You Are a Good Friend Because You're Loyal ??

Your Birthdate: October 26

You lucked out the the skills to succeed in almost any arena. Put you in almost any business or classroom, and you'll rise to the top. You're driven and intense, but you also know when to kick back and cooperate. Your ability to adapt to almost any situation is part of what's going to make you a success. Your strength: Your attention to detail Your weakness: You can be a little too proud of your successes Your power color: Turquoise Your power symbol: Arrow pointing up Your power month: August

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

You Are Somewhat Mature

You definitely act like an adult sometimes, but a big part of you is still a kid at heart. While your immature side is definitely fun, you're going to have to grow up sooner or later.

Are You Immature?

Your Mood is a 1

You can't imagine really feeling worse than you do right now. You're definitely going through a rough time.

How Does Your Mood Rate?

He's So Over You, He Needs a New Word For "Over"

Girl, who do you think you're fooling? Your ex isn't play hard to get. He's playing, "Get the hell out of my life" So even if you still have feelings for him... It's time to say adios and find a new man

Is Your Ex Boyfriend Still Into You?

Your Love is Based on Commitment

You believe that love is something that develops and grows. You don't believe in love at first site, and you never mistake lust for love. For you, love is about mutual devotion, respect, and understanding. You don't feel comfortable in a relationship, unless you're both in it for the long run. Why your love can last: You don't take commitment lightly - or leave relationships easily Why your love can fail: You're so committed, you often can't see the most obvious problems in your relationship

What Is Your Love Based On?

You'll Find a Boyfriend Within 3 Weeks

You're out enough to meet plenty of guys And it shows, because a few are interested in you Even if you haven't meet the right guy yet He's standing just around the corner :-)

When Will You Meet Your Next Boyfriend?

Your Heart is Feeling Indifference

Your heart is pretty much on hiatus right now. You're not particularly interested in love, and you're cultivating a sort of romantic apathy. Whether you've been burned badly or you're just burned out, your heart is cold to passion. Deep down, your heart is susceptible to: A bit of cold heartedness Your current outlook on love: Detached and stoic - you try to analyze love from a logical perspective Your love life will improve if you: Open up a little. Stepping back can help you find peace with your emotions, but it can also make you repress them. Watch out for: Too much cynicism. Indifference can lead you down a dark path.

What Is Your Heart Feeling?

You Are a Champagne Woman

A true mystery, no one can quite figure you out... That is, until you start drinking. Then you tend to let loose. You're fun to drink with, but it definitely takes you a few drinks to loosen up. You prefer to date a man who likes the finer things in life... like a five star dinner with that champagne.

What Kind of Drinking Woman Are You?

Your Travel Personality Is: The Adventurer

For you, travel is how you learn about the world. And you like to learn the stuff that's not in guidebooks. You truly have wanderlust. When you're not traveling, you're dreaming about where you'll go next. And your travels are truly legendary - they leave you with stories you'll be telling for the rest of your life!

What's Your Travel Personality?

Your Job Satisfaction Level: 33%

Your job is definitely a bummer, and you probably should get a new one. Make sure you know what's getting you down. Is it your co-workers? The work environment? Your boss? Getting a new job is important, but so is not repeating the same mistakes.

Should You Get a New Job?

You Are a Good Friend Because You're Loyal

You stick with your friends no matter what, even if you feel like they're doing the wrong thing. You believe in letting people figure out their own path in life. It's not your place to interfere. And part of your loyalty means that you'll do a lot for your friends. You definitely go the extra mile. You'll even do great things for friends without them asking. After all, that's what friendship is all about. You are truly a friend for life. And you have friends you've known since you were a kid. Your friends can count on you to do a favor, remember a birthday, or just be there to listen. Your friends need you most when: They can't turn to anyone else You really can't be friends with: Fickle people who change friends quickly Your friendship quote: "Friendship doubles your joys, and divides your sorrows."

What Makes You a Good Friend?

scor & aries

Scorpio and Aries
When Aries and Scorpio come together in a love affair, it can be the kind of relationship where they both wonder how they ever managed apart. Both Signs love power and they can achieve just about anything -- as long as they learn to share the spotlight. Scorpio is very focused; once they set their sights on Aries, Aries is most likely powerless to resist! Scorpio has a deeper and more complex devotion to this relationship than does Aries.
These two Signs tend to engage in heavy, heated arguments. Their connection is highly passionate and often argumentative, because both partners have jealous tendencies. Scorpio tends to be more patient, but is also more possessive than Aries -- and can lash out (with that Scorpion sting!) when their feelings get hurt. Despite their differences in emotional involvement, both partners love risk and taking chances; this is not a boring relationship! Aries and Scorpio can have lots of adventures together. They may have trouble understanding one another -- Aries is a true extrovert, totally up-front and open, while Scorpio is more inward, emotional and, at times, manipulative. Sometimes a truce is necessary to keep things running smoothly!
Aries and Scorpio are both ruled by the Planet Mars (Passion), and Scorpio is also ruled by Pluto (Power). When two people with Mars's energy come together, it's like two soldiers on a battlefield -- they're either allies or deadly enemies. Mars also represents passion, so Aries and Scorpio tend to have an exciting time together (both in the bedroom and out of it!).
Arguments are normal in such a challenge-oriented couple -- and making up is definitely something to look forward to! Pluto adds extra intensity to this dynamic.

Scorpio and Aries
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Aries is a Fire Sign and Scorpio is a Water Sign. These two elements can be a great combination if they work together, combining emotion and physical action to get things done. Scorpio is a strategist, and can help Aries slow down and learn how to plan battles before jumping into them. Aries teaches Scorpio to let go and move on when their efforts are thwarted. However, Water can also put out a Fire, and Scorpio's tendency toward emotional manipulation has that effect on Aries -- it's too much Water dampening Aries's enthusiasm. Conversely, too much Fire makes Water evaporate away; when under emotional stress, Scorpio can become vindictive. It's essential for Aries and Scorpio to work together, not against one another.
Aries is a Cardinal Sign and Scorpio is a Fixed Sign. Aries can teach Scorpio about spontaneity -- doing things just for the experience, rather than always having an agenda in mind. Scorpio can help teach Aries to stabilize and finish things rather than always jumping into new projects without completing what's already on the table. When they can understand that they're both loyal and devoted to one another, they can both be the boss -- Aries as the initiator and Scorpio as the emotional leader.
What's the best aspect of the Aries-Scorpio relationship? The power of their combined forces. They're both winners and they won't give up, making theirs a relationship that never settles for second best.

sweet dreams~~

wahahaaa... :P

x-ray~~

hahaa~~ drag for so long~~ i finally went to see doctor and request to go for x-ray~~ when i see doctor~~ she asked me, "How long is your backache?". Erm~~ Starting from July onwards, hahaa.... july, august, sept and now OCTOBER~ i will send u for x-ray~ does your backache affecting your leg~~ erm~~ last week i did feel a sharp pain down my leg~~ but not long after tat, i went to see a doctor who i had been visiting for the past few months~ to be frank, not long before my peak period, he had already written a referral letter for me to go and see doctor for x-ray. But due to hectic work schedule, i choose not to go see doctor and ignore it~ As time passes, it hurt that badly.. plus mummy every nite got to help me apply medical oil~ haiz~~ time to know wat is going to be the outcome~~

tmd~~~ why this year i am damn unlucky~~ ear recovered~~ now back~~~ starting of the year, i went to changi hospital to see specialist~~~ now~~ need to go for x-ray~~ hopefully~~ it will not be very serious~~ just have to take some medicine.. or do physiotherapy.. the worst case is to admit to A&E immediately and do operation ASAP. BUT i dun think that will happen to me, my case is not that jialat yet~~ :)

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Faith makes all things possible and love makes all things easy

Hahaa.. when i see the above title.. my hearts broke into pieces.. haha.. why? got dear ard le.. why still about a past tat cannot be turn back anymore..no excuses for me to tell myself why he left me without saying anything.. min arh min .. time to wake up le~~ dun drill on it anymore le~~ the more u drill on it~~ the more sad u will be again~~ do u want to land as wat u had tat day over at MS.. Till now... even your brothers and good friend know abt it~~ brothers asked u to forget it~~ dun let it conquer your mind le~~ Dear.. maybe we should end le~~ i really dunno wat i wants~~ i dun want to hurt another innocent person~~with i dunno wat i wants~~ i dun want to step into a relationship when i dun even know whether i love that person or not.. when my mind.. sometimes will think of a past tat i dun even want to think abt it~~ yet it hurts me deeply~~ i admit~~ i like to dependent on other pple a lot~~ especially when i am sad... i hope to have pple ard to comfort me~~ be with me~~ walk thru together~~ but when it comes love.. i am lose~~ maybe relationship isn't a game for me to step in~~

How's life have been for me??

Wahahaa.. Curious why i did not blog anything ever since my nite at ms? Wahaaha.. How's life been for me for the past few days or weeks? Ever since that nite at ms, i think i did a bit of dramatically change..

Hahaa.. why after that nite, i did a dramatically change? I also dunno, is time to change to grow up and be mature.. Stop being a kid.. i can only be a kid under table with my close buddies or friends~~

Cute Piggy that i got from PS Arcade.. hahaa.. i hook onto the game le~~ sadly i had to pay myself~~ wahahaa.. :P but my friend always very kind.. keep sharing with me the cost.. maybe i keep complaining i am very broke nowadays.. :P



Of cos the truth is i am really damn broke cos i got 13 birthdays before my next pay day~~ one month had so many birthdays~~ crazy~~ sob sob.. but i think i can save up for nanny de~~ cos i asked him wat he wants.. he never reply me.. guess he going to be on my ban list soon~~ u are the one who said.. must give present.. then -_-''' ATTITUDE~~~ i dislike this kind of ATTITUDE that u are showing lor~~ FINE~~!~!

A cupcake from office on tat day when my colleague's birthday aka da jie da birthday..



Erm.. how it taste like.. i dunno leh~~ cos i never ate it~~ but it should be the same as wat i ate lastime.. why? Bcos is the same company who produce this.. -_-''' just that this time round, they add in the logo..


Waraku De Pasta

Fattening~~ Cheesy~~ but YUMMY~~ Chicken dunno wat baked gratin..



Much more Healthy Choice.. The combine is unique~~ Salmon and Cheese



After dinner at Clarke Quay

I was damn late that day~~ niao niao waited me for quite sometime.. i am at office struggling with my work~~ After tat we went to da jie da birthday party... Is somewhere at clarke quay~~ but i dun reveal the place ba~~ didn't really drink on that nite... i saw da jie drinking flaming~~ wahaaha.. high sia~~ i will never got the guts to try that.. :P Hahaha.. but got one yandao over there leh~~ wow.. cool sia~~~ :P




A boring nite in office struggling

Of cos i ate my dinner in office.. in the meanwhile.. got a bit of enjoyment..

yummy~~ dark chocolate ice-cream~~ but nt very thick~~



omg~~ why i kept eating fattening stuffs~~

A relaxing friday

My gd friend came to pick me up from work~~ She brought me to a place at OASIS~~ Guess end of the year, OASIS going to close to make way for the new look of Stadium~ This is my first time having meal over there, the renovation is quite simple looks like those old times resturant~ omg~~ she kana fine again~~ Leisure park also renovate le~~

leftover vege



Is this shit? Nope.. is gong bao chicken~~ recommend by the waitress



Guess wat is this?? For ??



Kekekee.. For porridge.. wahahaha... refillable~~ once in a while having porridge is nt bad~~ my parents like porridge while i dun like it~~ guess i should bring them go there once before it closed down~~

We still order more dish.. stewed pork~~ but ended up both of us cannot finish the food.. After dinner we head down to cosy bay~~ wahaaha.. a favourite place where i also go.. if gt someone drives me in~~ but if u park at the carpark~~ u need to pay $5 wor~~ of cos she did an illegal parking.. after the lesson of paying for the carpark for $5..

On Saturday~~ My mom asked me to go tampines.. i a bit relunctant to go there.. maybe bcos i got a lot of enemies staying over there.... haha.. no lah.. is just bcos i want to avoid seeing him.. seriously, i dun even know would i react~~ just like wat brother said.. is time for you to let go le~~ maybe bcos that nite..they see me~~ -_-'''' is it bcos i am stubborn, tat's why i am still struggling with it? or bcos i am the loser? actually i should be satisfy with my current life le~~ Although dear not at my side, just a call away he will be there for me~~ while sometimes brothers they all will be there for me too~~ maybe jil also lah~~ sometimes will joke with me~~ friends are ard at my side~~~ lose one.. should be ok ba~~ but is the one who i opened up the most~~ haiz~~~~ really a good friend of mine.. i never tell so much of my problems to someone like this before... maybe second one is justin korkor.. but he also got a gap with me le~~ haiz~~~

On sunday.. work lor~~ work lor~~~

10th sept~~ guess wat i had for dinner.. avoid paying taxes... my colleague and i choose to have dinner under this kind of situation...

Bought a tori yaki rice set at Tangs



Kekee.. one of my favourite japanese food

Turkey Penne salad for $2.70 at Isetan Japanese Supermarket



yummy.. very nice~~ turkey very tender~~

Sushi set



wahaha... got my favourite salmon sushi~~ plus one ice lemon tea from Mac~~ Dun need to pay 17% of taxes~~ one person only like less than $10.. We sat down at Shaw centre to eat and chit chat~~ a kind of cheap and relaxing method.. :P

Tuesday~~ i went out to meet brothers~~ my good friend's birthday~~ but of cos i never celebrate with her~~ she is with her darling~~ of cos we had a wonderful nite tat day~~ cos i keep whacking brothers... We went to wisma food court to eat hokkien mee~~ Three of us ordered the same thing sia~~~ Then we went down to coffee club to have chit-chat session~~ avoid talking abt the previous incident~~ i throw the whole cup of sugar at one of my brother... haha.. :x opps... We ordered two earl grey vanilla and one mocha.. Brother dun like earl grey but why i like it so much~~ i think earl grey suit for girl more than guy~~ i told him that le~~ before i ordered.. but he dun believe.. :P Still got one more my favourite~~ muddy mud pie~~ wahahaa.. :P three of us share.. yummy~~~

Wednesday.. I had a steamboat dinner with friends at chong qing steamboat.. cheap cheap.. $15 only.. can choose up to four kinds of soup base.. but the varieties are limit~~ The service is good, aunties there are very friendly sia~~~ When u stepped in, u will have a kind of feeling u are having steamboat in China.. Cos most of the pple there are from China~~ got Chio bus there also sia~~

Thursday, one of my ex-colleague came over to novena and have lunch with us~ We ate pepper lunch~~ of cos i ordered my favourite.. salmon fried rice~~ yummy~~~ but come out with a smell of working in the kitchen~~ The only guai day that i had for the week~~ went back home to have dinneR~~ but daddy drive me to ikea to get chicken wings~~ wahaha.. pamper brat sia~~~

Friday, wahaha.. i went down to orchard to collect my colleague's birthday cake cum making contact lens. Surprise that i make contact lens after so many years~~ haaha... Within a few weeks, i changed damn much~~ went for facial lah.. go make contact lens lah~~ bcos of dear mah? hahaa.. no lah~~ just want to change of looks~~ is time to grow mature~~~ At nite, i met my friend's friend~~ she treated me for dinner~~ hahaa.. After that i went back to office to wait for my colleague~~ she was over there struggling~~ sometimes she also waited for me till very late~~ since i got nothing much to do~~ then wait for her lor~ After tat we went to NYDC for supper.. of cos i never eat anything lah.. (u believe mah?)

Potato skin with bacon and chicken yummy~~



Mushroom and Ham baked rice my favourite~~ but nt my supper lah~



Gold Mines

A dessert that is share between us~~ One cheese cake with one scoop of double chocolate chip ice cream.. and chocolate syrup beside it~~ yummy~~ much more nicer than the muddy mudpie~~ (recommended by my another colleague)



Saturday, i met brothers and my lao po for movie session~~ can u believe i am the last one to reach~~ i rushed up all the way to the movie theatre to find them`~ luckily brother was standing outside waiting for me~~ arbo i paiseh lah~~ walked alone~~ wahaha... :P when we go in.. movie just abt to start~~

Movie : Apartment 1303
Critics : ok lah~~ jump and jump lor~~ xiao didi beside me giving out a lot of noises~~ then brother beside me~~ keep trying to scare me~~ guess i numb liao~~ no feelings~~

After that we dun even know where to go~~ i trying to find present for gd friend~~ while i found a bag which i am looking for a long time.. there is a period of time, out of stock~~ Now it comes with a new colour~~ But i still stick to my old choice~~

Pic of my new bag

hehe.. very coincidently, my the other two friends also like the same bag~~ therefore i msg them at the same time~~ one of them asked me to help her buy~~ whaaha.. so happy~~ bcos i asked before the salesgirl whether when got new stocks coming in~~ they said not sure whether will have new stocks or not~~ yet u let me caught u at PS URS~~and i immediately bought it~~ forget abt my friend's present le~~whahaa.. :P Maybe i should start to believe in fate~~~ Then sunday morning, my the other colleague called me to wake me up~~ just to tell me that she saw the bag le~~ i told her i bought le~~ wahaha.. :P



After buying the bag for second time~~ They all queueing up at TCC.. Waiting for abt 15 mins .. still nobody come out~~ haiz~~ change destination to starbucks at Cathay~ sat there entertained them till ard 12.. took a cab down to meet my another gd friend~~ she been waiting for me since 10 plus~~ :P opps~~ i am terrible late le~~ haha.. She treated me hk cafe.. we chit chat till ard 3 plus am~~~ talking abt work~~ hahaha.. she thinks i go mature le~~ haha.. a lot of pple also think that~~ haha.. my mindset change le~~

Australia Trip

Hahaa.. At first planning to go Australia end of oct but now due to my cousin is going earilier.. which means early oct~~ but i dun think i will be going le~~ even though i want a break and auntie been asking us to go over~~ guess next time~~

This year feel like going out of singapore.. dunno why.. dun have the feeling to stay in singapore.. why arh? Did a crazy shopping spree last friday~~ i spent almost $100 for that nite.. haiz~~~

Birthday gifts~~ haha.. haven even buy da jie tou and my gd friend present~~ haha ... da jie tou~~ going to have a celebration wor~~ while my gd friend.. she take care of me when i am drunk and send me home~~ hahaa.. it seems like it had been very long time ago.. we had been that close again? erm.. ytd met up with her to collect someone birthday gift~~ hahaa.. First time i went bioskin for facial.. Super ex.. if i got money~~ i sure go for package.. damn.. why am i getting so spendrift~ if i changed job.. how to survive? i feel like going to study next year le~~ time to said bye bye to my freedom~~

Just now i met one guy at my house downstair.. very coincident~~ erm.. it had been abt 5 years le~~ i never contact with him le~~ during poly year one.. we still got chat using email or icq... hahaa.. i still remember he send me before his family pic~~ haha.. i also couldn't remember why he send me that.. hahaa.. we used to be quiet gd friend in sec.. but slowly we dun keep in touch.. he went to aus to study after his o level~~ and now is back... actually he is back for sometime.. just tat he never join our gathering~~ we chatted for a while~~ cos i dun even know wat to talked to him.. furthermore my parents are there also~~ but i am stunned to see him ard.. and he can recognise me~~ omg~~ but he bcome more yandao le~~ hahaa.. tat's was wat my parents said.. but i agree.. hahaaa.. guess my parents had seen almost all my sec buddy friends.. hahaaa....

a nite at ms

wahahaa... to be very frank, after i read nanny blog on friday.. a lot of things floating on my mind~~ i didn't even want to step out on sat.. suppose to meet my gd friends they all at queensway shopping centre but ended i fly aeroplane~~ as usual.. brother nag at me lah~~~ cos i let him be lightbulb~~ wahaha.. :P i met up with them at suntec ard 8 plus.. while the meeting time should be 7.30pm.. wahaha.. i am very late le~~ but someone is later than me~~ cos he attending his church servicing~~ Erm.. to everyone of us, we were very shocked that he had convert to christian~ No harmful meaning nor thoughts, is just that we know him for more than 10 years~ Even though last time yy gt invited him to church, he also dun feel anything.. now he suddenly converted, make all of us very stunned.. i know life isn't that easy for him when he was born, nobody can ask hw perfect life to be. I can't make any changes neither.. i heard his mum's story.. hw she broke up with his dad... and hw he see each time the girl he likes fall in love with another guy except him~ hw heartbroken he is each time he saw the girl he likes ended with someone else.. hw working life had been for him.. he had been keeping it quietly.. none of us can said whether the decision you had made is correct or not.. to me, i think is a way, u can try to let go of things that u had kept it in yourself... believe yourself u can make it.. kelvin, if u need a listening ear, just tell us ba, i believe we will be there for you.. but is only when u willing to open it up..

seriously, the 9 of us who had met up on last sat~~ had divided into 3 groups~~ 1 group talking abt bible~~ while another group talking abt--> i dunno.. while the third group will be brother, banana and i .. the four of us.. --> rubbish lah~~ still got wat.. plus planning a trip for my birthday~~ After dinner at suntec, we went to haagen daz at esplande, haiz~~ Actually brother ordered an ice-cream which i wants to order.. but i immediately change my mind~~ wahaha.. :P

After ice-cream session, i met up with my friends.. We went clubbing together with brothers~~ haha.. tat was a nite which i dun even want to remember anything~~ seriously that nite too many things happened.. guess they were very stunned see me tat drunk~~ Of cos they send me home with my good friend driving~~ luckily she was awake~~ plus ant is awake.. the rest all very drunk~~ especially me~~ haiz~~ after tat nite, i finally know.. my heart is still bleeding~~ time passes for 2 years and reaching 3 years le~~ i still can't let go of the past mah? and i being stubborn to hold on to it~~ i think tat nite i mumbled out everything~~ mum asked me to forget abt him~~ she said.. wat so good abt him~~ maybe he is the second one who treats me that good ba~~ or maybe the one for me haven appeared up ba~~ i dreamt of him last nite.. i was very happy in the dreamt~~ and in the dreamt i told myself.. he no longer suitable for me~~ wahaha.. i hopefully in reality, i can tell myself tat..

I haven explained why i feel that bad after reading nanny's blog.. of cos.. i know he is attached now.. i also understand that pple attached only have his gf in his mind~~ my mind was floating hw good nanny is towards me~~ in the middle of nite, drive to my house and pass me my resume~~ wahaha.. middle of nite, buying supper for me~~ hahaa.. is tat considered good? haha.. but now i dun have this kind of privilege le~~ now is only his gf got this kind of privilege~~ so envy sia~~haha~~ i thinking back a question~~ If i never met him before nanny, will i choose a different way? hahaa.. i dunno.. watever it is.. i dun wish to look back le~~~

dear had been msg me on that nite.. but till now i still haven tell him hw badly i was drunk on sat.. seriously i dunno.. i enjoy the feeling being pampered.. or maybe so called~~ i am very weak in heart~~ i wished to have someone to listen to me.. talked to me.. hear me complaining.. currently i should be consider as fortunate ba~~

sometimes i will complain to brother.. haha.. he asked me to quit my job.. i told him.. ya lah~~ i quit le~~ then your ears will be peaceful le~~ he said is ok for him~~ wahaha.. touch sia~~

hahaa.. i dunno wat my mind nor my heart thinking~~ guess i need sometime to clear my tots again~~ just like hw i clear my tots when i broke up with L.. After i broke up with L, i met him~~ he been there for me to dependent on for the past few years~~ yet without saying anything, he just leave me~~ maybe i couldn't find a reason why i should get out from the past~ or maybe i should said.. i haven found a reason why that's the end~~ or ? if u are reading this, i hope u to be frank to me~~ why all this happened.. why nt u tell me the truth.. stopped torturing my mind and my heart~~ do u know hw painful i am~~ hw many times i had complained to jil~~i can't take it anymore le~~~

sunday~~ suppose to meet friends.. but i vomited for one whole day~~ hw to go out~~ whole body dun even have the strength to go.... haha.. just msg my friends they all.. and said thank you to them~~~~ luckily.. my parents didn't really scold me~~ just asked me not to do that again~~~ guess they are ok with my friends.. cos they are glad that they send me home tat day~~ instead of throwing me at the street of ms~~~~ but i am so called black-listed by my friends who are supposed to meet them on sunday~~


of cos from this week onwards is my peak le~~ hahaa.. can i continue to stay on with my current job or switch job~~ will depend on this report ba~~ this report can determine a lot of pple pay~~ and a lot of stuff~~~ maybe numb myself by work is another way to sort out my tots.. wahahaa.. :P

9 bird days~~

hahaa.. never imagine i will have so many birthdays within the next three weeks~~tml, celebrating four of my buddies birthday~ tat already costing me a bomb le~~

sunday~~ another poly friend birthday~~ luckily nt i buy present de~~ cos no time plus no money~~~

actually nanny's birthday passed a few days ago~~ wahaaha.. see him so madly in love.. dun need to buy present also can le.. save money~~ whaha.. a bit envy sia~~~ haha.. when i told brother yy getting married soon ...he shoot me~~ u jealous arh~~i told him.. no lah.. just a bit envy~~ wahaha~~~ pple ard me all getting love and being loved.. while me.. still in the circle of love~~ haiz~~~guess love doesn't suit me~~

jil~~~birthday coming le~~ wahaha~~ should i get something for him~~ wahaha.. see hw first ba~~ a bit broke~~ :P

da jie da's birthday coming soon~~~ haiz~ another hole to be fill up~~~

my best friend's birthday on the 11th~~ opps.. again before pay day~~

2 colleagues birthday's coming on the 5th and 8th.. oppss..

a total of 11 birthdays for the next three weeks... omg~~~

Re: Fwd: Abt mE~!!!

An email dd in 2002~~~ hahahaa..... jil did it for me~~ haha.. dunno why when i am reading it, my tears start to roll down again~~ is it bcos i think of him again? i ended up in a dilenma situation again~~ i very scare the same thing will happen again~ i must tell myself~~ i must go thru this round, i will not make the same mistake tat i did 5 years ago~~ watever is the past, let it be the past. dun let it occur again~~ then min~~ u will once again collaspe down le~~ now hardly see u crying at nite~~ dun do tat le~~ jiefu~~ cannot always lend u a ear le~~ he everyday have to go prison to report~~ no freedom~~ only once a while~~ can sms take care of u wor~~ jil~~i miss the period when he is with me~~ but i know i can't hold on to it anymore~~

> >>>Hey, fill this out about me!!!! *BUT FIRST* Send a blank copy to
all of
> >>>your friends (including me) so they can fill it out about you!
Have
>Fun! >>>:) hahah~.. guess some of the questions are pretty lame,but do
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>me >>>how u really think abt me yah? hmm.. dont worry abt the answers,
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>wont >>>take them to heart.. Thanks for playing along.. =) >>> >>> >DO
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>THINK I'M: >>> >>> > > 1. Quiet or Loud?: loud
> >>> >>> > > 2. Short or Tall?: dunno.. normal i suppose since abt 160
> >>> >>> > > 3. Weird or Original?: got crispy? keke
> >>> >>> > > 4. Nice or Mean?: both
> >>> >>> > > 5. Friendly or Selfish?: friendly?
> >>> >>> > > 6. Normal or "Special"?: wad special?? :P
> >>> >>> > > 7. Smart or Stupid?: both.. keke
> >>> >>> > > 8. Boring or Fun?: fun~
> >>> >>> > > 9. Hater or Lover?: i dun love you.. but i think you love someone..keke
> >>> >>> > > 11. Player or Playlette?: huh huh?
> >>> >>> > > 12. Heartbreaker or heartbreaky?: heartbreaky? >>> >>>
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>>> >>> > > 1. What do u think I'll be when I grow up?: relations personal
> >>> >>> > 2. (a.) Do u think I'll get married?: arboh.. keke
> >>> >>> > > (b.) If u do ... Who do you think I'll marry?: ur hubbie loh.. keke
> >>> >>> > > 3. When is my birthday?: 26/10
>>> >>> > > 4. Who is my best >friend?: dunno.. maybe ******? :D (cannot be mention, is already in the past)
> >>> >>> > > 5. What song (if any) reminds u of me?: none that i can
>remember of
> >>> >>> > > 6. Do I remind u of any characters on TV?: i dun watch tv liao..
> >>> >>> > > 7. If u could rename me, what would my name be?: li min is nice enough :P
> >>> >>> > > 8. Have u ever had a dream about me?: dream of you? eh..
dun think so..
>>> >>> > > 9. If u could give me anything, what would it be?: a listening ear :)
> >>> >>> > > 10. If u could promise me anything, what would it be?: help
you find a bf
> >>> >>> > > 11. If you could change one thing about me, what would it be?:
>stronger in the will..
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> >>> >>> > > PERSONALLY (FOR THE OPPOSITE SEX ONLY?!)

>>> >>> > > 1. Am I physically ugly, average,decent, good-looking, >>>beautiful,hot?:
heard you >average.. keke
> >>> >>> > > 2. Would u ever kiss me?: cannot.. someone will beat me..
> >>> >>> > > 3. Would u ever consider being my boy/girl friend?: eh.. refer
>to qn 2
> >>> >>> > > 4. Do u ever think about me off-line?: yah lah~ whether
you crying or not..
>>> >>> > > 5. If we spent a day together...where would we go and what would we >>> >do?: go arcade den i see you play para para or dance revolution.. keke
> >>> >>> > > 6. If u could describe me in one word, what would that
word >be?: girlish? :)
> >>> >>> > > 7. Do u or have u ever had a crush on me?: EH... yah..
maybe becoz ur character very similiar to my ex..
> >>> >>> > > 8. Would you go out with me as of right now?: can go
out.. but muz tell someone first :)
> >>> >>> > >
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> >>> >>> > > JUST SOME QUESTIONS

>>> >>> > > 1. Do u wish we were closer?: >er.. dunno :P
> >>> >>> > > 2. What's your favorite thing about me?: ur character
> >>> >>> > > 3. State here your completely honest opinion of me?: wah, "very noisy leh" keke.. :X
> >>> >>> > > 4.If you were to think about me,wad would be the first thing
>that >>>comes >to mind about me? you crying.. :/

the most shocking news for the day~~

wow~~ my good friend's bf propose to her le~~ and she is getting married next year~~ really shocking.. but at least brighter my day a bit.. damn pissed off when i am in office today.. and i just walked off after 6.30pm.. even though i never finished 8.5 hours..i dun care.. just walked off..without replying my boss email also~~
who cares le~~ damn pissed off over there le~~

upc0m|ng event~~

Erm..... Upcoming should quite packed~~ my poly friends complaining.. abt this weekend~~ saying i dao arh~~~ ok lah~~ this shall be wat my schedule to be like for the next few weeks~~ `


20-21th of Aug : should be stuck at office but will be back for dinner at home.. cos now a bit VERY BROKE~~~ might be meeting niao niao to get presents~~~

22th : had a date with insurance agent~~ postpone it from last wk to this wk.

23th : erm.. might go facial with a friend~~ wahahaa.. she said should relax le~~

24th : Colleagues jio me go ktv.. should i go? a bit broke leh~~but waiting for da jie da.. i want to pass her some stuffs.. plus she also scolding me.. said i always jio her out but in the end never go out~~~

25th : omg~~~ weekend~~ yy, are we going out for dinner to celebrate for the birthday boys?? erm.. 4 for that side~~ sob sob.. i am so broke~~ brothers they all planning to go celebrate on that day also.. haiz~!~! i might be going m'sia with mum for a while to get some stuffs~~ cos she need it~~ so when i come back at nite.. might be going clubbing.. although i went last week...

26th : friend's birthday~~ had a gathering.. omg~~~

27th - 31th : prepare for battle le~~~ battle going to start at 1st of sept.. sob sob.. think i really going to become panda soon le~~~ so long never meet up with justin korkor.. miss a bit of nagging from him~~ but if he saw me now.. guess he will said i gone case..

1th sept : battle starts le~~ need to be on standby for most of the time~~ provide phone support.. tat doesn't mean my life going to quiet at this moment~~ maybe see da jie da... hw she wants to celebrate her birthday ba~~ if she wants to treat me drinking session~~ i also dun mind.. wahahaha.. can de-stress le.. :P

2nd of sept : is time to rest~~ since last week, i had been almost reaching home late.. and everyday take cab~~~ i need some sleep~~~

3rd-7th : Another highest peak le~~ guess tat time, my boss will keep target me if i haven down yet.. kana radar scan le~~~~

8th - 12th : need to work 24 hrs le~ haiz~~~ sob sob.. panda le~~~

actually should be 12th till all the way to 19th tat week.. i will still pack with work.. cos boss rejected my leave on 17-18.. desperately change my leave to half day.. and finally approved.. But we cancelled the chalet le.. maybe i will take half day off to take a rest.. plus keep a look out on new job~~

As for that week, is one of my gd friend birthday.. wondering whether she will do wat to celebrate her birthday.. will i be on her list of invited guest.. we shall see~~

Therefore my peak should end in last week of sept ba~~~ Brother tat day scold me greedy~~ want to go here.. want to go there to celebrate my birthday~~ ask niao niao to get me a chalet at phuket to celebrate my birthday~~ haha.. :P and in the same time ask him to get a chalet to celebrate my birthday~~ lol... u want to celebrate in singapore or phucket~~ if got both, then i celebrate at phucket, win celebrate in singapore.. then use video conferencing to connect right.. hahaa.. i was laughing like mad.. lol.. :p tat's a good idea~~ i said if dun have both of them~~ then we go bali lah`~~ they scold me siao`~~ " WHO WANTS TO GO PA TOH WITH U THEREE~!~! MOST OF THEM ARE COUPLES LOR~!~! -_-'' sob sob.. but tat day.. i told them abt someone.. hahaa.. maybe i will spend my birthday with someone leh.. tat will depend on hw everything goes~~ if i can't get my chalet and my phuket~~ last choice is to be with him~~ why he is the last choice leh~~ erm.. dun want to stuck with him.. if stuck with him le~~ then both of us also very jialat~~ lol.. :P see hw ba~~ i dunno how long it will last~~ hw bad it will turns out to be~~ currently i think i still contented with my life ba~~~ although i lose someone, maybe i still gain something leh~~ three good friends~~ now only left with one jil le~~ ok lah~~ jil still treats me nt too bad~~ sometimes we need to keep a distance also.. cos he gt girl girl de.. dun want to cause any misunderstand.. guess overall these few years~~ i had learnt my lesson le ba~~ dun stay too close with those guys that gt gfs~~

ytd my friend met his ex-gf with another guy while we went to watch fireworks~~ erm.. i wondering.. why can't i meet up with him once~ or i had forgotten hw he looks like or maybe he had walk pass me before yet he never called me.. maybe he let me saw that scene, i will know where my feelings stand.. sometimes i wondering whether my feelings had fade away or i bottle up inside myself.. when i saw nanny and his gf, i ok le~~ dun feel anything~~ just angry with him tat he never reply my msg when i am down~~ haiz~~ this year nanny won't celebrate my birthday le~~ cos he got gf le, dun need me this friend le~~ if i see k.... with his gf or his wife.. would be heartbroken and just cried~~ just one sentence, "i am fine" i am down with 4 shots~~ msg my brother.. tell him i am sad~~ i kana ditched~~ i think i really gone case le..

Attention : Chalet at Sept

Erm.. brother got a chalet in sept.. most likely confirm le.. hahaaa.. but my leave got rejected.. yy.. u let me know whether u can go mah.. :)


On 17/8/07
opps.. we had cancelled it~~ my leave nt going to approve on the 17-18th of sept.. cos currently still my peak period.. Therefore brother said cancelled ba~~~ he will try again in Oct~~ hahaaaa..

If it is in oct, i will pay for the chalet~~ then u guys bring the food ba~~ Erm.. otherwise we will have a trip~~ to celebrate my birthday~~ wahaahahaa.. sweet sia~~ right~~~`!~! After my phone incident.. i complained to so many pple... then i also asked brother for birthday present. hahaa a bit too early liao right~~!! he said N95~!~!~! tmd.. like jil pattern sia~~!!~!!~ if i didn't remember wrongly, jil said that on one of my birthday also.. haiz~~~ why the pple ard me all like that.. whahaaa.. but ok lah... nw i still enjoying except EVERYDAY WORK OT UNTIL MIDNIGHT~!!~!~!~ !~#!@#@@$!@@$@$@@@!!@#1

my c0mplicat3d lif3

super jialat.. after my supper with my buddies.. i did not sleep till now.. haiz~~ can ton nite le.. guess must get some rest.. before i start to work again~~

N73 incident~~

Erm.. Bcos of one phone.. i am damn fed up with one of my colleague. I am thinking WTH~!~ what phone am i using is also none of your business.. Dun tell me bcos i am working there.. tat's why i can't buy things i like. Pls lor~~ i had been considering it,since long time ago. Although i knows is expensive, yet i still can buy it. This is an act of extravagant. Normally the value of the phone will drop very fast, why do you need to buy such an expensive one. To me, i always think my cousins are much more mature than me. They can differentiate what is NEEDS and WANTS~ This is very impt in life. IF you can't differentiate what you wants and what you needs.. You might be just leading an empty shell with no soul cos you haven found exactly wat you wants.. You just lead a life because you had to.. NOT bcos u had a choice to choose.. This is what my boss told me during a handover session from a colleague who coach me when i am having difficulties. Now she had requested to be in another team, while i had to take over her stuffs. Seriously i know is going to be a big challenge for me. I no longer only face internal user, i might need to face external parties questions and bcome the front end support. Normally i will only need to answer to internal users, my job is just to sit down and relax to find a solution for the problem. If can't finish it, just delay.. User dun really will pressurize you. But now the company had changed, every week you had to finish 2 incidents. Sometimes to me is impossible, maybe bcos i dun feel to do it.. i got no motivation to push me.. only at the very last min, i will rush thru.. But i know i had improved.. from someone who i dunno to do anything.. to someone can do it.. just have to give me some more time to prove that i can make it.. Boss just said i dun have the confident~~ but give me sometime ba... i really scare i will give wrong information.. then i might just ruin my company reputation.. As when u grows up, you need to have the responsible for work.. Cos sometime just one small mistake, you might be just creating a big problem.. You might not be the only to be affect, there a lot of pple down the stream to be impact.. I wanted to tell boss i can't take over her stuffs.. The only answer boss gave to me.. : "Can i said no to my director?" Haiz~~ i had no choice given at all, just to accept it.. Whether i can make it or not.. Just give them to judge me ba~~ Whether will i be given a chance to renew my contract or tat's the end of my service~~ in a few more mths time, i will know the answer le..

As for health~~ This year nothing seems to be smooth for me~~ Starting of the year bcos of ear problem.. I went to changi hospital to see specialist.. While these few months, my back become a big problem for me~~ Even my doctor in charge suggest me to go for x-ray. He even wrote a reference letter for me~~ I had been complaining to one of my colleague regarding it.. She said.. "Aiyah~~ maybe you quit le.. your back will be ok le~~" I wondering is it bcos of stress that leading to my back to be that serious.. But currently i am quite busy with work and my life~~ dun think i can settle down to make an appointment to go for x-ray.. how will it turn out to be~~ seriously i just dun want to think abt it~~ mum scared might bcos of nerver problem tat causing it to become so serious.. but my doctor said is of inflammation.. watever~~ i had to cut down on vigourous exercise cos i afraid i might not be able to walk next time.. haha.. too permissive le.. I know how bad my back can go to an extreme where i can't even move at all and just lay at the bed.. But it feels painful also...

I met nanny last weekend.. I saw him and his gf, while i went out with my two gay friends~ A bit really surprised.. Luckily he never saw what happened before that.. But i will not reveal what is it~~ hahaa.. Nanny.. dun need to guess le.. Neither of them are my bfs~~ I said before i got a lot of close guy friends.. doesn't mean that i go out with them, they must be my bf arh~~ we are just close buddies~~ of cos my gay friends will ask who is he lah~~ a normal reaction cos they a bit kpo.. mayb bcos i seldom talked abt my own personal life ba~~ Maybe i am just being very petty ba~~ i hate nanny from the moment when.... Ever since he got a gf.. we did not meet up anymore~~ we seldom keep in contact.. i did got ask him out for a few times but got rejected bcos he need to accompany his gf.. seriously.. for me is ok.. i am not angry bcos of that.. cos i know is normal.. when a guy gt gf or a woman gt bf, their partners will be always the priorty instead of friends.. There was a day.. so called i am itchy fingers.. I msn someone who i know i shouldn't.. But the answer i got was hurting~~ Actually is not consider as hurting.. just that i feel is hurting.. When someone said he is good with his life.. why should it be hurting.. you should be happy for him.. But i just dunno why tears just roll off.. maybe i stop giving myself excuses.. he left me is bcos of illness or etc.. . finding an excuses and not facing the truth.. seriously.. tat day i am down.. i went drinking with my gd friends.. neither did i cry.. i listen to my friend complaining abt her bf~~ i dunno why.. is it bcos i am being strong.. tat i dun cried in front of my buddies~~ but when i am walking back to home.. i cried.. tears just roll off.. my heart feel so painful.. i walking aimlessly.. i dunno who should i find.. seems like i bcome friendless sia~~ i sms nanny.. but seriously i just hate tat kind of attitude.. ever since that day... i never msg him.. even block him on msn.. haha.. childish hor.. but seriously.. when u are down... watever thing.. u just dun care le~~~ i called mao mao~~ i cried le~~ Mao mao told me.. girl~~ u still got hw many years to waste~~ dun hold on to a past tat doesn't belong to you... His gf also said that to me~~ maybe without them tat nite.. i dun even know where i am going to hide my feelings~~ So that day i being very frank, i told nanny.. is so conincident to see you here but is my unlucky day to meet you. NEXT TIME, DUN CALL ME EVEN U SEE ME~~ WE NO LONGER FRIENDS~~~ am i being too frank~~ just cut short my friend list with another name... sad.. min arh~~ your friends really getting lesser le lah~~~ pretend is only in front of work.. not in front of friends.. if in front of your friends.. u still need to act or wear a mask~~ dun u feel tired.. everyday u had to wear a mask.. when can u be yourself..

as for home~~~ tat day i had a dream~~~ i dreamt of my granny.. i told k before.. if i am going to lose her.. means tat will be the day i collaspe.. when i am very young.. she tends to stay at my house during weekend... every weekend morning.. she will go down and buy food for me where a lot of pple also knows that~~ but i will wake up very late~~ when food bcome cold.. i will throw temper and dun want to eat~~ as time passes.. i slowly change le.. where my family members think that i had grown up le.. knows hw to take care of the family.. .think of other pple.. When u are the single child, you will tends to think abt your future.. I must grow up bcos they need me to take care of them.. i must be strong.. just like wat i did during my grandpa funeral.. i told myself i cannot cried... i had to take care of my dad.. but every nite, i hide inside my room and cried~~ i also very emotional.. who can lends me a shoulder to cry on? At the very last day of the funeral.. tears did not flows down as normal.. is only when i push myself to think back the past.. my tears rolled down le.. in the end, i still need daddy to comfort me~~ but ended up.. office bcome a place where i cried~~

Grandpa~~ He died last year april due to cancer~~ When i am not even one year old, i moved this place where i called home.. When i am young, i tends to be very close with him~~ When i am in primary school, he will be the one picking me up at downstair, bring me to ah-ma's house for dinner.. on friday, he will bring me along to fetch my cousins to come over to stay.. when i am sick, he will bring me to see doctor.. Sometimes during weekend, he will bring us out.. maybe a swim at downtown east or tanjong rhu.. When i am in primary four.. ah ma fell down, had to stay at mt alexandra.. tat day i accompanied ah gong at hospital till late nite then i went back to ah ma's house.. can't deny... i am very happy during cny every year when i am young.. cos ah gong will always give each of us $100.. Maybe bcos of this kind of lifestyle.. lastime looks much more slimmer.. cos go exercise everytime.. sometimes even play soccer with my cousins at void deck.. during sec school, when i forget to bring money or dun have enuff money, i will go market ask him for money.. haha.. he always give me more than enuff.. The day before he died, i went to hospital with parents to visit him.. bcos ever since the chinese new eve dinner.. i had not seen him.. Tat day, i am very sick.. down with cough, flu, sore throat and fever.. Furthermore the day before, i met yy they all for steamboat at marina bay~~ That was the lastime i went there.. I still can remember vividly.. cos i spolit a chair over there.. i dunno why the chair just cracked~~ then i feel so paiseh~~ The day i saw him, was much more worst than cny's eve.. at the moment, i am the only grandchild there..most of my uncles and aunties were there except my second uncle.. Being too sick of me, i do not want to stay at the ward for too long.. i went in and out.. bcos myside was already a germ carrier... He can't even move tat much.. After i left hospital, i met up with bulldog, win, ant and sy.. We went fish & co... and we left for pool session~~ tat was when ant told me he and his gf problem~~ the next day when i wake up.. mum told me abt it~~ she told me that my dad cried when he heard the news~~ my grandpa was choke to death bcos of a cake.. The nurse should knows that he cannot eat that.. I dunno whether is it a relieve to him or etc...... When i reached there, they were not back from hospital.. Granny just sitting there mumbling.. "Why he just leave like this.. ytd when we saw him.. he was still ok... " crying.. Seriously.. when someone had be with you more than 50 years~~ where love had bcome habit.. where someone will hold your hands when both of u are out for dinner with a group of your children and grandchildren.. He will cook for you when you are busy.. He will be there for you when you need him to be there. He might not be a prefect husband nor father nor grandpa.. He will have his own good points too~~ After he left, i seldom go to granny's house le.. Maybe only cny ba.. this year i didn't even attend any family dinner~~ when it happened to have a family dinner.. most likely, i will be on a trip..

as for my cousin~~ Min lives in this world for 23 years.. She only met her cousin twice in her lifetime.. I went to Australia in 1994 with my uncle, auntie, cousin, grandma,mum and me~~ We took SIA flight and reached perth 2plus in the morning~ We got checked in to Perth international Hotel. Ard 5 plus in the morning, mum waked up all of us which bcos she tot we were late for the iternery. There was day where aunt brought all the adults to casino, while only left the four of us. He brought us to zoo, curtin uni(where he studies), rent vcd.. While he explaining abt his uni directory.. i am sleeping inside the car.. He got dangerous driving skill sia~~ but it was fun~~ only just the four of us.. Tat time his sis was not that quiet as now.. We rent a nun movie.. not to mention.. i fell asleep halfway thru the movie.. even though is a comedy movie.. The next day morning.. He taught me how to play tennis.. Tat was the first time and also the last time i touched tennis.. He said.. aiyo.. luckily u never spolit the pot of flowers.. Before i left aus, aunt tell mum.. Erm.. nextime can let her come alone mah.. i will come here to fetch her.. Min won't deny.. They had been very concern abt me since i am young.. They dotes me a lot... maybe this made me to change to focus on family.. The second time i saw korkor.. .was the last time le.. that time he was very sick le.. but just trying his best to accomdate us.. after dinner still offered me ice-cream.. cos he said i am still too young to drink wine~~ He said only above 30 yrs old women knows hw to appreciate red wine~~ tat's why i can only eat ice-cream.. not long after the dinner, he went to bed le... 1 year later.. his condition got worst.. he just passed away.. at tat time none of us were in aus.. i didn't send him for his last journey.. i kept my tears away at home.. I knew the news on sat morning where i still need to go back to cartel to work in the evening time.. actually i dun really feel like working tat day.. i told k in the morning.. he didn't said much tat morning.. just kept very slient regarding this matter.. didn't want to make any comments.. I suppose to end work at 11pm.. But i tot the duty went haywire again.. Therefore i worked till 12 plus or 1am.. I went down to selegie to meet da jie da and niao niao for drinking session.. I had an empty stomach before i drink.. After that we went to mr bean for supper.. Tat nite i suppose to meet up with nanny they all. But i did not turn up.. After i had my supper.. i took a cab home.. nanny found me.. hahaa.. comedy sia~~ that nite he saw was the day nite i got drunk where my heart breaks into pieces.. i went back to vomit out.. and took a bath before i sleep.. After he passed away.. i told myself.. i had to grow up and give k up.. to take care the family.. i will be there whenever my cousin needs me...

3 years later.. will i go back to aus.. if i really go.. i will go for a long break~~ maybe just like my primary school friend.. when she leave sg.. she will leave for one month.. and sliently.. only at the point she wants to departure.. then she will call you.. telling you that she is at the airport. haha.. of cos at family side point of view... they will wants me to go over.. but.. it shall depends on my leave.. i admitted my work took away a lot of my time.. i seldom spent time with family nowadays.. most of the time will be sleeping thru weekend or had to work..

as for relationship.. dear.. thanks for your trusts toward me..

Cherish

Cherish watever you had, don't wait until u lose it then you regret. Guess that was what i always put in my ICQ lastime. It had been so long that i tried using ICQ again.

Once upon a time.. oh my god~~ my old grandma story coming again~~ my cousin told me before i will had two relationship in this life. Haha.. How many relationship i had walked thru? Seriously i dunno, maybe i dunno how to love someone or so called i dunno wat is relationship ba. But i did had two relationship or so called friendship or more that makes me hard to forget.

Actually i didn't take a very long time to forget my first love.. Erm.. Is tat my first love, well i dunno.. Am i complicated.. Guess is confusing ba.. Thing don't work well for both of us, maybe bcos i am just being too posseive le ba.. Tat's wat scorpion do mah.. cannot blame me right..

After we broke up,i so called know le jiefu they all.. Things been great.. Seriously i am just a affectionate animal.. That time no matter i quarrel or argue with friends, ending friendship. I cried like mad. That include korkor. Hahaha.. Who this korkor i refering to?? Sometimes i think i treat most of my guy friends become korkor le..

This korkor very unique de, i know him since my secondary school life. I had a very close primary school friend. He used to like my this friend but bcos of some stuffs they turned to become sour. Korkor used to come to sec school find me. Sometimes i used to afraid of wat other pple said. We will walk behind to kallang aiport there. Hahaa.. Just like what he said, why you care so much about what people talked or think about you. Guess that's me in the past but currently i am still behaving like this maybe slightly better le ba.. Can't deny, we did had numerous quarrelled. Sometimes he will be there for me when i need him. He will give me some surprises that i had never had before. Where got a friend so good? He will be there for you most of the time? During my O level, i did had some family problems. He was the one walking together with me, encourage me and force me to study hard. We been very gd friends since sec school but ever since both of us entered poly. Maybe time can changed a person. Both of us, no longer that close le. Especially after that quarrelled. He leave 10 voicemail on my hp scolding me. I couldn't remember what incident it was. Maybe bcos of i was throwing da xiao jie temper again ba. That was the night that i know K. Wrong.. I should rephrase it as that was the night when i start to talk to k on phone.

I was very down at the moment when i heard korkor scolding me. Of cos on the other side of the phone was someone being very slient hearing me weeping. Whereas that was when he told me that he very scared girl weeping. Slowly we bcome gd friends, but i seldom cried weeping at the other end le. But i turned to jil for weeping session. But as time passes, my xiao jie temper was revealed out. I started to be very dependent on this person. Most of the time, he been waiting for me. Till a day he said, we will not go out together le cos u always late. Haha.. Till now i still haven't change this habit yet. He was the first guy that i intro him to korkor. Of cos korkor knows wat was happening between me and him. We were just friends only mah. Why do i think until so complex? Min arh, your mind should works in a much more simplify manner. Can't deny having jil, xuer and him together for about 3 years.. I feel very fortunate le. Nothing can compare with the kind of care and concern they shower me plus they helped that provided to me. Those times was when i am so fortunate. Someone will care for me, no matter where i am.

Soon, three years passed.. I went to australia for some personal reason. Before i left singapore, we had some quarrelled too. I tot maybe giving up whatever at that point of moment can helped me to grow up and start to take care of the family. Guess i watched too much of drama le. At the point of moment, i sat alone at CA1. A place where i always went there with my buddies. I cried out all my sorrows. At hm, i had to hide away the tears and sorrow that i felt at the moment. After crying, i sat at the cafe opening out at my lecture notes whereas my brain was empty at the moment. Nothing went in, the only thing that i did was.. I sent a msg to k.. "Let's not contact anymore" I told myself at that moment, i will not turn back. I must give up, he doesn't belong to me. He called me but i hanged up the phone. Guess from that moment, things had changed between us. Korkor also used to receive this kind of msg from me. I really behaving like a kid sia~

Two wks later, i did change my mind. I picked up the phone and called him cos i start to regret. Did i hurt him that time? I don't know cos i dunno hw he feels. He kept everything to himself. He always make the decision then he let me know it. Maybe at tat point of time, i should know it. Before leaving sg, i told a friend. I scared i won't get used to it cos i am leaving for a week. I already getting used to have someone talk to me at nite. Be there for me anytime, just a call away. I really didn't had that wk very well. I met turbulence on my journey to aus, i tried to call him. He never picked up the phone and i even wrote him an email. How stupid am i? I know le, i can't lose this guy cos he had bcome part of life le. In the end, i lose him and we had not been contact ever since the last day at poly.

We had an agreement we will graduate together but ended up we did not. Maybe he very unlucky cos he met me. If he did nt know me, guess he might had graduate at the same time as me. Seriously i really feel very gulity towards him. Mayb that is why i always have the tot of giving him up. Min arh min arh, are u trying to find excuses or hiding away from the truth. The truth is he don't want u. Why u still so foolish weeping for so many years..

Hahah.. i dunno is that right or is that wrong... On the day of my graduation,i wanted to msg him so much. But did i msg him or not, erm.. i can't really remember le. Tat day korkor find me for ktv session, that day when i am alone in the room, my tears dropped le. I was hiding away from korkor, i dun want to let him see that i am weeping. Actually whenever korkor mentioning abt him, my heart did feel painful. Sometimes tear will just roll. Although nt a lot of pple met him before, yet most of the pple knows he was with me once. I should clarify it. Is I am the one thinking of it. Therefore is one sided love only ba. He is just being a kind person letting me to rely on him for that three years. Whatever he did to me or help me not bcos of he likes me. Is bcos of sympathy.

So fast, another two years passed... Within these two years, i don't know hw my feelings were. Most of the time i thinking of drinking which let my si tang to think that i had bcome jiu gui. Actually been wanted to drink to forget all these stuffs, let everything to become the end.

one was someone who i knows for 10 years brother.. Someone who will be there for me last time.. As time passed, friendship no longer that strong. why? maybe bcos of my self-concusious again ba.. or been busy with worked.. i seldom met him now.. we seldom chat abt our problems again. He will always ask me to go find a man to take care of me.

another one was someone who i knows for about 6 years or lesser.. four of us used to play game together online. I missed those times~~but it will not come back anymore.. four of us had all walked a different direction. East, North, South, West.. Guess we will all not appearing in each other life again cos all the directions are different. Thanks for giving that 3 years of xin fu.. tat time i know wat is laughter and not pain..

today morning i came back home at 6 plus. I saw korkor and him online. Imagine i drunk 4 flaming tequlia plus 1 orange chocolate shot and one jug of ultimate tequlia sharing with 2 other buddies did not let me do stupid stuffs again. Last nite, we went for drinking session just the three of us. Someone helped me to drink one more flaming tequlia,otherwise i might just landed at clarke quay instead of home. Back to the main point, i did not msn him nor korkor. I just changed my nick. Hahaa.. seriously my head is bombing.. so painful..but i also realised i no longer feel that painful anymore.. i starting to let go of him.. Seriously two of my si tang asked me.. why my msn nick always so long.. Tell u the truth ba.. i always had a kind of children thinking which is like everyone knws also.. I actually wanted to know whether does he still care abt me mah? I waiting for him to shower me with care again. But last nite, though i drunk so much, my mind also wake up le.. even he really shower me with care, everything will be different le.. Now he might be someone's else husband or bf or daddy le.. I will never know bcos we had nvr keep in touch for the past few years.

Wow.. finally wrote everything out.. hopefully i can end this beatiful misunderstanding with a good ending ba.. let go ba~~ let go ba~~ let go ba~~

AND let me had a BRAND NEW LIFE~~~ opps~~ dun mean abt relationship.. How me and dear.. will dear get provoked when he read this blog~~ hahaa.. Dear.. u should also find a brand new gf~~~

3rd of August.. 102 days more..

102 days more, tat exclude my current leave plus weekends and further more it does not include Public Holidays~~ Wahahaa... So called minus here and there a bit, i should able to clear my leave around end of October. End of October which means my birthday is coming, so fast i am turning to 23 this year. Had i grow up during these few years? Had i grow to be much more mature or still as childish?

In my parents mind or so called my uncles and aunties, i am always still a small kid that had not grown up, they still scare that i will go astray. Hahahaha.. But so called i had most of my freedom.

In my friends mind.. erm.. i dunno.. maybe i started to pop up puzzles.. i start to think we all slowly had a gap.. hahaa.. but i dunno it.. seriously.. normally i will go drinking to forget about the pain inside my heart. What causes it to be so pain? Love, friendship, or human relationship aka networking? Seriously i know i am control by my emotion. How i function? Pretty simple, happy or sad, it will be show on my face directly. Don't need to guess, just that even i am sad, i will not said out my problems. Most likely will be when i am a bit tipsy or i touch alcohol, i will start to talk non-stop.

tuff fighter...

hahaa.. is time to buck up and fight again~~ tmd.. why everytime july.. i need to fight sia~~ anyway.. next weekend.. i will not be in town again.. haiz~~ after the break... a tough fire coming... this week need to prepare myself to fight well...

MIN, u will not give up that easily right? min.. u will make sure they regret right~~ are u taking revenge? NOPE~~ i just dun want to be down tat easily and kana bully again~~~ WAT makes me to change my mind again~~ bcos of one bottle of chivas mah? hahaa.. sometimes.. i think i had forgotten abt him.. just that i feel down after the drinking session.. hahaa.. but i am not drunk.. it shows tat in my mind state is.. i need to learn to be more independent and tuff..

Disney Cubee

Heheee.. i saw this when i am surfing net. Pretty interesting and i would like to have it.. haha.. but see leh.. who is going US? Can help me buy? or maybe can try hk disney land? But the problem is... I couldn't find anyone in hk is selling it at ebay. Most of them are situated in US.



(took this pic from ebay.. :p)

Back from a short trip

Hahaa.. i went for a short trip with my friends and mum.. Hahahaa.. maybe i should said i got a bully trip or so called.. just a gd memories trip.. but heart pain sia.. spent quite a lot of money.. damn.. those money cannot take back sia.. :P


First day journey :

Friends asked me to meet 6am at Bugis KFC. I told Gary, siao.. Who will go there so early? In the end, i told brother, i fall sick cannot go. But that was a joke, cause all the tickets are with me. Waahaha.. Wat if i really fall sick, i think i will kana whack until very jia lat just like that failure HK trip. Then he scold me, sob sob.. "You think is very funny arh." -_-'''

6am in the morning:

dog called me "Where are you guys? Don't tell me you just left home."
Me : "Nope, on the way."
dog: "Where?"
Me : "ECP" (but in the actual fact, i am still at home. waahahaa.. :P)

ring ring ring.. second call..
Brother : "Sis, where are you now?"
Me : "On the way."
Brother : "Jialat, i just wake up. How?"
Me : "Hahahaa.. We won't wait for you de wor.. :"
Brother : "I think i take a cab down. Bye."

Msg..
G : "Where are you all now? I reached already."

Hahahaa.. Mr G been a very nice guy, he gave almost everyone a msg to wake us up. But i fell asleep only at 4am. Opps.. is like 1 hr away and i need to wake up. We reached there at 6.30am and all of us reached almost the same timing. We board the bus but the bus waited until 6.50 before it departed queen street.. On the way, i brought some biscuits and chips for all of us, just in case we feel hungry. Cos i remember that time when i went to the french village, i was so hungry on the way. Before we reached Singapore custom, it was raining heavily. Opps, it seems like not going to be a smooth journey. Around 9 plus, we reached yong peng for breakfast. All of us order claypot noodles except mum order yong tau fu. Hahaa.. After breakfast, all of us went in to the shop and get chewing gums plus tou shang ping. omg~~~ i had been eating that for the past few days~~ getting sick and tired about it. of course on the journey up the mountain was damn tiring, i did sleep for a while. But my eyes was on the guy sitting in front of me with his gf/wife. Why i keep looking at him? Bcos i think that he looks like k. Omg~~ maybe it had been a long time that i ever met k. I still remember last time, i told him i like guys who have rosy cheeks. After one whole day of army, he was damn shag and he took a pic of himself and send it to me. Haha.. A rosy cheek shag guy.. Hahaha.. Seriously maybe there is no meanings about the pic, i also don't know when i landed in that kind of relationship where there is only friendship exists. In short, it means no ending. Even it had an ending, the ending will not be what a childish kid wants. Seriously, i can't control myself to stop thinking about him and stuffs that we had gone thru.

Yeah~~ Here we reached genting, it was raining heavily. This is the first time that i stayed in Resort Hotel after so many years ago. Therefore we took sometime to locate where the hotel is. When we reached there, we were all so hungry. Imagine five hungry people eating tou sau ping at the hotel lobby while waiting to check in. If i didn't remember wrongly, the queue number was 1067. Haha.. I am a bit surprise that my friends will request connected rooms. Haha.. I thought they wants more privacy.. The receptionist mange to get us a connected room located at level 12. The rooms were just newly renovated. One room is with king size bed, while the other one is with 2 super single beds. Hahaha.. They choose the 2 super single beds, while i had the king size bed. I will post out the hotel room pictures soon.. We had KFC for lunch, i tried the chicken with rice.. Yucks, i hate it.. After that we went to casino, haha... stuck there for quite a while before we headed for dinner. We had dinner at resort hotel there, brother treated us for dinner.. Yummy~~~ i like the crispy chicken--> bagus. The rest of the dishes were 1 plate of vege, 1 plate of tofu and 1 plate of butter prawns~~ the tofu is nice too.. Actually almost all of them are good except the prawns which are not really very fresh.. After dinner, we went shopping while mum went casino. Maybe that is when Joyce saw me at genting. She was asking me on msn last nite. Opps. I did not only went with the guys, my mum was there too just that we headed different ways but DEFINITELY we will have dinner together and go back to hotel room. After shopping, we went coffee bean for coffee.. Wahaha.. Of cos, the coffee was damn big cup lor. The sales assistant offer me to get a regular since is only 1RINGGET more. Opps.. It was really a very big cup lor.. Haha.. I asked that two guys go in to help me find my mum.. I am really tired.. Ended up, they go in and played.. Hai~~ gone case sia~~~ Ard 12, we headed back to hotel rooms.

BTW, we had been playing catching when we were in casino. Brother cannot entered casino cos he was wearing shorts. While me and g went to find them at hotel room and charge my hp. Cos my hp was low batt. Hahaha.. I saw bulldog msg me, where are you all? I replied him le then he told me he is with my mum. Therefore it makes the search easier cos i know where my mum is.

Second day~~~

knock knock~~ wake up~~ we going out after bathing... We had breakfast at the bakery shop at Genting Highland. Wahaha.. This is the first time i had my meals there, the nasi lemak there, not bad lah.. But a bit ex sia~~ After breakfast, my mum went to casino. While we go to theme park. Hahaha.. They being very gentleman, accompany me to 4D magix. Hahaha.. Bulldog said u make sure u dun vomit after it. argh~~ that one i still can take it lah.. :P BUT i almost fall down before i enter. Why arh?? i also dunno.. After the show, we bought the tickets for die hard 4.0. Actually we wanted to catch it the day before but tickets were almost fully sold hard. I wanted to try OSIM chair seats but brother said don't want. Then ok lor, we all took the normal seats.

Time for theme park~~

Before entering the theme park, i am very excited cos it had been a very long time that i had entered theme park. But i went in only played go kart~~~ They said i waste money~~ Why i never played roller coaster with them? The last time that i ever played roller coaster was when i went escape with carina and peggy they all. It had been ages le, i scare i can't take it. Hahaha.. :P While sitting at one corner, i am thinking about him again. Finding ways to forget him. They actually wanted me to play the second round of roller coaster with them but too bad.. they were closed for lunch or was raining heavily. Wahaha.. :x

We head back to room for some snacks and went to casino for a while. Around 4pm, daddy called me. Mum was back in the room, you don't need to find her. Ok lor, i took two jackets with me.. feel like an idiot sia.. I went to watch Die Hard 4.0. If you like action pact movie, this is a MUST for you to watch. I like the movie, is damn good. After movie, bulldog went for flying. Brother asked me why i don't want to play. I gave him a stop reason. "No Money" But in actual fact is i hurt my back damn bad during these few years. Doctor even suggest me to go for x-ray cos my teridon got inflammation. He said i can't go for long journey rides or carry too heavy stuffs. Therefore i had been avoiding it. But till now i still haven go for x-ray, now i still under medication. Mum treated us for dinner. Yummy~~ they dinner was good too~~ I like the steamed fish~~ bagus~~~~~

Third Day~~
We went to genting highland for breakfast... 25.30Ringgit per person.. The food was ok lah.. Don't ever tried a black color chocolate ball. cos brother said that was the most disgusting stuff he ever ate in his life....

Overall, i really enjoyed during the trip. Thanks pals..

drawahouse

Based on your drawing and the 10 answers you gave this is a summary of your personality:
You are sensitive and indecisive at times. You are a freedom lover and a strong person. You are shy and reserved. If you've drawn a cross on each of windows, you always want to live alone. Once you have a problem, you need a friend with you. Your life is always full of changes.

You will avoid being alone and seek the company of others whenever possible. You love excitement and create it wherever you go. You have a strong personality and you like to command, influence and control people.

You added a flower into your drawing. The flower signifies that you long for love. It also safe to say that others don't see you as a flirt. You don't think much about yourself.

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erm.. u all should go try.. it is quite true for me..

once i have a problem, i hope to have a friend ard - true

shy and reserved - true

You will avoid being alone and seek the company of others whenever possible. - confirm.. cannot live independently.

You have a strong personality and you like to command, influence and control people. --> not true leh..

Your life is always full of changes. --> is it true? maybe lah.. no wonder so many pple walk in and out of my life..

Another genting trip

opps.. i will be going for another genting trip again.. haiz~~ while aunts they all will prefer me not to go genting that frequent because to them, they think that i might learns bad from there and my future will ruin.. Erm.. not that exaggerating lah.. I said already, i just like there because is different from urban area where i always faces. Furthermore i can get out of Singapore, i won't had to be on standby during weekend. No more weekend duties for me, just a breakaway for me. Why not bintan or batam? Erm.. Bcos Bintan and Batam, nobody accompany me to go leh plus parents think that batam is dangerous, therefore i had never been to batam before. As for Genting, because the air there is much more fresher than here, and my mind is much more clear when i am oversea.

Actually i don't mind to go for a HongKong trip this year but i don't think can make it le. Now already 2nd of July, suppose to fly on the 7th of July to HK but got cancalled due to NO GFS accompanying me to HK. Sigh~~ Guess i need more GFS to be more STEADY, dun be like me so indecisive. Last yr, someone asked me to go hk but i can't go. This yr, again.. got rejected by mum bcos of some reasons. Nvm.. I shall tried it next year. Cos i prefer to go there shopping, therefore the best season to go there should be around may-aug. Hahaha.. My friend just came back, told me the stuffs there very cheap wor, can compare with BKK, some even cheaper than BKK.

Seriously, i really very happy at the moment when i am typing out this post. I don't know why i will have this kind of feelings. Haha.. This kind of feelings just brighter my day where all the work that pile up is like so dull. I will be still going genting with a group of buddies but this time round mummy will tag along also. Opps.. Suppose to be no adults tour, why mummy will tag along.. Cos i can't find someone that can accompany me to go with this group of buddies.. Every touch sia, my buddies did not said let's cancel lah.. They said let's go together.. Bcos of me, they can't go hk.. Now.. We are going genting together.. Hahaha.. so touched sia.. No wonder you all are my buddies.. my best friends.. no matter wat happened, you all will always be there for me.. let's cheer for this friendship.. Hahaa.. i really hoping this weekend will come faster, i wondering how would the trip end up to be? Happy or Sad? or ?????

or i am in love with one of my buddies le? hahahahahaa.. dear going to kill me le.. :x lol... this kind of thing very hard to said de wor.. maybe this will happen, but i know i will not let it happen on me AGAIN.. I had a damn bad experience for it, why would i stepped into a hole that dig by myself again. No way, i letting myself to spend another few more years to forget someone who no longer in my mind.

'Someone', wo xi wang wo meng da jia duo guo de hao. Wo ye hao xi wang ba ni ge wang le. rang wo cong xin de kai shi wo de xin sheng huo. xie xie ni ce jing jiao le wo na me duo dong xi, ye pei wo zhou guo na san nian. ai shang ni bing bu shi wo huo ni de cuo. que shi yi chang wu hui ke shi wo men duo xuan ze tao. ru guo da jia duo bu tao, wo men you ke neng hai hui shi zhui yao hao de peng you. ni hai shi zhui liao jie wo de ren.

~~short break~~

Hahaa.. i just came back from berjaya hill where i though i had cleared all my tots.. i tot i had forgotten abt him at there.. although is a very short trip, it is very refreshing~~ it is totally different from genting.. looks like a old british cottage... Seems like i am bad to my own fairytale land again.. where nobody can find me.. although i on my phone, neither did i send any messages nor reply any messages.. hahaa.. i wondering hw can stuffs continue in this way? over there i feel so relax, imagine i can fall asleep at 8 plus and slept all the way through morning.. piggy sia~~~ Before i left there, i tot i had cleared my tots where i had forgotten about him..

Monday, i went for meeting.. Haiz~~ no longer got allowances for OT, now become reimbursement, this makes me even more sian to stay in the office till late night anymore. Left office around 7plus, while i took more than 1 hours to reach home. Actually i got the urge to flag a cab but in the end the bus was here before i board a cab. Maybe this is fate, i need to save up for my trip. I might be leaving in SG early Oct for a longer trip than genting nor thailand. It will depends on how many days i can take.

Tuesday, had a terrible backache but i still manage to struggle back to work. While this time round is quite bad cos i had to apply the medicine every few hours and had painkillers to relieve the pain. opps.. i still went to cartel for lunch with my colleagues, while at night we went to gelare for waffle.

Wednesday and Thursday, i am on mc for two days. While i need to work for these two days. Haiz~ Mum mention about my wound that i hide away.. hai~~~ Let me think of him again for the past two days~~ Min arh~~ dun be so childish lah, put sick on your nick just because you want to gain attention from him. Wahahaa.. PLS.. IT WILL NOT WORKS ANYMORE~~ dun be silly le can? Hahaa.. While i had chatted with second korkor at nite.. again.. i had my old nanny story again.. He said aiyah~~ why u still haven forget about him again.. u arh~~~ haiz~~~ See lah.. Lastime L treats you so good.. you dun want lah~~ Opps.. Maybe if the story can start again, i should sticks with L? Maybe i will be happier than now..Haiz~~ why i got so many "Maybe"? I really don't know, maybe i still don't know what is the answer, that's why i still feel so hurt..

My hk trip will be postpone.. Sadist~~~ no gals friends accompany me to hk.. even though i can find guy friends to accompany me to go.. haiz~~~ no choice.. mum said CANNOT~~~ so.. i ... haiz~~ change it to genting.. Can anyone accompany me to go.. I want GIRLS/WOMAN~~~!!~!!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!!~!~!~ My guy good friends will accompany me to go also.. So now i need to find GIRLS/WOMAN~~!!~~!!!!!!~!~!~!!

珍惜眼前人

Haha,或许我比较”天真”吧,我相信每对恋人都希望有如王子和公主般浪漫动人的爱情故事,可是现实生活中又有多少人会这么幸福呢?两个人在一起其实并不复杂,信任和包容是其中重要的元素. 要找到真爱并不容易,能和自己深爱的人携手共渡下半辈子是一种幸福, 所以要好好珍惜眼前人!

hahaa.. got it from a blog... i used to think love is like a fairytale story, always keen that i will have my own fairytale story.. but it doesn't seems to be.. or maybe i should said fairytale dun really appear that often...

last weekend, i went out with my buddies to sentosa.. of cos i am late due to i need to work in the afternoon.. after tat, i went hm for a bath before going down to meet them at vivocity.. AGAIN, we went down to cafe de mal again.. omg~~~ we went there again.. AGAIN~~ we spent quite a lot on drinking again.. but this time round, we had a second round... Hahahaa.. Banana went back early, while me and my two brothers continue to Clarke quay.. We had been strolling for a very long time to find a place to drink.. Well~~ we didn't really want to go club cos was pretty ex.. Ended, we sit outside double O~~ hahaa.. is tat the end of the story~~ well~~ we went to mac to have supper... the end???

Iguana~~~~~ we order 9 shots, 3 for each of us... But beforehand, we had already got 3 shots at cafe de mal plus 1 jug of vodka lime.. omg~~~~~~~ Well the 3 shots didn't really knock us out... We contiune to order shots again~~ hahaha.. but this time round is the last order.. In end, brother foot the bill and we went to sit down at the riverside.. hahaa.. talking nonesenes... wat nonesense.. Of cos.. is how i feel the week before.. hw siao am i lah... and etc.... of cos wat brother will said is.. aiya.. forget abt it.. u want me to introduce u guys.. hahahaaa.. :x

well... love life to me whether will it be a empty one or like a roller coaster.. guess no longer impt to me.. at least at this point of moment, i know i got a good bunch of friends ard me... hahaa.. just that sometimes i seldom share my secrets out mah.. just laugh thru my way.. the only time will talk.. maybe is when i talk to ex-jie fu.. where i can complain and cried as much as i want.. hahaa.. tat was in the past.. .

thanx my friends ~~~ u all had been giving me the support to struggle through with this shitty job.. hopefully i can use this method to struggle through my relationship life... hahahaa... :P

i am looking forward for the next drinking session with u all.. .wahahahahaha..

as to my friends.. i hope everyone of us will find our truth love soon... and to those who found.. congra.. i hope to attend your wedding wor.. :P

~~just another weekend~~

Hahaha.. i dunno what to post.. maybe i will post my story out again.. the ending of the story which i had been keep repeating for the past 5 years but dun worry the story is coming to the end le~~~

Below are just some snapshots which i went for the last two weekends~~ Maybe must cut down le.. Otherwise pocket going bankrupt soon le~~ Feeling pain sia~~ Why should i torture myself in this manner?? I dun want his sympathy, i want to learn to be independent.. without him i can still survive.. haha.. but when dear saw the pics.. he will kill me.. maybe he will know why i never reply his msg for the past few days.. opps.. :x

Some sunset photos that i took during BBQ and last weekend when i went sentosa with my buddies.. sigh~~ kana sunburn.. so painful.. but guess the wound is much more better than my wound deep inside me.. argh~~~ i told myself not to mention it anymore~~

Botanic Garden~~

My favourite ice-cream at liang court.. yummy~~~ hehee.. tried the jap food at the central~~ also not bad plus budget.. haha..

Supper at coffee club~~

A view from my Office.. Hahaha.. Guess where is it ba..

Something that keep me accompany in office~~

Erm.. just some memories that are happened long long ago before i met xXXXx.. Hahahaa.. Times files so fast.. both of them had already left me.. one already get married le.. while the other one leh?? Hahaha.. i dunno leh.. Someone did ask me did i ever regret? I did regret.. why i crossed over the grey line which will bomb anything.. In the end, i am the one who get hurt and couldn't let it down.. Maybe things happened in this way.. When u are the one who suggested to be seperate, you won't feel the pain.. But if is the other way, you will try to find your means to proof to him/her that without him/her.. u will still lead a better life than each other? But don't you think you hurting yourself in the same time? This would not solve the problem but only make it worst.. think carefully before you really heading for revenge and proof that you are right~~

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