this week been great... i finally finish my vol project and i back in office.. wahaha.. :P finally got a chance to work in office.. hehe.. :P

for the past few days i went to billy bomber and thai express for lunch.. wahah.. i spent almost 2hrs for my lunch break..but i am broke now... today i went to thai food again.. hehe.. but it was nice.. i like it so much.. wahaha... :p

btw.. i went to watch herbie already... not bad.. quite funny...

yesterday course was ok lah.. not tat boring.. get to know more pple.. :P we make a promise.. if within 3 mths, we never acheived wat we had promised.. i will have to treat them.. but if he is going to promote again.. he shall treat me makan.. wahhaa.. let me think of something expensive... lalaa... his pay is so much higher than me... so i guess it would be find lah... lalalalaala... 3 mths later, we will know who win who lose... bleah.. :P

tonite.. my colleague.. wanted to bring me to that ice pub... wahaha.. :P shiok sia....

my life been going ups and down which i couldn't really handle well.. Last thursday i went to attend the second part of my course. Could i really untie my knot? Tat knot seems like falling deep inside a well. I realise something.. if i dun practise what i learned during that 3 days, the power i had will lose in any minutes.

been very busy for the past 3 weekends, do nt really have time for anything else.. but last sat, i managed to seek permission to leave early but ended up i still went off ard 10pm.. Went down to orchard to meet my friends for a birthday celebration. Out of surprising.. i couldn't flag a cab at lavander or bugis.. Can u believe tat taxi drivers do not want to stop for me.. hai~~ i am late... they will all waiting for me.. i feel so paiseh.. hehe.. but touch sia.. they never abandon me.. hehe.. again!! i did something stupid.. put some fresh cream on my friend's face.. lolo.. shifu.. hai~~~ bcome cream shifu.. who asks him accompany us to go washroom to wash hands.. ended up kana sabo by me.. this weekend.. although i am not working.. got two chalets going on....... erm... still considering.. everything for me now is like all pending.. let me have a break first ba~~


the most scarliest thing for august was tat... i got friends birthday which are contiunously... 26-gx, 27-jil n gary, 28-suicheng, 29-kevin, 3rd sept-soo yuan, 5th-ester... omg...

haha.. i fall sick again.. been keep falling sick for this whole year... two mths ago.. got high fever now... kana attacked by flu virus again.. kor came and find me today.. so sweet.. and he said next week treat me eat sakae.. erm.. listen can liao.. next week than i will know the truth.. never regret to have this kor.. cos he know this week.. i sad sad.. so.. haha.. had a talk with him also.. seriously my feelings really mixed up le.. i really duno wat i wan le.. so tiring.. can give me 1 min to breath...

i know jil, xuer and one of my gd friend when i broke up with my ex.. now.. everything was like in a mess.. xuer asked me.. she tot i fall in love with jil.. hai~~~ jil and my ah-kor is the same.. we know tat we will nt cross over tat line tat we had drawn in the first place. but.. i had crossed over the line tat me and my gd friend drawn.. tot tat attending the forum can help me to unlock my tie.. in the first place it seems like working.. now.. a bit confused again..

yesterday i went to take something from my friend.. finally, i managed to lend it from him.. but he really makes me very irritated.. i dunno why also.. he actually promise to pass to me on friday.. he said he was tired. fine.. i said another day... in a while later.. he msg me.. "i pass to u later.. since i am driving and i need to pass my friend some stuffs" ***** i know i nt your gf but pls respect me a bit can?
the same thing happened again yesterday...

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last weekend i went to attend a forum.. erm.. ok lah.. but... i did close my eyes for a while... but sh.......... dun tell anyone.. later sure kana whack by my boss... really tiring.. from 7am to 9pm.. maybe i need to had a hard life.. i cannot sit there for the whole day doing nothing except listening... but the food there was nice.. temasek country club was like a holiday resort from some other countries... i seems like i had left sg for 3 days.. but in fact i am still in sg... luckily got someone send me back hm... daddy was nt free for that whole month... and nobody want to send me back home.. so sad... got no pple pamper me le... hai~~~ but never mind.. all got their happiness le.. hehe...

story to be contiuned... cos i still got to work now..... byebye.... :P

two weeks ago.. i went to ktv with my cousin and followed by tat we went to watch the fireworks over at Marina there.. we even had a pinic over there.. hehe.. bought a lot of food.. i like the potato salad over the liang court.. the green-tea icecream is bagus!! MUST try!!! real taste good but ex..

been slacking all the way on national day's eve..hehe.. :P

went to watch NDP at padang.. sort of it ........... maybe i should not had choose at padang.. so hot over there.. plus.. sit beside an idiotic auntie.. she got the guts to someone smoking over there.. but when she was wrong.. she act damn innocent... wah kao.. no MANNERS!!! so old liao.. still no manners..only how to create trouble..I miss my fireworks show also.. make my day more worst.. the screen were actually blocking my view..sian...

last sat.. went out at 10am.. ended up i reached hm ard 12 midnight.. wah piang.. my leg so painful.. it had been such a long time that i ever went out for so long.. maybe tat can test my patience for tomorrow forum.. hai~~ i went to meet my poly in the afternoon.. we had lunch and shopping for a while.. then went to swensen for desert.. after tat.. i went to suntec to meet my cousin to catch Charlie and the Chocolate Factory.. hehe..:P i like it so much...

When i am young, i been thru stuffs that i thinks really very tough in life. I had never handle well with anything ended with a "ship" before.

In primary school, we had a bunch of friends who are quite close. Furthermore, i got a friend who falls on the same birthday as me. We tends to celebrate birthday together and sabotage each others. Those moments were really very sweet. But definitly we did quarrel before and do a lot of childish stuffs. Slowly we get apart, all of us are no longer tat close anymore. Sometimes just met up for a drink or pool sessions.

While as for secondary school, i tends to got often into friendship problem. Can you believe that? To me, i really stunned. I never tot of that will happen in my life. Sometimes have some family matters but definitely not friendship. As time passes, friendship's problem tends to get into a worst situation where else 3 of us all got hurt. The worst thing was we dragged down another girl who is innocent. It might be a very small matter but seriously i dunno when it bcome so serious. Both of them are very good friends.. we seems like snatching for bf like tat, pushing each other here and there. complicated story where the ending is we are still apart now.

In poly life, things get really smooth. Nothing much happened, just that things around me seems to be worst. Tends to lose a lot in life. Perharps maybe he was walking with me thru my poly days. That's why i feel so happy ba. This coming saturday will be my cousin 1 year anniversary. He passed away at 8.45pm at nite where all of us were nt around. That one month to me was like chao. As normal, i still went to starbucks to revise for my exams. Secretly i went to Changi Airport. I departed there to went over to Aus to find auntie while after a year he left us. Ever since he left sg, he had never ever step into his hometown. At Changi Airport i sort out my thinkings. At tat moments, i wanted to give up everything around me and just concentrate on my studies. I told myself i won't look back with the decision i made or turn back the path. I am wrong, i turn back the path and look for him again. I had never knew he had bcome a habit of mine or something which i couldn't afford to lose. During my examinations period, got a friend motivate me to study. Tat's was tian tian. I knew him thru a chat on my birthday. Maybe his is my guardian angel for tat period of time. He very poor thing, i always bully him and he always hear me cried. I cried too much behind of him but he will never knew the truth. When he was aboard for more than one month. I was like counting down the days n i never knew tat i had actually mess up my life during that period of time. I got tian tian into trouble. I feel really regret, he just a very good friend cos he always lend me a lending ear when tears following down. I tends to act strong in front of others but once i am alone it might turn out another way. During my examination period, there were times i wanted to give up but due to the support given by tian. I manage to got my best results in my entire poly life. He was like threatening me, he kept remind me have u forgetten wat u promised your cousin? Yes, i do remember wat i promise him. Really thanks for tat period u motivate me study when he was away.Maybe i always unlucky, nt long after my birthday kor admitted hospital due to accident. Hai~ i went to visit him but once i heard he going for operation, i left the place. He actually expects me to stay there and accompany him. Sorry, i just dun have the courage to stay there. When Siok admitted hospital, i guess i scared my friend. It was on a friday nite, after standing outside waiting to visit my grandma who just came out from the operation theatre. Ard 8, i had to rushed all the way to tan tock seng to visit siok. She was lying helpless there, seriously my heart feel damn painful. Someone who is the same age as me and same birthday as me, lying there. Nt more than 5 mins in the ward, i rushed down. I found an excuse to go down. MY tears was rolling when i was walking out of the ward. Imagine how helpless i am, i called my kor, him, jiefu and someone else(A).. only A picked up the call.. him and jiefu was in army... while kor was having karate.. so poor thing, i dun have a girl friend to call. The next day, xiao and i went over to accompany her for the whole day. There were tons of words that we wanted to express out just tat we all keep it. and never want to reveal it out.

My working life... my colleagues are very nice, they treats me as a small kid. They willing to teach me and explain to me. Before my working life starts, i lose so much things that i dunno how to stand again. There might have loses or gain in life. This time round i am a bore loser. My guy good friend or my dear sister (Mr Gary)... i know i always get into trouble.. u been asking me to forget him cos he hurts me too deep le... thanks for your concern for these months.. i really very lost cos i haven find the right way to carry on to walk my path...

Conclusion:
Never knew tat it will be so painful when he was without with me. Maybe is just like when u got on smoking and now u need to quit smoking. The kind of feeling is really unbearable.

Never knew that losing a kin was tat painful. And it makes me more to cherish kins around me.

Thanks to my parents and relatives for showering me with care and concern in my life

Never felt tat lost before, guess next time round when i do things. I MUST use head to think and avoid unnecesary misunderstandings.

Thanks to all my friend who been thru with me till now.

sian.. yesterday went back hm.. got another kor msg... alamak... ANOTHER break up for this week!!!! hai~~~ called him and chit chat... erm.... he got my ex bf number.. wow.. power..... erm......... he asked me wants or not... i stunned... if we never break up.. i will never know him.. i duno whether i should thanks him or not.. haha..... no matter wat happened, life still have to goes on.. maybe we still can be friends... next time we can meet up to go for a drink.. but OF COS is HE treat.. wahaha.. one thing for sure.. he very gentleman.. and nice guy... he treats his gf very good wor... still remember last time.. i went chalet with xinzhi, weeling and peggy on the first day.. can u imagine we bought how many bottles of vodka, hooch n others??? WE BOUGHT A TOTAL OF 21 BOTTLES!! wahahah.. :P i drank abt 11 bottles.. alamak.. tat day a bit drunk... haha.. hurt my head... then.. he knew abt it.. cos i told kor.. then... NAG N NAG N NAG... he even want to come down and bring me hm.. cos i promised him i won't drink... lolo.. :P ended up he msg my friend.. cos tat time M1 still dun have free incoming calls mah... of cos my good buddies help me lied lor.. bleh... :P considered as sweet memories ba.. watever i wants.. he will get for me.. TAT's WAS IN THE PAST!!! kor been asking me.. why last time u want to break up with him?? Reason?? I DUNNO...

today damn sleepy.... had bad day after work.. hai~~ ard 7 plus.. went back office to get my key.. and took 36 back hm... BUT DAMN... the bus was already damn pack.. the bus driver still asked us to squeeze.. i was like a victim sia.. at amber garden there.. there were pple alighting.. and pple coming up.. tat auntie.. dun want to move away.. then no choose... i had to move backwards to let them go down.. irritating sia.. wah piang.. got one guy step on my toes sia... after wearing high heels for one day ... leg damn painful liao..still step on me.. eat SHIT!!! at parkway more worst.. pple was like scare to miss the bus-stop.. pushing here and there.. the auntie again.. stand there like a stature...sian.. again me be the victim... after tat......... i should be alighting at the next bus stop.. but... the bell spoilt.. miss my bus-stop.. wah biang.. i tot i already avoid taking 36 at peak hours.. how come still so packed?? i suggest tat hor... should have double-decked 36 mah.. during peak hours.. arbo... everyday very jialat.. got to squeeze until siao.. or some short services lah.. u know wat i saw just now.. I SAW AN OLD MAN.. WAS STANDING WHEN THE BUS WAS PACKED.. HE WAS CARRYING AN UMBERALLA WITH HIM... ERM.. IF THE BUS DRIVER SUDDENLY BRAKE.. I GUESS HE WILL FALL DOWN.. BUT NOBODY OFFERING TO HIM SEAT!!!! WAH PIANG.. HEARTLESS CREATURE SIA!!! EVEN THOSE PPLE SITTING AT THE GREEN SEATS.. STILL YA YA PAPAYA.. SLEEPING OR LOOKING ELSEWHERE!!! HAI~~~ sad sia..

yohoo!!! finally my graduation day le... i got my diploma le... YESH!!! i did it liao!! finally completed another phase of my life... now got to proceed on to next step le.. wat should i do nexT?? work for the rest of my life?? or contiune my studies... erm.. seriously.. i hope one day i will throw my hat high and celebrate i got my degree le.. should i take it?? Give me one year to think carefully ba.. seriously... i dunno wat should i do next time.. i am like aimless.. just want to make a living now.. nothing much..

today went back school... erm.. so long never go back le.. hehe.. have the craving to eat ban mian.. but miss it... too busy today.. got my cert liao.. follow by went to collect a USB hub from my mentor who is my fav lecturer.. thanks him for the 3 years.. he helped me a lot.. he is very kind wor.. just like MR ONG.. can u still remember who is MR ONG??? We went for the buffet.. but the food was only so-so.. wow.. today didn't take much photos in school... miss a chance to take with Carina and Xinzhi... but took some secret pics wor.. sh... secret.. it will not be display out.. haha... guess who??? bleh.. nt saying out.. BUT I TOOK PIC WITH MY SHIFU.. hehe... BOTAK KING!!! bleah... :P

After tat we went to suntec.. and have NYDC.. actually didn't want to join in.. ah-fen pursue us to go.. hehe.. cos after tat meeting kor mah.. so.. tot of going back home and changed first but.. ended never go hm... met my colleague at city link.. hehe.. she congras me.. lalala.. saw my yandao colleague at suntec too wor.. really surprise.. guess i got a crush on him.. but i duno which country he come from.. lalalaa.... i order iced irsh cream..... erm.. very BIG cup.. stunned... erm..at first taste nt sweet at all.. but dunno hw come after coming back from the ladies.. it taste so SWEET!! guess maybe shufen or shifu or duno who else added sugar in.. hehe.. :P we ordered two pizzas... wow... taste delicious.. so CHEESY... SHIOK ARH... but POOR SHIFU.. going to die of COUGH SOON.. HAHA.. guess he going to have a SICK BIRTHDAY!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY WOR!!! bleah :P Ard 6 plus i went off with them.. hehe.. never join ester, jol and others to take pic and shop shop around..

Ard my workplace.. kor called me.. so went to tower records to find him.. walked straight to carrefour.. haha.. wanted to get sushi but ended up we had polar.. GUESS where we go???? We went KBOX.. haha.. i am a lousy singer.. hehe. .just go there for fun.. took some pics over there too.. even record how kor sing.. wahaha.. keke... :P erm.. at first ok lah.. but slowly... something happened.. i guess he sense tat.. trying his best to make me smile.. try to act strong in front him.. and swallow away all my tears.. haha.. can u sense it?? i dunno leh.. but i can tell you something KOR IS A GOOD SINGER!!!

after hearing tat story of my friend... hai~~~ landed me with sleepless nite everyday... finally.. yesterday got to sleep......

Today is my graduation day wor.. hehe.. my BIG day... but... sian.. dunno why cannot feel tat happiness... dunno wat to write also.. hai~~~

today i went to tat zpop concert.. hehe.. not bad.. quite enjoyed myself.. ard 12... i met km... hehe.. went for a walk at east coast.. cos i was finding place to drink.. after tat call k.. but he was outside with his friends.. .then asked leo too.. hehe.. then... leo said he tired.. lazy to come out.. then ended up i went to 7-11 to buy.. after drinking for 2 cans.. l called km again.. asked where are we know.. in the end.. we went out together and drink.. haha.. met h too (l's friend)... we went to interworld which is near everyone's house.. dun need to drive.. tat's good.. they ordered SKYJUICE for me... wat!!! no choice.. stick with my skyjuice lor.. they went to play pool.. then i sit there alone.. sad sia.. but... later they ordered ANOTHER jug... hehe.. a bit tempting... i drank too... bleah... :P btw..when we sat there not long after tat.. there are girls sitting beside the guys wor... .hahha.. .:P but.... they asked them to go away... are they consider nice guys? tat is for u to find out.. bleah.........know a girl called ann... she tot tat KM was my bf or someone going after me... haha... is tat the truth.. i duno leh.. i know we are friends only.. hehe..

why i choose to post a message again?? today i received a call...... erm.... duno why pple ard me all f33ling sad and down... after hearing wat he said.. i drop my tears too......although the person who get hurt is not me.. maybe i use my feelings to do things instead of my "pig" brain.. i never had w|sh the ending had come..

the four of us know each of us... at the same time.. we played mahjong together.. played da dee together.. seriously.. i really do miss that period of time.. maybe as times passes.. we started to change and react differently.. are we still friends?? All of u are like my da jiejie and da korkor.. of cos i treated all of u as gd friends... i asked for my 21th birthday present.. i got it.. but.... dun really want to take it.. i dun want a broken glasses....... maybe not everyone of us.. but most of us got our heart broken broken into pieces just like the glasses shattered on the floor.... i miss wat we have done in the past.. and not now.. maybe we did not cherish the pple tat ard us.. tat leads to everyone is being sad for this moment..

maybe this might a start for us.. a start for everyone to find someone better.... and recovered from the pain that we had it...

i really miss the period tat we are together... all of u just act like da jie jie and da korkor looking after me this xiao mei mei.. but it will no longer be as in the past le........ i miss u all.........

time passes so fast.. 3 mths of recovering... everyone ard me thinks i am getting better.. hehe.. kana alvin kor suan.. haha... i might have a chance to met him at padang.. we shall see.. maybe we will take some pics.. but of cos using my camera lah..

monday went to catch free movies.. wahaha.. dun need to pay money.. so shiok.. bought a pair of heels of my graduation day... somemore i only pay $5... pple paid for me.. so sweet sia... :P

tuesday... forgot wat i had done sia.. erm...............

wednesday... helped my parents till 1 plus... after tat.. keep telling myself nt to come online.. ended up.. i fall asleep...

thursday.. i pang sai ester n niao ying.. i went hm and sleep.. but i promised ester.. next thursday i will go..

today my cousin pang sai me.. hai~~~ but nvm.. she got me free tickets to watch Zpop concert.. wahaha.. :P

my life without you seems much more simple...next thursday i will be going back to school to take my cert.. tat willl be closing chapter for my poly life.. remember last time i compete with u.. ..........................(sh.. a secret between me and u) maybe if i never stepped into your life... things will be better for you.. seriously.. i did feel guilt and gratitude towards you.... tuesday i hurt my leg.. tat was the first time i never share anyone.. tat pain was so hurting.. in the past.. i will msg u or call u to tell u.. but.... i changed my mind.. last year.. i had a terrible stomache.. u are the one who been accompany me..... i dunno... just now i read my friend's blog.. he post out a message to declare his love towards the girl... the girl needs time to think about it.. wat abt my love life now.........

the answer will be.... i will let nature take its course... after so many years of nt cherishing u....... i lose already.. is my punishment for nt cherishing u when u are at my side........

Thursday... nthing much happened also.. actually ester asked me to meet them to go for a talk at tanjong pagar.. but due to i got to work OT.. therefore i didn't go.. sian.. nowadays.. need to work OT often due to a lot of changes to be done.. no choice.. everything is still not finialise.. i hate testing sia.. is so boring... on my way back to take 36.. i met an auntie.. she asked me "Xiao jie, where is Concrad hotel"? i was stunned for a while.. and started to look ard.. i realised something i lose touch liao.. no longer a street directory liao.. sad sia.. In the end, i still managed to brought her there.. but i missed 4 36s... alamak.. two 36s come at the same time for twice.. sian.. ard 10.. i went to meet my friend.. to pass him the cds.. dunno where to go... or wat to do.. we called out another two friends out.. he went back hm to take keys.. while another one taking a bath.. i also went hm to take bath.. haha..he had to travel tro and fro to pick us up.. lolo.. :P at first we went to hongkong cafe at katong there while waiting for another friend ... erm. .maybe it was unbelievable.. i actually had a dreamt abt it... but it really bcome a reality.. erm.. !!!! ard 12.. went to pick up lao ah-pek.. hehe.. :P he bcame a teacher le.. wahaha..i guess the students are suffereing.. bleah...

friday.. really cannot concentrate on work. .due to slept too late for the past two days.. sian.. after worked when to meet Carina, Kim and their friends.. sort of i am the only extra one there.. but tried to make myself comfortable ba.. diao.. Carina keep suaning me.. hai`~~ she a bit very permissitive... about her FYP.. i ..... maybe provoke her ba.. i only said tat report nt very thick.. she........... i really duno.. she keep saying i got a very good life.. erm.... i dun dare to denied abt it.. when i am down... my friends all very on.. ask them out.. all will be out.. hehe.. thanks pals.. hehe.. tat 3 might be an idiot.. but they always accompany me thru late nite.. got jiefu always hear my sorrows.. got korkor accompany me thru my darkest period.. so.. ok lah.. we went to pastamania for dinner.. she wanted to treat us.. but we put money inside her bag.. then i realise something. she always treat pple eat.. she reminds me of xinzhi.. last time we go eat .. xinzhi always said dun need..she treated us very good.. but very ke xi.. she no longer tat close with me.. she was a very nice friend... but in secondary times.. there were lots of things happening tat were being disclose.. only 3 of us knows abt it.. hai~~

sat.. went out with banana they all.. alamak.. i was LATE for an HOUR.. due to massive traffic jam plus i met an accident.. luckily.. i am ok.. otherwise.. i met be in the hospital now..we went to bugis and walked to doby ghaut.. seriously i dun remember tat i got tell winston tat i dun want to go orchard... hai~~ maybe i too forgetful.. he inisited i said abt tat.. i LL lor...

sun... spent a day with my parents.. hehe.. :P anyway.. now i am broke...

sat went to carina's chalet.. wow.. so crowded.. i wondering if next time i really got open a chalet for my birthday.. will it be so crowded also?? i am always friendless.. will pple come my chalet?? hai~~ sad sia... not bad.. quite fun.. sit there talked with peggy n her bf... plus yy... yy came late.. hehe.. :P

sun.... went out with a bunch of botaks.. of cos plus my good friends... lolo... suppose to meet at 12 but.. i was late.. cos i wake up late.. wahaha.. too early lah.. next time must set later timing mah.. lolo.. :P met yy on bus 72... hehe.. so join her... when i reached there.. we will like the last two to reach there... when we started to shift in for seats.. i told them "someone else is coming also"... they will like stunned.. who? who?? Impossible is gary mah.. he told me he is not coming.. haha.. but in actual fact he will be joining us.. alamak.. he never tell them.. we had a gathering at HAN's... we girls might be going there POP wor.. hehe.. we shall see how.. since.. 3 of them passing out at the same time... after tat went to tampines to collet banana's phone.. erm.. something eeks happened.. a baby vomit milk at yy.. ended yy... got get a new pair of pants... after tat we got no place to go.. ended up heading home.. actually wanted to meet my friend.. but too tired le.. cancel it..

monday... work OT until 7 plus.. sad sia.. last minute changes.. no choice...

Tuesday work OT again.. but today different.. work until 8.30... wtf sia... AGAIN last min changes..sad leh.. now doing testing.. a lot of things to change.. sian.. ended accompany my friend work until 8.30.. today was her last day too.. but i promise her tat on the 27 of july,i will go back school to find her.. paiseh sia.. today hp flat.. got to borrow phone from her to make phone call back.. in case daddy cannot contact me... after tat ard 9... meet my parents to go chinatown.. to get some stuffs.. when i reached home ard 10 plus.. then i finally got my dinner... sian.. now should be going to sleep soon... -_-


today kana heartache sia.. hai~~~ tot tat helping pple might be doing myself a good deed... but.. hai~~ i know the feeling of losing someone close to you.. the determination and courage to fight with illness... tot tat maybe donate some money might can help them a bit ba... they might need financial helps.. when you decided to fight with cancer.. Fighting with cancer.. u need care.. determination.. courage and lots of money... is not cheap to get cure...

around me.. i have 4 relatives tat contracted it.. one out of four survived.. the rest all away le.. i still remember last time... it was a painful way for everyone to walk thru it.. when my uncle got it.. we got shocked by the news.. after operation, he slowly on the process of recovering.. while my cousin a bit unlucky.. he went for operation.. but after one year... it spread already.. too late le.. no cure le.. when my aunt got the report.. the whole family hugged together and cried.. seriously toward my aunt.. it struck her badly.. she called my mum and inform her.. tat time i was at starbucks studying for my coming exams.. seriously.. how i survive thru my third year was... "he was so strong and determination.. you shouldn't had let him down"... when i received the call from my mum.. my heart breaks into pieces.. hardly can believe tat.. how can such thing happened to such a young guy.. maybe it is fated ba.. tat period isn't tat easy to walk thru.. luckily.. i got friends who understand how i feel.. maybe to them i am a crybaby ba.. but couldn't believe i dropped my tears at ochard mrt station.. so many pple there also.. just couldn't control it.. at hm cannot cried.. due to grandma's presence.. we dare not let her know abt it... but as time passes by.. i guess all of us slowly getting use of it.. but the pain that we felt inside our heart is unforgettable.. the most importantly, he will place somewhere in everyone's heart.

erm.. wednesday.. i went out to meet up with yy.. kevin n edmund.. hehe.. this is the first time. .four of us go out together wor.. we went to watch war of the world.. erm.. in middle quite exciting.. but for the front part and end part a bit sian.. hai~~ spoilt the movie.. btw.. we went over to lido to watch... erm.. actually tat day.. i very bad.. asked ed to buy nuggets.. and really buy... then yy said i very bad..:P

Thursday.. I FORGOT TO BRING MY HP.. alamak.. sad sia.. first time without hp.. so torturing.. hai~~ hp bcome a needs and no longer a want for me.. jialat..daddy actually wanted to give me his hp.. but forget it.. ester wanted me to go to an seminar with her.. but... she got no way to contact me.. tot tat i cheat her.. cos the day before.. mao mao went to agency.. and got tat job, usher, at suntec... she tot i am avoiding tat conincidence.. but in actual fact.. i really didn't bring my hp..

Friday.. went to thai express for lunch.. cos tat was my collegue last day.. hai~~ sian.. next time i will be alone at tat place.. hai~~ all treated me like xiao mei mei.. jia lat.... next time if i didn't manage to open the door on time.. guess i will be stuck outside... sad.. she wanted to treat me.. but i said no lah.. she doing her attachment.. $400 per month.. very jialat.. me dun want to be so bad... then.. at nite.. met up with ester for dinner.. lolo.. went to bugis.. again i am LATE!! jialat.. had curry chicken and swensen as dessert.. wahaha.. broke sia..

FINALLY.. went to watch inital D.. hehe.. i like it quite a lot.. oh ya.. yesterday went out with bulldog and edmund to have dinner.. erm.. .ok lah. .first time went out with both of them.. wahaha... AGAIN i am late... went to suki sushi to have dinner.. tat two guys are like siao.. take so many plates.. as if we are ordering buffet.. i ate sashimi le.. finally.. after craving for so long.. got somebody accompany me to eat jap food le.. i duno whether is the manager gave the wrong chance to me or we gave him extra money.. Each of us suppose to pay $25.. ended up he return me $15... We gained extra $15.. wahha after tat.. we went to pacific coffee.... erm.. bulldog order a cake.. sort a dessert for him ba.. but ended ........ hahaha :P i finally try to play 8 balls..wahaha.. i lose sia.. hai~~ sad sad.. erm.. went to classics pool.. erm.. still prefer my MEGA POOL...

wohoo.. .today another girl's outing.. but AGAIN i am late due to traffic jam.. hai~~ but i enjoyed the movie alot.

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saw this quiz at yy's blog..so kpo.. .go try it out.. couldn't believe i will get this... haha... i am always.. evil.. i am evl mn...

u(....) idiot lah.. give me this nickname called evl mn.. but.. haha.. when i need help.. u will be there to help me can liao.. dun dare to ask for too much.. i guess i will meet someone better in life... slowly getting use of walking alone in the path of my life.. hehe.. slowly forgetting who u are... slowly getting my way thru the door to proceed to another level... maybe tat's show tat i have GROWN up.. wahaha...

jiefu.. thanks hor.. i understand le.. the meaning le.. .wahaha... maybe he doesn't belong to mine.. i wish him all the best.... with his gf... :P ... .

hehe.... yesterday.. miss the gathering.. feel unwell after i stepped of the house.. so decided not to go.. hai~~ -_- maybe after of two days of non-stop outing... there goes my health.. hai~~ too weak.. or maybe friday nite.. i ate durians again.. hehe.. nvm.. i shall join them next time.. lolo....

later going out with banana n her friends ba.. to play pool.. at nite, might be meeting edmund they all to play pool again.. so.. i guess today.. i will have a pool day...hai~~ sian..lolo..:P

tomorrow going to catch inital D leh... finally.. hopefully i can get tickets.. otherwise... hai~~ hehe...

hai~~~ yesterday went out with banana n yy... hehe... three girls outing again... lolo.. :P the guys are out.. lalala.. since they are still in the army... actually we wanted to catch intial D but... we missed it.. due to... TOO POPULAR... when i reached there... the tickets was like all sold out.. hai~~~ sad sia... too bad... AGAIN i went back to cartel have my lunch n AGAIN i had my grilled chicken.. but this time round i ordered a set.. had our girls chat... hehe.. yesterday me and joanna was talking abt "who will be our Mr. right guy", lights off again.. hai~~ power failure.. but it did not affects us at all.. lolo.. :P we even went for neoprints... haha.... maybe should post it out hor.. i got yy's multiple take first.. then.. .post it ba..

just now when i was on my way back to office.. i met jasmine at citylink... erm.. pretty coincidence... last week i met lydia and wenjun.. and after tat i went to ps to meet ester plus jasmine.. erm.. this week i met jasmine... but tomorrow i going to meet my poly friends... hehe... :P seems quite long never meet them liao... haha... but later i going down bugis... ciao~~ everyone...

fall sick for the past few days.. sian... sore throat.. flu... fever.. cough... everything comes at once... terrible.... hai~~~ monday went back to office... wanted to finish out my stuffs.. bcos tat was the date due... erm.. still lack of a bit... tuesday wanted to get out of bed.. but felt so restless... my forehead was not hot at all.. but i use thermometer... omg.. is 39 degrees.... haha.. guess something wrong with it.. but once daddy heard abt it... nag nag n nag ... in the end he brought me to clinic... the doctor said i got fever.. throat inflammation.. tat leads to my flu and cough...he remind me to avoid all fried food.. especially DURIANS.. guess i have been eating too much of durians.. tat leads to this illness... gone case liao.. nowadays no appetitie too.. hai~~

he been too kind for me le... whenever i asked help from him.. he will never reject me... hai~~ and never ask me.. it seems like he is always there for me.. dun make me sad leh.. i know u are a very kind soul.. but just dun suit me right.. thanks pal.. i will miss u often.. hehe.. :P