today mummy help me apply medicine on my injuries... i thought of louis... lolo.. i also dunno why.. maybe he is a sweet bf ba.. kekeke.. last time whn i am with him together.. i dunno how to cherish... lolo.. :P but now he should be leading a much more happier life than me... there is once i went out with him... my hand is full with blue black.. he scold me.. and bring me to watson.. he bought a lot of medicine for me.. no matter is for wat kind of injuries... haha.. he is really dann sweet lor... really miss that period of time we had.... but tat is before i enter poly...

when i entered poly, we broke up... maybe bcos of my childish character or partly abt friends... i met another nice guy too... although he did not actually accompany thru my poly life but at least he willingly to listen to woes... is this considered not bad?? at least he let me dependent on.. haha.. not long ago.. he left... after entering my life for 2 years plus ba...

a few months back, i met another guy... which i also dunno how i feel abt him.. only purely friendship or i like him or i just finding someone to dependent on... i rather had a distance between both of us... than hurting myself again.. i dun even know wat i want now... so i dun dare to ask for too much.. maybe keep as wat we are now will be better... i dun understand wat is love or relationship.. whenever someone is too good to me.. i might have a bit of feelings towards that person but after sometime.. that kind of feelings will disappear.. except towards korkor.. haha... maybe my priorty now is not to differentiate wat is love and wat is like or wat is relationship.. it should STUDYING HARD for tomorrow paper... and not thinking of anything else...

erm.. i had finish one of my paper... 2 more papers to go.. i also temporary leave my job at cartel... soon going back to GC.. haha.. couldn't believe it.. i will be going back there again.. i hope 10 days of working life at there won't be a sad moment.. bcos it might be the last time i will be working there.. after finish my work at GC on the 15.. on the 16 i am going for my attachment.. erm.. i am a bit worry bcos i also dunno where i will be going.. somemore a bit weird.. need to go for interview.. luckily now i still haven received any call from the company but i received from the school liao.. they ask me to be prepare.. diao... i also dunno.. hai~~ this week something unpleasant happened.. i also duno wat to do.. i keep quiet.. wait till she wan to talk abt it.. then we shall see how.. hopefully there is a chance for her... alamak.. i am making myself crazy by working every moment after my exams... today my collegue very sweet.. she sing birthday song to me.. hehe.. erm.. i still prefer to be in siglap.. bcos at least i will be happier.. hai~~~ not really happy at my current work place lor... today kana scolding bcos of nothing.. i am very sure is not i serve lor.. i been working at there for so long liao.. how can i make such a big mistake.. i keep quiet... although i duno at the girl well.. also dun want to says out... hai~~ this is the second time liao.. next time dun want to be so good liao.. says out who did that arh.. dann.. always me kana... i dun have multiple hands sia.. lolo.. :P but anyway i did had my happy moments there too.. is just that siglap is nearer to my house plus much more easier to communicate... n the manager is better.. lolo.. :P forget it.. i haven study for global.. hai~~~ global is killing me.. hai~~ go sleep liao..

hai~~~ almost every post start with erm.. so fast.. it has been a week liao.. i have not been posting any msg every since that nite.... i rushing for my project.. i.... my feeling like a mixture... a moment.. i can feel so happy... in another moment i am down.. i am glad that he did not says i am a pest toward him.. but i also know even though the friendship did not end.. it will still not be the same as past..erm.. bcos of i too ren xing.. i almost lost a gd friend... most of the time bcos of my ren xing.. i lost a lot things which i couldn't find back... hai~~ dun talk abt it liao..

yesterday, i went to work.. suppose to be runner.. but in the end my manager walked towards me.. and ask me to change duties with my friend.. she says dunno how to be host.. i very stunned sia.. cos my friend used to be praise that very good at doing host.. i walked towards and change with her.. but never says anything abt wat my manager says... i keep quiet.. do my job lor... i been walking in and out... my supervisor asked me to stand there arh.. dun walk here and do arh.. i diam diam.. but no choice.. somethings need to do by myself.. cos everyone also very busy.. i paiseh to ask them to help me... my boss came over and talked to me.. he says "Today is much more better than yesterday, it is much more systematically." wow.. i stunned sia.. bcos the queue was dann long.. and i had to handle on my own.. i really diao.... some customer says thank you to me sia.. haha.. this is the first time.. i also quite happy with my performance... and my boss ask me a few question:
1) you started work from wat time?
2) are you feeling tired?
3) the last comment he gave me is "you did a good job... "

wow.. i really dann stunned... he so good.. erm.. even though i dun have the $50 bucks.. i also dun mind.. cos my boss dann caring lor.. my 2 mangers arh.. also not bad... when irene dun scold pple...she is quite kind sia.. today i was so afraid sia.. cos i am late for 6 mins.. when i reached there.. not enough pple.. hai~~ i bcome temporary cashier.. then plus runner... wow... as usual.. such a clumsly pple like me.. dunno wat is called tidy.. my manager helped me to make collar neater... wow.. i was so touch sia.. both my manager did tat do me.. hehee... erm.. so anyway got money or dun have the money also no longer important to me.. as long as they treat me not bad.. bcos i am not so greedy lor.. as long as i did my job can liao.. dun ask for too much.. btw.. i saw gary on sat.. he came to my workplace with his girl girl..

finish talking abt my job... now is abt my personal life... erm.. i want like to thank someone for coming down to fetch me on sat nite.. erm.. i also dunno wat i want.. just feeling very tired.. hoping to make myself to be more independent.. plus stronger.. dun rely on pple so much.. n have a clearer mind of wat i wants.. instead of doing it bcos of "ren xing"..

nowadays super shag... almost everyday sleep less than 2-3 hours of sleep.. now i finally know wat is the toughest period in poly.. erm.. i am so shag in first and second year.. now last year liao.. suddenly feel the stress.. so many projects n tons of works to do..

Projects on Hand now..
1) C# (this coming thursday) - only 20% completed
2) Global supply chain report - 0% completed
3) Citect Report - 0% completed
4) Techno Report - 0 % completed
5) APO Common Test on this coming friday - haven touch at all
6) APO Lab test (next tuesday) - haven touch at all

** all the above means that almost everyday i had to burn midnight oil.. plus this friday i got work also.. hai~~~

nowadays my temper won't be that good.. so pls dun come and try to provoke me.. cause when i get not enough sleep.. i will be very irritated so easily.. that i can't even control myself... erm.. i says sorry first.. if i provoke u..

10th July 04

在幾年前﹐有一位女生在網絡上認識了那一位男生。兩人能在茫茫人海中認識可說是一種緣份。從網絡的交談朋友到至今的好朋友﹐並非是一朝一夕就可以發生的。 兩人之間也一起陪伴着彼此度過許多難可能關。可能是男生對女生那種大哥哥的關懷讓女生永遠都會記上載心。因為女生從來都沒有遇過那麼好一位好的男生﹐無論是在學業‘金錢或精神上﹐男生總是默默地幫助女生。在女生最難過與傷心是﹐他總會聽者她的訴苦與安慰她。她對他真的有那麼心動了﹐可是他們只有純正的友情﹐只要動了真情﹐兩人的有遊友誼就會畫上句號。。。。 那一天女生在一時衝動發了一哲簡訊給男生。。 男生打了電話給她，你是不是大姨媽來阿.. 女生一聲不吭就把電話給掛上了.. 從那天起,兩人的友誼就畫上了一個句號... 時間慢慢的過去了,女生這一時才發現她不能失去他.. 因為他早已成為她心目中的一位非常要好的好朋友.. 一個可以給她依賴與鼓勵的好同堂... 很可惜,她再一時衝動之下毀了所有的一切... 當她開始後悔時,可能已經太過遲了,想再回頭都很難了.....

Hahaha.. i wrote this on 10th of July 04.. When i read it, my tears fall when i am in office..

..... just now talk to korkor... told him abt how my life now.... he ask me to forget everything and move on with wat i had now.. i am quite xinfu liao.. got someone who teng me so much.. why should i keep looking backwards and thinking of everything again.. yesterday saw jiefu msg.... jiefu broke up with jiejie... erm... although i didn't saw wat happened... i know roughly wat happened.... i sms him.. and told him abt the ending... he reply me.. something which i saw... i also dunno how to reply.. i consider that reply as very cold... i got "min" this nickname also bcos of him... aft he started calling min... most pple stop calling my name... they called me min... now as a fresh start.. maybe i should change away my min... wat korkor says... it did hurts a bit.. but as tears keep flowing down... slowly... i guess i won't feel any pain... anyway i landed in a relationship which i also dunno whether is a right thing or a wrong thing...... will i be happy or the ending is going to be like jiejie and jiefu..

3 years ago... i tot tat both were so xinfu.. n maybe will last long... now... everything is gone... and one of them got hurt till so deep... when u really love tat person whole heartedly... in the end... u realise that she/he dun love u at all, just use u as a spare typre.. how would u feel... saw a lot of my friends... been thru relationships but always end with a sad ending... but there is a girl who i admire so much.. Candy... (wahaha.. couldn't believe right) i knew candy thru Louis.. there is a time where three of us wanted to go out together but such a pity.. candy couldn't make it.. i knew her for so long.. before i enter poly till now... she been thru ups and downs in her relationship.. she cried so much but she will never let her bf nor anyone knows how she feel... she kept all her feelings inside her heart... i really admire her a lot... now she found her happiness... i feel so happy for her...

Candy, wo zu fu ni... wo xi huan ni yong yuan duo hui na mei xin fu...

wahahaa.. never tot that i will write out a story abt me sia.. lololo.. :P

i am a very simple girl who really has a simple mind but has a very bad tempered and emotional.. u will never know whether the next second i will be happy, sad or angry.. sometimes i can take joke while there are times i can't take any sarcastic remarks... i can counted myself as very lucky liao.. no illness.. u will never know how much people suffer from illness.. today i watched "ai you ming tian" ... there is a little girl who is only 13 years old.. yet she had contracted cancer... it remind me of my dearest cousin... he been away for almost two months... yet till now.. i still couldn't forget wat had happened... just now when we saw that 13 year old xiao mei mei, mum almost going to cry out, i faster switch to another channel.. sometimes i feel dann hurt in my heart.. but sometimes it is okie for me.... i also dunno.. still very blur sia.. i really scare i will says out the wrong thing... as i am a person who is not at communicating with others.. nor good at words.. erm... not every cancer patient is that lucky... u may had the determination to fight with the illness.. in the end.. u may lose the war... sometimes maybe losing the war will be much more better... at least u won't be feeling so painful...

i considered as very xinfu liao.. always got friends around to help me... there is always people entered my life and left me.. erm.. everytime i will end a page with a tear and start a page with happiness.. haha.. my book is full with happiness and sadness.. but at least i had learn something is to cherish pple around me... bcos it hurts when u lose someone who is close to you..

today i went chinese garden with ying n ester.. but i skip 3 hours of lecture.. hehe.. :P we took a lot of pic... i will post it... when i am free.. lolo.. :P

today i went to work.. today haywire sia.. my manager kana scold by customer till she want to cry.. when she step into the counter... she like crazy sia.. scold us until siao.. i dun even dare to step in.. luckily.. today my money tally... plus she dun need to return the shortage of money on friday.. phew... feel so relieve sia... erm.. this is the first time i felt sympathy for her... this whole week she had a tough time.. almost everyday she is doing full shift.. i work on wednesday, friday and sunday.. she also worked full shift on wednesday, friday and sunday.. today like volcano erupts... really very fierce sia.. but she quite good also.. jus like to act act only...

erm.. me and him.. are friends in the past.. we are also going to be friends from now onwards or in future.. just like good buddies.. i will treat him as a very good buddy i ever had.. thanks buddy.. i know once u start to aviod my calls, there is really an ending in our friendship.... thanks for looking after me, this xiao mei mei, for the past few three years.. if without you, i believe, min won't be that strong.. min will still like a small kid.. cry jus bcos of some little small things..

today dann bad mood that i dun ven want to go work nor go back to sec school to celebrate moon cake festival.. i yearning to go back so much and gather with my friends.. but today everything is gone.. this is such a bad week for me.. at first i lose my thumb drive.. i.. treat as nothing.. then now.. i lose my hp in the cab.. this is the second time i lose my hp.. i......... supper bad mood.. yesterday i went to work.. cashier cashier.. hai~~ encounter shortage of money.. i couldn't believe that i will shortage that much.. hai~~ really want to faint liao.. so many things happen in a such a short time.. i really regret why i wanted to end my friendship with you.. no matter wat happened, you are always at my side.. now i sense i really loss,, i dunno wat to do.. only u will understand how i feel.. i dunno why.. i feel so painful.. at first i tot.. nothing.. i can stand on my own.. i trying very hard to forget u..... but i know i can't.. i lie to u.. tat day i didn't drunk.. i just want to call u...... i dunno why.. maybe this 3 years i had dependent on you so much that i dun even know that.. i am not that strong.. aft tat incident.. i trying very hard to tell myself u must be strong.. u had grown up.. u must look aft your beloved ones... i lose everything..... pple will says only a phone and thunb drive and some money.. wat for like want to die like that.. i lose a very precious friendship and my cousin within 1 month plus.. should i cry? or should i be happy? first week.. i been thru is so hard.. luckily.. ah-han, ester and ah-ying.. they all been thru with me.. and be at my side.. or else i really dunno.. i cry every nite.. let my tears to be with me.. now.. when i am slowly letting go my pain.. i let everything slowly leave me.. in the end... i make a mistake again... i fall down again...

this might be the hardest time for me again.. i had never cry that much... last year when i came back from vacation.. tat is coldest period we ever had... never tot that we will have that again... pple always says that i had feelings in you.. i says no.. it is impossible.. i won't fall in love with you.. and you had gf liao.. but now i believe.. i did slowly getting use that you are at my side.. when i happy or sad.. u are always the first one who i want to share with.. but when tat day.. i went to airport alone... i sat there.. tears dropping now.. i saw plane taking off and landing.. i remembered last year when i went back to australia.. i saw "him"... less than a year.. "he" had already leave us.. before "he" leave i always pray so hard that there will be a miracle to appear.. that you won't had to leave.. in sg.. we can had laugh n fun.. but while in australia.. all of you.. are so sad.. we can't even share the burden with "you".. the leaving of you.. give an impact on us.. i told myself.. no matter wat had happened.. i will take care of everyone around me.. i also know that i had slowly fall in love with someone who treats me like a buddies.. there is no ending.. i decided to end the friendship.. i dun want to feel the pain... i tot i can forget everything within a short period of time.. but i am wrong.. is only such a short period of time.. to me.. it seems like so long..

now.. wat can i do.. try to stronger.. try harder to ferget you.. try to throw away all the past.. no relationship for me..... i am not a cinderella.. waiting for a someone who i love.. i am just a human being who must know how to look after myself and not to let other pple to worry for me.. i like the feeling being pamper as my parents pamper me a lot.. but i know from this minute onward.. i no longer that baby.. i must change to be more strong and look aft pple....... i use to wish that i am cinderella.. but it is only happen in fairy tale...... not in real life.. my life **** now!! from the moments i start to give up.. i know i will regrets.. but there is turning point for me.. is only to carry on to walk without you, my buddy.. till now.. maybe u are the only one who understands me well...

so fast.. going to end of the week liao.. sian.. erm.. actually tat day i didn't drunk.. just tat i want to forget everythings.. so that's why i am drunk.. there are things that i want to forget forever and forever but just that i really dunno why.. it seems like a recorder keeps repeating the same tape again.. is that really hard to forget you.. i call you that day... you are still the same.. it seems like without me bugging you.. you seems to be much more happier.. you deserve a very BIG thank you... thanks, my friend.. u really help me to pull through a lot in my lifes.. but due to my stubborn i decide to let go of this friendship....... sorry.. hope tat you will forgive me for my childish acts and stubborn..plus selfish ba.. i dun want to hurt myself deeper.. i had to stand much more stronger than anyone.. i promise my korkor.. i told him dun worry, i will help him to look aft everyone especially my grandma.. that's wat i can do for him.. and i know.. maybe he leave is good thing.. at least he won't be suffering so much.. i can sense that no matter how far he goes.. he is always at our side to help us.. bcos he love everyone of us..

i miss both of you a lot.. one is so far away from me.. one is so near to me.. yet i dun dare to step nearer to you.. maybe bcos i scare to get hurts and fall down again... do not wish to try the pain again..

yesterday i went out with my friends.. hahaa.. pig and dogs friends.. we went out to orchard to drink starbucks.. aft that we went to lucky plaza to buy perfume... we bought one escada island kiss.. which cost me $49... wowo... me.... declare bankrupt liao.. after that we went to checkerbox to drink wine.. that chou keith and leo.. fly my aeroplane.. hump!!! luckily still got my friend to accompany me go drink..wahahaha... i really a bit drunk.. dunno why also.. nowadays so fan.. hai~~~ when can things solve.. i really dunno... hai~~~ till now.. i pass my three papers... tomorrow is my last results coming out.. it also is my heartache paper.. i very scare for tomorrow paper... hai~~~

erm.. just now aft school.. i went back home.. instead of going to tat t00pid bar tra|n|ng.. but anyway go there also no money take.. only go there get scolding.. wahhaaa.. the day before i am so shag.. i only slept thr33 hours.. i want to tell the whole world tat i bery sian arh.. and sleepy nowadays.. so a bit haywire.. if can dun stay too near me.. later i let u very paiseh.. dun blame me arh..ehehehe...
after work.. went out with my pig and dog friends again.. we went to eat pizzas at rocky master.. aft tat went to coffee club express at orchard.. wah lau.. my ah-jiejie arh.. wait for us for almost half an hour.. when we reached there... she almost want to kill us liao.. the worst thing tat happened today is tat hor.. today i went to work.. when i stepped into the kitchen.. my manager shouted at me liao.. hai~~ i am so sian.. but i still can laugh all the way thru i worked..lolo...:P

back to the topic arh.. erm.. maybe i had really forgotten wat i had really been thru this one month.. my aunt finally called back.. hehehe.. i am so happy... but i dunno wat is their conversation like.. she also sent something back.. i wanted to know wat is that.. but i dun dare to take a look.. cos mummy won't let me see.. hai~~~ no wonder today mummy whole day at home... i guess she is waiting for the postman.. tat's why she never went out.. erm.. i still wanted to go aus at the end of the year.. from young till now.. everyone dote and care for me.. my aunt treats me also very good.. whenever she comes back.. she definitely will buy something for me.. when we go out.. she will ask me wat i wants.. but now.. i cannot do anything.. only can pray for them.. i hope everything is fine for them.. and i leh.. trying my best to forget a friend who i dunno i can forget or not.. hai~~~

GAMBATTE!!! n|t3..

jus now.. i went to starbuCks... to study.. hehee.. but my friend come and disturb me.. cos he need to borrow something from me.. in the end.. he sit there and talk to me for a while.. after tat he went back home.... not long later.. i received a msg from jiefu... hai~~~ wen shi jian qing wei he wu... cos he and jiejie relationship is down.. but... hai~~~ i also dun want to says too much abt it.. maybe after my warehousing.. then i share it out lah.. lolo.. back to someone.... he is so cute.. when he came over and says sorry to me..somemore with action too... this is the first time sia... i really think he is dann cute...lalalaa.... but too bad i dunno him.. hahaa.. even though i know him.. also be friends only.. cos no relationship for me... i already ruined a very gd friendship with my friend.. so now.. for me is to manage my studies and friendship and financial.. control myself not to spend too much money... and go slim down.. lolo.. :P erm.. my studies arh.. i think my 3 papers.. .. i hope that i can pass my papers...

today my mocha frappe really taste very different.. bcos it added a lot of chocolate sauce.. hehee.. i also dunno why leh.. but i feel so happy to see him today.. lalalalaa... :P

hai~~~again.. got 2 pig and dog friends.... called ah han... and ah ying..
ah han always thinking of purn purn..
while ah ying miss her JQ...
hahahaa

35 Questions of your ideal partner.

[1] How well must he/she know u?
erm.. to be frank.. I dun like pple to know me too well especially my boiboi.. lololo.. :P
[2] Does looks counts?
as long as I dun mind lor..
[3] Must he/she have an X-Factor?
Maybe I too stupid liao.. dun understand wat it means..
[4] Drive a car/bike?
Same as my friend, if I really love him… take public transport I also dun mind..
[5] Go clubbing often?
He like to go… then go lor.. if I go with my friends.. he also cannot says anything..
[6] Feel secure with him/her?
Maybe I a bit possessive.. but I really want some secure.. somemore I am like a xiao mei mei.. always cry.. and avoid things..
[7] Good at cracking jokes?
lolo.. hope that he will cheer me up when I am down.. and will be at my side..
[8] Should he/she be always spending all his/her time with u?
he should not spend all his time to me.. bcos to me.. I will spend most of my time with my friends or cousins or family..
[9] Conservative towards you?
Hahaha.. I also dunno
[10] A quick thinker?
Of cos.. then he can knows wat I wants mah…
[11] Should he/she have a good sense of dressing?
As long as he feel comfortable can liao.. dun wish to force pple to do things tat they dun like
[12] Preferbably what kind of hairstyle? Including colour.
erm.. I dunno leh.. bcos I am like a sotong myself.. always let the person who cut my hair decide for me.. ;)
[13] Should he/she be the one making decisions all the time?
No.. if he always make decision.. makes that I had to listen to him all the time
[14] Romantic?
Yesh.. every girl also want their bf to be romantic…
[15] Shy?
erm.. towards me not shy can liao.. wahaha..
[16] Hot-Tempered?
Who wants a hot-tempered to be their bf/gf?
[17] Loud or Quiet?
Erm.. know when to be loud or quiet..
[18] Generous or Stingy?
Wow.. if can..generous better.. lololo.. but is up to him to decide lah..

[19] Kind or Heartless?
Can I ask for a king bf? Or am I being too greedy abt it?
[20] Cute or Sweet?
i want a sweet n caring guy..
[21] Vain or Casual?
Casual.. I want him to be back himself..
[22] Punk or Hipster?
Anything..
[23] Smart or Stupid?
A smart guy.. but with me hor.. dun act to be too smart.. cos I very stupid..
[24] *For guys* Should she wear heavy makeup most of the time?
Hahaha.. dun need heavy make up lah..look very old sia..
[25] *For girls* Must he dress up all the time?
No lah.. why need to dress up all the time..so troublesome
[26] Should he/she pamper u?
of cos lah.. erm.. I am the only child at home.. mummy and daddy pamper me a lot.. or counted as I am very lucky.. a lot of pple pamper when i am young and now also. .hehee :P
[27] Should he/she be open minded when speaking to u?
I dun like guessing game..
[28] Should he/she be well-educated?
Ya lor….
[29] Good Looking+Dumb OR Ugly+Intelligent
Can ask for someone normal looking + not dumb..
[30] Possessive+faithful OR Freedom+unfaithful
I will give him freedom.. so he must give me too.. but also must faithful lah :P
[31] Childish+Caring OR Mature+Ignorant
When is time to be childish.. he must be childish.. when is time to be mature.. he must be mature…
[32] Should you be able to see a future ahead for u 2?
Erm.. I also dunno.. I very scare to says abt future.. bcos I dunno wat I wants..
[33] Do u think this kind of girl/guy exists?
Hahahaa.. I dunno.. if he is here.. I hope he will stays.. if he is not here.. then slowly come lor..
[34] If yes, have u met him/her? && [35] If no, do u think u will be able to meet him/her?
Hahaa.. if he is here.. I hope he will stays.. if he is not here.. then slowly come lor..

today very sian.. went for bar training.. but my yinyang fail sia.. sob sob..hai~~ but it really tastes yucks.. so next time when i doing bar.. pls dun come there.. or else u sure vomit out all the drinks..chou ying and ester.. throw me alone there.. i so lonely.. sob sob.. and they went to enjoy life.. hahaha.. but overall still okie lah.. now i going to sleep liao.. nite everyone...

btw.. it had been exactly one week we having cold war liao..

sian... i fall sick for two days liao..went to see doctor yesterday.. but till now still haven recover.. sian arh.. today still had to go back to my workplace..

wow.. today i had a great day at sentosa although i caught the cold virus.. hehee.. i toook quite a number of pics.. i went to the skytower at sentosa.. it is 131m tall.. from the top there.. u can see whole of sentosa view and tajong pajar port.. lolo.. erm.. i can says it is definitely a great place... i went to silso and palawan beach.. erm.. btw.. when i going back to mainland i saw bulldog sia.. i a bit very stunned.. he came over and says hi to me.. i really blur sia.. somemore my flu really dann bad lor.. i also wondering how come he knows i am working.. he still ask me dun work lah.. i says i need money.. he says i also mah.. but i never work leh.. erm.. i super stunned sia.. when he bcome so good.. or how come nowadays pple ard me keep asking me dun work.. leo even ask me whether i can handle or not.. erm.. only got one person supporting me..

finally i got the time to write my blog.. today worked from 11am to 11pm but in between got 2 hours break.. but very tired and shag.. my legs bcome so wobbly.. dun feel like walking anymore.. but luckily today dad went over to pick me up.. so tat's why i can reach home so early..

yesterday i went to watch cinderella story with ah-ying.. wahaha.. erm.. she seldom spend money sia.. she very thrifty..so shocked when she agreed to watch cinderella with me.. we went to CL but tickets are sold out.. PS also sold out.. in end we end up in Great World City.. luckily.. morning i went cheers to buy sweet and take one today.. or else i dun think i would want to catch it.. it is so tiring.. imagine from CL to PS and to Great world City again.. just to catch one movie... but overall i did enjoy myself a lot.. i like that movie.. erm.. i also want to be cinderella live happily ever after with my bf.. wahaha (it is impossible...) erm... korkor always ask me.. pls lah.. u how old liao..still believe this kind of fairy tales?? actually i did wish it will happen on me.. but i know it will never..i dun want to search for it liao bcos it is no longer impt for me.. i jus hope tat i can cope with my studies and work at the same time.. tat day, when we want to take 195 to marina.. tat bus driver dropped us halfway and went down to chit chat with the mama shop uncle sia.. the whole bus only got both us.. we laughed like crazy.. hahaa...

today is my second day cold war with him.. erm.. it might be very childish to do it in this way.. but.. i also dunno wat to do..been so tiring.. this year happens a lot of things.. i duno whether i should be happy or not.. but aft he had die.. i grown more mature.. i miss him a lot.. although he no longer survive liao.. i will still remember him.. i am not close to him at all.. he might be a stranger to me.. he is always so far from us.. but he is my cousin.. thanks.. i really grown much more stronger than las time.. me and .... friendship game over already.. i finally admitted i like him since the day i went over to aus.. i remember tat day when i was in the airport.. i was waiting for him to call, jus to says a good bye.. i will be very happy abt it.. but no.. he never called.. in the end, is my korkor called.. he helped me a lot in my life.. he pull me up.. he is really a gd friend.... korkor.. u may be shocked when i says i end up my friendship with him.. and might start to worry tat something will happen.. i am no longer tat xiao mei mei who are so weak.. jus end only.. so wat.. i dun want to carry on with him like this.. i really feel very tired.. maybe we should really take a break.. think whether should we be tat close.. or jus leave a gap in between it.. maybe a gap will help us a lot.. and i won't fall for him too.. i also dunno whether will i regret that monday i sms him the truth.. but thanks a lot, my friend.. u really leave me with very sweet memories...

btw.. i got smth to says.. thanks.. kong....... for letting me to dependent on you from now onwards.. haha.. u really can be my third kor.. no no... should be leo be my third korkor and kong be the fourth one.. lololo..
hahahaa... :P

2 days without him..