saturday was my last day for my attachment.. after that went back home instead of chalet... feel so tiring.. maybe bcos everyday i slept ard 1 plus and gt to wake up early in the morning... went out with mum to parkway.. and bcome fillial girl by giving mummy money to buy chinese goodies... after tat met him ard 11 plus... didn't went where also... only went to changi village there.. haha... only stayed there a while.. after tat we went back hm... bcos both of us were too tired.. actually wanted to go chinatown.. but i guessed i really dun have the energy to squeeze inside the crowds...

sunday morning ard 9 plus... winston called me.. haha.. but actually should be morning call.. bcos i meeting them to attend NTU talk at bugis... on the train, we were still discussing how come we are meeting so early.. The talk starts at 11am... we meet at 10.30am at bugis mrt station.. hai~~~ when we reached there, omg..... so crowded.. luckily manage to get a seat... but the talk really haywire.. the power slides were so much faster than wat the lecturers trying to cover.. wat she can do was kept apologizing to us abt the technical problems.. erm.. i wondering how come.. she study IT... ended up her powerpoint skills ................. hai~~~~ anyway NTU is nt my cup of tea.. i don't fit into the admission criteria.. my results also nt tat gd.. hai~~~after tat had my lunch at FJ with them... they walked ard looking for clothes.. but ended we went to chinatown... hahaha.. we went into the pasa malam... it was so warm.... so we went over to chinatown OG... they bought their new year clothes, after tat we went back home... my second outing starts when i reached home.. i went cycling with my cousin... went to return him his mp3 player...otherwise he will scream at me if i didn't return him.. bcos he won't be at home for the next week and he need it.. shiong... 1 and half hours of cycling... alamak... tiring... so shag....

sob sob.. how come nobody believe i no friends.. erm.. serious lah.. i no friends... hai~~~who is my close friends.. who is my zhi ji?? hai~~~ everytime i saw my cousin.. she will comment on me.. hai~~ she told my other cousins.. i got a lot of guy friends... i diam diam... they are my secondary friends lor... i admit.. my gf are d*** pitiful... pls.. help me find more gf and friends... thanks a lot...

Tomorrow going to be my last day of attachment.. erm.. maybe meeting carina and going to chalet instead of meeting two ba po .. hai~~ we shall see how...

erm.. yesterday went to watch aviation.. what i can says was a very boring show, seems like no ending... in the end, i am stuck in the theatre for 3 hours... alamak. .why no pple inform me about that... if someone tells me.. i won't go and watch that movie..

today so busy... but hai~~ took back more than 10 packets of chocolate biscuits.. so fattening.. alamak.. hai~~ asked mum to go distribute to her friends.... left some for tat three greedy pigs.. hehe.. next week school starts liao.. can treat them as snacks... save money.. lolo.. :P I already planning not to go back school on CNY's eve.. lalalaaa.. very naughty hor.. no choice.. no boring... must well stay at home and sleep.. and finding a target to accompany me to chinatown during the eve's nite... 2 years ago was korkor accompany me go.. but now he....... last year was ying... but i guessed she will think tat it is very boring to accompany me go... bcos i left at 1 plus... due to i going hm to talk on phone with my friend.. hahaa (luckily she duno abt it or else i guess she will kill me)... alamak.. this year who is going to accompany me there????? sob sob ^-^

Last announment to make for the day is... I AGREE MY BOSS TO WORK FOR HER TILL SHE FOUND A FULL TIME.. seems like i not going to have anytime for myself.. anyone looking for tuition teacher??? i want to work as a part-time tuition teacher also.. hahaa..

erm.. today morning, boss asked me dun need to go back to do stock-take.. heng arh.. i was so scared i overslept... so even though i drink yesterday nite, i still couldn't sleep well.. erm.. understand myself better.... still enjoying the moment spending with friends.. wanted to forget the crush i had so long ago.. it had been dragging for so long.. making myself so miserable.. wat for.. i should enjoy the life i had now.. and not holding the memories i had with him.. Everythings was in the past.. I can only says thank you... Without him last few years, i might not learn to be a bit independent.. I MUST TELL MYSELF.... ME n HIM FOREVER R FRIENDS.. nothing will go over this point..

I will look for my happiness instead clutching on the memories i had... haha... slowly see whether i can find my happiness or not... lalaa.. wish my g00d luck wor...

wow.. today after my work.. i went down to orchard to meet ester n ah-ying... after our dnn3r, 3st3r w3nt t0 m33t her b0ss.. while me and ah-ying went to cinel3isur3 to tak3 n3oprint.. not long later ... ester called us and ask us to go down to clarke quay to join them ... we says okie.. ended up.. we went to MS there to chiong... haha.. it has been such a long time i ever chiong... but really shiok.. .this is my first time step into the dacing floor to dance.. really enjoy myself a lot.. but not very drunk.. not like previously went to fisherman village.. try chevias(duno spell correct or not).. not bad... quite nice...

on friday, i went to porthsdown road.. erm.. it seems very special.. and uique.. totally different from the city area.. it is like a high class pulau ubin... quite interesting for that outing.. after that i went over to holland village there, to have my dinner.. this was also my first time been to holland village.. country bumpkin hor.. but nvm.. at least i went there once.. When to tea & esscential.. actually we wanted to sit at second level but was fully booked... The food over there really nice.. especially the lemongrass tiger prawns.. i like it so much... hehe.. maybe next time i will go and try out other resturant or cafes over there... After the dinner, we went over to orchard to shop around... I had been controlling myself.. and ask myself not to spend too much.. Actually i wanted to buy a t-shirt and nail polish but ended i spend the money on food.. When to the bistro at pacific plaza again.. the food there are not bad...

overall, i can says i had been exploring singapore for the past 2 days... btw i try tequlia shot yesterday .. erm.. i duno arh.. i finish the shot immediately.. wow.. very strong.. hehe.. but not drunk...

yesterday my boss opened her mouth... she asked me whether i am still working at cineleisure cartel or not?? Will i will be working part-time? She asking me whether i want to go back to work on weekend ?? If i going back, i got to work wake everyday early in the morning... So i am still considering... She will be giving me the same pay as wat cartel gives me lor... My parents says not bad... but i still thinking.. maybe tomorrow or tuesday, i will give her a reply.. nowadays keep working.. hardly got time to meet out with friends.. bcos of working.. canot celebrate joanna's birthday with her... cannot meet friends for movies, bowling and etc...... most imptly cannot celebrate korkor's 21 birthday with him.. erm... feel that i a neglect my friends quite a lot... it is been such a long time i ever met joyce n chuifen.. really miss the time we had in secondary school... there was a time, i should be meeting them to watch shrek2 but bcos i need to work OT... ended up... no time to meet them for dinner... hai~~~~ work took away a lot of my time.. during december... aunt n my cousin came back to sg... therefore, i spent more time with them and cousin... been always going out with them... one of my friend asked me, "why u always go out with your cousin?" i diam diam.. maybe bcos i have lost one... now i hope i dun wish to lose anyone.. i MUST learn how to cherish family ties and friendship...

Sorry, if i had hurt you... You blame me that i had no time for you.. but luckily we broke up.. Now.. i hope to spend more time with friends... i know your request isn't that too much.. but i really hardly had time for myself to take a breath... how to had time for you.. In Feb, i had to go back school for my FYP.... If i going to work part-time for my boss... i think i will hardly go out in the weekend...Maybe now is better that we are still friends..

thanx pals n friends... nowadays keep receiving msgs asking how am i.. i am fine.. thanks for the concern.. i believe i can stand up asap.. bcos i still got tons of things waiting for me to do... and looking for my happiness.. when i wanted to give up.. u let me had the courage to carry on.. but now... you leave me again.. i really speechless.. this also let me realize.. u are my gd friend or buddy... not someone who i like...

hehe.. yesterday went to eat sakae buffet with ah-kor.. quite shiok... ate quite a lot of sushi and fried tofu.. luckily sunday never went to sakura international buffet.. or else sure broke...

sian.. calculate how much i spent during that past one month.. i wondering how come i will spend that high.. i guess it really breaks my record.. i spent away my busary.. yet i didn't even get a new phone.. one word to says gone.... this month eat grass... my bank now is zero.. hai~~~ wat had i spent.. only bought a jacket... do a new spectacles plus... bought 1 pair of slipper and 1 pair of high heels... plus a few pieces of clothes... a wallet... a bag... tat's all.... sian..start to eat grass liao... had to stop all my weekend activites... stop all my shopping spree.... and my cafe... erm.. did i ate anyting nice during december.. erm.. couldn't remember where i went.. oh... i remember i been to johor for abt 3 times... alamak...... must MIA for a period liao... still owe..... christmas present.. hehe.. but i dun think he will mind right hor... must pity me leh.. now broke liao.. sob sob.. :'(

today went to tao nan but surprise there wasn't any speech for this year ceremony..although it was jus a simple ceremony, there were lots of police officers... need to check through your belongs before u entered the hall.. worried that i brought the wrong stuffs... i checked my bag before i enter.. hehe.. the ceremony started at 2.30pm and it ended at 3.15.. amazing... it was so short.. i went to attend the ceremony myself.. i think should be the first step that i going to learn independent.. luckily.. the lady sat beside talk to me.. otherwise i will bored to death... thru the conversion knew that she worked in SIA last time but now she is studying nursing in my school... i wondering where would i land onto in this coming april... carry on my studies or come out to work.. before i leave the stage.. i remembered wat he says... most imptly.. is to get yourself a job.. pple ard him start to pounding why he said so.. he explained... i agreed with him... i can graduate but i might a hard time looking for a job..

1 month had passed, yesterday aunt n sue went back to aus already... i had completed my mission.. try to be with family n relatives.. whenever i had time.. maybe now is time to replenish some energy before i going back school to suffer..but there are still things ard me to handle.. today stepped into G2000.. erm... first thought tat comes into my mind was.... he worked there before..i knew the pple over there too.. he intro me to them... as his sister.. 20 years of life.. i sense tat i losing more and more friends.. i hope to drift the distance nearer instead further.. maybe now is the time to find more time to spend with old friends.. been so long.. i ever met them.. miss them so much.. wondering when will they be free to meet me.. still miss the time i went to eat KFC with him..

today went over to dajie's house.. suppose to go in the morning but due to sick...cannot manage to wake up tat early.. ended up, i reached there was already noon.. all the relatives were waiting for the arrival of bride.. this year is very special.. bcos it is really a family gathering.. last time er-jie's wedding.. my aunt n her family were not in sg.. today her whole family was here but a shortage of one.. but tat special person will leave inside our heart.. ard 3 plus.. i went to jurong point with er-jie and her friends to set hair.. can u imagine how would i look like.. hehe.. i think not bad.. quite pretty.. lolo.. :P bhb hor.. but too bad.. i really think it is pretty... i show my nails to Michelle (aka my cousin).. she thought tat i went for manicure but the fact is sue(also my cousin) helped me to polish.. lolo.. :P today i am very fortunate.. there is someone who helped me to take of my nails.. while another one take care of my make-up.. too bad... i am a tom-boy.. duno how to make-up... lalala.. :P after tat went over to er-jie's house to wait my cousin-in-law to come over and fetch us to the resturant.. erm.. although i am down with flu , sore throat and cough.. i still cannot stand the tempation of cold drinks and chocolate.. i drank quite a number of soft drinks.. and ate a lot of chocolate.. hehe.. my aunt says.. sick canot eat chocolate.. but in the end, i still eat.. lolo.. sorry... food is more impt than my health.. today is also my first time to take a group photos of my cousin.. hehe.. really amazing... i enjoyed myself a lot tonite.. hehe.. :P wondering.. who will be the next one to get married... i dun want to be a receptionist liao.. hahhaa.. bcos i sotong sotong.. put me there is a totally waste of seats... hahaha.. :P i will post out the photos when it is out.. hahha :P

wow.. how can i write like this.. later pple misunderstand.. how.. but i decided to write out.. mistaken lor.. nthing big deal.. justin fong aka my ah-kor.. been with me quite a number of years.. to him, i am still a small kid who dunno how to handles my relationship or friendship problems.. while he is like a consultant always guide me thru my way.. there are times we quarrelled bcos of misunderstanding but there are also happy times we share.. i feel very guilty bcos i did not be there with him when he need me to most.. i runaway and hide at a cornert to be a coward.. sorry.. i couldn't conquer my fear...

pple around me, almost everyone know abt this special guy... This is how our story begin... i know him when i am sec 1 thru my best friend... tat time when the first time i saw him, he a bit like gay but whenever i go over to broadbrick and have my technical classes... i will go and look for them.. being with them was quite fun... slowly i went out with him and my best friend.. at tat time i realise he is going after my best friend.. this had drift us nearer, i also duno why.. when i am in sec 2, he waited for me after school, after tat we went to parkway and exchange cd to listen. slowly, we always chit-chat and went out together... but whenever we went out.. i will drag someone along.. suddenly one day he asked me:"you scare i no gf arh.. want to intro me arh.. " erm.. no lah.. the fact is tat.. maybe i am only child.. i seldom interact with guys.. i duno wat to says.. so quite shy abt it.. but as time grows longer.. i no longer tat shy le.. bcos he had bcome my ah-kor who i can tell him almost everything abt my life... tat year when i am having my o level, i had encountered some friendship problems n some family problems.. but he was the one who pull me up.. there was once tat i am down, i cried until very jialet.. he rushed down all the way to find me, although the next day he got geography exams.. he dun mind n sat down, accompany me thru tat moment... before he went home.. he pat on my shoulder and tell me "you can do it.. dun worry... Jia You" and he handled me a packet of sweets.. but i did not eat.. i cherish tat packet of sweets.. it was an encouragement from him.. when o level was round the corner... he always asked me out to study.. when i duno, he will teach me.. i still can remember the day before i having chemistry.. we revised thru phone almost the whole nite.. after o level.. he went to work part-time.. but when he was free.. he will definite ask me out.. he would wish to know how is his cry baby xiao mei mei.. he always had a strong and stern face...trying to hide away from everything... till in poly.. we still the same.. sometimes i can says he is really sweet and a caring ah-kor.. i dun ask for too much.. i never did my part well..

today i received a call from him.. tears rolled down... i promise you i will take care of myself.. i dun want you to worry for me.. ah-kor... no matter wat happened.. i will be there for you.. i swear... u walked thru your life with so many obstacles, i believe u can make it thru again.. i dun want to lose u forever.. i know i couldn't afford to lose you.. bcos our friendship bond when thru a a lot of thick and thin, i want to tell u something... it is very strong.. but i never says it out... so no matter how far u going or how long u dun want to see us.. i will wait for u till the day u want to see me.. i swear... ah-kor, i miss you.. and sorry.........

this is the first time i going to write a conclusion for wat i done for this year.. let me see i had fall down hw many times before the arrival of a new year...

Happiest moments:
i don't know whether i got happy moments.. at least i still a few friends celebrate with me on my birthday eve.. thanks.. really sweet of them.. even though tat time is exams period for most of us... second should be attend er-jie's wedding.. finally know tat all of us had grown up.. third.. should be going to get my bursary soon..

Saddiest moments
thanks to my 3 closest friend in poly.. there was a period.. i really down.. and helpless.. they were the ones who cheer me up.. thanks pals.. tat time.. a silly girl went to airport almost everyday.. looking at the planes.. tears rolls down.. cannot imagine things happen so fast.. she sat down at the cafe wanted to study.. but she jus couldn't make it.. send a sms out.. she told herself.. she will not regret for wat she had done.. but in the end.. she still regret.. jus trying to act strong.. that was how i lose a very close guy friend...

maybe i not good at words nor handling friendship ba.. i lose another close guy friend also... during december, he was being admitted to hospital due to accident.. i went to the hospital to visit him.. while he was changing bed to go for operation.. i left... his relatives and friends were there.. the next day morning.. he called me.. saying he was very unhappy ... and dun want to see me anymore.. a sentence i can says is... i cry again.... i really plucked my courage to go hospital to see you...... do u know how long had i been wandering outside the ward before i dare to go in.. i am not tat strong like wat u tot.. bcos of wat your friends's says... u tell me those.. u know wat i tot of tat day..it reminds me of him.... but it also my fault.. shouldn't jus walk away, i should have stand beside u.. why am i so silly...

wow.. another guy again... but tat was someone special... be frank.. if can i rather dun want to keep a secret... so torturing... this secret had to be kept till the day my granny passaway... it was a big impact for everyone of us... at first.. i really can't accept it.. almost every nite, tears rolling down my cheeks.. last year was the last time i saw u.. u offered me cookie and cream ice-cream.. i like it a lot.. from that moment onwards... i always wanted to eat cookies and cream ice-cream but it taste so different.. tat day went to the airport... feeling was different.. everyone of us.. still couldn't wat had happened.. i bcome more dong shi... but this was an act.. u know how i study for exams.. how to force myself to stay awake thru whole nite.. the method is: "I promise korkor.. i will study hard.. and not let him disappointed" whenever i wanted to give up.. this is the sentence i tell myself.. yeah~i got good results.. so wat.. he had already left me... so this year.. i jus had a simple birthday...

although me and the first guy are still friends but not tat close anymore.. he says i am very emotional.. i admit tat ba.. i cry whenever tears roll down my cheeks... hereby..i wish to thanks a few persons... 3 ba po(erm.. should know who are u all liao..).. hehe.. :P jiefu & jiejie... yy... tian tian... thank you for the comfort during that period when i am down... really surprise abt tat.. always ask me dun think so much..

hopefully this coming year.. i will have more peace... and happiness....

on sunday, tidal waves hit number of countries... like thailand(phucket), sri lanka , india, sumantra, malaysia(Penang) n others.. now tons of pple are raising money for them.. a lot of pple pass away... this remind me of someone who i buried deep down in my heart... maybe when someone stepped out of your lives... u will hardly forget them ba.. or maybe is just tat i am very stubborn.. and dun want to let go.. i really trying my best.. my best to forget everything.. my best to start all over again.. but it seems to be so hard.. in april.. i will be going to graduate if my FYP went on smoothly.. hope to try my luck and apply for university.. if can.. i hope to get in... if can't .. then look for jobs first ba..

silly girl..today receive a christmas card.. really very surprise that he will send me a christmas card.. this few years... this friend had always be there for me.. but he like to suan me.. hehe... treat me nt bad.. still can remember years ago.. he send me a valentine day card... bcos he knows i dun have present mah.. so send me a card to cheer me up.. hehe.. quite sweet of him.. friend.. of cos treat u as gd friend....

maybe tomorrow will do a conclusion of wat i had done this year... i guess i lose more than i gain.. lose so many things that hurt me.... let me burried my hatchet deep inside my heart... bcos u will always be living inside me.. thank you for your support.. if without u... maybe silly gal also won't be here now. on my way of life.. u really help us a lot.. xie xie ni... let me cry one more day for you ba...

sian.. today dann fed up.. hai~~no mood.. hehe.. but come back liao.. complaint to so many pple..feel so much better.. lolo.. :P this weekend.. i going to be super bored... hai~~~~ but nvm.. i can sleep a lot.. lolo.. :P sian... now trying to jio pple to go drink.. haha.. if like jiefu saw this post.. he sure want to vomit blood liao.. lolo.. :P LEO arh... when u free to accompany me go drink.. i super sian arh...

tian tian arh.. erm.. dun always go parkway lah.. later i saw u again.. hehe..then your face red red.. hahaa.. :P

hohoho.. .M3rry chrstmas... so fast.. another one week gone.. ths w33k is qut3 buzy f0r m3.. bc0s n33d to g3t s0m3 cl0thing before att3ndng my c0usn w3dding.. hehe.. erm.. this wh0l3 w33k been d0ng qut3 a lot of things.. had my chrstmas at w3st c0ast park.. aft3r tat.. drank a cup of r3d wne at 3 plus.. end up.. very tred and a bt drunk.. lolo.. th3 n3xt day, my beauty sl33p got interrupted hp ringing... sian arh.. got up early and went over to my cousin's house.. after tat reaches home ard 2 plus... actually wanted to sl33p th3n at nte can go out.. but ended up.. took a nap at 4 plus... 7 plus... hp rings agan.. got to wake up and went out to m33t my cousn..actually suppose to m33t k3vin th3y all to help him celebrate his birthday but.. cousin ask me out.. cannot says no mah.. so went out with cousin instead of them.. sorry arh.. tat day went to orchard for shopping... hehe.. bought a shawl... a jacket... gym pants... and a t-shirt from fox.. diao.. spent 60 bucks.. tat day still went to eat creepes... diao.. spent abt 80 bucks.. really broke sia.. left orchard ard 12... when i reached pp, i went to m33t s0m3on3 els3.. wanted to go to changi beach.. on the way.. we got lose.. turning round n round.. but we still manage to reach there.. quite enjoy myself over th3r3,... thanks f0r hs und3rstanding wor...
Actually on sunday, i suppose to go tree top walk but was dann shag... bcos the day before i slept at 4plus.. although i can wake up.. but i really very tired... maybe bcos due to... didn't sleep well for the past 2 days ba.... so at nite went ou with mum to buy clothes.. again.. spent money.. hai~~~ Today went out with friends.. luckily never buy anything.. haha..

alamak.. forget s0m3thing.. on the 23 of dec3mb3r... i saw a blur blur guy at giant.. hehe.. he is so cut3 arh...l00kng h3r3 n th3r3... gu3ss wh0 s tat... the p3rs0n is my tian tian... haha.. :P but i never go over and says hi to him...

yohoo... 4 more days to christmas... this will also be the first time tat me n my ........... will be exchanging present.. lolo... surprising right... stunned right... never told anyone of this infor... only told my cousins... but we will not be meeting each other on that day.... he will joining his friends while me leh... maybe stay at home or wait until my friends decided where they want to go or maybe they got other programs..he asked me to join them... but i insist of dun want... although i saw his friends before.... u know hor.. sotong do makes mistake often... i mistaken a guy as a girl... die arh.... anyway i not going... die die also canot force me to go attend anything function with me.......

last week... leg started to get pain.... after sat going with them... it seems like getting worst... imagine.... from PS to esplande to boat quay then to clarke quay... but i did enjoy the day.. we went to secret receipe... i know i had laughing all the way... my friend why i keep laughing.. till 9 plus... i become more and more quiet.... waiting for a phonecall but it never comes at all...... so disappointed.. but forget it... he quite dotes me wor.. shouldn't think for too much... no more nonesense from me.. jiefu told me dun make things complicated arh.... lolo... xiang tong le.. ......... should be the one i care not other pple... i will learn how to cherish you... u must do that to be wor... arbo break hor.... hehee... :P

jus now in the afternoon went in to malaysia for a short trip.. didn't really buy much.... jus to give myself a break before tomorrow... hai~~~ need to work again.. next week got to shop for clothes for wedding dinner liao... planning to take off on tat day... but still considering... my ex-boss today call me up.. asked me to go back to work... erm.. still considering whether i want to have some time for myself or work.. today saw christian dior perfume.. .erm.. i think not bad leh... maybe tat will be my next target instead of hp ba... we shall see how........

last saturday been to airport to fetch my aunt n my cousin... my friend tot i went to fetch my guy friend.. haha.. i also lazy to further explain.. these few days always been thinking wanted to go and visit kokor.. but thinking back tat is still angry.. make me step back... always tot that he is the one who understand me the most.. but maybe now no longer... from the moment i stepped out of his ward... he sms me the next day... telling me... u had lose me already... maybe i really very stupid ba.. changing bed before going to operation room can stand there to wait mah.. but there got so many pple liao... furthermore nobody i know.. plus... i am so afarid of hospital... i can plucked out my courage and go up alone and search for the ward and bed already not bad... the fear of hospital is really cannot be describe... i really very scare... if i am not scare.. i won't die die also dun want to go see doctor tat day... my back was so painful.... tian tian so scare.. haha.. cos i keep crying non-stop.... the moment i decided to go see doctor is when i called up yiying.. she told me... nth wrong... jus sprain of back... dun need to stay or send to hospital.. then just got relieve and go see doctor... kor... wanted to explain to u.. but u dun want to listen.. i also diam diam liao.. i really fear of hospital... if can... i won't want to step into it... if someone accompany me.. i really dun mind.. u asked me stayed there for how long... i also won't says a no... just like last time... siok entered hospital... xiaowei.. .accompany me go there and we spent almost one whole day there... but u asked me go alone... i will not stayed for long.. cos i scare.. u can scold me timid or watever u want... but the truth is i really cannot stand to go hospital alone... not tat u not impt to me or i dun care for u.. is really.. u cannot ask me go alone... u been taking care of me... i do care for u all but jus duno how to express out mah...

back to airport ba.. before aunt come out... my uncle thinking abt my cousin... the moment is sad... nobody will expect this to happen.... everyone is still sad but nobody want to express it out.. in less than a year so many things happened... there is pple getting marry... there is pple die... this is unavoidable.. no fear.. i promise myself... i will be strong enuff to take care of everyone... from a immature kid need to grow up suddenly to be very mature.. is very hard.. .but i will try my best..

today went down to NUH to see wat happened to my korkor... never knew that this kind of thing will happen.. to me he is always strong and healthy guy... erm... korkor treats me not bad... sometimes always gave me surprises... knew him for 8 years liao ba..... last time always go to broadbrick to have my technical lesson... slowly... get to know him thru friends... he also knows my friends... there are times he come to school and find me... i will be the one trying to hide or runaway... haha.... last year korkor very sweet wor... bought me a cake and a bag.......... n delivery to me......... at nite, he asked me to go down and celebrate my birthday with me... hehe.. :P this few years no matter i been thru wat... he is the one who will always keep me accompany and guide me thru out the problems.... really very hard to believe that he entered hospital.. i tot he must be kidding with me....when i was on my way walking to the wards.. i feel like i am dragging myself... why arh... bcos i scare to go hospital... luckily is dad sent me over... and wait for me at the carpark.... when i am sec 4, i been to NUH before too.... my uncle was being sent over due to cancer... he stayed there for almost 2 weeks or more... still remember the day he discharged... he need two person at his side to hold on to him... he looks extremely pale and weak... wondering why i am scare to go hospital... i dun wish to see my beloved ones to lie on the back and suffering.. last year... i saw my cousin.. he dropped his hairs... everyday he was taking injection... no appetite to eat... and i lost him.... he went away... this is the fact tat i couldn't deny.. when i having exams... i will not disappoint him... i might get the best result i have in my entire poly life... but he is not going to come back anymore... my aunt was very sad over this matter... she will be coming back this weekend... this christmas n new year won't be the same again...

korkor lying on the bed.... when the moment i reached there... he is abt time to go for operation... i leave first bcos dad nt free.. there is a bery silly girl... she stand outside the ward walking here and there and dun dare to go in.... till the moment she asked the nurse... wat's the name of the patient and the bed is at which corner.. 20 years of life... quite unpredictable... been to numerous of hospital to visit different pple... never expect to visit someone who always care for me and strong guy.... really very stunned... and let me recalled back the past.... how uncle struggling to survive... how my cousin trying his best to struggle but he still left us... if there is a wish for me... i wish that u will survive... shulin jiejie always been very quiet... i wondering 1 year i never saw her liao.. how was she... did she overcome the heartache she had....... i would rather have my korkor there quarrel with me and argue with me... wat abt you??

today went out with one of my secondary school friends... so long never see her leh.. ask her out for dinner... i went to try out the new christmas pizza... wow.. so big... both of us ate until very full.... next to our table, there is a very cute baby.... she keeps looking at us while she eating.. so lovely... my friend asked me faster go and have one myself... i says not tat easy.... hahaa... she ask me got bf or not.. erm... today much more special... i answer with a yes and a no too.. i also dunno whether i got a bf or not... he read my blog jus now in the afternoon.. he asked me a question.. u still think of him arh.. erm.. i duno how to answer... hahaa...today at tampines.... let me think louis that bunch of friends.... haha... duno why..... quite miss them... in a sense that most of them are happy go lucky... quarrel in a while... the next moment everything is fine.. let me choose.... i want TIAN TIAN... he the best.... lalalalala... :P the one who scare i cry..... that day when i hurt my back.... i called him when i reached home.... i kept crying bcos it is so painful..... he very scare... haha... keep saying.. i accompany u go see doctor want or not.... Tian tian u the best.... at least being with u... i feel much more happier.... lolo.... when he saw this... he will kill me... or says bu yao hai wo arh......