and ekin move.. feel good 100%~~ haha.. a very simple movie which i like it a lot wor~~~
In secondary school, guess this was the period that i met a lot of new friends. Who let me get into this school, of cos is my grandpa lah~~ During these period of time arh, i took a lot of neoprints sia~~ And i always like to buy sushi from NTUC and go to East Coast to do project with one group of my friends. We always go parkway after school and eat tempura~~ Hahaha.. So simple life~~~ We join choir together, go NDP practice together~~ Before NDP practice, i will buy tons of tibits go there and eat. Cos every week practice, we eat KFC. Wah lau, i also eat until i scare liao..
Lower sec got technical classes ma, but my school so small.. Ended up we had to go to nearby school to study technical classes. Just very conincident, my kindergarden friend study, this was when i met korkor ba~ Being very niang~~~ Hahaha..
Sec 3 onwards, of cos i feel a distant between us due to i am taking a different path with them. I took a class with full of maths, POA, E-Maths, A-Maths.. No choice, i like Maths more than any other subject. But guess my A-Maths results let my teacher feel disappointed ba~~ Even my tuition teacher also LL.. Speechless towards me.. I tends to stick with yy and so called my gd friend and a bunch of big bullies.. haha.. :P And i get closer with korkor during this period of time.. We will study together for o level exams ba~~
After O level exams, i met a guy~~ Haha... We in a very short relationship, so called is my first love ba~~ haha.. A very sweet de love, just that i dunno how to cherish him ba~~ Since i am so young that time, i heard that he is getting married this year le~~ Congras to him~~
Just before i go in to poly, i met another guy~~ Haha.. This time, i stick with him for 3 years~~ Stupid right? Haha.. First time that i admitted to hospital.. So ma lu~~ Jil called me immediately when he saw my msg when i admitted to hospital wor~~ But the problem is, my hp not with me cos i was admitted for observation for 2 hours. Opps.. Jil was not the guy wor.. He is the guy who always hear me cried for 3 years~~ The only movie i watched with both of them was lord of the rings part 2. Part 1 was with someone else.. Hahaa.. Maybe being only child for both me and him, we just want to find someone talk. Just a companion ba, maybe all this while, he treats me like a sister protecting me and accompany me. Just like wat jil and korkor said he never love me before. Being stick with a guy for so long and realise that he don't love you at all. How would you feel? Erm.. Ok lah~~ during this 3 years, i didn't really treat him as someone i love ma~~ Just a very gd friend, is only that i lose him then i realise i had actually fallen into it just that i don't know about it. The first time i felt that i lose him was when i just came back from australia, the first person who i wanted to call when i just alight flight. But he never picked up at all, he switched off his phone. By then i should realise that something is wrong. All my fault, said a lie before i go oversea.. Seriously, i just want to find out how he feels for me all this while but maybe i am wrong. or maybe the email that i send to him when i am in australia is a wrong move. Before boarding, i am so happy, i feel that i am in love, when i came back, u gave me a very cold war~~ Slowly, we getting closer together again. But it just lasted last than a year ba~
In August, my cousin passed away le. I even quarrelled with my poly friends, niao niao, da jie da and ceo.. Haha.. they are my closest friend when i am poly sia~~ i even cried at orchard train station~~ tat was when i am most xiao qi~~ Sometimes after nite class, they will just accompany me~~ xie xie ni meng~~ wo yong yuan duo bu hui wang le na she ri zi~~
When he passed away, was quite a big blow to me~~ Being the youngest daughter in the family, my mum siblings always very dote her~~ My mum told me that korkor said to my auntie, "must take of ah yi they all." tat was when i promise myself.. "korkor, i will take care of all of them.. " Sitting alone in the cafe at airport, taking my panosanic hp with me~~ I was thinking about wat korkor and jil said~~ "Min, he dun like u at all.. Bu yao yue xian yue sheng arh" This sentence keeps floating in my mind. I scare i cannot overcome the sadness if one day he really tells me he found a gf. Then hw to keep my promise.. To take care of them~~ I sent a very werid sms to him~~ He immediately called me back.. Scold me and ask me wat happened, i didn't say anything, just hang up the phone. Maybe that bring another ending between us. He left singapore and went shanghai~ He never tell me when he is going and when he is coming back. I very stubborn hor, why would i like this kind of guy~~ Siao cha bor~~ Before he left , he just sms me this "Gd morning. Min, take good care of yourself." I also dunno why i wake up so early, i called him back~ I know he is at the airport, i can't said anything. I know he is going to board the plane, so wat can i do.. He said, i reached home le then called you, ok? You idiot, i hate you. U let me cried for one month. You don't want to let me know when u come back, means u dun want to contact with me already. Why min still so stupid at that time, don't understand this meaning. He came back le, he told me he like a girl.. I diam diam, there is nothing i can said. From that time onwards, the distance between us getting much more further apart.
I also met someone else.. guess i not convinent to mention who is he again.. i dun want to cause any misunderstanding between he and his gf.. maybe things just come too late, i can't bring myself to it. But thanks for being with me during this period of time.. XXXXX treats me very gd, i so called very shy, i really not used to big crowds. There was a time he brought me to a place to cheer me up when my grandpa passed away. Guess i always bully him~~ But i really wants to thanks him being with me during my down time~~ He brought me to miss clarity cafe.. Tat's when i get more and more close with my sec friends~~ They very pamper me wor~~ Scare i so sad, brought me to ms to eat cake, ended up went to mos.. then i went to eat prata at katong.. and walk back home with my broken heels especially the next day, i got to work.. never know tat i got such close brothers wor and yy..
Two days before my grandpa passed away, i was sick until very jialat, i got two days of mc, ended up i still went to work. Of cos, that day was a very bad day, i cried at work. I don't know is it of wat is going to happen or too stress.. Too noob to handle stress at that period of time? After work, i went to eat steamboat at marina bay, guess that was my last time to go there for steamboat. I broke a chair there sia, so stunned.. The next day, i went to hospital to visit him. He changed a lot. That time i had a very bad cough, therefore considered a bateria spreading, i kept myside outside the ward. Only go in and glance at him once or twice. After that i went to parkway to meet my friends.. Maybe is from then, slowly build up my friendship or bond with another one of my brothers ba~~ Tat time he having some relationship problem.. We had a short chat outside the pool outlet~~ The next day he passed away le.... of cos when i just woke up, i had no feelings at all.. Furthermore, i still sick until very jialat~~How i know wat the hack is happening~~ I went down to my grandma's house~ Of cos every night hiding in my room and cried.. Told myself i had to take care of my father.. Ended up at the last day, was my father looked after me.. On the last day, he was being ceramate.. Before the coffin reached there, my mind was floating about all the past that involves him.. I started to miss him~~ although i know he dislike me.. guess everyone there will thinks i am very fake ba~~ cos all the pple there dun like me at all.. this was the gap that we had build up after my psle ba~ i also dunno why everyone turned to bcome like tat..
guess i like a cried baby spending for my 24 years~~
tat time when i left singapore to bkk.. i never lose anything when i come back...
this time when i left singapore to hk.. will i lose anyone again?
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