Part and Parcels of Life?

Hahaa.. Seriously, are u looking to be in a relationship and enjoy the pamper from your the other half? or are u enjoying yr current life?

hahaa.. who dun want someone to care abt you.. who dun want someone to look after you.. i believe most women are more sensitive towards things.. and "zou nan ren hou mian de nu ren.."

seriously~~ in life, one might encounter more than one relationship.. not every relationship ended with a happy ending nor a sad ending ...

I known a truth life story.. A couple had been together for 7 years, ended up they broke up. But the gal was running away, she do not wants to hear any news from the guy. Why? To me, bcos the gal can't get the guy out of her mind but she knows that separating will be better for both parties. Since there is a gap between the gal and the guy. Whether is there any third-parties had come in, it does not seems to be a problem anymore. Since the love had faded to become a habit.. In a relationship, don't ever let "love" or "passion" to fade it and bcome a habit.. There are times that you can change your habit and addicted to another habit.. While if love is there, it will be lasting instead of fading away..

Am i right? Seriously i also dunno, it is just based on my kpo comments.. If i am right, why can't i find something that is right? Had i really let go of the past? I did not let go of the past, it just bcome my memories. The more u wants to let go of something, the harder it is. Why not try to accept the facts, instead of running away? Running away does not helps at all, it will just make matters worst. Seriously i did enjoy my life at the moment.. Wo shi yi ge heng rou yi zi zhu de nu ren~~ Ou er ge wo yi ge guan hua~~ wo jiu yi jing gou le~~~

i met a friend on sunday~~ maybe after my complaint too much~~ he told me "If u really need money, i can lend u first." Hahaa.. seriously at that point of moment, i really very touch.. It had been a long time that someone ever told me that.. haha.. Min.. u still consider quite fortunate.. u had met quite a lot of gd friends in life.. but friendship will still fades away de~~~ in this world, as long as, there is relationship in it... they will always tend to fade away.. hw can u maintain friendship or relationship like a bottle of wine.. the longer it is, the better it is.. i guess i haven't reach that level yet.. i hope i can reach but i doubt it...

is just part and parcels of life.. the older u grow, the more things will fade away.. therefore, i rather be silly, childish in front of friends... i just wants to stay in that moment.. cos it is always a joy to remain part of yourself as a child~~ in a working society, u had to be tuff fighter. Why still wants to wear the mask after work? Isn't that makes life bcome more sian and more tiring..

Is Life really that Fragile

Is life really tat fragile?? When things want to come, you really cannot runaway? Seriously, i dunno when Min will down again or she had overcome it.. We shall see.. Shall let time prove whether i am right or i am wrong..

I am Broke for the next few months..

Hahaha.. It had been a long long time tat i ever had this kind of taste, thinking of omg~~ hw am i going to suffer thru.. But now this kind of taste is back.. ARGH~~ Seriously i really hate it but i had to accept it for the next one year or more..

Last friday, i had fork out my money to pay my school fees for the first semester. Erm.. Min arh~~ just one module leh, how broke can you be~~ But if the following things going to occur for the next few months.. Then guess i know why am i going to broke~~

June :
- Cousin's birthday
- Owe my cousins they all a treat..

July :
- Time for a trip
- 2 birthdays

August :
Birthday Day month
-3 sec friends
-1 poly friend
-Nanny.. haha..
-2 ex-colleagues..

September :
- 2 birthdays
- a trip to KL before my school starts?

October :
- My birthday.. Yipeee
- 2 birthdays..
- School starts.. sob sob.. transportation allowance going to increase le~
- 1 wedding..

November :
- Time to think hw am i going to pay my school fees..
- 2 weddings..


~~ omg~~ i just dun feel like continue.. haiz~~

Relaxing Weekend

This weekend considered as most guai weekend for me. Didn't really went anywhere except going for facial today morning. Opps... Is so painful~~ haiz~~~ no choice~~ face very dirty.. haiz~~ guess i should go facial often.

Erm~~ Last friday, i met my friends for dinner plus movies~~ haha.. Actually wanted to try hanabi at vivocity but is 50 plus per person. -_-''' Four of us.. hahaa.. Didi was so quiet that day.. really stunned me~~ In the end, we went to dragongate at harbour for dinner.. lol.. :P one person is ard 35. We ordered 23 dishes out of the 54 dishes. Seriously, i didn't eat a lot.. Most likely is try one piece from each plate, therefore during movie, i still can have my haagen daz ice-cream.. i went to watch jin ge that movie.. haha... who is jin ge? jin cheng wu lor~~ hahaha... quite touching sia~~ i doubt that didi knows that i cried during the movie~~ hahaa.. :P i like the song so much~~

korkor... these few days u been calling ard 2, 3, 4 plus.. haha.. i never pick up~~ i sleep le lah.. u wants to make appointment with me to make up a date to redeem my ice-cream.. :P hahaa.. or accompany me go airport for dinner.. :P i feel like going to changi airport.. dunno why.. is it time for de-stress.. haha.. :P

Beautiful Sunset

haiz~~ Am i being too shy?

Erm~~ I can't deny my colleagues they all really treat me very good and nice~ They will look after me. Always ask me to join them for lunch, bring me go eat nice food. One of my colleagues going off tomorrow. Before she left, she passed me her pooh bears~~ she said when i saw that, i will think of her~~ seriously, i very touched~~~ i almost wanted to drop my first tears in the new compant~~ but i hold on to it.. haiz~~ guess later, it will be a sad moment~ cos everyone was sad that she is going to leave us and join another company...

haiz~~ am i being too shy~~ seriously, i think i need some reflection on myself. When i am not close to someone, i dunno how to interact with them~ haiz~~ i hopefully i will learn more on socalising skills and get a much more closer bond with them~ dun want them to mistaken that i am acting dao or wat. just that i dunno wat to say.

Last wk, i had a very tiring week.

Monday and tuesday, i went back home after work~ Sad sia, bank no money~~ sob sob~~

Wed, i went out with my colleagues to have farewell dinner cum KTV.. plus macdonald. Trying to control my diet, even my colleague asked me to eat nugget, i also decline~~ haha.. early in the morning eat nuggets.. haha.. let me recalled wat i had over in iras tat time. i also had a 12 hours outing but this time round is a bit special, i left ard 3plus. I had already had a date with my trekking kakis that to join them to go kent ridge the next day. Therefore, they let me go.. hahaha.. :P

Thur, Although i am very tired, i pull myself to wake up at 12 to join them. As usual, i am late and did not had my lunch with them. Hahaha.. When lao dao saw me, first sentence "Are you ok? You look quite pale." Omg~~ i really looks that bad~~ haiz~~ i faster brushed away and go to buy drinks~ Ended everyone also knows i slept at 5 plus, tat's why i looks so tired. We went to watch sunset, i can only use one word to describe "Beautiful". I never knew that sunset is that beautiful.

Friday, i met up with my ex-colleagues and went down to register. Haha.. Four of us going to study together. After being persuade by so many pple, i finally make my first step. We shall see how things going to be like. I wondering, will i give up halfway?

Sat, i am so tired that i slept until 4 plus then wake up~ so jialat right? haha.. I went to catch ironman, bcos i am late again. We got the first row seats. Erm~~ really very cold.. I almost freeze to death.. I think the show is consider not bad, making use of the high technology stuffs. Of cos, my friend love it more than we do. Hahah.. had a short chat at iguana... Some stuffs that cannot avoid means really cannot avoid... After iguana, we went mac~ Haha.. Papa very look after me.. knows that i going to attend my gd friend's wedding.. they will always remind me~~ nov wor~~ nov wor~~ stress~~~ -_-''' Am i going to determine to do it? haha.. We shall see.. :X

Sun.. I met up some friends for lunch at wisma food court, we tried the korean food over there. Hehehe.. :P i think next time i will order soba~~ that looks nice~~ haha.. thanks for helping me.. :P
I had my dinner at IMM~~ hahaha.. Hk cafe.. not bad~~ quite nice~~ jiejie actually wanted to treat me bcos she knows i am damn broke now~~ but i insisted dun want lah~~ haiz~~ guess this week, i going to eat bread le~~

My mind had went crazy..

Erm.. Something did happened to me, i really think i am crazy. Prevent myself from going to the wrong direction again. I ask a favor from my cousin, please remind me not to walk to the wrong direction again. I cannot like my gd friend, if i like him, means our friendship will be gone. So i must deal it carefully this time round, i don't want it to turn into a mess again. Haha.. But guess this kind of weird feelings will fade very fast. Once bitten twice shy, haha.. why things always that coincident~~ when i am typing this msg, he sms me~~ guess i need to siam for some time.. before i become much more normal~~ i need to tell myself~~ i am not looking for shelter.. i am not looking for someone to depend on~~ now, i can look after myself well~~ i dun need a bf for the current moment~~

i finally did something that i had mentioned for a the past one year or two years. i had went to register for school, now waiting for letter whether am i being accepted or i got two exempted modules.

Forbbiden Kingdom + Doomday

Both movies considered average but they had one thing in common, i miss the first 5 mins of the show~~

Why?

1st movie bcos we were enjoying our food at sushi tei and take our own sweet time to take bus to The Cathay.

2nd movie bcos i am wait for da shao ye~~ He was late~~~ so... haiz~~~


But i still prefer forbbiden kingdom~~ I met brothers ytd, cos one of them wants to buy PSP. Haha.. It really tempts me to get one too.. But is really going to make my wallet a big big hole. Therefore, i think i should not get one. In the end, i helped my auntie to ask for DS. But she did not get back to me asap, therefore i didn't help her to get it. Erm.. So this week should be going down to AMK to help her get it ba~~ So called this week, i am not considered free. Most of the days were already taken by people~~

Tml, i finally going to register for my studies~~ Opps.. If i cannot get it.. Damn ma lu~~ cos i told so many pple that i planning to go for further studies~~ Hahah.. u dun laugh at me, ok?

As for wed, i got a farewell dinner to attend.. Maybe follow up with ktv.. then a gathering with friends .. omg~~ is it possible to done within one nite? this question is consider as a question mark.. lol.. :P haha..

one of my gd brother.. he doubts that i can go futher studies.. cos he thinks i too playful and i can't stay at home de.. erm.. is that true~~ no lah~~ there are times that i stayed at home and be a 'fillal daughter'.

As for thursday.. i promise to go out with friends.. haha.. i doubt tat i can wake up that early for the day.. lol..:P wat i told them was.. not confirmed.. why? ton of work in front of me~~ and yet, i never worked OT ever since i changed company.. which means i did not work as ridculous as last time. Imagine last time i can worked until 4am de leh~~ dun siao siao~~ everyone around me.. know i confirm very late.. plus.. i always worked late.. plus etc... BUT i met a quite a number of kind souls over there.. last thursday, when i went back there.. can u imagine that i stuck for downstair for about 1 hour to chit-chat with my ex-colleagues~~ hehe.. if u asked me whether i miss there.. i can tell u.. yes.. i do miss there.. but bcos of friends and pple i met there except niao niao..

as for friday.. is time to act guai and stayed in office to complete some work~~ maybe will meet up with my ex-colleagues for dinner.. provided i got my pay~~ a bit broke now~~

omg~~ my wisdom tooth starts to give me signal~~

haha..Ever since two weeks ago, i had been eating quite gd food plus quite enjoyable life~~~


On the 10th, i went to a jap resturant located at Grand Plaza Hotel. The ramen there is bagus~ But pretty ex, without any sashimi, the bill come up to $230 plus for 6 persons. By right, is a treat from my cousin but ended up they spilt the bill excluding me~~ hehee.. not bad hor~~ but hor~~ it means my upcoming meal will be much more ex.. haha.. ok lah~~ my cousins they all seldom bully me de.. cos so called i as earning power not as strong as anyone there.. :P

11th, i went to have spagetties at IMM.. As usual, i had my black pepper chicken with lingeries~~ erm~~ not tat nice~~ furthermore, i didn't manage to finish it up~~
A friend asked me hw old am i? Pretty Surprise~~ He guessed my age~~ haha.. but in the end, i never tell him..

12th, i went holland v to have XO yu pian mee fen~~ haha.. nice nice.. i like the fried chicken wing~~ so called i am trying to bully that guy friend~~ u can only have one wor~~ then the rest split among us~~ wahaha.. ended up, i am being force to eat the second piece.. cos i quite full~~ pretty surprising.. trying to control not to eat so much especially at nite~~

hehee.. the most touching part~~ was i dunno how to go holland village.. i looked for one brother who stays near there.. His gf being very kind, asked me to take cab go there.. cos both of them dunno hw to walk from buona vista to holland v.. He referred me to another brother~~ ________________________________________ (to decode by yourself)~~ haha.. then i sms him~~ no reply~~ i started to scold him in my mind~~ bluff me de~~ haiz~~~but he called me and guide me almost half of my journey~~ hehee.. so touch.. xie xie~~ wo ai si ni le~~ haha... opps.. later will he faint when he saw this post? erm~~ i doubt that he will read my blog.. haha.. so should be ok lah~~ luckily i never walked there.. cos they were at the hawker centre waiting for me~~ heng~~

12th, 13th,14th:

i met up with my dearest brothers~~ haha.. so called two of them contiunous see me for three days.. another one for two days~~ guess they going to puke liao~~ keep seeing me~~ haha.. .

we went to have thai express, follow by starbucks~~ starbucks paid by brother~~ hehe.. :P

the next day, we went to eat chong qing huo guo at bugis~~ yummy~~~ :P but didn't really eat much~~ cos i was pretty unhappy tat day~~ i also couldn't remember why.. haha..one of them left first.. Brother A accompany me to walk to PS to take 36.. Haha.. had a chatted... hw come i bcome so close to him or so called when i bcome so close to him~~ last time we dun even talk at all.. but now~~ omg~~ i gt tons of rubbish..

tuesday.. we went to ichiban sushi for dinner~~ omg~~ sure got sashimi~~~ if i didn't remember wrongly, i never take photos there~~ haiz~~ wasted~~ damn~~ kana bully all the way~~~

Wednesday~~ home sweet home~~ really very shag~~~~

Thursday~~ i went to korean restaurant to eat~~ yummy~~~

Friday.. i tried popeye biscuit~~ hehee...

Saturday.. bring my mum, aunt and uncle out~~ accompany them walk walk~~~

Sunday.. Friend's birthday~~~ KTV celebration~~`

Monday.. HardRock Cafe at Orchard

Tuesday.. Sushi Tei~~~

omg~~~
wallet big hole~~ haiz~~

Workaholic is coming back le~~

Wahaha.. Got my work schedule for the next 3 weeks.. Is time to start a brand new scratch project.. Nervous? Hahaha.. Seriously, i didn't really start a brand new project before. Now really start from scratch, furthermore, my boss given me a brand new challenge by giving me the hardest part to do.. -_-'' haha.. i wondering can i survive through this challenge or not. Guess my complaining is coming soon.. No complaint means life is coming to a dead end le.. Not right meh? If you dun get something out of your chest, you will keep on bother about it. Isn't that going to make you feel much more worst? Plus, i never learnt this in school nor at my previous jobs.. Wahaha.. Google going to be my best partner le... :P

I saw my photos when i am in my ex-company and current. I realise that i looks much more better compare to previous my old haggard look.. Haha.. Although korkor still thinks i looks terrible which means i need a brand new look~~ Haha.. I am still trying to work on that goal.. Hahaa.. Been saying for the past 6 years le.. Can i really do something it? I think i can, and i think is time.. :) I guess i really get him out of my head le.. lol.. :P Even my cousin thinks that i looks more cheerful now compare as previous.. Maybe some stuffs had already fade away, then human naturally will feel much more better.. Wahaha.. Is it time to look for something brand new? Haha.. I told someone.. Ugly ducking will not find her happiness de.. Guess now i am still fortune ba~~ I still got friends around me that are not attached, so sometimes they will still have some time to entertain me.. Wahaha.. :P Guess in the future, i must learn to be more independent le..

Wahaha.. Food photos coming up soon.. :P

Threaten

After being threaten by Justin Fong for 21mins on phone..

This is being publish to make him happy.. but i was being force to do this..

JUSTIN FONG IS SUCH A DAMN NICE GUY.


hahaa.. it had been a long time that i ever go against korkor.. haha.. seems like this kind of feeling is good.. everyday i will receive phone calls from him.. hehee.. :P knows that he is doing well and happy... at least i know he is ok.. haven study until collaspe.. guess this tricks does works on him... lol.. :P so he can call me everyday.. asking me stop all those post.. it shows that he is back to normal.. haven being defeat down by the devils of exams.. :P wahahahahahahaa.. .

korkor.. remember my haagen daz ice-cream wor~~ jia you wor~~
dun always use K as an excuse to run away from reality.... now u know the truth le .. all depends on yourself le..

I had changed already?

Erm.. i met korkor on last monday, did a stupid thing, accompany him to take bus from Parkway to Boon Lay. And from Boon Lay take 105 to Orchard and take 111 to City Hall just to take cab back home. Bcos i had miss last bus back hm.. ARGH~~ Tat day i really spend a lot of cab.. ARGH~~~ haiz~~ On the way, i msg brother.. Haha... Never knew that brother that take cares of me... Hahaa.. Really touch sia.. lol.. :X Haha... I will not disclose what i had told him for the past few days.. If you are reading this post.. I would like to said thank you.. Haha.. From someone who i not close at all to become my brother... I guess, u will still prefer that don't know me at all. I am such a troublesome person.. Lol.. :P Did a lot of silly stuffs in front of you too.. Hahaa.. Luckily, you never betray me... lol.. :P or u had betray me le yet i dunno... :X

From Parkway to Boon Lay, seriously if you are asking me whether i am happy during the journey. Since it had been a long time that you have met korkor. Haha.. I can tell you i am very pissed off during the journey. You asked me to come out is talk about your future not my past. The past that i had with him is already over. I really enjoyed the moments now that we all had separated. I am not going to stop at that point of the moment for three years. Seriously, these three years, had you really be with me, no.. Every time i meet you, you had changed my impression. I can tell you now.. Ya, i admit i never cherish him.. So? What can i do to change the facts? There is no way to change the facts le.. I had lose him, this is the fact. I believe both of us had lose this friendship away too. Both of you had given me a beautiful past memory. Let's stop digging out the past whether who treats who good.. who never cherish who.. Is already in the past. K is leading very gd now. I think i am also leading very gd now.. why still wants to pursue whether last time i never cherish k or not? i guess k and i dun wish to mention the past now. If can, we still can be friends but not that close anymore. I think i am big enuff to settle problems between me and k.

我又不开心了。。。

haiz~~ 我亲爱的大哥哥。。 我没有想到你的一通电话把我的心情又搞乱了。。

haha.. in my past posts.. i did mention wat korkor did for me in the past.. will never occurs again.. but he did tat for me once.. tat time whenever i am sad.. he will be there for me.. haha.. holding the stupid phone and singing "习惯" while i am studying my chemistry mcq.. always pull me to burger king to study together with him before O level and coach me when i dunno... korkor.. u always encourage me.. u know a lot of stuffs abt me when i am young.. u always wants me to bring my bf to see you and let u approve first.. the very ba tao de da korkor.. everytime talking to u.. u will reminds me of him.. and gradually my tears will flow down.. my tears flow down is bcos of him or you.. i really couldn't recognize it anymore..

你们都是曾经很疼我的人，每当我需要你们的时候你们都会在我身边陪伴我。 可是每当你们需要我的时候我只会再那里唠唠叨叨的。。你们也让我伤心过。。 你们总是大男人主义。。 我开始慢慢的忘记你们，你们又让我想起你们。。 我真的很累。。 我以为我再也不再乎友情了，有就有没有就算了。 我被友情与爱情伤的好痛。。 我好不容易的逃出来，为何我又回去了。。 我讨厌你们。。 是不是你们的不幸认识了我。。 为何你们都走同样的一条路。。 难道你们还要我一直为你们流泪吗。。当一个选择的时候，他不肯让我说。。 他就决定了，我一直很后悔。。 我一只都觉得是我的错。。 如果当初大家都不认识彼此的话。。 会不会更好。。

korkor.. i wish time round i will be with you till u stand up again.. wo xiang xin wo bu hui zai dao le.. i dun want to lose u again.. i lose one gd brother enuff le.. he will never come back to me anymore..

haha.. i wondering lao da.. will notice tat my expression change on friday dinner.. or will i still be the one laughing there..

guess after this coming wk, i would like to take a break le..

my cousins asked me out for dinner tml.. at first, i didn't want to reply.. but my pattern will confirm go de.. after the call just now.. tml i going down hospital to find him.. erm~~ she said "try to come wor, i seldom will treat de." really very touched.. when i broke up with L.. i cried in arms before.. when i end my friendship with "K", i cried in her arms again~~ min arh min~~ when i lose korkor, i cried while holding the phone when i talking to "K"... hai~~

now leh~~ i cried when i blog lor.. nobody for me to su ku le.. :(

From East Coast to Changi Village

haha.. Am i crazy to join them to cycle from East Coast to Changi Village.. Guess nowadays i am more and more siao liao.. wahahaa.. :P

It had been a long time that i ever cycle.. Lao da keep saying "You stay so near, why you never come and use the facilities over here." Wahaahaha... :P My cousin also agreed with him.. haiz~~ stay so near also no use de mah.. i not tat independent leh.. hw arh.. jialat.. i must learn to be more independent? i guess i am over-protected at hm? but yet i always wants to act to be the strongest to look after my parents.. Guess that is considered as "act smart".

Before we went for the cycling trip, i already told my cousin, most likely it will going to be only four of us.. haha.. guess i can be fortune teller le.. lol.. :P ytd i almost met an accident.. but luckily i didn't really cycle that fast.. otherwise the van might knock down me le.. of cos during the cycling trip, i am the one that always kana suan de lah.. :P hahaaa.. "Stay so near, yet still late..." haha.. guess wo shi ming fu qi shi de late queen...

We practically cycle from east coast to changi village, once we reached tanah merah ferry terminal.. We turned back bcos it was raining heavily over at changi side. Therefore we didn't really take a break, i really cycle until my leg very pain sia~~ Hahaha.. Treat this as an experience ba~~ I am going for the cycleton at Paya Lebar in May.. Siao Cha bor le right? Never see me so hardworking before.. Haha.. Health getting more and more worst le, therefore need to cut down in-take.... (Da jie da.. u dun stunned or shock when u see this sentence..)

Practically i got 3 reasons why i need to do more exercise now..
1) i had bet with my friend before we went to aus.. i said that before he come back singapore.. i will be another person.. wahahaa.. :P he will be back next year jan.. hehe.. :P
2) Health getting weaker.. haiz~~ scare later bcome heart attack.. hw hw...
3) Go hk shopping.. :P
4) My gd pal going to get marry in nov.. Want to get myself a presentable dress to attend her wedding in Nov.. :P plus...
5) Need to save up for my studies and pay back loan ba~~

Wahaha.. got more and more excuses that i should shed down my weight.. :P haha.. will my dear be happy? haha.. we broke off le.. but still gd friends.. :)

After my cycling trip, i had my dinner at C Nai Hk Cafe.. Hahaha.. I went to the one at east coast. I only went to the katong branch with kel and sy on last sat for supper.. I ordered instant noodle again... Hahaha.. But this time round it turns to be much more better than the one i had at katong. This time round i had to finish it up.. (haahaa.. no other meanings arh.. cos tat time is kel helped me eat half de mah...) But lao da they all thinks the food over there, only so-so.. Omg.. Did i recommend the wrong stuffs again.. Or my taste bud getting more and more yucks le.. :( haha.. had a chat abt my hk trip... :) haha.. but one thing i am stunned.. lao da asked me a question.. "You liked winnie the pooh a lot hor?" Erm.. Why am i surprised by this question.. Pple who knows me so long.. should knows i very xiao hai zi de.. plus i like winnie the pooh.. otherwise i won't have so many winnie the pooh plush toys at hm.. haha.. But i only know this person or so called i met this person twice.. and he knows i like winnie the pooh.. haha.. My phone and ez-link card betray me.. but he only saw my ez-link card once.. so.. erm~~ i can conclude that this person is very detail person plus very caring and considerate person..omg~~ i only met pple twice.. yet i am giving him such a high scores.. haha~~

Erm~~ i had my stupid idea with me again~~ So called, i did a stupid thing last time.. I actually got asked him whether he wants to join us to hk or not.. haha.. but he ignore the questions.. i think he thinks that i siao liao.. lol.. :P i asked my friends also mah.. But none of my friends wants to go.. I asked brothers, one of them going in aug while the other one will thinks very weird, why should he go with my family members.. i scare later more and more complex... then it going to be very hard to explain~~ alamak~~ i dun have gfs meh? or bcos all my gfs attached le? or i much more closer with my brothers they all? haiz~~ Then i told my cousin.. i think lao da will be a gd choice.. Cos three out of five knows him.. easilier lah~~ then it will take care of us also mah.. plus he went there last year.. haha... wasn't that a brillant idea.. we shall see wat it going to turn out to be.. i doubt that he will wants to join us.. cos he might feel the awkward over there.. But i really thinks he can click with us.. Cos he and my cousins got common interest.. like photography.. wahaha.. then they can click together ba? hahaa.. stop stop.. i shall let my cousins they all decide..

ytd morning, i received a stupid msg from brother.. haaha.. quite sometime never see him le... hehe... did miss them a bit lah~~ cos they always been there listen to me.. :) hehe.. he always hear me complain abt my previous job.. hahaa.. but i also happy for him.. i thinks he patch with his ex-gf le.. :) haha.. both my brothers are attached liao.. less time for me le.. haiz~~ now i had to find my own entertainment program le.. :( but suan ta meng you liang xin.. sometimes will still sms me.. :P asks me when i free.. :P

10th July 04 as draft

在幾年前﹐有一位女生在網絡上認識了那一位男生。兩人能在茫茫人海中認識可說是一種緣份。從網絡的交談朋友到至今的好朋友﹐並非是一朝一夕就可以發生的。 兩人之間也一起陪伴着彼此度過許多難可能關。可能是男生對女生那種大哥哥的關懷讓女生永遠都會記上載心。因為女生從來都沒有遇過那麼好一位好的男生﹐無論是在學業‘金錢或精神上﹐男生總是默默地幫助女生。在女生最難過與傷心是﹐他總會聽者她的訴苦與安慰她。她對他真的有那麼心動了﹐可是他們只有純正的友情﹐只要動了真情﹐兩人的有遊友誼就會畫上句號。。。。 那一天女生在一時衝動發了一哲簡訊給男生。。 男生打了電話給她，你是不是大姨媽來阿.. 女生一聲不吭就把電話給掛上了.. 從那天起,兩人的友誼就畫上了一個句號... 時間慢慢的過去了,女生這一時才發現她不能失去他.. 因為他早已成為她心目中的一位非常要好的好朋友.. 一個可以給她依賴與鼓勵的好同堂... 很可惜,她再一時衝動之下毀了所有的一切... 當她開始後悔時,可能已經太過遲了,想再回頭都很難了.....

Hahaha.. i wrote this on 10th of July 04.. When i read it, my tears fall when i am in office..

guess is a personal experience or from storybook..

Food..

Home-made yu sheng.. yummy~~~~




A newly opened Japanese Restaurant at City Hall.. Queue very long.. Food ok lah~~



opps.. The photos didn't turn out to be good.. Erm~~ i tried the softshell crab handroll and unagi steam rice not too bad~~



Tofu CheeseCake.. not too bad~~ cheaper than sun with moon.. but sun with moon is nicer..



Farewell lunch..



Wahaha.. Guess where is this place.. carousel at Royal Plaza Hotel.. Hehehee.. thanks to my colleagues~~ i will miss you all a lot~~ i had learnt a lot of stuffs from you all.. :)

Japanese Food


Dessert Corner


Mixture



Tum Yum Soup...... Yummy~~~ :P


Western Food


Dessert... bagus~~


Chocolate Fondue




hehee.. very nice.. but too full~~ the grapes very sweet..



Sushi Tei

SoftShell Crab dunno wat roll..



Octopus

Erm~~ this is the first time that i tried it.. not too bad~~ i quite like it~~


Fried Octopus



Iknura steam egg.. not too bad~~ but very ex leh..



Erm~~~ dunno wat fish with teriyaki sauce... nice nice... :P



Ended the meal with Phoenix roll...



Marche~~ At Vivo City

Salmon Rosti~~ hehe.. i love it~~


Mushroom & Ham Crepe.. Yummy~~


End the meal with a bottle of rootbeer.. :)

Dian Xiao Er at AMK Hub

Dunno wat meat.. wu hua rou.. if i didn't remember wrongly..Erm~~ not too bad~~ very soft.. but is fatty meat...





Mayo Prawns



Shi qu ka qa.. Yummy.. i love it.. :P bagus~~



End the meal with this dessert..



heng ku...

Chi de ku zhong ku.. fang wei ren shang ren.. :P

Manhatten Fish Market

I like the flaming prawns~~



Thai Express

Softshell Crab Tan Hoon.. Wahhaa.. this is one of my favourite at Thai Express



Green Curry Chicken



End the Meal with Tea with Gloria Jeans Coffee

New York Cheese Cake



Mocha Latte


Mingles at Novena Square

Erm~~ i dun really like the soup.. damn~~ i put a lot of pepper leh.. :(



Cheese HotDogs with Rosti



Vines at Novena Square

Broccoli Soup


Pan-fried Salmon


Dessert..


hehe... vines food is not bad~~ i quite like it~~ hehe.. is a farewell lunch from my another group of colleagues~~ heheee.. wo ai si ni meng le.. :P

hehe.. next time then show zhen fa huo hai xian photos.. :P

Such a Failure

Hahaha.. So called this week, i am on course for four days. But i prefer to do some work. lol.. :P

Today my friend was telling me, "Erm... Do you know how much does this course cost?" I was like 1k plus lor.. "No, it cost more than 3k.." WHAT!! No wonder my previous company dun want to send me to this course even though i requested or she knows that i will leave them? Feel pretty lucky that my boss still willing to send me to such a course, should i cherish the chance on just focus on my work instead on my own personal life.

Guess now i need to stop going out until my pay day come, otherwise i can declare bankrupt soon le.. Erm~~ how to go to my hongkong trip. Hopefully i can move everything to production before i take my leave, otherwise will be very paiseh leh.. Need my colleagues to cover me for that period of time.

Seriously as compare with the rest of my colleagues, i am like someone who justa graduate from school and don't know anything. Feel such a failure, guess i need to work double hard to make things work. But, i got something in mind.. Should i go study? If i go study, i had to control my expenses plus my personal life le. No more of going out often. No more of going to cafes.. I need to do a lot of sacrifice.. will i be handle my job well... furthermore i got limited leave in my current company.. i wondering can i cope with my studies and work well... well guess i will only think whether i am going to register my course or not till mid of April. see wat is the progress for my work first... Hahaa..i still remember that time i went for interview, the interviewer asked me whether i planned to further my studies or not.. my replied was yes, in june.. hahaa.. :P

Eat, Sleep & Work

Erm.. i had start worked for 3 weeks already. If you asked me whether i had accept the challenges that are laid down for me in the future? My reply will be no. Seriously, i had been taking the first 3 weeks as my honeymoon period. I had to slowly adapt the environment over there. To people who knows me, you knows i am very talkactive and if u are good or close to me, i will just said watever i had in mind. I dun think much. If i am not happy, i will just show it or so called express it. Now i had a bad habit, is to stun there and mind totally blank out. Time to sped up to catch up my bullet train working style, no more playing a fool.

As for life or so called personal life, not much complaint. This week, i had met up with quite a number of people that i didn't manage to catch up with sometimes. I met up with my ex-colleagues, ah jie and my buddies plus my friend's brother. He is working in the same company as me. Pretty surprise...

I had been going back to previous company for sometimes after work to work for free. Guess that is not going to a very gd impression for either side of my company now. After finished tml task, i will cut down the time of going back. At most maybe meet up with my ex-colleagues for dinner ba~~ Previous wed and friday, i had stayed there till midnite. Friday's nite, i went out supper with my colleague and her husband for porridge near whampoa here. Prety not bad, we ordered 5 dishes. But her husband don't want to take money from me. I very paiseh, insists of returning the money to her. After that, i went to catch The leap years at The Cathay. Erm.. Guess that will be consider as a movie that can represent singapore. Is quite a touching movie, imagine that was sobbing for almost half of the movie. Why? Guess mainly because a lot of thoughts are floating in my mind. While the person who went to watch with me was laughing all the way. Guess she dun understand wat is the meaning of love. So i just purely ignore her. That's was pretty rude of me, right?

Min arh min.. Dun practically think that you had been thru a lot, then u can "zhi yi wei shi le." In truth, most of the time, you are just floating on top of the surface. You should be grateful that in life, you had a lot of guardian angel that once were with you or still with you. When you are down, there were some friends that you can turned to. Is just depending on whether you wants to open up yourself or not. There is still someone who willing to care for you. "Jiefu" was wat u used to call him. Althought he can't be with you most of times, he will still once in while asked how are you, still ok? anything goes wrong. jil.. thanks for being at my side for these few years. I told him i feel happy, no longer had that kind of down moments in life. I feel like i am in love le. What his reply to me was, "Are you serious? Think carefully, ok?" My reply to him was : "Why? scare i got hurt again?"

let me talk more abt my ubin trip on Good friday ba. I went pulau ubin with my cousins. It had changed a lot since in the past, min, is time to move on. When i reached there, the ferry terminal had changed. The only thing that remains unchange is the bumboat. Supposing gathering time was 12.30, late queen, as usual late but the organizer worst. His excuse was "Cannot find parking lots," diaoz~~ When we reached there, he was just behind us.

Organizer : "Let's go, they are waiting for us at the shop near the temple."
Us : "Ok, let's head down to there."
Organizer : "Erm.. Where is the temple arh?"
Us : "Just in front"

When we reached there and met up with the rest of pple. He was busy explaining why he was late and etc....

Organizer : "We wants to walk to chek jawa or take a van or cycle? Dun cycle lah, that time my friends come here and cycle, injure until very jialat andt etc... "

I am mumbling to my cousin,let's go to the information centre to get more info before we go to chek jawa. On the way walking there, i was telling her. "Omg, i wondering is this the first time that he come to pulau ubin or first time to chek jawa. More like first time to pulau ubin, he dun even knows where is the temple. Waste my money sia.."

Luckily, there were some pple agrees to cycle. So we managed to join the group of pple to cycle. Don't need to follow him.. :P There were a group of 10 of us wants to cycle but most of the bicycle shop had no bicycle for us. Luckily, we found one shop, just that need to pump air. My bike a bit weird weird, then a guy(lao da, for cycle grp) helped me tried out my bike. Hehe.. "No problem, just had to change the gear." We proceed on to cycle after that. You knows lah,over there a lot of slopes, furthermore min long time never do such an intensive exercise le. Alayws stay in office or at home slack, therefore going up the slopes, is consider as a very jialat thing to me. Then i was complaining to my cousin.. "Aiyah, jilat liao.. old le.. cannot go up le.." Lao da was ver encouraging sia.. "Jia you.." Erm.. you know lah.. i very shy de.. so i kept quiet all the way.. Even we had a gathering outside chek jawa, i was also very quiet, keep stick with my cousins. Didn't really talk much. Inside chek jawa, of cos, i keep very quiet, i didn't stay with them very long, let's them have time to communicate with one and another.. lol.. :P i stook outside the sun for quite a while, then brother called me for direction.. Told him, i was at pulau ubin, his reply "hahaa.. You must be kidding.." I cannot go there meh, maybe i am not such an active person ba.. lol.. :P I saw jellyfish.. First time outside underwater world wor.. Standing there very long looking the jellyfish and chatting with brother. Then all of them came, i actually dun want to take the grp photos.. but no choice, kana caught by the organizer.. After that, we walked to the coastal area, my elder cousin sprain her ankle. But she insisted she was ok, we just proceed on. We stopped at this big stone for quite a while for photo taking session where we were seperated from the big grp. 5 of us were together, 3 of us are cousins, 1 is lao da and another 1 is a girl who we knows her during the trip. hehe.. u knw my pattern, i dun want to be lightbulb.. i just keep walking walking.. they stopped, i stopped.. hehee.. we even screamed out when the flight took off... but lao dao said we never "fang dan qu hao" Erm.. guess bcos we very scared kana laugh by other pple ba.. :X Hehehe.. They took a lot of photos, in the meanwhile, i am complaining hw hungry am i. Due to i just had a packet of noodles at 11am.. then till 5pm.. still got nothing to eat.. Had to share my bread with my elder cousin.. so hungry.. :( had a chatted with lao da while we walking on the way. Then the 3 ladies just throw me in front talking with him.. Erm.. ok lah.. quite a nice guy.. We climbed up the tower, but i stopped halfway to catch my breath plus i a bit very scare cos the thing is shaking quite badly. Futhermore a lot of pple coming down... I paused for quite a while before i move up.. Finally finished up the whole trip in chek jawa, we was on the way going back to mainland. Those pple are taking van were waiting for this lady who is with us. Organizer : "A, why you so slow? We all waiting for you. The four of them going to cycle back.. " Haha.. A very paiseh.. :X On the way cycle back, very jialat, a lot of slope, i almost faint, almost wants to give up halfway, dun plan to continue anymore. But very paiseh, dun want so many pple to wait for me, move on lor.. struggle a bit.. saw the community centre, now become NEA duno wat..I was so thirsty that i struggling to cycle till i return the bike and buy mineral water.. ARGH~~ after i return the bike, we stopped there for while, then this organizer came forward.. He stopped me, said we going back mainland. Go there then buy.. No choice lor.. take water from my second elder cousin.. LL... Quite a big group of us, therefore we had to spilt for serveral boats. We finally reached mainland le, going hawker centre to look for seats.. ARGH~~ no seats.. I spotted a table, while my cousin spotted another table.. No choice, i had to sit seperate tables with them, otherwise i will have to throw A alone with all the guys. Kana suan by lao da during the dinner.. Wahaha.. :P Super dehydrate after coming back from pulau ubin.. Bought a lime juice during dinner and i went to buy another bottle of mineral water. Didn't really finish up my dinner, guess i drink more water than i take in carbonhydrates.. Seems like it is a good place for pple who wants to slim down. Took a bus to tampines, 6 pple took the ride. lao da, A and B plus 3 muskerteers.. A went for dinner at tampines foodcourt cos she was a vegeterian. While B joined us walking ard.. 5 of us went walking ard the pasam malam which i walked last week.. tm.. finally we go to century square foodcourt for drinks.. Lao da treats us drinks.. :P had a long chat till the uncle chase us out of the food court. Guess this is the first time that all of us had an experienced of being chased out from the food court.. I took train with them cos my second elder cousin said she wants to sing ktv.. Ok lor.. i didn't manage to get a seat to sit with them again~ i sit beside lao da.. and chat~~ haha.. had a really long chat.. till ard kembangan~~ my cousins asked me go over.. and decide whether hw lah~~ then a guy walked in the train, wanted to sit at my seat.. Lao da seems like telling that guy, this seat is being taken. I very paiseh.. faster cut down the talktime and walk back to my seat and contiune my conversation with him. I alight at city hall with my second elder cousin.. while my elder cousin, B and lao da contiune the journey.. home sweet home.. i heard my elder cousin said he stood up all the way back home and had a chat with them.. haha.... :P

Sat, i went to express pedicure... first time experience.. really like a tai tai life leh.. opps.. no wonder my bank going to extreme low now... jialat~~ hope i can tahan till pay comes.. cos this month i had been working for free.. no pay.. :(

sunday, suppose to meet da jie da they all for dinner. Cos it had been a long time that we ever met up with a friend. But i become pilot le, kana suan throughout the whole nite on msn.. Erm~~ is my fault.. so LL lor..

today i going back to my ex-company to help out again~~ hope this is the last time that i will be doing this for free.. otherwise either side of my company will be very piss off with me le..

mix feeling~~

i just dun want to think abt anything else... maybe i just need a break to walk on further.. hopefully everything will be fine~~ and let me move out of here.. seriously, now i feel like going oversea to work. Even is a short period of project, guess i will still take up and leave for a while..

Brand New Start

This week, i had start my job at NCS. I can foresee that it is going to be very challenging as compare to my previous. Within the first three days of the job, i had attended two meetings, one and half hour and three hours respectively. Guess there is a lot of training ahead of my job here. My colleagues mainly are much more older than me, plus they are very experienced in IT line. While as for me, i feel that i am so little in front of them, just like a fresh graduate who just graduate and come out to society to work. Guess there will be a very steep learning curve in front of me.

First day of work, i reached my desk around 11 plus am. It is almost lunch hour. I met my project manager and my colleagues in the team. While two of them are my ex-colleagues which form part of my project. The rest are mainly doing different stuffs from me.. They are very nice pple, been asking me to join them for lunch everyday. so called, i dun have no kakis for lunch lah. I think i cannot compare my previous job and this job that often now. Otherwise, i might regret coming to here. Cos no friends here, a bit very lonely.. Mainly chat with my ex-colleagues thru mails or msn. No longer face to face chat. But one thing that currently i like it a lot, is that i can leave at 6.15 or sometimes on the dot. I wondering will this working style changed? Erm~~ seriously i am puzzled by one thing, why they want to employ me? I am not technically strong nor hardworking type.

Got to buck up a lot, i hope i can tahan till the end. Don't give up halfway, nobody going to support me le wor~~ min, is time to grow up.. look like a junior consultant not as a small kid anymore.. I got a lot more hardwork to put in and handle ..

On Monday and Wednesday, i went back to my previous company to help out. I did something stupid ytd, was to tell my project manager that i going back to my ex-company to help out or so called doing handover session. Opps.. I think i going to kana spot check soon.. aiya~~big mouth lah~~ eat lunch only, why should i talk so much abt ir... hhahaa.. guess i really dun use to this environment ba~~ give me sometime to accept the new changes. Just like sometime i am not used to picking up my best friend calls, ever since he stopped calling me. at first, i really feel dun get use to it but slowly, i am getting used to it. Erm.. If he is reading this, i hoped that he will understand, don't worry, i won't msn you.. haha.. or so called u can block me ba~~ otherwise u will be very jialat, always need to hide as offline mode. Cos i can use msn at work le.. not as if i am at my ex-company, where i am not allow to use msn.