hahaa.. is time to buck up and fight again~~ tmd.. why everytime july.. i need to fight sia~~ anyway.. next weekend.. i will not be in town again.. haiz~~ after the break... a tough fire coming... this week need to prepare myself to fight well...
MIN, u will not give up that easily right? min.. u will make sure they regret right~~ are u taking revenge? NOPE~~ i just dun want to be down tat easily and kana bully again~~~ WAT makes me to change my mind again~~ bcos of one bottle of chivas mah? hahaa.. sometimes.. i think i had forgotten abt him.. just that i feel down after the drinking session.. hahaa.. but i am not drunk.. it shows tat in my mind state is.. i need to learn to be more independent and tuff..
Monday, July 16, 2007
Tuesday, July 10, 2007
Disney Cubee
Heheee.. i saw this when i am surfing net. Pretty interesting and i would like to have it.. haha.. but see leh.. who is going US? Can help me buy? or maybe can try hk disney land? But the problem is... I couldn't find anyone in hk is selling it at ebay. Most of them are situated in US.
(took this pic from ebay.. :p)
(took this pic from ebay.. :p)
Back from a short trip
Hahaa.. i went for a short trip with my friends and mum.. Hahahaa.. maybe i should said i got a bully trip or so called.. just a gd memories trip.. but heart pain sia.. spent quite a lot of money.. damn.. those money cannot take back sia.. :P
First day journey :
Friends asked me to meet 6am at Bugis KFC. I told Gary, siao.. Who will go there so early? In the end, i told brother, i fall sick cannot go. But that was a joke, cause all the tickets are with me. Waahaha.. Wat if i really fall sick, i think i will kana whack until very jia lat just like that failure HK trip. Then he scold me, sob sob.. "You think is very funny arh." -_-'''
6am in the morning:
dog called me "Where are you guys? Don't tell me you just left home."
Me : "Nope, on the way."
dog: "Where?"
Me : "ECP" (but in the actual fact, i am still at home. waahahaa.. :P)
ring ring ring.. second call..
Brother : "Sis, where are you now?"
Me : "On the way."
Brother : "Jialat, i just wake up. How?"
Me : "Hahahaa.. We won't wait for you de wor.. :"
Brother : "I think i take a cab down. Bye."
Msg..
G : "Where are you all now? I reached already."
Hahahaa.. Mr G been a very nice guy, he gave almost everyone a msg to wake us up. But i fell asleep only at 4am. Opps.. is like 1 hr away and i need to wake up. We reached there at 6.30am and all of us reached almost the same timing. We board the bus but the bus waited until 6.50 before it departed queen street.. On the way, i brought some biscuits and chips for all of us, just in case we feel hungry. Cos i remember that time when i went to the french village, i was so hungry on the way. Before we reached Singapore custom, it was raining heavily. Opps, it seems like not going to be a smooth journey. Around 9 plus, we reached yong peng for breakfast. All of us order claypot noodles except mum order yong tau fu. Hahaa.. After breakfast, all of us went in to the shop and get chewing gums plus tou shang ping. omg~~~ i had been eating that for the past few days~~ getting sick and tired about it. of course on the journey up the mountain was damn tiring, i did sleep for a while. But my eyes was on the guy sitting in front of me with his gf/wife. Why i keep looking at him? Bcos i think that he looks like k. Omg~~ maybe it had been a long time that i ever met k. I still remember last time, i told him i like guys who have rosy cheeks. After one whole day of army, he was damn shag and he took a pic of himself and send it to me. Haha.. A rosy cheek shag guy.. Hahaha.. Seriously maybe there is no meanings about the pic, i also don't know when i landed in that kind of relationship where there is only friendship exists. In short, it means no ending. Even it had an ending, the ending will not be what a childish kid wants. Seriously, i can't control myself to stop thinking about him and stuffs that we had gone thru.
Yeah~~ Here we reached genting, it was raining heavily. This is the first time that i stayed in Resort Hotel after so many years ago. Therefore we took sometime to locate where the hotel is. When we reached there, we were all so hungry. Imagine five hungry people eating tou sau ping at the hotel lobby while waiting to check in. If i didn't remember wrongly, the queue number was 1067. Haha.. I am a bit surprise that my friends will request connected rooms. Haha.. I thought they wants more privacy.. The receptionist mange to get us a connected room located at level 12. The rooms were just newly renovated. One room is with king size bed, while the other one is with 2 super single beds. Hahaha.. They choose the 2 super single beds, while i had the king size bed. I will post out the hotel room pictures soon.. We had KFC for lunch, i tried the chicken with rice.. Yucks, i hate it.. After that we went to casino, haha... stuck there for quite a while before we headed for dinner. We had dinner at resort hotel there, brother treated us for dinner.. Yummy~~~ i like the crispy chicken--> bagus. The rest of the dishes were 1 plate of vege, 1 plate of tofu and 1 plate of butter prawns~~ the tofu is nice too.. Actually almost all of them are good except the prawns which are not really very fresh.. After dinner, we went shopping while mum went casino. Maybe that is when Joyce saw me at genting. She was asking me on msn last nite. Opps. I did not only went with the guys, my mum was there too just that we headed different ways but DEFINITELY we will have dinner together and go back to hotel room. After shopping, we went coffee bean for coffee.. Wahaha.. Of cos, the coffee was damn big cup lor. The sales assistant offer me to get a regular since is only 1RINGGET more. Opps.. It was really a very big cup lor.. Haha.. I asked that two guys go in to help me find my mum.. I am really tired.. Ended up, they go in and played.. Hai~~ gone case sia~~~ Ard 12, we headed back to hotel rooms.
BTW, we had been playing catching when we were in casino. Brother cannot entered casino cos he was wearing shorts. While me and g went to find them at hotel room and charge my hp. Cos my hp was low batt. Hahaha.. I saw bulldog msg me, where are you all? I replied him le then he told me he is with my mum. Therefore it makes the search easier cos i know where my mum is.
Second day~~~
knock knock~~ wake up~~ we going out after bathing... We had breakfast at the bakery shop at Genting Highland. Wahaha.. This is the first time i had my meals there, the nasi lemak there, not bad lah.. But a bit ex sia~~ After breakfast, my mum went to casino. While we go to theme park. Hahaha.. They being very gentleman, accompany me to 4D magix. Hahaha.. Bulldog said u make sure u dun vomit after it. argh~~ that one i still can take it lah.. :P BUT i almost fall down before i enter. Why arh?? i also dunno.. After the show, we bought the tickets for die hard 4.0. Actually we wanted to catch it the day before but tickets were almost fully sold hard. I wanted to try OSIM chair seats but brother said don't want. Then ok lor, we all took the normal seats.
Time for theme park~~
Before entering the theme park, i am very excited cos it had been a very long time that i had entered theme park. But i went in only played go kart~~~ They said i waste money~~ Why i never played roller coaster with them? The last time that i ever played roller coaster was when i went escape with carina and peggy they all. It had been ages le, i scare i can't take it. Hahaha.. :P While sitting at one corner, i am thinking about him again. Finding ways to forget him. They actually wanted me to play the second round of roller coaster with them but too bad.. they were closed for lunch or was raining heavily. Wahaha.. :x
We head back to room for some snacks and went to casino for a while. Around 4pm, daddy called me. Mum was back in the room, you don't need to find her. Ok lor, i took two jackets with me.. feel like an idiot sia.. I went to watch Die Hard 4.0. If you like action pact movie, this is a MUST for you to watch. I like the movie, is damn good. After movie, bulldog went for flying. Brother asked me why i don't want to play. I gave him a stop reason. "No Money" But in actual fact is i hurt my back damn bad during these few years. Doctor even suggest me to go for x-ray cos my teridon got inflammation. He said i can't go for long journey rides or carry too heavy stuffs. Therefore i had been avoiding it. But till now i still haven go for x-ray, now i still under medication. Mum treated us for dinner. Yummy~~ they dinner was good too~~ I like the steamed fish~~ bagus~~~~~
Third Day~~
We went to genting highland for breakfast... 25.30Ringgit per person.. The food was ok lah.. Don't ever tried a black color chocolate ball. cos brother said that was the most disgusting stuff he ever ate in his life....
Overall, i really enjoyed during the trip. Thanks pals..
First day journey :
Friends asked me to meet 6am at Bugis KFC. I told Gary, siao.. Who will go there so early? In the end, i told brother, i fall sick cannot go. But that was a joke, cause all the tickets are with me. Waahaha.. Wat if i really fall sick, i think i will kana whack until very jia lat just like that failure HK trip. Then he scold me, sob sob.. "You think is very funny arh." -_-'''
6am in the morning:
dog called me "Where are you guys? Don't tell me you just left home."
Me : "Nope, on the way."
dog: "Where?"
Me : "ECP" (but in the actual fact, i am still at home. waahahaa.. :P)
ring ring ring.. second call..
Brother : "Sis, where are you now?"
Me : "On the way."
Brother : "Jialat, i just wake up. How?"
Me : "Hahahaa.. We won't wait for you de wor.. :"
Brother : "I think i take a cab down. Bye."
Msg..
G : "Where are you all now? I reached already."
Hahahaa.. Mr G been a very nice guy, he gave almost everyone a msg to wake us up. But i fell asleep only at 4am. Opps.. is like 1 hr away and i need to wake up. We reached there at 6.30am and all of us reached almost the same timing. We board the bus but the bus waited until 6.50 before it departed queen street.. On the way, i brought some biscuits and chips for all of us, just in case we feel hungry. Cos i remember that time when i went to the french village, i was so hungry on the way. Before we reached Singapore custom, it was raining heavily. Opps, it seems like not going to be a smooth journey. Around 9 plus, we reached yong peng for breakfast. All of us order claypot noodles except mum order yong tau fu. Hahaa.. After breakfast, all of us went in to the shop and get chewing gums plus tou shang ping. omg~~~ i had been eating that for the past few days~~ getting sick and tired about it. of course on the journey up the mountain was damn tiring, i did sleep for a while. But my eyes was on the guy sitting in front of me with his gf/wife. Why i keep looking at him? Bcos i think that he looks like k. Omg~~ maybe it had been a long time that i ever met k. I still remember last time, i told him i like guys who have rosy cheeks. After one whole day of army, he was damn shag and he took a pic of himself and send it to me. Haha.. A rosy cheek shag guy.. Hahaha.. Seriously maybe there is no meanings about the pic, i also don't know when i landed in that kind of relationship where there is only friendship exists. In short, it means no ending. Even it had an ending, the ending will not be what a childish kid wants. Seriously, i can't control myself to stop thinking about him and stuffs that we had gone thru.
Yeah~~ Here we reached genting, it was raining heavily. This is the first time that i stayed in Resort Hotel after so many years ago. Therefore we took sometime to locate where the hotel is. When we reached there, we were all so hungry. Imagine five hungry people eating tou sau ping at the hotel lobby while waiting to check in. If i didn't remember wrongly, the queue number was 1067. Haha.. I am a bit surprise that my friends will request connected rooms. Haha.. I thought they wants more privacy.. The receptionist mange to get us a connected room located at level 12. The rooms were just newly renovated. One room is with king size bed, while the other one is with 2 super single beds. Hahaha.. They choose the 2 super single beds, while i had the king size bed. I will post out the hotel room pictures soon.. We had KFC for lunch, i tried the chicken with rice.. Yucks, i hate it.. After that we went to casino, haha... stuck there for quite a while before we headed for dinner. We had dinner at resort hotel there, brother treated us for dinner.. Yummy~~~ i like the crispy chicken--> bagus. The rest of the dishes were 1 plate of vege, 1 plate of tofu and 1 plate of butter prawns~~ the tofu is nice too.. Actually almost all of them are good except the prawns which are not really very fresh.. After dinner, we went shopping while mum went casino. Maybe that is when Joyce saw me at genting. She was asking me on msn last nite. Opps. I did not only went with the guys, my mum was there too just that we headed different ways but DEFINITELY we will have dinner together and go back to hotel room. After shopping, we went coffee bean for coffee.. Wahaha.. Of cos, the coffee was damn big cup lor. The sales assistant offer me to get a regular since is only 1RINGGET more. Opps.. It was really a very big cup lor.. Haha.. I asked that two guys go in to help me find my mum.. I am really tired.. Ended up, they go in and played.. Hai~~ gone case sia~~~ Ard 12, we headed back to hotel rooms.
BTW, we had been playing catching when we were in casino. Brother cannot entered casino cos he was wearing shorts. While me and g went to find them at hotel room and charge my hp. Cos my hp was low batt. Hahaha.. I saw bulldog msg me, where are you all? I replied him le then he told me he is with my mum. Therefore it makes the search easier cos i know where my mum is.
Second day~~~
knock knock~~ wake up~~ we going out after bathing... We had breakfast at the bakery shop at Genting Highland. Wahaha.. This is the first time i had my meals there, the nasi lemak there, not bad lah.. But a bit ex sia~~ After breakfast, my mum went to casino. While we go to theme park. Hahaha.. They being very gentleman, accompany me to 4D magix. Hahaha.. Bulldog said u make sure u dun vomit after it. argh~~ that one i still can take it lah.. :P BUT i almost fall down before i enter. Why arh?? i also dunno.. After the show, we bought the tickets for die hard 4.0. Actually we wanted to catch it the day before but tickets were almost fully sold hard. I wanted to try OSIM chair seats but brother said don't want. Then ok lor, we all took the normal seats.
Time for theme park~~
Before entering the theme park, i am very excited cos it had been a very long time that i had entered theme park. But i went in only played go kart~~~ They said i waste money~~ Why i never played roller coaster with them? The last time that i ever played roller coaster was when i went escape with carina and peggy they all. It had been ages le, i scare i can't take it. Hahaha.. :P While sitting at one corner, i am thinking about him again. Finding ways to forget him. They actually wanted me to play the second round of roller coaster with them but too bad.. they were closed for lunch or was raining heavily. Wahaha.. :x
We head back to room for some snacks and went to casino for a while. Around 4pm, daddy called me. Mum was back in the room, you don't need to find her. Ok lor, i took two jackets with me.. feel like an idiot sia.. I went to watch Die Hard 4.0. If you like action pact movie, this is a MUST for you to watch. I like the movie, is damn good. After movie, bulldog went for flying. Brother asked me why i don't want to play. I gave him a stop reason. "No Money" But in actual fact is i hurt my back damn bad during these few years. Doctor even suggest me to go for x-ray cos my teridon got inflammation. He said i can't go for long journey rides or carry too heavy stuffs. Therefore i had been avoiding it. But till now i still haven go for x-ray, now i still under medication. Mum treated us for dinner. Yummy~~ they dinner was good too~~ I like the steamed fish~~ bagus~~~~~
Third Day~~
We went to genting highland for breakfast... 25.30Ringgit per person.. The food was ok lah.. Don't ever tried a black color chocolate ball. cos brother said that was the most disgusting stuff he ever ate in his life....
Overall, i really enjoyed during the trip. Thanks pals..
Thursday, July 05, 2007
drawahouse
Based on your drawing and the 10 answers you gave this is a summary of your personality:
You are sensitive and indecisive at times. You are a freedom lover and a strong person. You are shy and reserved. If you've drawn a cross on each of windows, you always want to live alone. Once you have a problem, you need a friend with you. Your life is always full of changes.
You will avoid being alone and seek the company of others whenever possible. You love excitement and create it wherever you go. You have a strong personality and you like to command, influence and control people.
You added a flower into your drawing. The flower signifies that you long for love. It also safe to say that others don't see you as a flirt. You don't think much about yourself.
http://www.drawahouse.com
erm.. u all should go try.. it is quite true for me..
once i have a problem, i hope to have a friend ard - true
shy and reserved - true
You will avoid being alone and seek the company of others whenever possible. - confirm.. cannot live independently.
You have a strong personality and you like to command, influence and control people. --> not true leh..
Your life is always full of changes. --> is it true? maybe lah.. no wonder so many pple walk in and out of my life..
You are sensitive and indecisive at times. You are a freedom lover and a strong person. You are shy and reserved. If you've drawn a cross on each of windows, you always want to live alone. Once you have a problem, you need a friend with you. Your life is always full of changes.
You will avoid being alone and seek the company of others whenever possible. You love excitement and create it wherever you go. You have a strong personality and you like to command, influence and control people.
You added a flower into your drawing. The flower signifies that you long for love. It also safe to say that others don't see you as a flirt. You don't think much about yourself.
http://www.drawahouse.com
erm.. u all should go try.. it is quite true for me..
once i have a problem, i hope to have a friend ard - true
shy and reserved - true
You will avoid being alone and seek the company of others whenever possible. - confirm.. cannot live independently.
You have a strong personality and you like to command, influence and control people. --> not true leh..
Your life is always full of changes. --> is it true? maybe lah.. no wonder so many pple walk in and out of my life..
Monday, July 02, 2007
Another genting trip
opps.. i will be going for another genting trip again.. haiz~~ while aunts they all will prefer me not to go genting that frequent because to them, they think that i might learns bad from there and my future will ruin.. Erm.. not that exaggerating lah.. I said already, i just like there because is different from urban area where i always faces. Furthermore i can get out of Singapore, i won't had to be on standby during weekend. No more weekend duties for me, just a breakaway for me. Why not bintan or batam? Erm.. Bcos Bintan and Batam, nobody accompany me to go leh plus parents think that batam is dangerous, therefore i had never been to batam before. As for Genting, because the air there is much more fresher than here, and my mind is much more clear when i am oversea.
Actually i don't mind to go for a HongKong trip this year but i don't think can make it le. Now already 2nd of July, suppose to fly on the 7th of July to HK but got cancalled due to NO GFS accompanying me to HK. Sigh~~ Guess i need more GFS to be more STEADY, dun be like me so indecisive. Last yr, someone asked me to go hk but i can't go. This yr, again.. got rejected by mum bcos of some reasons. Nvm.. I shall tried it next year. Cos i prefer to go there shopping, therefore the best season to go there should be around may-aug. Hahaha.. My friend just came back, told me the stuffs there very cheap wor, can compare with BKK, some even cheaper than BKK.
Seriously, i really very happy at the moment when i am typing out this post. I don't know why i will have this kind of feelings. Haha.. This kind of feelings just brighter my day where all the work that pile up is like so dull. I will be still going genting with a group of buddies but this time round mummy will tag along also. Opps.. Suppose to be no adults tour, why mummy will tag along.. Cos i can't find someone that can accompany me to go with this group of buddies.. Every touch sia, my buddies did not said let's cancel lah.. They said let's go together.. Bcos of me, they can't go hk.. Now.. We are going genting together.. Hahaha.. so touched sia.. No wonder you all are my buddies.. my best friends.. no matter wat happened, you all will always be there for me.. let's cheer for this friendship.. Hahaa.. i really hoping this weekend will come faster, i wondering how would the trip end up to be? Happy or Sad? or ?????
or i am in love with one of my buddies le? hahahahahaa.. dear going to kill me le.. :x lol... this kind of thing very hard to said de wor.. maybe this will happen, but i know i will not let it happen on me AGAIN.. I had a damn bad experience for it, why would i stepped into a hole that dig by myself again. No way, i letting myself to spend another few more years to forget someone who no longer in my mind.
'Someone', wo xi wang wo meng da jia duo guo de hao. Wo ye hao xi wang ba ni ge wang le. rang wo cong xin de kai shi wo de xin sheng huo. xie xie ni ce jing jiao le wo na me duo dong xi, ye pei wo zhou guo na san nian. ai shang ni bing bu shi wo huo ni de cuo. que shi yi chang wu hui ke shi wo men duo xuan ze tao. ru guo da jia duo bu tao, wo men you ke neng hai hui shi zhui yao hao de peng you. ni hai shi zhui liao jie wo de ren.
Actually i don't mind to go for a HongKong trip this year but i don't think can make it le. Now already 2nd of July, suppose to fly on the 7th of July to HK but got cancalled due to NO GFS accompanying me to HK. Sigh~~ Guess i need more GFS to be more STEADY, dun be like me so indecisive. Last yr, someone asked me to go hk but i can't go. This yr, again.. got rejected by mum bcos of some reasons. Nvm.. I shall tried it next year. Cos i prefer to go there shopping, therefore the best season to go there should be around may-aug. Hahaha.. My friend just came back, told me the stuffs there very cheap wor, can compare with BKK, some even cheaper than BKK.
Seriously, i really very happy at the moment when i am typing out this post. I don't know why i will have this kind of feelings. Haha.. This kind of feelings just brighter my day where all the work that pile up is like so dull. I will be still going genting with a group of buddies but this time round mummy will tag along also. Opps.. Suppose to be no adults tour, why mummy will tag along.. Cos i can't find someone that can accompany me to go with this group of buddies.. Every touch sia, my buddies did not said let's cancel lah.. They said let's go together.. Bcos of me, they can't go hk.. Now.. We are going genting together.. Hahaha.. so touched sia.. No wonder you all are my buddies.. my best friends.. no matter wat happened, you all will always be there for me.. let's cheer for this friendship.. Hahaa.. i really hoping this weekend will come faster, i wondering how would the trip end up to be? Happy or Sad? or ?????
or i am in love with one of my buddies le? hahahahahaa.. dear going to kill me le.. :x lol... this kind of thing very hard to said de wor.. maybe this will happen, but i know i will not let it happen on me AGAIN.. I had a damn bad experience for it, why would i stepped into a hole that dig by myself again. No way, i letting myself to spend another few more years to forget someone who no longer in my mind.
'Someone', wo xi wang wo meng da jia duo guo de hao. Wo ye hao xi wang ba ni ge wang le. rang wo cong xin de kai shi wo de xin sheng huo. xie xie ni ce jing jiao le wo na me duo dong xi, ye pei wo zhou guo na san nian. ai shang ni bing bu shi wo huo ni de cuo. que shi yi chang wu hui ke shi wo men duo xuan ze tao. ru guo da jia duo bu tao, wo men you ke neng hai hui shi zhui yao hao de peng you. ni hai shi zhui liao jie wo de ren.
Friday, June 22, 2007
~~short break~~
Hahaa.. i just came back from berjaya hill where i though i had cleared all my tots.. i tot i had forgotten abt him at there.. although is a very short trip, it is very refreshing~~ it is totally different from genting.. looks like a old british cottage... Seems like i am bad to my own fairytale land again.. where nobody can find me.. although i on my phone, neither did i send any messages nor reply any messages.. hahaa.. i wondering hw can stuffs continue in this way? over there i feel so relax, imagine i can fall asleep at 8 plus and slept all the way through morning.. piggy sia~~~ Before i left there, i tot i had cleared my tots where i had forgotten about him..
Monday, i went for meeting.. Haiz~~ no longer got allowances for OT, now become reimbursement, this makes me even more sian to stay in the office till late night anymore. Left office around 7plus, while i took more than 1 hours to reach home. Actually i got the urge to flag a cab but in the end the bus was here before i board a cab. Maybe this is fate, i need to save up for my trip. I might be leaving in SG early Oct for a longer trip than genting nor thailand. It will depends on how many days i can take.
Tuesday, had a terrible backache but i still manage to struggle back to work. While this time round is quite bad cos i had to apply the medicine every few hours and had painkillers to relieve the pain. opps.. i still went to cartel for lunch with my colleagues, while at night we went to gelare for waffle.
Wednesday and Thursday, i am on mc for two days. While i need to work for these two days. Haiz~ Mum mention about my wound that i hide away.. hai~~~ Let me think of him again for the past two days~~ Min arh~~ dun be so childish lah, put sick on your nick just because you want to gain attention from him. Wahahaa.. PLS.. IT WILL NOT WORKS ANYMORE~~ dun be silly le can? Hahaa.. While i had chatted with second korkor at nite.. again.. i had my old nanny story again.. He said aiyah~~ why u still haven forget about him again.. u arh~~~ haiz~~~ See lah.. Lastime L treats you so good.. you dun want lah~~ Opps.. Maybe if the story can start again, i should sticks with L? Maybe i will be happier than now..Haiz~~ why i got so many "Maybe"? I really don't know, maybe i still don't know what is the answer, that's why i still feel so hurt..
My hk trip will be postpone.. Sadist~~~ no gals friends accompany me to hk.. even though i can find guy friends to accompany me to go.. haiz~~~ no choice.. mum said CANNOT~~~ so.. i ... haiz~~ change it to genting.. Can anyone accompany me to go.. I want GIRLS/WOMAN~~~!!~!!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!!~!~!~ My guy good friends will accompany me to go also.. So now i need to find GIRLS/WOMAN~~!!~~!!!!!!~!~!~!!
Monday, i went for meeting.. Haiz~~ no longer got allowances for OT, now become reimbursement, this makes me even more sian to stay in the office till late night anymore. Left office around 7plus, while i took more than 1 hours to reach home. Actually i got the urge to flag a cab but in the end the bus was here before i board a cab. Maybe this is fate, i need to save up for my trip. I might be leaving in SG early Oct for a longer trip than genting nor thailand. It will depends on how many days i can take.
Tuesday, had a terrible backache but i still manage to struggle back to work. While this time round is quite bad cos i had to apply the medicine every few hours and had painkillers to relieve the pain. opps.. i still went to cartel for lunch with my colleagues, while at night we went to gelare for waffle.
Wednesday and Thursday, i am on mc for two days. While i need to work for these two days. Haiz~ Mum mention about my wound that i hide away.. hai~~~ Let me think of him again for the past two days~~ Min arh~~ dun be so childish lah, put sick on your nick just because you want to gain attention from him. Wahahaa.. PLS.. IT WILL NOT WORKS ANYMORE~~ dun be silly le can? Hahaa.. While i had chatted with second korkor at nite.. again.. i had my old nanny story again.. He said aiyah~~ why u still haven forget about him again.. u arh~~~ haiz~~~ See lah.. Lastime L treats you so good.. you dun want lah~~ Opps.. Maybe if the story can start again, i should sticks with L? Maybe i will be happier than now..Haiz~~ why i got so many "Maybe"? I really don't know, maybe i still don't know what is the answer, that's why i still feel so hurt..
My hk trip will be postpone.. Sadist~~~ no gals friends accompany me to hk.. even though i can find guy friends to accompany me to go.. haiz~~~ no choice.. mum said CANNOT~~~ so.. i ... haiz~~ change it to genting.. Can anyone accompany me to go.. I want GIRLS/WOMAN~~~!!~!!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!!~!~!~ My guy good friends will accompany me to go also.. So now i need to find GIRLS/WOMAN~~!!~~!!!!!!~!~!~!!
Wednesday, June 13, 2007
珍惜眼前人
Haha,或许我比较”天真”吧,我相信每对恋人都希望有如王子和公主般浪漫动人的爱情故事,可是现实生活中又有多少人会这么幸福呢?两个人在一起其实并不复杂,信任和包容是其中重要的元素. 要找到真爱并不容易,能和自己深爱的人携手共渡下半辈子是一种幸福, 所以要好好珍惜眼前人!
hahaa.. got it from a blog... i used to think love is like a fairytale story, always keen that i will have my own fairytale story.. but it doesn't seems to be.. or maybe i should said fairytale dun really appear that often...
last weekend, i went out with my buddies to sentosa.. of cos i am late due to i need to work in the afternoon.. after tat, i went hm for a bath before going down to meet them at vivocity.. AGAIN, we went down to cafe de mal again.. omg~~~ we went there again.. AGAIN~~ we spent quite a lot on drinking again.. but this time round, we had a second round... Hahahaa.. Banana went back early, while me and my two brothers continue to Clarke quay.. We had been strolling for a very long time to find a place to drink.. Well~~ we didn't really want to go club cos was pretty ex.. Ended, we sit outside double O~~ hahaa.. is tat the end of the story~~ well~~ we went to mac to have supper... the end???
Iguana~~~~~ we order 9 shots, 3 for each of us... But beforehand, we had already got 3 shots at cafe de mal plus 1 jug of vodka lime.. omg~~~~~~~ Well the 3 shots didn't really knock us out... We contiune to order shots again~~ hahaha.. but this time round is the last order.. In end, brother foot the bill and we went to sit down at the riverside.. hahaa.. talking nonesenes... wat nonesense.. Of cos.. is how i feel the week before.. hw siao am i lah... and etc.... of cos wat brother will said is.. aiya.. forget abt it.. u want me to introduce u guys.. hahahaaa.. :x
well... love life to me whether will it be a empty one or like a roller coaster.. guess no longer impt to me.. at least at this point of moment, i know i got a good bunch of friends ard me... hahaa.. just that sometimes i seldom share my secrets out mah.. just laugh thru my way.. the only time will talk.. maybe is when i talk to ex-jie fu.. where i can complain and cried as much as i want.. hahaa.. tat was in the past.. .
thanx my friends ~~~ u all had been giving me the support to struggle through with this shitty job.. hopefully i can use this method to struggle through my relationship life... hahahaa... :P
i am looking forward for the next drinking session with u all.. .wahahahahaha..
as to my friends.. i hope everyone of us will find our truth love soon... and to those who found.. congra.. i hope to attend your wedding wor.. :P
hahaa.. got it from a blog... i used to think love is like a fairytale story, always keen that i will have my own fairytale story.. but it doesn't seems to be.. or maybe i should said fairytale dun really appear that often...
last weekend, i went out with my buddies to sentosa.. of cos i am late due to i need to work in the afternoon.. after tat, i went hm for a bath before going down to meet them at vivocity.. AGAIN, we went down to cafe de mal again.. omg~~~ we went there again.. AGAIN~~ we spent quite a lot on drinking again.. but this time round, we had a second round... Hahahaa.. Banana went back early, while me and my two brothers continue to Clarke quay.. We had been strolling for a very long time to find a place to drink.. Well~~ we didn't really want to go club cos was pretty ex.. Ended, we sit outside double O~~ hahaa.. is tat the end of the story~~ well~~ we went to mac to have supper... the end???
Iguana~~~~~ we order 9 shots, 3 for each of us... But beforehand, we had already got 3 shots at cafe de mal plus 1 jug of vodka lime.. omg~~~~~~~ Well the 3 shots didn't really knock us out... We contiune to order shots again~~ hahaha.. but this time round is the last order.. In end, brother foot the bill and we went to sit down at the riverside.. hahaa.. talking nonesenes... wat nonesense.. Of cos.. is how i feel the week before.. hw siao am i lah... and etc.... of cos wat brother will said is.. aiya.. forget abt it.. u want me to introduce u guys.. hahahaaa.. :x
well... love life to me whether will it be a empty one or like a roller coaster.. guess no longer impt to me.. at least at this point of moment, i know i got a good bunch of friends ard me... hahaa.. just that sometimes i seldom share my secrets out mah.. just laugh thru my way.. the only time will talk.. maybe is when i talk to ex-jie fu.. where i can complain and cried as much as i want.. hahaa.. tat was in the past.. .
thanx my friends ~~~ u all had been giving me the support to struggle through with this shitty job.. hopefully i can use this method to struggle through my relationship life... hahahaa... :P
i am looking forward for the next drinking session with u all.. .wahahahahaha..
as to my friends.. i hope everyone of us will find our truth love soon... and to those who found.. congra.. i hope to attend your wedding wor.. :P
Monday, June 11, 2007
~~just another weekend~~
Hahaha.. i dunno what to post.. maybe i will post my story out again.. the ending of the story which i had been keep repeating for the past 5 years but dun worry the story is coming to the end le~~~
Below are just some snapshots which i went for the last two weekends~~ Maybe must cut down le.. Otherwise pocket going bankrupt soon le~~ Feeling pain sia~~ Why should i torture myself in this manner?? I dun want his sympathy, i want to learn to be independent.. without him i can still survive.. haha.. but when dear saw the pics.. he will kill me.. maybe he will know why i never reply his msg for the past few days.. opps.. :x
Some sunset photos that i took during BBQ and last weekend when i went sentosa with my buddies.. sigh~~ kana sunburn.. so painful.. but guess the wound is much more better than my wound deep inside me.. argh~~~ i told myself not to mention it anymore~~
Botanic Garden~~
My favourite ice-cream at liang court.. yummy~~~ hehee.. tried the jap food at the central~~ also not bad plus budget.. haha..
Supper at coffee club~~
A view from my Office.. Hahaha.. Guess where is it ba..
Something that keep me accompany in office~~
Erm.. just some memories that are happened long long ago before i met xXXXx.. Hahahaa.. Times files so fast.. both of them had already left me.. one already get married le.. while the other one leh?? Hahaha.. i dunno leh.. Someone did ask me did i ever regret? I did regret.. why i crossed over the grey line which will bomb anything.. In the end, i am the one who get hurt and couldn't let it down.. Maybe things happened in this way.. When u are the one who suggested to be seperate, you won't feel the pain.. But if is the other way, you will try to find your means to proof to him/her that without him/her.. u will still lead a better life than each other? But don't you think you hurting yourself in the same time? This would not solve the problem but only make it worst.. think carefully before you really heading for revenge and proof that you are right~~
Nike bag
Below are just some snapshots which i went for the last two weekends~~ Maybe must cut down le.. Otherwise pocket going bankrupt soon le~~ Feeling pain sia~~ Why should i torture myself in this manner?? I dun want his sympathy, i want to learn to be independent.. without him i can still survive.. haha.. but when dear saw the pics.. he will kill me.. maybe he will know why i never reply his msg for the past few days.. opps.. :x
Some sunset photos that i took during BBQ and last weekend when i went sentosa with my buddies.. sigh~~ kana sunburn.. so painful.. but guess the wound is much more better than my wound deep inside me.. argh~~~ i told myself not to mention it anymore~~
Botanic Garden~~
My favourite ice-cream at liang court.. yummy~~~ hehee.. tried the jap food at the central~~ also not bad plus budget.. haha..
Supper at coffee club~~
A view from my Office.. Hahaha.. Guess where is it ba..
Something that keep me accompany in office~~
Erm.. just some memories that are happened long long ago before i met xXXXx.. Hahahaa.. Times files so fast.. both of them had already left me.. one already get married le.. while the other one leh?? Hahaha.. i dunno leh.. Someone did ask me did i ever regret? I did regret.. why i crossed over the grey line which will bomb anything.. In the end, i am the one who get hurt and couldn't let it down.. Maybe things happened in this way.. When u are the one who suggested to be seperate, you won't feel the pain.. But if is the other way, you will try to find your means to proof to him/her that without him/her.. u will still lead a better life than each other? But don't you think you hurting yourself in the same time? This would not solve the problem but only make it worst.. think carefully before you really heading for revenge and proof that you are right~~
Nike bag
Friday, May 25, 2007
Hong Kong Trip
Erm.. Although i dunno wat is the percentage i can go hongkong, i had roughly check out the details..
4 Days 3 Night Free & Easy Package ---> range frm 568 to 585 or 643
--> same agency but three different prices.. why? erm.. i dunno.. But the China woman quote me damn high lor.. 643 as compare with her other colleagues.. .
Stay : Mexan Hotel (near HK international airport, few minutes away from the central)
Information on Mexan Hotel :
Superior room - quite small but faces habour view...
Deluxe room - slightly much more bigger than Superior, swimming pool view..
As the hotel is near the habour, therefore you might be wake up by the ferries early in the morning. As for the package, no meals are included. Therefore there won't be any breadfast, sigh~~~ does it means i got nothing to eat in the morning? The nearest mrt aka train station is 15 mins away by car.. Alamak.. if i want to walk, how long will it be? Guess maybe double of it, which is 30 mins.. As whether is there a chance to go oversea together with my buddies.. Hahaa.. it depends.. as most of my buddies are guys who are like.. i know them for 10 years or shorter.. guess tat is how times passes.. From someone who i dunno, in the end, we can keep a 10 years friendship, that is considered as increditable le.. Though some are attached, we will still keep in touch with each other..Hahaha.. How long can this last? Sometimes think that i can fortunate lah, they are quite a good bunch of friends.. Hahaa.. not as evil as me..lol.. :P This might be a good experience for us cos next time we might not have a chance to go oversea together.. Cos all going with their beloved ones.. hahaa.. As for me.. maybe.. guess.. i dunno.. depends on how my future going to be like.. i dun want to think too much and put too much hope now.. I think the pain is quite bad and badly influence me..
Haha.. As to da jie they all, alamak~~~ They treat me as jiu gui le.. Jia lat~~~ hahaa.. a bit.. nowadays dunno why i was so keen to go st james.. hahaa.. guess is a way to de-stress ba.. :P
Back to my planning HK trip, just nice.. this year HK celebrating their 10 years old birthday back to China.. Therefore there will a series of events happening during the period we going. Hahaha.. Got my favourite "FIREWORKS" at Victoria Habour.. Hahahaa.. :P
Places that i want to go if i going HK for holidays :
- tsmi sha tsuai
- Stanley market
- Peak (A MUST, i want to take the tram up the 45 degrees hill.. but one of them said siao arh.. why go so far.. why not go genting and take cable car.. argh~~~)
and etc... Maybe nitelife of HK.. hahaa.. :P
4 Days 3 Night Free & Easy Package ---> range frm 568 to 585 or 643
--> same agency but three different prices.. why? erm.. i dunno.. But the China woman quote me damn high lor.. 643 as compare with her other colleagues.. .
Stay : Mexan Hotel (near HK international airport, few minutes away from the central)
Information on Mexan Hotel :
Superior room - quite small but faces habour view...
Deluxe room - slightly much more bigger than Superior, swimming pool view..
As the hotel is near the habour, therefore you might be wake up by the ferries early in the morning. As for the package, no meals are included. Therefore there won't be any breadfast, sigh~~~ does it means i got nothing to eat in the morning? The nearest mrt aka train station is 15 mins away by car.. Alamak.. if i want to walk, how long will it be? Guess maybe double of it, which is 30 mins.. As whether is there a chance to go oversea together with my buddies.. Hahaa.. it depends.. as most of my buddies are guys who are like.. i know them for 10 years or shorter.. guess tat is how times passes.. From someone who i dunno, in the end, we can keep a 10 years friendship, that is considered as increditable le.. Though some are attached, we will still keep in touch with each other..Hahaha.. How long can this last? Sometimes think that i can fortunate lah, they are quite a good bunch of friends.. Hahaa.. not as evil as me..lol.. :P This might be a good experience for us cos next time we might not have a chance to go oversea together.. Cos all going with their beloved ones.. hahaa.. As for me.. maybe.. guess.. i dunno.. depends on how my future going to be like.. i dun want to think too much and put too much hope now.. I think the pain is quite bad and badly influence me..
Haha.. As to da jie they all, alamak~~~ They treat me as jiu gui le.. Jia lat~~~ hahaa.. a bit.. nowadays dunno why i was so keen to go st james.. hahaa.. guess is a way to de-stress ba.. :P
Back to my planning HK trip, just nice.. this year HK celebrating their 10 years old birthday back to China.. Therefore there will a series of events happening during the period we going. Hahaha.. Got my favourite "FIREWORKS" at Victoria Habour.. Hahahaa.. :P
Places that i want to go if i going HK for holidays :
- tsmi sha tsuai
- Stanley market
- Peak (A MUST, i want to take the tram up the 45 degrees hill.. but one of them said siao arh.. why go so far.. why not go genting and take cable car.. argh~~~)
and etc... Maybe nitelife of HK.. hahaa.. :P
Wednesday, May 23, 2007
28 weeks later..
Hahaa.. Ytd, i met up my buddies.. Actually wanted to discuss abt the hongkong trip but ended we went to watch movie.. hahaa.. standard sia..
We went to watch 28 weeks later.. hahaa.. disgusting.. yucks~~~ sickening man.. think pple ard me ard sickening.. always watch this kind of show.. hahaa.. :P but i still think tat dunno wat eyes 2... is the worst movie i ever watched.. almost want to puke out after watching the movie.. I am late reaching 2 hours.. hahaa.. didi almost want to kill me.. but being very gentleman.. i am still surviving.. hahaa... explain to them wat happened.. Recently got some urgent issues tat my colleague is handling.. boss wants me to learn from her, then next time when she is no longer in the team, i know how to do recovery.. which is u know wat meaning? they are letting her to change team.. and i need to take over all her stuffs~~~~ i going to faint le.. without her.. i might be still stuck in the deep pile of shit.. therefore no choice.. i helped her a bit.. before meeting them.. hai~~ my boss worst boss sia~~~ when got something happened which will disgrace her.. then she just ignore you.. and let u know solve on your own.. while she keep gives u work to do.. erm.. is this kind of boss good? or ............ hai~~~~~
As my leave for july had approved already.. but whether can go hk or not.. erm.. this might a question.. hai~~ i might nt be able to go.. unless banana also going ba.. cos.. mum disallowed.. if i am going with a grp of guys.. and no more girls going.. sad~~~ sob sob.... still tot of buying tickets next week.. hai~~ now can save it le..
hahaa.. niao niao planning to go on 10th of June also haven buy tickets.. guess i am much more safe.. cos mine is in July.. not peak period.. hai~~~ if cannot go.. then go m'sia again lor.. go find dear dear hor.. hahaa... (u wait long long.. :P)
had a short chat with dear last nite.. hai~~ now.. panda le.. sob sob.. :(
erm.. ytd on my way hm, almost kana knocked down by a car when i am crossing pedestrian.. damn.. at pedestrian still kana "beep beeep".. singaporean super polite nowadays... pedestrian also will kana "beeep beeep".. hai~~~~ worst than other countries.. other countries dun "beep beep" as much as we do..
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We went to watch 28 weeks later.. hahaa.. disgusting.. yucks~~~ sickening man.. think pple ard me ard sickening.. always watch this kind of show.. hahaa.. :P but i still think tat dunno wat eyes 2... is the worst movie i ever watched.. almost want to puke out after watching the movie.. I am late reaching 2 hours.. hahaa.. didi almost want to kill me.. but being very gentleman.. i am still surviving.. hahaa... explain to them wat happened.. Recently got some urgent issues tat my colleague is handling.. boss wants me to learn from her, then next time when she is no longer in the team, i know how to do recovery.. which is u know wat meaning? they are letting her to change team.. and i need to take over all her stuffs~~~~ i going to faint le.. without her.. i might be still stuck in the deep pile of shit.. therefore no choice.. i helped her a bit.. before meeting them.. hai~~ my boss worst boss sia~~~ when got something happened which will disgrace her.. then she just ignore you.. and let u know solve on your own.. while she keep gives u work to do.. erm.. is this kind of boss good? or ............ hai~~~~~
As my leave for july had approved already.. but whether can go hk or not.. erm.. this might a question.. hai~~ i might nt be able to go.. unless banana also going ba.. cos.. mum disallowed.. if i am going with a grp of guys.. and no more girls going.. sad~~~ sob sob.... still tot of buying tickets next week.. hai~~ now can save it le..
hahaa.. niao niao planning to go on 10th of June also haven buy tickets.. guess i am much more safe.. cos mine is in July.. not peak period.. hai~~~ if cannot go.. then go m'sia again lor.. go find dear dear hor.. hahaa... (u wait long long.. :P)
had a short chat with dear last nite.. hai~~ now.. panda le.. sob sob.. :(
erm.. ytd on my way hm, almost kana knocked down by a car when i am crossing pedestrian.. damn.. at pedestrian still kana "beep beeep".. singaporean super polite nowadays... pedestrian also will kana "beeep beeep".. hai~~~~ worst than other countries.. other countries dun "beep beep" as much as we do..
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Monday, May 21, 2007
siao cha bor
Hahaha..
Within two weeks, i watched three movies.. erm.. a bit crazy.. .
1) Spiderman 3 --> with my buddies..
2) Blades of Glory --> actually wanted to join da jie but tat day picked up call too late le.. ended up i went to watch with my colleagues..
3) Next --> with ah soh
Within these two weeks.. think i did a lot of things.. .
last week, i went to st james with niao ying, da jie and da jie's boss plus colleagues.. wow.. tat day drink until a bit high~~~ but niao ying knocked out.. hahaa.. looked after for a while.. while i sitting alone talking to dear on phone.. hahaa.. guess dear very poor thing.. although he is not around with me.. he still had to keep me accompanied thru phone.. hahaa.. how long will our relationship last?? or there isn't any relationship between us.. everytime i went clubbing.. dear sometimes will wait for me to reach home.. and he will call me..
last weekend, i went bbq with cousins... celebrating.. my bian jie fu, my cousin's friends birthday... wow.. the food there is awesome.. we have sashimi, salmon sticks, satay, cheesecake, salad, garlic bread, mushroom & tomato for bbq, bacon with golden mushroom or asparages and etc........
then followed by the next day, i went genting with mummy.. hahahaa... happening right... three days in a row.. makes me damn tired.. when we reached there, i throw my luggage in the hotel room and we go out le.. haha... where we go??? go makan first.. cos both of us did not had our breadfast... then headed to jackpot for a while.. back to room... zZZzzzzZZZZzzzzzZZZ guess ard 8 plus.. we went out for dinner again... .
second day, i am down to KL.. hahaa.. Dear know that i am going genting but he does not know when i will be going.. hahaa.... took a cab cost ard $45RM down to KL.. On the way, dear called me up.. haha.. wanted to meet me up.. but i am with mum.. guess maybe not... i almost become a begger in KL, hahaa... maybe luckily he is there at home.. helping me to check where can i withdraw money.. haha.. otherwise.. he had to come down and helped me settle down all the bills.. seriously mum a bit afarid that we do not have enough money to go back to genting.. after her haircut, i went to withdraw money... and bought some clothes plus a bag... Around 6, i went to times square to take a cab.. i didn't know need to buy ticket then can take cab... erm... a bit -_-'''' chou dear lah.. dun want to drive me back.. dun want to talk to him liao... i went to shop a while at chinatown but mum was damn worried after hearing wat the taxi driver said.. hai~~ we head to pudu raya to take bus back to genting.. BUT ~~~~ no more bus le.... TMD!!!~!~!~!~~!~!~~!!~!~ We took a cab back again`~~ hai~~ furthermore is those kind of private car.. mum more scared.. cos only both of us... so.. if anything happened.. how?? but luckily... it is quite a safe trip down to kl.. When we went back to genting, called up daddy.. so that he won't worry for us so much... .
Third day, back to sg~~~sigh~~~
Wednesday to Friday, back to office~~ tmd~~ been working OT since i get came back from leave~~~ Wednesday, finished up my colleague's potato chips...
Thursday to Friday, we went to have cafe cartel and billi bombers... haha.. ok lah~~ been quite spenddrift sia~~~
Saturday.. cousin came over to my house.. we went over to east coast satay club to makan for dinner.. then later part at nite.. met up with ah soh.. for movies.. hahaa.. two siao char bor.. went to clarke quay coffee club to hae $40 bucks of snacks~~ woww... tat is a bit siao right~~ we bought 2 bottles of jim bean and jack daniel.. sat at a side for drinking....
Sunday, met up with some of my buddies.. haha.. we went to auston for western food.. hahaa.. something which i can't deny.. the food there is fantastic plus quite economical... after tat we went for pool session...
Whether my hk trip going to be success?? I planning to have bbq session during june holiday.. feel a bit sickening of work life.. i just want to play and play.. till my colleague changed team.. cos maybe one day she changed team le.. i will lose my freedom.. things might be just falling on my end... hai~~~~
Hahaha.. seriously got a lot of pple said i had been hiding away my feelings.. i can't deny tat it is the truth.. i keep persuade jiefu to break up.. hhaa.. tat's evil of me.. but i... just dun want to see him to be sad again.. when he broke up with jiejie or so called when things happened.. he had been sad.. and so called first time that i heard him cry.. i knew how painful.. i couldn't said he feel the same pain as i did.. i didn't know why 'HE' had become so deep inside me.. i am afarid that pple will ask me abt him.. yet i yearns to know how he is.. I AM SO CHEAP~~ Why am i still bother with someone who dun even bother to contact me anymore.. why do i still miss him so much.. why?? i didn't know he is that impt to me? he is the only one that i open my heart.. though i did not tell him some stuffs.. but i told him most of it.. yet.. he just left me.. why he is so cruel.. .maybe there is no fairytales exist...
sometimes i really very envy nanny's gf... he treats his gf so good... hahaa.. will nanny treats me that good as well.. haha.. the answer is no ba.. but i can't deny.. nanny is quite a nice guy.. haha..sometimes really regret.. why why why.. .
why why why why.. why did i fall for someone who dun meant to be for me... wat if one day dear just left me without saying anything.. will i feel the same pain again.. i am so afarid.. i took more than 3 years.. yet i still cannot forget him.. why.. heaven is making fun of me?? sometimes walking down on the street.. i am just trying to act strong and happy.. let u regret.. why u treat me like this.. am i a toy? hahaha.. but i know i am just deceiving myself.. i also will wondering.. u get married le mah?? u got kids le mah??? i think i am pshyco le.. why should i choose to hold on to a past that no longer belong to me anymore.. pls pls.. let me go.. getting more and more confusing.. i dun want to cling to it anymore.. can drinking solve my problems??
Within two weeks, i watched three movies.. erm.. a bit crazy.. .
1) Spiderman 3 --> with my buddies..
2) Blades of Glory --> actually wanted to join da jie but tat day picked up call too late le.. ended up i went to watch with my colleagues..
3) Next --> with ah soh
Within these two weeks.. think i did a lot of things.. .
last week, i went to st james with niao ying, da jie and da jie's boss plus colleagues.. wow.. tat day drink until a bit high~~~ but niao ying knocked out.. hahaa.. looked after for a while.. while i sitting alone talking to dear on phone.. hahaa.. guess dear very poor thing.. although he is not around with me.. he still had to keep me accompanied thru phone.. hahaa.. how long will our relationship last?? or there isn't any relationship between us.. everytime i went clubbing.. dear sometimes will wait for me to reach home.. and he will call me..
last weekend, i went bbq with cousins... celebrating.. my bian jie fu, my cousin's friends birthday... wow.. the food there is awesome.. we have sashimi, salmon sticks, satay, cheesecake, salad, garlic bread, mushroom & tomato for bbq, bacon with golden mushroom or asparages and etc........
then followed by the next day, i went genting with mummy.. hahahaa... happening right... three days in a row.. makes me damn tired.. when we reached there, i throw my luggage in the hotel room and we go out le.. haha... where we go??? go makan first.. cos both of us did not had our breadfast... then headed to jackpot for a while.. back to room... zZZzzzzZZZZzzzzzZZZ guess ard 8 plus.. we went out for dinner again... .
second day, i am down to KL.. hahaa.. Dear know that i am going genting but he does not know when i will be going.. hahaa.... took a cab cost ard $45RM down to KL.. On the way, dear called me up.. haha.. wanted to meet me up.. but i am with mum.. guess maybe not... i almost become a begger in KL, hahaa... maybe luckily he is there at home.. helping me to check where can i withdraw money.. haha.. otherwise.. he had to come down and helped me settle down all the bills.. seriously mum a bit afarid that we do not have enough money to go back to genting.. after her haircut, i went to withdraw money... and bought some clothes plus a bag... Around 6, i went to times square to take a cab.. i didn't know need to buy ticket then can take cab... erm... a bit -_-'''' chou dear lah.. dun want to drive me back.. dun want to talk to him liao... i went to shop a while at chinatown but mum was damn worried after hearing wat the taxi driver said.. hai~~ we head to pudu raya to take bus back to genting.. BUT ~~~~ no more bus le.... TMD!!!~!~!~!~~!~!~~!!~!~ We took a cab back again`~~ hai~~ furthermore is those kind of private car.. mum more scared.. cos only both of us... so.. if anything happened.. how?? but luckily... it is quite a safe trip down to kl.. When we went back to genting, called up daddy.. so that he won't worry for us so much... .
Third day, back to sg~~~sigh~~~
Wednesday to Friday, back to office~~ tmd~~ been working OT since i get came back from leave~~~ Wednesday, finished up my colleague's potato chips...
Thursday to Friday, we went to have cafe cartel and billi bombers... haha.. ok lah~~ been quite spenddrift sia~~~
Saturday.. cousin came over to my house.. we went over to east coast satay club to makan for dinner.. then later part at nite.. met up with ah soh.. for movies.. hahaa.. two siao char bor.. went to clarke quay coffee club to hae $40 bucks of snacks~~ woww... tat is a bit siao right~~ we bought 2 bottles of jim bean and jack daniel.. sat at a side for drinking....
Sunday, met up with some of my buddies.. haha.. we went to auston for western food.. hahaa.. something which i can't deny.. the food there is fantastic plus quite economical... after tat we went for pool session...
Whether my hk trip going to be success?? I planning to have bbq session during june holiday.. feel a bit sickening of work life.. i just want to play and play.. till my colleague changed team.. cos maybe one day she changed team le.. i will lose my freedom.. things might be just falling on my end... hai~~~~
Hahaha.. seriously got a lot of pple said i had been hiding away my feelings.. i can't deny tat it is the truth.. i keep persuade jiefu to break up.. hhaa.. tat's evil of me.. but i... just dun want to see him to be sad again.. when he broke up with jiejie or so called when things happened.. he had been sad.. and so called first time that i heard him cry.. i knew how painful.. i couldn't said he feel the same pain as i did.. i didn't know why 'HE' had become so deep inside me.. i am afarid that pple will ask me abt him.. yet i yearns to know how he is.. I AM SO CHEAP~~ Why am i still bother with someone who dun even bother to contact me anymore.. why do i still miss him so much.. why?? i didn't know he is that impt to me? he is the only one that i open my heart.. though i did not tell him some stuffs.. but i told him most of it.. yet.. he just left me.. why he is so cruel.. .maybe there is no fairytales exist...
sometimes i really very envy nanny's gf... he treats his gf so good... hahaa.. will nanny treats me that good as well.. haha.. the answer is no ba.. but i can't deny.. nanny is quite a nice guy.. haha..sometimes really regret.. why why why.. .
why why why why.. why did i fall for someone who dun meant to be for me... wat if one day dear just left me without saying anything.. will i feel the same pain again.. i am so afarid.. i took more than 3 years.. yet i still cannot forget him.. why.. heaven is making fun of me?? sometimes walking down on the street.. i am just trying to act strong and happy.. let u regret.. why u treat me like this.. am i a toy? hahaha.. but i know i am just deceiving myself.. i also will wondering.. u get married le mah?? u got kids le mah??? i think i am pshyco le.. why should i choose to hold on to a past that no longer belong to me anymore.. pls pls.. let me go.. getting more and more confusing.. i dun want to cling to it anymore.. can drinking solve my problems??
Tuesday, May 08, 2007
life been good ( or i trying to lie to myself?)
Last Monday, i went MOS with my buddies.. Haha.. in the end, i run out.. wahahaa.. maybe i really dun use to go clubbing with me.. hahaha.. or i did not drink enuff to cover my shyness or ??? Ended up i walked along the stretch of clarke quay.. definitely on my mind, i am thinking a lot of stuffs... i suddenly sms jil.. i also forget wat i asked him le.. something unhappy?? maybe..
while i sitting along at the bungee jump, someone talked to me.. haha.. he asked me whether am i waiting for friends.. i said yes.. faster trying to run back to find my buddies.. hahaa... aiya.. they never found anyone.. hai~~
Labour day... i went vivo with da jie and niao ying... we went to hongkong kim gary for makan.. actually wanted to try mexican shots at iguana but ended did not.. cos everyone was too tired.. then was postpone to wednesday.. to go st james.. hahaa.. chiongster??
last wednesday..Ladies Night~~~~~ Suppose to go St james but i need to monitor my jobs.. hai~~~ after seeing the job running smoothly.. i went out ard 10plus to cosy bay.. It had been a long long time that i ever been to cosy bay.. Just some memories floating in my mind again.. but this time round is memories of my primary school friends... four of us use to be very close but now....
Thursday... mum fall sick... hai~~~ she went to see doctor.. somewhere of her body got lumps... the doctor was like telling her.. if it does not receovered within a few days.. she might need to go hospital to undergo surgery cos the speed of the lump is growing rapidly. hai~~ but i worked OT tat day.. did not went to see doctor with her..
Friday.. Met ah ying and ah soh for dinner and short shopping spree at bugis... hahah...
Satursday... Suppose to meet up my friends at st james.. erm .. punching card every week.. Hahaha.. no lah.. just go there for fun and de-stress.. but did not go.. stayed at hm to look after mum..
sunday.. went out to watch spiderman with my buddies.. hai~~ guess maybe cannot go hk with them le.. cos one of them said too ex.. he wants to save money for his driving license.. hai~~ then the other one confirm dun want to go de lor.. hai~~ still said until so good.. we sure accompany u go de.. hump!!!!! :( ended up all my fly aeroplane... sob sob.. dun talk to them le..
guess two wks ago.. i went st james with my gd friend.. hahaa.. she bring her friend along also.. haha.. we two drink like siao~~ i think i drink 4 tequlia shots, 2 vodka, 1 jim bean.. hahaa.. not really drunk.. but when her friend was sending me back home.. i feel the pain inside my heart.. so painful.. tat i trying to escape from it.. imagine.. 5am.. i sms nanny out for supper... hahaa.. he dun even want to reply me..
i went to try new asia bar.. hahahaa... i finally been to the top floor of swissotel.. hahaha.. shiok..exciting moment.. took a lot of pics.. we did something very crazy.. hahaa.. imagine i laugh all the way from 71st storey to 1st floor, where all the pple inside the lift.. wondering why am i so high~~ wat thing makes me laugh until stomache.. kekeke.. secret.. :P
while i sitting along at the bungee jump, someone talked to me.. haha.. he asked me whether am i waiting for friends.. i said yes.. faster trying to run back to find my buddies.. hahaa... aiya.. they never found anyone.. hai~~
Labour day... i went vivo with da jie and niao ying... we went to hongkong kim gary for makan.. actually wanted to try mexican shots at iguana but ended did not.. cos everyone was too tired.. then was postpone to wednesday.. to go st james.. hahaa.. chiongster??
last wednesday..Ladies Night~~~~~ Suppose to go St james but i need to monitor my jobs.. hai~~~ after seeing the job running smoothly.. i went out ard 10plus to cosy bay.. It had been a long long time that i ever been to cosy bay.. Just some memories floating in my mind again.. but this time round is memories of my primary school friends... four of us use to be very close but now....
Thursday... mum fall sick... hai~~~ she went to see doctor.. somewhere of her body got lumps... the doctor was like telling her.. if it does not receovered within a few days.. she might need to go hospital to undergo surgery cos the speed of the lump is growing rapidly. hai~~ but i worked OT tat day.. did not went to see doctor with her..
Friday.. Met ah ying and ah soh for dinner and short shopping spree at bugis... hahah...
Satursday... Suppose to meet up my friends at st james.. erm .. punching card every week.. Hahaha.. no lah.. just go there for fun and de-stress.. but did not go.. stayed at hm to look after mum..
sunday.. went out to watch spiderman with my buddies.. hai~~ guess maybe cannot go hk with them le.. cos one of them said too ex.. he wants to save money for his driving license.. hai~~ then the other one confirm dun want to go de lor.. hai~~ still said until so good.. we sure accompany u go de.. hump!!!!! :( ended up all my fly aeroplane... sob sob.. dun talk to them le..
guess two wks ago.. i went st james with my gd friend.. hahaa.. she bring her friend along also.. haha.. we two drink like siao~~ i think i drink 4 tequlia shots, 2 vodka, 1 jim bean.. hahaa.. not really drunk.. but when her friend was sending me back home.. i feel the pain inside my heart.. so painful.. tat i trying to escape from it.. imagine.. 5am.. i sms nanny out for supper... hahaa.. he dun even want to reply me..
i went to try new asia bar.. hahahaa... i finally been to the top floor of swissotel.. hahaha.. shiok..exciting moment.. took a lot of pics.. we did something very crazy.. hahaa.. imagine i laugh all the way from 71st storey to 1st floor, where all the pple inside the lift.. wondering why am i so high~~ wat thing makes me laugh until stomache.. kekeke.. secret.. :P
Wednesday, April 25, 2007
Just another week..
Erm.. Last week sort of a disaster which makes me think that April is not the month for me.
I think i met up with my friends on wednesday for dinner and movie. We went to watch 23 . The movie was ok lah.. just that that freak just crazy about 23 23 23 23 23 23 23 23 23 23 23 23 23 23 23 23 23 23 23
1-2-2 = 23
18-5 = 23 etc....
friday, i went to steamboat buffet at suntec.. hahaa.. a treat from my colleague since is her birthday coming soon.. but hai~~ wat to get for her?? I went to watch 200 pounds beauty. during the show, i was wondering.. luckily i never did tat anyone in my life yet. will i regret if one day i am going to lie down for surgery or will i be happier? hahaa.. but i can't deny maybe one day i will go for it.. at least i won't be as heartbroken as the lady in the show but indeed my tears still drop in the end of the show. but sadly i had to said i only watch half of the movie even though i bought the tickets for the show. cos we kept thinking is 1.45 show.. but it is 12.15.. sigh~~~ guess maybe i got hearing problem.. when i asked chou ren to check for me.. and maybe i heard it wrongly when he told me on the phone.. sigh~~~~~~
i reached home is already 3 plus in the morning.. ended up just nice i did not went to sentosa with my buddies.. hahaaa.. it seems like i am avoiding all kinds of gathering? am i doing tat? erm.. i actually also dunno... wake up ard 12 plus ba.. but was damn tired.. met a 2 of my buddies and 1 primary school friend on sat for dinner and pool session and supper.. hahaaaa... ended up, one of my buddies left his ic.. hahaaa.. i dunno whether is he blur or i blur.. luckily he managed to get back.. otherwise he sure barked me till deaf sia..
After he left, 3 of us went for supper.. hahaa.. from parkway walked till hongkong cafe.. from hongkong cafe walked to the prata shop at katong.. hahaaa.. ended up.. i did had something for dinner. after tat we still need to walk home.. i think i am touring somewhere near my house.. hahaa.. my buddy said.. "aiyah.. next time u want supper tell us lah, we accompany u lah.. " hahahaaaa.. we shall see how sia..
monday.. damn sick.. damn.. backache came back again which is something which i had it the most.. something that kept bothering me for the past years ever since secondary school.. once in a while.. it will came back.. and sometimes it will hurt me damn bad that i feel like collapsing..
Mum : "Luckily u never go to work"
me : "Nvm.. at most i only faint during work and send to hospital again.. Then u go tan tock seng to visit me only lor.. "
Mum : *faint*
hahaaha.. i remembered that whenever i had a bad backache, i will call u whenever u are ard with me.. maybe from that moment i had dependent on you. which makes me feel so hurt when u i no longer heard any news from you.. seriously whether till now i had forgotten about this person did exist in my life before or not.. it is just a past that can never occur again. even it occur again, u will not be the one neither i am the one. both of us leading in a totally different world.
jiefu.. msg me ytd.. hahaa.. i told him i almost faint. cos he told me.. if he really died in the train.. i must take care wor.. hahaaa.. guess i am tat weak that always need his protection... hahahaa.. i told him i will no longer think of him and remembered him.. i hate him cos he is a coward who dare not face the truth..
hahaa... guess i am also.. who always dun want to believe the truth.. haha..
seriously.. jiefu is not the first one who asked me to take care wor.. if he really passed away.. hahaa.. seems like everyone had a bigger parcel than me..
my work.. seems to be much more stablize.. no longer big issues.. just that i always got task in hand never completed.. sian~~~
i missed the days where i dun need to think abt anything.. just have to enjoy my life.. i always tell my friend.. i want to get drunk.. maybe to me, i think that drunk i can forget all my sorrows.. hahahaahaaa.. is that called life? hahaaa.. when can i get drunk.. hahaahahahaha... nowadays old le.. cannot drink so much le..
my leave coming soon.. will be away from singapore for a short period of time.. is time to clear my mind again.. once in a while i need this break , to recover wat i hide behind myself.. wahahaaaa..
I think i met up with my friends on wednesday for dinner and movie. We went to watch 23 . The movie was ok lah.. just that that freak just crazy about 23 23 23 23 23 23 23 23 23 23 23 23 23 23 23 23 23 23 23
1-2-2 = 23
18-5 = 23 etc....
friday, i went to steamboat buffet at suntec.. hahaa.. a treat from my colleague since is her birthday coming soon.. but hai~~ wat to get for her?? I went to watch 200 pounds beauty. during the show, i was wondering.. luckily i never did tat anyone in my life yet. will i regret if one day i am going to lie down for surgery or will i be happier? hahaa.. but i can't deny maybe one day i will go for it.. at least i won't be as heartbroken as the lady in the show but indeed my tears still drop in the end of the show. but sadly i had to said i only watch half of the movie even though i bought the tickets for the show. cos we kept thinking is 1.45 show.. but it is 12.15.. sigh~~~ guess maybe i got hearing problem.. when i asked chou ren to check for me.. and maybe i heard it wrongly when he told me on the phone.. sigh~~~~~~
i reached home is already 3 plus in the morning.. ended up just nice i did not went to sentosa with my buddies.. hahaaa.. it seems like i am avoiding all kinds of gathering? am i doing tat? erm.. i actually also dunno... wake up ard 12 plus ba.. but was damn tired.. met a 2 of my buddies and 1 primary school friend on sat for dinner and pool session and supper.. hahaaaa... ended up, one of my buddies left his ic.. hahaaa.. i dunno whether is he blur or i blur.. luckily he managed to get back.. otherwise he sure barked me till deaf sia..
After he left, 3 of us went for supper.. hahaa.. from parkway walked till hongkong cafe.. from hongkong cafe walked to the prata shop at katong.. hahaaa.. ended up.. i did had something for dinner. after tat we still need to walk home.. i think i am touring somewhere near my house.. hahaa.. my buddy said.. "aiyah.. next time u want supper tell us lah, we accompany u lah.. " hahahaaaa.. we shall see how sia..
monday.. damn sick.. damn.. backache came back again which is something which i had it the most.. something that kept bothering me for the past years ever since secondary school.. once in a while.. it will came back.. and sometimes it will hurt me damn bad that i feel like collapsing..
Mum : "Luckily u never go to work"
me : "Nvm.. at most i only faint during work and send to hospital again.. Then u go tan tock seng to visit me only lor.. "
Mum : *faint*
hahaaha.. i remembered that whenever i had a bad backache, i will call u whenever u are ard with me.. maybe from that moment i had dependent on you. which makes me feel so hurt when u i no longer heard any news from you.. seriously whether till now i had forgotten about this person did exist in my life before or not.. it is just a past that can never occur again. even it occur again, u will not be the one neither i am the one. both of us leading in a totally different world.
jiefu.. msg me ytd.. hahaa.. i told him i almost faint. cos he told me.. if he really died in the train.. i must take care wor.. hahaaa.. guess i am tat weak that always need his protection... hahahaa.. i told him i will no longer think of him and remembered him.. i hate him cos he is a coward who dare not face the truth..
hahaa... guess i am also.. who always dun want to believe the truth.. haha..
seriously.. jiefu is not the first one who asked me to take care wor.. if he really passed away.. hahaa.. seems like everyone had a bigger parcel than me..
my work.. seems to be much more stablize.. no longer big issues.. just that i always got task in hand never completed.. sian~~~
i missed the days where i dun need to think abt anything.. just have to enjoy my life.. i always tell my friend.. i want to get drunk.. maybe to me, i think that drunk i can forget all my sorrows.. hahahaahaaa.. is that called life? hahaaa.. when can i get drunk.. hahaahahahaha... nowadays old le.. cannot drink so much le..
my leave coming soon.. will be away from singapore for a short period of time.. is time to clear my mind again.. once in a while i need this break , to recover wat i hide behind myself.. wahahaaaa..
Wednesday, April 18, 2007
black friday..
heheeee.. i went to st james on good friday with my friends.. damn.. i hurt my head.. sigh~~ painful.. i wondering why would i hurt tat.. is it bcos of the chat i had with him online.. i realised that it had bcome a very cold chat..
min : " happy belated birthday"
... : thx
min : "Free for chat"
... : sure.
min : "how's life?"
damn.. this is the most polite chat tat both of us had.. from that moment i know that time cannot turn back le.. and from at the moment i stunned.. i know he does not belong to me.. is time to let go and forget abt it..
never know that tat nite i went to cafe de mal with da jie they all, full house..
then after they left.. me and my friend been waiting for my another friend to join u .. sigh~~ and i hurt my head at mac.. sigh~~ so painful~~~~~ dear called me tat nite when i reached home.. maybe our last conversation was at that day..
Last friday, i tried to enter st james again.. with niao niao they all.. haha.. but sadly the card was being confiscated.. tat nite after that incident.. i bcome slient for a while.. i kept asking niao niao.. how how.. da jie will kill me.. but luckily.. she forgive us.... heng.. we need to treat her drink liao wor.. see when she free ba.. heheee.. :P
hahaaa.. nwadays pple thinks i am down by L wedding.. hahaa.. ok lah.. L and me had seperated for more than 5 years.. no more feelings towards him le..just tat the past memories were being refreshed again.. next post then i said how good is L ... :P
min : " happy belated birthday"
... : thx
min : "Free for chat"
... : sure.
min : "how's life?"
damn.. this is the most polite chat tat both of us had.. from that moment i know that time cannot turn back le.. and from at the moment i stunned.. i know he does not belong to me.. is time to let go and forget abt it..
never know that tat nite i went to cafe de mal with da jie they all, full house..
then after they left.. me and my friend been waiting for my another friend to join u .. sigh~~ and i hurt my head at mac.. sigh~~ so painful~~~~~ dear called me tat nite when i reached home.. maybe our last conversation was at that day..
Last friday, i tried to enter st james again.. with niao niao they all.. haha.. but sadly the card was being confiscated.. tat nite after that incident.. i bcome slient for a while.. i kept asking niao niao.. how how.. da jie will kill me.. but luckily.. she forgive us.... heng.. we need to treat her drink liao wor.. see when she free ba.. heheee.. :P
hahaaa.. nwadays pple thinks i am down by L wedding.. hahaa.. ok lah.. L and me had seperated for more than 5 years.. no more feelings towards him le..just tat the past memories were being refreshed again.. next post then i said how good is L ... :P
Wednesday, April 04, 2007
I am very tired.. help help
sigh~~~~ ever since last week.. i had been looking damn shag and tired.. wat happened sia..
Last Week..
Monday.. i went to eat fish & co with my colleague.. She is rolling off on friday, going back to her previous project. She encouraged me to go further studies and look for a better job.. hehee.. :P She treated me fish & co..
Tuesday.. we went to magic wok at novena square for lunch.. and i left office at 2am.. -_-''''
Wednesday.. damn tired... We took cab tho and fro to somewhere but i did not pay the cab fare. My colleague said he paid.. Erm.. Seems like pple nowadays are getting more and more generous? We went to a place called gurada? Going to indonesdia for lunch? hahaa.. no lah.. just a place near heeren. The food there is so-so as compare to rice table. I still prefer rice table.
Thursday.. i went to orchard for lunch again but this time round we went to wisma food court.. Hehehee..finally tried the royce champagne chocolate which i like.. woww... delicious sia.. This time round.. i left office ard 11pm.. omg.. -_-''''''' They asking me whether i want to join them to tioman trip on good friday.. Erm.. should i go?
Friday.. i went out dinner with my colleagues.. one of them left the company, one of them promoted (i dunno him at all, only met him in the office), one of them taking long holidays and one of them birthday.. we went to clarke quay. actually planning to have riverside Indonesian food but the queue was too long furthermore we reached ard 9 plus.. No choice, we ended up @Central for Manhattan.. They ordered 3 giant seafood platter.. It is treat from them.. heheeee... :P but seriously after dinner, i already want to knock out le..
Saturday, i went KTV in the morning.. omg.. i really very tired and whole body is aching yet i got to wake up at 10am for ktv session.. @!@#@#!$@#@#!#@ No choice.. i am late for it AGAIN.. After ktv session, we went to vivocity for shopping spree.. At nite when i reached home, an auntie who knows us for more than 20 years had passed away.. -_-'' life is so fragile..
Sunday, woke up at 1pm yet i am still feeling super tired.. In the end, i still need to monitor the jobs that are running the server for the day.. Omg.. The operator called me ard 1 plus but i did not picked up. Ended up, he msg me informing your job is successful, u want to run the next job.. -_-''' whole day is like telephone operator.. when the phone starts to ring, i will be start wondering who is it? hai~~~~ but who cares.. i still went out for dinner at orchard... When to Ding tai Feng for bao and went coffeeclub for tea.. alamak.. i think i am leading an extravagant life sia.. must save up arh~~~~ after july, no more cafes for me.. Had a chatted with korkor till 2 plus reaching 3, while i am still monitoring my job..
@#@@#@!#@@#!# talked to ex-jiefu till 5.. while i still monitoring my job.. @!@!#!@@#@!!@##!@@# ended up i reached office 10am... which is like less than 3 hours of sleep..
Monday.. like a dead corpse walking on the street sia.. i am damn tired.. hoping that the weekend will come asap.. Today someone treats me lunch again.. Pizzahut.. Erm.. What is happening.. Why are they treating me? Hai~~ too late.. Missed a chance of going to tioman but i am still finding a way to escape from sg asap..
Last Week..
Monday.. i went to eat fish & co with my colleague.. She is rolling off on friday, going back to her previous project. She encouraged me to go further studies and look for a better job.. hehee.. :P She treated me fish & co..
Tuesday.. we went to magic wok at novena square for lunch.. and i left office at 2am.. -_-''''
Wednesday.. damn tired... We took cab tho and fro to somewhere but i did not pay the cab fare. My colleague said he paid.. Erm.. Seems like pple nowadays are getting more and more generous? We went to a place called gurada? Going to indonesdia for lunch? hahaa.. no lah.. just a place near heeren. The food there is so-so as compare to rice table. I still prefer rice table.
Thursday.. i went to orchard for lunch again but this time round we went to wisma food court.. Hehehee..finally tried the royce champagne chocolate which i like.. woww... delicious sia.. This time round.. i left office ard 11pm.. omg.. -_-''''''' They asking me whether i want to join them to tioman trip on good friday.. Erm.. should i go?
Friday.. i went out dinner with my colleagues.. one of them left the company, one of them promoted (i dunno him at all, only met him in the office), one of them taking long holidays and one of them birthday.. we went to clarke quay. actually planning to have riverside Indonesian food but the queue was too long furthermore we reached ard 9 plus.. No choice, we ended up @Central for Manhattan.. They ordered 3 giant seafood platter.. It is treat from them.. heheeee... :P but seriously after dinner, i already want to knock out le..
Saturday, i went KTV in the morning.. omg.. i really very tired and whole body is aching yet i got to wake up at 10am for ktv session.. @!@#@#!$@#@#!#@ No choice.. i am late for it AGAIN.. After ktv session, we went to vivocity for shopping spree.. At nite when i reached home, an auntie who knows us for more than 20 years had passed away.. -_-'' life is so fragile..
Sunday, woke up at 1pm yet i am still feeling super tired.. In the end, i still need to monitor the jobs that are running the server for the day.. Omg.. The operator called me ard 1 plus but i did not picked up. Ended up, he msg me informing your job is successful, u want to run the next job.. -_-''' whole day is like telephone operator.. when the phone starts to ring, i will be start wondering who is it? hai~~~~ but who cares.. i still went out for dinner at orchard... When to Ding tai Feng for bao and went coffeeclub for tea.. alamak.. i think i am leading an extravagant life sia.. must save up arh~~~~ after july, no more cafes for me.. Had a chatted with korkor till 2 plus reaching 3, while i am still monitoring my job..
@#@@#@!#@@#!# talked to ex-jiefu till 5.. while i still monitoring my job.. @!@!#!@@#@!!@##!@@# ended up i reached office 10am... which is like less than 3 hours of sleep..
Monday.. like a dead corpse walking on the street sia.. i am damn tired.. hoping that the weekend will come asap.. Today someone treats me lunch again.. Pizzahut.. Erm.. What is happening.. Why are they treating me? Hai~~ too late.. Missed a chance of going to tioman but i am still finding a way to escape from sg asap..
Thursday, March 29, 2007
My first love??
hahaaaa...is he my first love? actually i also dunno?? or D is my first love? But most of the time D scold me rather than care for me.. but he scold me cos i neglect my studies.. hahaa....
i still rememeber how L cheer me up.. how stuffs going on between both of us.. just now had a long chatted with my another korkor. .realised tat L got married le.. i feel pretty sad.. tat time i remember that when i broke up with L.. i cried in my cousin's shoulder for a while.. all along the while, i am with him.. i dun have the confident to be with him... now.. i lost the guy..
i still rememeber how L cheer me up.. how stuffs going on between both of us.. just now had a long chatted with my another korkor. .realised tat L got married le.. i feel pretty sad.. tat time i remember that when i broke up with L.. i cried in my cousin's shoulder for a while.. all along the while, i am with him.. i dun have the confident to be with him... now.. i lost the guy..
Monday, March 26, 2007
A sweet memories that i used to have..
Erm... I don't really have a very big networking but i can't deny that i have a quite a good bunch of friends around me.
After i wrote finished the previous post and post it out, i received a call from him. I didn't really got the courage to pick up. I let it rang for a few times, because i scare when i picked up the phone.. @!@!$#!@!@!@ will be what i am hearing.. But i called him back using office phone. What i heard is totally opposite... A voice where i had never heard it ages ago.. He never dropped his tears in front of me at all.. Only that time when his father passed away. That is the only time he collaspe and cried in front of me. Guys are always like this. They don't want to said anything out, only wait till a day that they can't take it. Then burst it out. I rather you tell me what happened, than trying to be happy in front of me. Brother, i know you more than 10 years le. We used to be so close, i told you everything. Promise me, next time dun give up that easily. Anything happened, i will be there for you. Just like what you did for me in the past.. :)
Nanny, i can't deny that you had been walking me through my life for the past few years. You really treats me very well which i really tot nothing at all.. haha.. now.. i know your good points le.. haha.. deliver prata to me late at nite, my resume to me before i go to this shitty company to work... accompany me to celebrate through my birthday.. accompany me watch movies that i want to watch, sometimes i might be causing you watching twice. never knoe that i had been that dependent on you. really thanks.. helping me to lie to my parents that i was watching movie while actually i am clubbing.. plus thanks for your patient.. i am always late.. when i meet you after work.. you had never throw your temper on me.. just show me a black face.. but a while later.. you will be fine.. I wished you and your gf the best..
Buddies...
Most of you are attached already.. Feel happy for you all..
everyone jia you..
this song is for you all de..
After i wrote finished the previous post and post it out, i received a call from him. I didn't really got the courage to pick up. I let it rang for a few times, because i scare when i picked up the phone.. @!@!$#!@!@!@ will be what i am hearing.. But i called him back using office phone. What i heard is totally opposite... A voice where i had never heard it ages ago.. He never dropped his tears in front of me at all.. Only that time when his father passed away. That is the only time he collaspe and cried in front of me. Guys are always like this. They don't want to said anything out, only wait till a day that they can't take it. Then burst it out. I rather you tell me what happened, than trying to be happy in front of me. Brother, i know you more than 10 years le. We used to be so close, i told you everything. Promise me, next time dun give up that easily. Anything happened, i will be there for you. Just like what you did for me in the past.. :)
Nanny, i can't deny that you had been walking me through my life for the past few years. You really treats me very well which i really tot nothing at all.. haha.. now.. i know your good points le.. haha.. deliver prata to me late at nite, my resume to me before i go to this shitty company to work... accompany me to celebrate through my birthday.. accompany me watch movies that i want to watch, sometimes i might be causing you watching twice. never knoe that i had been that dependent on you. really thanks.. helping me to lie to my parents that i was watching movie while actually i am clubbing.. plus thanks for your patient.. i am always late.. when i meet you after work.. you had never throw your temper on me.. just show me a black face.. but a while later.. you will be fine.. I wished you and your gf the best..
Buddies...
Most of you are attached already.. Feel happy for you all..
everyone jia you..
this song is for you all de..
Thursday, March 22, 2007
being childish and immature..
being immature and childish, i lose another good friend of mine.. maybe this will be a better way for him.. i dun have to let him worry for me.. which this is what he does since he know me in sec school.. i know hw much he pamper and take care me like a little sister.. how much tears i had dropped in front of him.. i hope tat this time round.. i will learn how to pick up from where i fall down.. be a better person.. maybe next time when he sees me on the street.. he will thinks that i have grown up.. at least he will feel happier ba.. just that now i really need a period alone.. thinking where should i head and what should i do..
yesterday, i met up with my gd friends.. they shared some secrets in among themselves which are things that are pretty alien to me.. seriously i feel really terrible.. used to be so good friends.. ended up become like that.. after movie, i find an excuse and leave.. on the way back, i am thinking.. guess nextime i have to siam more gathering and bcome loner le ba.. Nobody is perfect.. or the world won't change to suit you.. maybe i also won't change to suit u? just tat.. if u really got secrets to share among yourself.. i rather i dunno anything and heard anything.. you can have the gathering and leave it out.. if u all really got things to discuss about.. i shouldn't have rush there after work.. i had been really very tired after battling at work... and that is wat i get.. sigh~~~~
Does friendship really does?
yesterday, i met up with my gd friends.. they shared some secrets in among themselves which are things that are pretty alien to me.. seriously i feel really terrible.. used to be so good friends.. ended up become like that.. after movie, i find an excuse and leave.. on the way back, i am thinking.. guess nextime i have to siam more gathering and bcome loner le ba.. Nobody is perfect.. or the world won't change to suit you.. maybe i also won't change to suit u? just tat.. if u really got secrets to share among yourself.. i rather i dunno anything and heard anything.. you can have the gathering and leave it out.. if u all really got things to discuss about.. i shouldn't have rush there after work.. i had been really very tired after battling at work... and that is wat i get.. sigh~~~~
Does friendship really does?
Monday, March 19, 2007
cafe de mal..
erm.. i still couldn't believe that i will go sentosa twice in a week.. omg.. furthermore is consecutive two days.. Yesterday, i went to cafe de mal again but this time round, i went there to have dinner and drinks.. took vodka lime.. and took an idiot photo of myself.. hahaa.. after that photo, i considering of wearing contact lens or not.. hahaa.. guess nowadays i am getting more and more siao liao..
when i reached home, i upload that photo immediately.. which like my friend is saying i am crazy or hua zi.. hahaa.......
had a short chat with ex-jiefu.. i scolded him or so called i nagged him for not replying me that time when i am at hospital.. i told him i was at hospital.. he was like asking me wat happened.. why did i go hospital again.. hahaa.. let me recalled a sweet and short memory of wat happened few years back..
8 Aug 2002, the eve of national day.. i spend half a day in hospital.. tat day, i went to polyclinic to see doctor. Not a while later, the doctor called for an ambulance, there was the first time that i was being send to hospital by ambulance. At the point of moment, i am very weak. My blood pressure reached till a very low point that i can faint anytime. I need glucose to recover my energy.. When i reached A&E. I message jiefu and him.. jiefu was very stunned and asking me what had happened and he wanted to come down and visit me.. such a nice guy hor.. but now.. did a full checkup before i left hospital.. i was being hospitalize for a few hours.. Not really a lot of people knew that i admit hospital.. maybe a few them.. but 3 of them confirm know that i admit hospital.. hahaa.. i twist the story a bit but guess there is someone who knows the truth cos he was laughing all the way when i told him on the phone..
1st of march 2007, i went to hospital again.. this time round,i went there to see specialist. the feeling is different.. last time when i am there for a few hours, i was happily walking here and there till the doctor knows that i am scare of hospital.. He starts to scare me by telling me "You don't anyhow walk here and there.. later you see something.... " -_-'''' a bit cold right.. But tat point of moment i stepped into changi, my whole body is shivering.. is it bcos i lost my close friends.. they no longer be there for me? or ?? Before i leave hospital, i msg nanny.. haha.. but nanny reaction was wat i predicted ba.. maybe i am just looking for a feeling that i feels in the past ba..
i can't deny tat ex-jiefu really changed a lot.. last time usually is i said that to him.. now is he said to me.. a bit stunned.. or maybe all of us really had a complicated life.. just like wat he told me.. i will never know wat he is going on now.. but if u dun want to said.. i definitely dunno wat you going on now.. to me.. both of u are always like tat.. hear me sobbing, hear my sorrows and help me out.. yet i am always the one who couldn't help u guys out.. maybe i really like a baby girl.. no matter hw hard i tried, u guys are always the ones helping me..
i asked jiefu a question.. do u think i had forget about him.. wat the reply was like.. u dun need me to said out the answer right.. u should know it yourself better than i do.. haha.. starting to get puzzled.. did i really fall till tat deep.. now is already abt 2 years.. i still can't forget this person who once stepped into my life before? or just that i had a complicated life.. or just that pple around me keep remind me about him. i can't deny he is a nice guy.. while i also can't deny that i got a lot of guys friends also very nice or maybe even nicer than him... korkor asked me a question before.. or maybe i should re-phase this.. the first time korkor saw him.. he already told me.. dun fall in love with him.. he got no feelings for you.. and ended up.. i had a draggy friendship for 3 years and been dependent on him till a point that i don't know and slowly getting use to it.. korkor asked me.. he is nt the only one that treats you tat good leh.. erm.. maybe this is destiny ba but we dun have the fate.. i told jiefu.. i really regret tat i fall in love with him.. otherwise now we will still be very good friends.. but now he is still avoiding me.. starting to lose my courage.. seems like i hurt quite badly.. or now.. i am emotionally down again..
i can't deny that.. currently i am in a relationship.. where he gives me a lot of freedom.. and trust.. he will always wait for me to go back home and called me.. this is letting me more and more confused about my own feelings.. he or he.. which one is more important to me? or i dun want anything.. i just wants myself? or i just want to dependent on someone or ?? guess i need sometime to sort out my mind.. maybe he is not tat impt to me.. otherwise why can i still step into a relationship.. or maybe i am just lying that i still miss him..
or maybe i am drunk..........................
when i reached home, i upload that photo immediately.. which like my friend is saying i am crazy or hua zi.. hahaa.......
had a short chat with ex-jiefu.. i scolded him or so called i nagged him for not replying me that time when i am at hospital.. i told him i was at hospital.. he was like asking me wat happened.. why did i go hospital again.. hahaa.. let me recalled a sweet and short memory of wat happened few years back..
8 Aug 2002, the eve of national day.. i spend half a day in hospital.. tat day, i went to polyclinic to see doctor. Not a while later, the doctor called for an ambulance, there was the first time that i was being send to hospital by ambulance. At the point of moment, i am very weak. My blood pressure reached till a very low point that i can faint anytime. I need glucose to recover my energy.. When i reached A&E. I message jiefu and him.. jiefu was very stunned and asking me what had happened and he wanted to come down and visit me.. such a nice guy hor.. but now.. did a full checkup before i left hospital.. i was being hospitalize for a few hours.. Not really a lot of people knew that i admit hospital.. maybe a few them.. but 3 of them confirm know that i admit hospital.. hahaa.. i twist the story a bit but guess there is someone who knows the truth cos he was laughing all the way when i told him on the phone..
1st of march 2007, i went to hospital again.. this time round,i went there to see specialist. the feeling is different.. last time when i am there for a few hours, i was happily walking here and there till the doctor knows that i am scare of hospital.. He starts to scare me by telling me "You don't anyhow walk here and there.. later you see something.... " -_-'''' a bit cold right.. But tat point of moment i stepped into changi, my whole body is shivering.. is it bcos i lost my close friends.. they no longer be there for me? or ?? Before i leave hospital, i msg nanny.. haha.. but nanny reaction was wat i predicted ba.. maybe i am just looking for a feeling that i feels in the past ba..
i can't deny tat ex-jiefu really changed a lot.. last time usually is i said that to him.. now is he said to me.. a bit stunned.. or maybe all of us really had a complicated life.. just like wat he told me.. i will never know wat he is going on now.. but if u dun want to said.. i definitely dunno wat you going on now.. to me.. both of u are always like tat.. hear me sobbing, hear my sorrows and help me out.. yet i am always the one who couldn't help u guys out.. maybe i really like a baby girl.. no matter hw hard i tried, u guys are always the ones helping me..
i asked jiefu a question.. do u think i had forget about him.. wat the reply was like.. u dun need me to said out the answer right.. u should know it yourself better than i do.. haha.. starting to get puzzled.. did i really fall till tat deep.. now is already abt 2 years.. i still can't forget this person who once stepped into my life before? or just that i had a complicated life.. or just that pple around me keep remind me about him. i can't deny he is a nice guy.. while i also can't deny that i got a lot of guys friends also very nice or maybe even nicer than him... korkor asked me a question before.. or maybe i should re-phase this.. the first time korkor saw him.. he already told me.. dun fall in love with him.. he got no feelings for you.. and ended up.. i had a draggy friendship for 3 years and been dependent on him till a point that i don't know and slowly getting use to it.. korkor asked me.. he is nt the only one that treats you tat good leh.. erm.. maybe this is destiny ba but we dun have the fate.. i told jiefu.. i really regret tat i fall in love with him.. otherwise now we will still be very good friends.. but now he is still avoiding me.. starting to lose my courage.. seems like i hurt quite badly.. or now.. i am emotionally down again..
i can't deny that.. currently i am in a relationship.. where he gives me a lot of freedom.. and trust.. he will always wait for me to go back home and called me.. this is letting me more and more confused about my own feelings.. he or he.. which one is more important to me? or i dun want anything.. i just wants myself? or i just want to dependent on someone or ?? guess i need sometime to sort out my mind.. maybe he is not tat impt to me.. otherwise why can i still step into a relationship.. or maybe i am just lying that i still miss him..
or maybe i am drunk..........................
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