never been blogging since last sat, this week been flying over so fast, tat i couldn't even catch whole of myself.

Last Sunday, went to Soo Yuan's chalet at East Coast. My shifu aka turtle, wake me up so early at 12pm, arbish *_*!! I feel so tiring yet they did nt go cycling at all! *-* But we did went for a bowling session, i score 117 for the first match. The second match was terrbile, it shows tat i dun have passion to do things. I only like it for a while, and give up after tat moment. haha.. =p This gives me the feeling of having a chalet for my 21th birthday. After considering all factors, i decided to have to chalet for my birthday. BUT dun be extreme happy/unhappy abt tat, i had nt book the chalet yet. Still remember a few years back we celebrate his birthday at swensen, now he is turning 21.



hehehe.. :P

Monday, been rushing finish it up the project on hand with my colleague for the whole day... But again we went to CAFE DEVINE for lunch.. erm.. considered ok lah.. after having lunch for so many times at there.. There was a client over there with us, i realise tat my communication need to brush up plus my english.

Tuesday, again working on the same project. But i guess a few more weeks or few more months later, you will see my second workpiece. You shall be able to comment about it. It takes a lot of time and effort to finish it up, i just helped out a bit here and there.. wahaha...

Wednesday, went lunch with my friend and shop for a while before returning back to office. Guess what?? There are changes for my second workpiece. Wow.. so long.. but the art director praise us. He said overall it was good. I feel so overjoyed. This is the second time me and my shifu team up to finish up one project. Wahaha.. :P
After work, i went to meet kelvin, winston and soo yuan for dinner. AGAIN i went to burger king. erm... i just had it for lunch.. but never mind.. since the guys will be going back army soon.. i shall nt be tat picky and have tat again. After tat we had a sudden thoughts of going East Coast for Coffee. I stunned... I never tot tat those guys will be tat spendrift as i do. We went Coffee bean and i tried out the white chocolate vanilla, it was nt bad. Guess what?? We spend almost 2 hrs there.. helping kelvin to prepare for his army life soon..

Thursday, i went for my course after my work. At first, i tot my colleague will nt be attending it. She thinks it was very rush for her bcos she need to go for driving and she got tons of things to do.. so.... nobody going to accompany me. Surprise... She asked me wat am i going to have for dinner? Erm... Yesh!! she is going with me.. hehe.. Ok lah.. break my promise.. and therefore this week had to work hard to keep my promise..

Friday...... shall contiune at nite.. otherwise my boss will yelled at me later.. ;) tata...

haha.. yesterday i went to eski pub.. erm.. ok lah.. nt very cold.. order a drink called bubble gum.. wahaha.. my friend said just like me.. so bubbly.. bleh.. dun vomit out arh.. guess i am back to normal le.. i talked to him last afternoon.. asking for my 21th birthday present.. hehe.. he asked me go batam to celebrate.. wahaha.. :P i really dun mind.. if u are going to bring me there.. but i know it is impossible.. pple been asking me whether do i still miss u.. guess i am already half way through.. these few months.. met a lot of new pple.. and learn a lot of stuffs that i couldn't find it in school... erm.. btw.. after going to eski.. we went ms... lol.. :P tat boss came to talk to us sia.. but inside gt a lot of ang mo... he came forward and ask me.. are you ok? erm.. i was like.. i am fine.. wahahaha.. jil kept asking me go back home.. bleh.. :P i am fine... lalalalalalaal...

today actually wanted to go ah-beng chalet.. but ended i went to met up with peggy and carina for dinner at tampines.. alamak.. again at tampines.. i been at tampines for the past few weeks.. hai~~~ AGAIN i had billy bombers for dinner.. alamak.. i had tat last few days ago... from wednesday till sat.. nothing seems cheap...
billy bombers --> thai express --> thai food --> billy bombers --> BBQ food..
hehehe.. i can predict wat i am going to have for tomorrow.. BBQ food.. lol.. so long never had it liao... actually today wanted to go out to celebrate ester's birthday but.. never go... otherwise.. i will really knock out.. cos till now my stomach still feel really painful...

this week been great... i finally finish my vol project and i back in office.. wahaha.. :P finally got a chance to work in office.. hehe.. :P

for the past few days i went to billy bomber and thai express for lunch.. wahah.. i spent almost 2hrs for my lunch break..but i am broke now... today i went to thai food again.. hehe.. but it was nice.. i like it so much.. wahaha... :p

btw.. i went to watch herbie already... not bad.. quite funny...

yesterday course was ok lah.. not tat boring.. get to know more pple.. :P we make a promise.. if within 3 mths, we never acheived wat we had promised.. i will have to treat them.. but if he is going to promote again.. he shall treat me makan.. wahhaa.. let me think of something expensive... lalaa... his pay is so much higher than me... so i guess it would be find lah... lalalalaala... 3 mths later, we will know who win who lose... bleah.. :P

tonite.. my colleague.. wanted to bring me to that ice pub... wahaha.. :P shiok sia....

my life been going ups and down which i couldn't really handle well.. Last thursday i went to attend the second part of my course. Could i really untie my knot? Tat knot seems like falling deep inside a well. I realise something.. if i dun practise what i learned during that 3 days, the power i had will lose in any minutes.

been very busy for the past 3 weekends, do nt really have time for anything else.. but last sat, i managed to seek permission to leave early but ended up i still went off ard 10pm.. Went down to orchard to meet my friends for a birthday celebration. Out of surprising.. i couldn't flag a cab at lavander or bugis.. Can u believe tat taxi drivers do not want to stop for me.. hai~~ i am late... they will all waiting for me.. i feel so paiseh.. hehe.. but touch sia.. they never abandon me.. hehe.. again!! i did something stupid.. put some fresh cream on my friend's face.. lolo.. shifu.. hai~~~ bcome cream shifu.. who asks him accompany us to go washroom to wash hands.. ended up kana sabo by me.. this weekend.. although i am not working.. got two chalets going on....... erm... still considering.. everything for me now is like all pending.. let me have a break first ba~~


the most scarliest thing for august was tat... i got friends birthday which are contiunously... 26-gx, 27-jil n gary, 28-suicheng, 29-kevin, 3rd sept-soo yuan, 5th-ester... omg...

haha.. i fall sick again.. been keep falling sick for this whole year... two mths ago.. got high fever now... kana attacked by flu virus again.. kor came and find me today.. so sweet.. and he said next week treat me eat sakae.. erm.. listen can liao.. next week than i will know the truth.. never regret to have this kor.. cos he know this week.. i sad sad.. so.. haha.. had a talk with him also.. seriously my feelings really mixed up le.. i really duno wat i wan le.. so tiring.. can give me 1 min to breath...

i know jil, xuer and one of my gd friend when i broke up with my ex.. now.. everything was like in a mess.. xuer asked me.. she tot i fall in love with jil.. hai~~~ jil and my ah-kor is the same.. we know tat we will nt cross over tat line tat we had drawn in the first place. but.. i had crossed over the line tat me and my gd friend drawn.. tot tat attending the forum can help me to unlock my tie.. in the first place it seems like working.. now.. a bit confused again..

yesterday i went to take something from my friend.. finally, i managed to lend it from him.. but he really makes me very irritated.. i dunno why also.. he actually promise to pass to me on friday.. he said he was tired. fine.. i said another day... in a while later.. he msg me.. "i pass to u later.. since i am driving and i need to pass my friend some stuffs" ***** i know i nt your gf but pls respect me a bit can?
the same thing happened again yesterday...

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last weekend i went to attend a forum.. erm.. ok lah.. but... i did close my eyes for a while... but sh.......... dun tell anyone.. later sure kana whack by my boss... really tiring.. from 7am to 9pm.. maybe i need to had a hard life.. i cannot sit there for the whole day doing nothing except listening... but the food there was nice.. temasek country club was like a holiday resort from some other countries... i seems like i had left sg for 3 days.. but in fact i am still in sg... luckily got someone send me back hm... daddy was nt free for that whole month... and nobody want to send me back home.. so sad... got no pple pamper me le... hai~~~ but never mind.. all got their happiness le.. hehe...

story to be contiuned... cos i still got to work now..... byebye.... :P

two weeks ago.. i went to ktv with my cousin and followed by tat we went to watch the fireworks over at Marina there.. we even had a pinic over there.. hehe.. bought a lot of food.. i like the potato salad over the liang court.. the green-tea icecream is bagus!! MUST try!!! real taste good but ex..

been slacking all the way on national day's eve..hehe.. :P

went to watch NDP at padang.. sort of it ........... maybe i should not had choose at padang.. so hot over there.. plus.. sit beside an idiotic auntie.. she got the guts to someone smoking over there.. but when she was wrong.. she act damn innocent... wah kao.. no MANNERS!!! so old liao.. still no manners..only how to create trouble..I miss my fireworks show also.. make my day more worst.. the screen were actually blocking my view..sian...

last sat.. went out at 10am.. ended up i reached hm ard 12 midnight.. wah piang.. my leg so painful.. it had been such a long time that i ever went out for so long.. maybe tat can test my patience for tomorrow forum.. hai~~ i went to meet my poly in the afternoon.. we had lunch and shopping for a while.. then went to swensen for desert.. after tat.. i went to suntec to meet my cousin to catch Charlie and the Chocolate Factory.. hehe..:P i like it so much...

When i am young, i been thru stuffs that i thinks really very tough in life. I had never handle well with anything ended with a "ship" before.

In primary school, we had a bunch of friends who are quite close. Furthermore, i got a friend who falls on the same birthday as me. We tends to celebrate birthday together and sabotage each others. Those moments were really very sweet. But definitly we did quarrel before and do a lot of childish stuffs. Slowly we get apart, all of us are no longer tat close anymore. Sometimes just met up for a drink or pool sessions.

While as for secondary school, i tends to got often into friendship problem. Can you believe that? To me, i really stunned. I never tot of that will happen in my life. Sometimes have some family matters but definitely not friendship. As time passes, friendship's problem tends to get into a worst situation where else 3 of us all got hurt. The worst thing was we dragged down another girl who is innocent. It might be a very small matter but seriously i dunno when it bcome so serious. Both of them are very good friends.. we seems like snatching for bf like tat, pushing each other here and there. complicated story where the ending is we are still apart now.

In poly life, things get really smooth. Nothing much happened, just that things around me seems to be worst. Tends to lose a lot in life. Perharps maybe he was walking with me thru my poly days. That's why i feel so happy ba. This coming saturday will be my cousin 1 year anniversary. He passed away at 8.45pm at nite where all of us were nt around. That one month to me was like chao. As normal, i still went to starbucks to revise for my exams. Secretly i went to Changi Airport. I departed there to went over to Aus to find auntie while after a year he left us. Ever since he left sg, he had never ever step into his hometown. At Changi Airport i sort out my thinkings. At tat moments, i wanted to give up everything around me and just concentrate on my studies. I told myself i won't look back with the decision i made or turn back the path. I am wrong, i turn back the path and look for him again. I had never knew he had bcome a habit of mine or something which i couldn't afford to lose. During my examinations period, got a friend motivate me to study. Tat's was tian tian. I knew him thru a chat on my birthday. Maybe his is my guardian angel for tat period of time. He very poor thing, i always bully him and he always hear me cried. I cried too much behind of him but he will never knew the truth. When he was aboard for more than one month. I was like counting down the days n i never knew tat i had actually mess up my life during that period of time. I got tian tian into trouble. I feel really regret, he just a very good friend cos he always lend me a lending ear when tears following down. I tends to act strong in front of others but once i am alone it might turn out another way. During my examination period, there were times i wanted to give up but due to the support given by tian. I manage to got my best results in my entire poly life. He was like threatening me, he kept remind me have u forgetten wat u promised your cousin? Yes, i do remember wat i promise him. Really thanks for tat period u motivate me study when he was away.Maybe i always unlucky, nt long after my birthday kor admitted hospital due to accident. Hai~ i went to visit him but once i heard he going for operation, i left the place. He actually expects me to stay there and accompany him. Sorry, i just dun have the courage to stay there. When Siok admitted hospital, i guess i scared my friend. It was on a friday nite, after standing outside waiting to visit my grandma who just came out from the operation theatre. Ard 8, i had to rushed all the way to tan tock seng to visit siok. She was lying helpless there, seriously my heart feel damn painful. Someone who is the same age as me and same birthday as me, lying there. Nt more than 5 mins in the ward, i rushed down. I found an excuse to go down. MY tears was rolling when i was walking out of the ward. Imagine how helpless i am, i called my kor, him, jiefu and someone else(A).. only A picked up the call.. him and jiefu was in army... while kor was having karate.. so poor thing, i dun have a girl friend to call. The next day, xiao and i went over to accompany her for the whole day. There were tons of words that we wanted to express out just tat we all keep it. and never want to reveal it out.

My working life... my colleagues are very nice, they treats me as a small kid. They willing to teach me and explain to me. Before my working life starts, i lose so much things that i dunno how to stand again. There might have loses or gain in life. This time round i am a bore loser. My guy good friend or my dear sister (Mr Gary)... i know i always get into trouble.. u been asking me to forget him cos he hurts me too deep le... thanks for your concern for these months.. i really very lost cos i haven find the right way to carry on to walk my path...

Conclusion:
Never knew tat it will be so painful when he was without with me. Maybe is just like when u got on smoking and now u need to quit smoking. The kind of feeling is really unbearable.

Never knew that losing a kin was tat painful. And it makes me more to cherish kins around me.

Thanks to my parents and relatives for showering me with care and concern in my life

Never felt tat lost before, guess next time round when i do things. I MUST use head to think and avoid unnecesary misunderstandings.

Thanks to all my friend who been thru with me till now.

sian.. yesterday went back hm.. got another kor msg... alamak... ANOTHER break up for this week!!!! hai~~~ called him and chit chat... erm.... he got my ex bf number.. wow.. power..... erm......... he asked me wants or not... i stunned... if we never break up.. i will never know him.. i duno whether i should thanks him or not.. haha..... no matter wat happened, life still have to goes on.. maybe we still can be friends... next time we can meet up to go for a drink.. but OF COS is HE treat.. wahaha.. one thing for sure.. he very gentleman.. and nice guy... he treats his gf very good wor... still remember last time.. i went chalet with xinzhi, weeling and peggy on the first day.. can u imagine we bought how many bottles of vodka, hooch n others??? WE BOUGHT A TOTAL OF 21 BOTTLES!! wahahah.. :P i drank abt 11 bottles.. alamak.. tat day a bit drunk... haha.. hurt my head... then.. he knew abt it.. cos i told kor.. then... NAG N NAG N NAG... he even want to come down and bring me hm.. cos i promised him i won't drink... lolo.. :P ended up he msg my friend.. cos tat time M1 still dun have free incoming calls mah... of cos my good buddies help me lied lor.. bleh... :P considered as sweet memories ba.. watever i wants.. he will get for me.. TAT's WAS IN THE PAST!!! kor been asking me.. why last time u want to break up with him?? Reason?? I DUNNO...

today damn sleepy.... had bad day after work.. hai~~ ard 7 plus.. went back office to get my key.. and took 36 back hm... BUT DAMN... the bus was already damn pack.. the bus driver still asked us to squeeze.. i was like a victim sia.. at amber garden there.. there were pple alighting.. and pple coming up.. tat auntie.. dun want to move away.. then no choose... i had to move backwards to let them go down.. irritating sia.. wah piang.. got one guy step on my toes sia... after wearing high heels for one day ... leg damn painful liao..still step on me.. eat SHIT!!! at parkway more worst.. pple was like scare to miss the bus-stop.. pushing here and there.. the auntie again.. stand there like a stature...sian.. again me be the victim... after tat......... i should be alighting at the next bus stop.. but... the bell spoilt.. miss my bus-stop.. wah biang.. i tot i already avoid taking 36 at peak hours.. how come still so packed?? i suggest tat hor... should have double-decked 36 mah.. during peak hours.. arbo... everyday very jialat.. got to squeeze until siao.. or some short services lah.. u know wat i saw just now.. I SAW AN OLD MAN.. WAS STANDING WHEN THE BUS WAS PACKED.. HE WAS CARRYING AN UMBERALLA WITH HIM... ERM.. IF THE BUS DRIVER SUDDENLY BRAKE.. I GUESS HE WILL FALL DOWN.. BUT NOBODY OFFERING TO HIM SEAT!!!! WAH PIANG.. HEARTLESS CREATURE SIA!!! EVEN THOSE PPLE SITTING AT THE GREEN SEATS.. STILL YA YA PAPAYA.. SLEEPING OR LOOKING ELSEWHERE!!! HAI~~~ sad sia..

yohoo!!! finally my graduation day le... i got my diploma le... YESH!!! i did it liao!! finally completed another phase of my life... now got to proceed on to next step le.. wat should i do nexT?? work for the rest of my life?? or contiune my studies... erm.. seriously.. i hope one day i will throw my hat high and celebrate i got my degree le.. should i take it?? Give me one year to think carefully ba.. seriously... i dunno wat should i do next time.. i am like aimless.. just want to make a living now.. nothing much..

today went back school... erm.. so long never go back le.. hehe.. have the craving to eat ban mian.. but miss it... too busy today.. got my cert liao.. follow by went to collect a USB hub from my mentor who is my fav lecturer.. thanks him for the 3 years.. he helped me a lot.. he is very kind wor.. just like MR ONG.. can u still remember who is MR ONG??? We went for the buffet.. but the food was only so-so.. wow.. today didn't take much photos in school... miss a chance to take with Carina and Xinzhi... but took some secret pics wor.. sh... secret.. it will not be display out.. haha... guess who??? bleh.. nt saying out.. BUT I TOOK PIC WITH MY SHIFU.. hehe... BOTAK KING!!! bleah... :P

After tat we went to suntec.. and have NYDC.. actually didn't want to join in.. ah-fen pursue us to go.. hehe.. cos after tat meeting kor mah.. so.. tot of going back home and changed first but.. ended never go hm... met my colleague at city link.. hehe.. she congras me.. lalala.. saw my yandao colleague at suntec too wor.. really surprise.. guess i got a crush on him.. but i duno which country he come from.. lalalaa.... i order iced irsh cream..... erm.. very BIG cup.. stunned... erm..at first taste nt sweet at all.. but dunno hw come after coming back from the ladies.. it taste so SWEET!! guess maybe shufen or shifu or duno who else added sugar in.. hehe.. :P we ordered two pizzas... wow... taste delicious.. so CHEESY... SHIOK ARH... but POOR SHIFU.. going to die of COUGH SOON.. HAHA.. guess he going to have a SICK BIRTHDAY!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY WOR!!! bleah :P Ard 6 plus i went off with them.. hehe.. never join ester, jol and others to take pic and shop shop around..

Ard my workplace.. kor called me.. so went to tower records to find him.. walked straight to carrefour.. haha.. wanted to get sushi but ended up we had polar.. GUESS where we go???? We went KBOX.. haha.. i am a lousy singer.. hehe. .just go there for fun.. took some pics over there too.. even record how kor sing.. wahaha.. keke... :P erm.. at first ok lah.. but slowly... something happened.. i guess he sense tat.. trying his best to make me smile.. try to act strong in front him.. and swallow away all my tears.. haha.. can u sense it?? i dunno leh.. but i can tell you something KOR IS A GOOD SINGER!!!

after hearing tat story of my friend... hai~~~ landed me with sleepless nite everyday... finally.. yesterday got to sleep......

Today is my graduation day wor.. hehe.. my BIG day... but... sian.. dunno why cannot feel tat happiness... dunno wat to write also.. hai~~~

today i went to tat zpop concert.. hehe.. not bad.. quite enjoyed myself.. ard 12... i met km... hehe.. went for a walk at east coast.. cos i was finding place to drink.. after tat call k.. but he was outside with his friends.. .then asked leo too.. hehe.. then... leo said he tired.. lazy to come out.. then ended up i went to 7-11 to buy.. after drinking for 2 cans.. l called km again.. asked where are we know.. in the end.. we went out together and drink.. haha.. met h too (l's friend)... we went to interworld which is near everyone's house.. dun need to drive.. tat's good.. they ordered SKYJUICE for me... wat!!! no choice.. stick with my skyjuice lor.. they went to play pool.. then i sit there alone.. sad sia.. but... later they ordered ANOTHER jug... hehe.. a bit tempting... i drank too... bleah... :P btw..when we sat there not long after tat.. there are girls sitting beside the guys wor... .hahha.. .:P but.... they asked them to go away... are they consider nice guys? tat is for u to find out.. bleah.........know a girl called ann... she tot tat KM was my bf or someone going after me... haha... is tat the truth.. i duno leh.. i know we are friends only.. hehe..

why i choose to post a message again?? today i received a call...... erm.... duno why pple ard me all f33ling sad and down... after hearing wat he said.. i drop my tears too......although the person who get hurt is not me.. maybe i use my feelings to do things instead of my "pig" brain.. i never had w|sh the ending had come..

the four of us know each of us... at the same time.. we played mahjong together.. played da dee together.. seriously.. i really do miss that period of time.. maybe as times passes.. we started to change and react differently.. are we still friends?? All of u are like my da jiejie and da korkor.. of cos i treated all of u as gd friends... i asked for my 21th birthday present.. i got it.. but.... dun really want to take it.. i dun want a broken glasses....... maybe not everyone of us.. but most of us got our heart broken broken into pieces just like the glasses shattered on the floor.... i miss wat we have done in the past.. and not now.. maybe we did not cherish the pple tat ard us.. tat leads to everyone is being sad for this moment..

maybe this might a start for us.. a start for everyone to find someone better.... and recovered from the pain that we had it...

i really miss the period tat we are together... all of u just act like da jie jie and da korkor looking after me this xiao mei mei.. but it will no longer be as in the past le........ i miss u all.........

time passes so fast.. 3 mths of recovering... everyone ard me thinks i am getting better.. hehe.. kana alvin kor suan.. haha... i might have a chance to met him at padang.. we shall see.. maybe we will take some pics.. but of cos using my camera lah..

monday went to catch free movies.. wahaha.. dun need to pay money.. so shiok.. bought a pair of heels of my graduation day... somemore i only pay $5... pple paid for me.. so sweet sia... :P

tuesday... forgot wat i had done sia.. erm...............

wednesday... helped my parents till 1 plus... after tat.. keep telling myself nt to come online.. ended up.. i fall asleep...

thursday.. i pang sai ester n niao ying.. i went hm and sleep.. but i promised ester.. next thursday i will go..

today my cousin pang sai me.. hai~~~ but nvm.. she got me free tickets to watch Zpop concert.. wahaha.. :P

my life without you seems much more simple...next thursday i will be going back to school to take my cert.. tat willl be closing chapter for my poly life.. remember last time i compete with u.. ..........................(sh.. a secret between me and u) maybe if i never stepped into your life... things will be better for you.. seriously.. i did feel guilt and gratitude towards you.... tuesday i hurt my leg.. tat was the first time i never share anyone.. tat pain was so hurting.. in the past.. i will msg u or call u to tell u.. but.... i changed my mind.. last year.. i had a terrible stomache.. u are the one who been accompany me..... i dunno... just now i read my friend's blog.. he post out a message to declare his love towards the girl... the girl needs time to think about it.. wat abt my love life now.........

the answer will be.... i will let nature take its course... after so many years of nt cherishing u....... i lose already.. is my punishment for nt cherishing u when u are at my side........

Thursday... nthing much happened also.. actually ester asked me to meet them to go for a talk at tanjong pagar.. but due to i got to work OT.. therefore i didn't go.. sian.. nowadays.. need to work OT often due to a lot of changes to be done.. no choice.. everything is still not finialise.. i hate testing sia.. is so boring... on my way back to take 36.. i met an auntie.. she asked me "Xiao jie, where is Concrad hotel"? i was stunned for a while.. and started to look ard.. i realised something i lose touch liao.. no longer a street directory liao.. sad sia.. In the end, i still managed to brought her there.. but i missed 4 36s... alamak.. two 36s come at the same time for twice.. sian.. ard 10.. i went to meet my friend.. to pass him the cds.. dunno where to go... or wat to do.. we called out another two friends out.. he went back hm to take keys.. while another one taking a bath.. i also went hm to take bath.. haha..he had to travel tro and fro to pick us up.. lolo.. :P at first we went to hongkong cafe at katong there while waiting for another friend ... erm. .maybe it was unbelievable.. i actually had a dreamt abt it... but it really bcome a reality.. erm.. !!!! ard 12.. went to pick up lao ah-pek.. hehe.. :P he bcame a teacher le.. wahaha..i guess the students are suffereing.. bleah...

friday.. really cannot concentrate on work. .due to slept too late for the past two days.. sian.. after worked when to meet Carina, Kim and their friends.. sort of i am the only extra one there.. but tried to make myself comfortable ba.. diao.. Carina keep suaning me.. hai`~~ she a bit very permissitive... about her FYP.. i ..... maybe provoke her ba.. i only said tat report nt very thick.. she........... i really duno.. she keep saying i got a very good life.. erm.... i dun dare to denied abt it.. when i am down... my friends all very on.. ask them out.. all will be out.. hehe.. thanks pals.. hehe.. tat 3 might be an idiot.. but they always accompany me thru late nite.. got jiefu always hear my sorrows.. got korkor accompany me thru my darkest period.. so.. ok lah.. we went to pastamania for dinner.. she wanted to treat us.. but we put money inside her bag.. then i realise something. she always treat pple eat.. she reminds me of xinzhi.. last time we go eat .. xinzhi always said dun need..she treated us very good.. but very ke xi.. she no longer tat close with me.. she was a very nice friend... but in secondary times.. there were lots of things happening tat were being disclose.. only 3 of us knows abt it.. hai~~

sat.. went out with banana they all.. alamak.. i was LATE for an HOUR.. due to massive traffic jam plus i met an accident.. luckily.. i am ok.. otherwise.. i met be in the hospital now..we went to bugis and walked to doby ghaut.. seriously i dun remember tat i got tell winston tat i dun want to go orchard... hai~~ maybe i too forgetful.. he inisited i said abt tat.. i LL lor...

sun... spent a day with my parents.. hehe.. :P anyway.. now i am broke...

sat went to carina's chalet.. wow.. so crowded.. i wondering if next time i really got open a chalet for my birthday.. will it be so crowded also?? i am always friendless.. will pple come my chalet?? hai~~ sad sia... not bad.. quite fun.. sit there talked with peggy n her bf... plus yy... yy came late.. hehe.. :P

sun.... went out with a bunch of botaks.. of cos plus my good friends... lolo... suppose to meet at 12 but.. i was late.. cos i wake up late.. wahaha.. too early lah.. next time must set later timing mah.. lolo.. :P met yy on bus 72... hehe.. so join her... when i reached there.. we will like the last two to reach there... when we started to shift in for seats.. i told them "someone else is coming also"... they will like stunned.. who? who?? Impossible is gary mah.. he told me he is not coming.. haha.. but in actual fact he will be joining us.. alamak.. he never tell them.. we had a gathering at HAN's... we girls might be going there POP wor.. hehe.. we shall see how.. since.. 3 of them passing out at the same time... after tat went to tampines to collet banana's phone.. erm.. something eeks happened.. a baby vomit milk at yy.. ended yy... got get a new pair of pants... after tat we got no place to go.. ended up heading home.. actually wanted to meet my friend.. but too tired le.. cancel it..

monday... work OT until 7 plus.. sad sia.. last minute changes.. no choice...

Tuesday work OT again.. but today different.. work until 8.30... wtf sia... AGAIN last min changes..sad leh.. now doing testing.. a lot of things to change.. sian.. ended accompany my friend work until 8.30.. today was her last day too.. but i promise her tat on the 27 of july,i will go back school to find her.. paiseh sia.. today hp flat.. got to borrow phone from her to make phone call back.. in case daddy cannot contact me... after tat ard 9... meet my parents to go chinatown.. to get some stuffs.. when i reached home ard 10 plus.. then i finally got my dinner... sian.. now should be going to sleep soon... -_-


today kana heartache sia.. hai~~~ tot tat helping pple might be doing myself a good deed... but.. hai~~ i know the feeling of losing someone close to you.. the determination and courage to fight with illness... tot tat maybe donate some money might can help them a bit ba... they might need financial helps.. when you decided to fight with cancer.. Fighting with cancer.. u need care.. determination.. courage and lots of money... is not cheap to get cure...

around me.. i have 4 relatives tat contracted it.. one out of four survived.. the rest all away le.. i still remember last time... it was a painful way for everyone to walk thru it.. when my uncle got it.. we got shocked by the news.. after operation, he slowly on the process of recovering.. while my cousin a bit unlucky.. he went for operation.. but after one year... it spread already.. too late le.. no cure le.. when my aunt got the report.. the whole family hugged together and cried.. seriously toward my aunt.. it struck her badly.. she called my mum and inform her.. tat time i was at starbucks studying for my coming exams.. seriously.. how i survive thru my third year was... "he was so strong and determination.. you shouldn't had let him down"... when i received the call from my mum.. my heart breaks into pieces.. hardly can believe tat.. how can such thing happened to such a young guy.. maybe it is fated ba.. tat period isn't tat easy to walk thru.. luckily.. i got friends who understand how i feel.. maybe to them i am a crybaby ba.. but couldn't believe i dropped my tears at ochard mrt station.. so many pple there also.. just couldn't control it.. at hm cannot cried.. due to grandma's presence.. we dare not let her know abt it... but as time passes by.. i guess all of us slowly getting use of it.. but the pain that we felt inside our heart is unforgettable.. the most importantly, he will place somewhere in everyone's heart.

erm.. wednesday.. i went out to meet up with yy.. kevin n edmund.. hehe.. this is the first time. .four of us go out together wor.. we went to watch war of the world.. erm.. in middle quite exciting.. but for the front part and end part a bit sian.. hai~~ spoilt the movie.. btw.. we went over to lido to watch... erm.. actually tat day.. i very bad.. asked ed to buy nuggets.. and really buy... then yy said i very bad..:P

Thursday.. I FORGOT TO BRING MY HP.. alamak.. sad sia.. first time without hp.. so torturing.. hai~~ hp bcome a needs and no longer a want for me.. jialat..daddy actually wanted to give me his hp.. but forget it.. ester wanted me to go to an seminar with her.. but... she got no way to contact me.. tot tat i cheat her.. cos the day before.. mao mao went to agency.. and got tat job, usher, at suntec... she tot i am avoiding tat conincidence.. but in actual fact.. i really didn't bring my hp..

Friday.. went to thai express for lunch.. cos tat was my collegue last day.. hai~~ sian.. next time i will be alone at tat place.. hai~~ all treated me like xiao mei mei.. jia lat.... next time if i didn't manage to open the door on time.. guess i will be stuck outside... sad.. she wanted to treat me.. but i said no lah.. she doing her attachment.. $400 per month.. very jialat.. me dun want to be so bad... then.. at nite.. met up with ester for dinner.. lolo.. went to bugis.. again i am LATE!! jialat.. had curry chicken and swensen as dessert.. wahaha.. broke sia..

FINALLY.. went to watch inital D.. hehe.. i like it quite a lot.. oh ya.. yesterday went out with bulldog and edmund to have dinner.. erm.. .ok lah. .first time went out with both of them.. wahaha... AGAIN i am late... went to suki sushi to have dinner.. tat two guys are like siao.. take so many plates.. as if we are ordering buffet.. i ate sashimi le.. finally.. after craving for so long.. got somebody accompany me to eat jap food le.. i duno whether is the manager gave the wrong chance to me or we gave him extra money.. Each of us suppose to pay $25.. ended up he return me $15... We gained extra $15.. wahha after tat.. we went to pacific coffee.... erm.. bulldog order a cake.. sort a dessert for him ba.. but ended ........ hahaha :P i finally try to play 8 balls..wahaha.. i lose sia.. hai~~ sad sad.. erm.. went to classics pool.. erm.. still prefer my MEGA POOL...

wohoo.. .today another girl's outing.. but AGAIN i am late due to traffic jam.. hai~~ but i enjoyed the movie alot.

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saw this quiz at yy's blog..so kpo.. .go try it out.. couldn't believe i will get this... haha... i am always.. evil.. i am evl mn...

u(....) idiot lah.. give me this nickname called evl mn.. but.. haha.. when i need help.. u will be there to help me can liao.. dun dare to ask for too much.. i guess i will meet someone better in life... slowly getting use of walking alone in the path of my life.. hehe.. slowly forgetting who u are... slowly getting my way thru the door to proceed to another level... maybe tat's show tat i have GROWN up.. wahaha...

jiefu.. thanks hor.. i understand le.. the meaning le.. .wahaha... maybe he doesn't belong to mine.. i wish him all the best.... with his gf... :P ... .

hehe.... yesterday.. miss the gathering.. feel unwell after i stepped of the house.. so decided not to go.. hai~~ -_- maybe after of two days of non-stop outing... there goes my health.. hai~~ too weak.. or maybe friday nite.. i ate durians again.. hehe.. nvm.. i shall join them next time.. lolo....

later going out with banana n her friends ba.. to play pool.. at nite, might be meeting edmund they all to play pool again.. so.. i guess today.. i will have a pool day...hai~~ sian..lolo..:P

tomorrow going to catch inital D leh... finally.. hopefully i can get tickets.. otherwise... hai~~ hehe...

hai~~~ yesterday went out with banana n yy... hehe... three girls outing again... lolo.. :P the guys are out.. lalala.. since they are still in the army... actually we wanted to catch intial D but... we missed it.. due to... TOO POPULAR... when i reached there... the tickets was like all sold out.. hai~~~ sad sia... too bad... AGAIN i went back to cartel have my lunch n AGAIN i had my grilled chicken.. but this time round i ordered a set.. had our girls chat... hehe.. yesterday me and joanna was talking abt "who will be our Mr. right guy", lights off again.. hai~~ power failure.. but it did not affects us at all.. lolo.. :P we even went for neoprints... haha.... maybe should post it out hor.. i got yy's multiple take first.. then.. .post it ba..

just now when i was on my way back to office.. i met jasmine at citylink... erm.. pretty coincidence... last week i met lydia and wenjun.. and after tat i went to ps to meet ester plus jasmine.. erm.. this week i met jasmine... but tomorrow i going to meet my poly friends... hehe... :P seems quite long never meet them liao... haha... but later i going down bugis... ciao~~ everyone...

fall sick for the past few days.. sian... sore throat.. flu... fever.. cough... everything comes at once... terrible.... hai~~~ monday went back to office... wanted to finish out my stuffs.. bcos tat was the date due... erm.. still lack of a bit... tuesday wanted to get out of bed.. but felt so restless... my forehead was not hot at all.. but i use thermometer... omg.. is 39 degrees.... haha.. guess something wrong with it.. but once daddy heard abt it... nag nag n nag ... in the end he brought me to clinic... the doctor said i got fever.. throat inflammation.. tat leads to my flu and cough...he remind me to avoid all fried food.. especially DURIANS.. guess i have been eating too much of durians.. tat leads to this illness... gone case liao.. nowadays no appetitie too.. hai~~

he been too kind for me le... whenever i asked help from him.. he will never reject me... hai~~ and never ask me.. it seems like he is always there for me.. dun make me sad leh.. i know u are a very kind soul.. but just dun suit me right.. thanks pal.. i will miss u often.. hehe.. :P

this was the second time i received this song... called si xing bu gai.. haha.. eveytime i hear this song.. my tears will just fall... couldn't believe tat.. kor send me this song.. miss kor so much.. remember in the past when i am sad he will just give me encouragement.. these past years he is always there for me.. but i dare not tell him wat had happened this time.. remember in the past we can eat ice-cream downstair together... celebrate my 18th birthday togethere... popping by and give me a surprise..

seriously.. in my life.. i met a lot of kind souls ard me.. i did not regret to have them as friends... including him.. he really helped me thru a lot.. he is just like my benafactor..

as for jiefu.. so poor thing.. always had to hear me cried... we know each other for three years le ba... but most of time he will hear me cry... when i tot i had bcome stronger.. he hear me cried again.. asked for a vodka as a 21 birthday.. he said ok too.. but i guess in the end.. i will not take it... just like last year.. one of my friend said hp... while he said mp3 player.. haha.. no thanks.. i just want to know u all care for me can le... maybe i am too pamper... i need care and dote too.. hope i am not too greedy ba.. seriously i know u all cannot give me too much too... bcos u all will have gfs or currently had gfs already.. but.. sometimes just give me some care when i need.. i really very satisfy le...

sorry.. if i have scare u all... justin korkor.. thanks... even i didn't spell out tat i am sad... u sense tat.. haha.. so sensitive... jiefu.. sorry.. i scare u with my sms.. maybe i thinks tat jiefu.. dun care for me le.. hehe. alvin kor... haha.. best sia.. always sms me.. and ask me tc.. and very bad always ask me go drink with u and ah beng or play pool.. but i rejected.. lolo..

erm... came across this blogskin when i am surfing net.. found tat it describe how i feel now... tat's why i change to this skin again... got a few feedback... glad tat most pple like it...

yesterday went to bugis with ester... erm... got broke after tat... sign up for ....... (keep it as a secret first) u might find some changes in me after a few months or u might not find anything different in me... BUT now i totally BROKE... haha... Since two months ago.. i am not taking any pocket money.. had been surviving thru my savings... but bills n shopping n too luxurious life leading to i am broke now... BUT something special happened.. after yesterday... i FALL SICK AGAIN... today morning my throat felt damn painful.... slowly bcome flu... slight fever plus cough... hai~~~~~ just now mummy give me medicine.. but i throw it away...

friday went to watch live band at PS... erm.. actually it was my poly friend performce.. so pop by.. not bad lah.. met jasmine... and had dinner with her n ester... wanted to jio them to drink.. but ended up kana rejected again.. hai~~~ so sad.. nobody wanted to drink with me...

is they forbbiden me to drink?? or all bcome guai guai or dun want me to use drinking as to numb away my f33lings... haha.. taking things dann slowly... but avoid to went out with kor... he called me quite a few times but we just couldn't met up.. due to his work and my work.. plus today i fall sick.. maybe tat's good also.. let me recover from that bad hit... then face him ba... arbo.. things gotten turn worst again...

went to collect NDP tickets today... got the actual day ticket.. haha.. :P tat guy was like asking me do i know wat tickets i am taking ... i was like stunned and shake my head.. maybe due to not feeling well...getting more and more blur...

things getting more and more jialat for me.. hai~~~but i guess i am hiding inside something which is call friends... to make me slowly standing up... and face the truth...

erm.. surprising thing was like... friendship between me and my friends get stronger.. till now i still couldn't forget wat my friend sms me... FORGET HIM..he is jsut hurting u badly and this is an order from me.. haha.. really stunned... seriously.. tat time at chalet.. really dann sad... but just trying to act tat i am fine n ok.. but jus kana provoked.. went up to the room.. n get some drinks from cheers... i guessed tat was the first them some of them seeing me flare up.. haha..

erm.... wow... just nice.. today was the 2nd month we seperated... last weekend was like family week.... cos... i had been spending tat weekend with my family... sat... my cousins came over to my house... promise to give them a treat when i got my first month pay.... hehe... :P actually i am not the youngest among all... but... was the most spoilt "kid".....

sun..went out with my paternal side for father's day celebration... erm... for tat nite.. it was a bit different... cos my uncle brought his .......... down for dinner... after several years... he finally brought her to get along with the family... but tat was ex... cos she paid for the meals... first time meet-the-parent session... cost her a bomb.... i did not said much... just have my dinner... tat day seems so moody....... after dinner.. went out with km n cow... haha... :P wasn't tat bad too.. got a gift from km... a "PIG"... -_- went to sampang bedok to have coffee.. seriously.... i dunno tat was where the place i had dinner.. otherwise i will not choose there... the 1 hour over there... they were like talking abt racing cars... n etc.... things tat i dun even heard of or i know... hai~~ guess need to increase my knowledge... i kana suan.. cos i kept using phone... erm.. kor sms me... no choice.. got to reply... when we are on the way back... it was raining heavily... erm.. got a bit wet... but was still ok...thanks sia....

mon.... kana work OT... due to been slacking in office.. till ard 5 plus... erm.. been to a building in the afternoon...new experience.. but.. i dun like it at all... the environment... like dead city... hai~~~

tue... went with a talk with my boss n colleague... seriously... there were times that my tears was rolling down the stream.... but i just trying to control it... it was so touching... tat.... i went to sign up for it... but my boss paid for it... hope after tat course... i will change... the pple over there were friendly... feel so warmly over there.... the talk ended ard 11... luckily... there was guy going to send my colleague n his brother home... actually boss wanted to share cab with me... but since got free ride.. therefore i went for free ride.. pai seh...

wed... so bored.... actually wanted to watch movie... but ended up cancel.. seems like everything cropped up..no choice.. hai~~~

woah.. yesterday was my first day of work.. erm.. never imagine that i worked in this field... software engineer... haha.. i guess nobody believe tat i will start into IT field.. neither do i think of it before... erm.. life been going downstream for me... but due to surprise.. i got my NDP ticket by balloting it online.. erm.. out of thousands of pple.. i manage to get it... erm.. consider lucky??? or changing of luck.. actually they should give me four instead of two... wat abt my dad?? hai~~~

after the chalet... my problem seem to get bigger.... seems like more and more pple knowing abt it... i... regret it... but i know from the day i left school till now.. i been hiding among friends and cousins.... so tat at least i won't feel lonely or i am not alone.. i still got friends around me.... i met up with siok they all... erm.. went to play pool and had fish n co...

seriously never know tat my responsible is tat heavy... erm... imagine.. everyday morning... one pple follow by one pple to wake me up.. ask me to eat breakfast... then at nite... again.. keep repeating the same stuffs... faster switch off your pc.. and sleep... tomorrow u still need to work.... erm.... headache... furthermore.... got to lie to them telling he is in oversea now... but in the actual fact.. just tat we are no longer tat close anymore.. we just contact thru msn..but we seldom chat.. sometimes do miss the period where he is there for me...

last time when i start work alone at cafe cartel... he keep me thru the times... at night.. after work.. he will call me and chat... even i am in the transport... really very sweet.. but all the things change after my cousin pass away.. just like a song called... everybody's changing... now i got to take care of everyone ard me... cannot collaspe now.. granny blood pressure too high.. leg swollen ......... now all my strength are left for my family... n nobody else... too tiring le....

two weeks ago went to chalet with my secondary school friends... sort of like a celebration before the guys going in army... lolo... had been playing mahjong thru nite till kana complaint on friday nite.. while sat nite.. met ....................... erm... sort of mood not really tat good liao... still met tat irratating guy.. seems like going to provoke me... just walk out and went back to room... had a nite of drinking tat day... really drunk a lot... seriously.. just controlling my tears not to fall down... never believe tat i can make it... there gone my sat.... sun.. brought grandma went to see doctor... erm... he commented tat her pressure still too high...

monday to friday been working so hard until i am so shagged and tired... imagine.. sat i worked till 4pm... went out ard 6 plus to meet jiejie.. .she waited for me abt more than one hour.. till to i am too tired.. fall asleep on the sofa....... sunday... brought grandma to see doctor again... this time round.. the doctor is pleased with the outcome.... wahaha.. all of us also happy to heard that... i lose my cousin last year.. i dun wish history to repeat again.. this time round... i am alone... no longer someone will be there for me... btw.. went bowling and steamboat with them again... Wednesday went bowling just to help winston to celebrate his second last day... wahaha... friday met them for steamboat.. so touch.. that they left some prawns and food for me... hehe...

miss work for about two weeks.. i guess micky should be mad at me liao... i sms her yesterday tat i can only work for her on sunday.. she seems like pretty fine with it.. but i hope i will not knock off again.. this week back to work... today went for my basic theory... imagine tat i had failed... cannot believe it.. but seriously... everyday worked frm 9 to 8pm.. really very tiring... the only thing i reached home is to sleep... these two days without pc... seems like so long for me... pc spoilt.... and i really got no time to repair it.. maybe i had to wait till weekend... hai~~ so sad...


i received my graduation letter just now... three years gone le... pple ard me been asking me to forget him.. seriously.. he really helped me a lot in my life.. there is nothing can changed the fact.. told kor about tat... he kept remind me abt louis.. wahaha... seriously.. louis did treated me well too... he stepped into my life.. when louis stepped out.. now he stepped out.. i thinks is time for me to learn to be independent.. i really miss him a lot.. i couldn't stop my tears to flow out... especially during late nite.. seriously.. i really very tired.. had to look after everyone... i want to find someone to rely on can?? i am not tat strong... i am just hiding away my saddnest from everyone... never know tat growing up is so tiring and painful....

so fast another week past... haha... wat did i do for the past few days??? erm.. friday... i should be at home...but i met Carina n Kim at Parkway PArade!! (if i didn't remember wrongly.. )

As for Saturday, i went to work.. As usual, i am late... haha... after that went to meet my cousin for dinner.. AGAIN.. i am LATE... hai~~~ MUST CHANGE ARH!!! After tat.. went to meet joanna n her friends... and gary n his friends.. omg... so weird... erm... ended i reached home ard
12 plus.. Some one actually going to fetch me home.. but due to rain.. hai~~~

Sunday.. went down to orchard AGAIN... to accompany my cousin to buy MP3 PLAYER.. OMG.. after tat i went to jurong with her... spent the whole day to convert song from cd to mp3... hai~~ ended.. reached home ard 11plus.. but still not solve yet.. promise to help her out again...

Monday... wake up quite late.... went to the bank.. wtf.. someone cut my queue... shit... hai~~ waited for abt half an hour... hai~~~ later... take bus down to ORCHARD AGAIN!!! then to JURONG!!! Faster finish faster come back hm... hehehe.. daddy bought durains... lolo... ard 11 plus.. went to meet king kong.. haha.. wanted to take disc from him... after tat went for a spin.. and date leo ah-kor out... haha... when we were on the way.... surprise tat he told us someone else was going to join us... reached here ard 1plus... then picked leo.. after tat went to pick him up... erm.. something weird was... i saw a guy wearing in orange.. but both of them said NO... hai~~ waited for another da shao ye for ard 10 mins.. actually calling yun to join us.. but she cannot make it... hai~~~ again i kana suan... so sad.... sob sob... even talk on the phone also wrong... actually i wanted to drink... BUT none of them wants.. IDIOT!!!! sit there quietly and listened to them.. in the actual fact.. dun really understand wat they talking abt... HAHA!!! went back hm ard 2 plus.. my ah-kor send me up.. so gentleman sia.. hard to believe (hehe.. :P) not long after tat receive msg from my friend... He was stunned when i reply him.. "How come u haven sleep?" Did not tell him why... till the next day...

Tuesday.. went out with joanna, anton and his bunch of friends... haha.. like an international outing sia.. different countries.. went to watch "HOUSE OF WAX"... erm.. very grossy... took neoprint with jo... ended up i am in ORCHARD AGAIN... to play pool and watch movie.. seems like i everyday go orchard.. so sian...In the pool match... i lose... haha... dun want to listen to any advice.. too stubborn... lala...

Wednesday.. went to an interview at taka... in the afternoon went to another interview at enous... tot tat i will be at home cleaning up my room.. ended up... went out with rachel.. suppose to meet shing yee for dinner..but she cannot make it...we went to pacific coffee to chit chat till ard 6.. .after tat.. went to city hall to shop shop for a while.. and change destination down to ORCHARD... i am back to ORCHARD AGAIN!!!

**this whole week... i been to ORCHARD too many times.... NO MORE!!! Nothing to do!!! so SIAN!!!

monday went for an interview at danzas... hai~~ seems ok lah.. but duno why...hai~~~ after tat came back hm and changed... went back to school to hand in my report... hai~~ maybe very attitude.. but nth can changed for how i felt for the past few days... ignore any comments... went to orchard with ah-han.. after tat went back hm.... the guys called me up.. and asked me to join them for bbq... erm.. stunned... a surprising bbq plus last minute..... too bad.. went out to have dinner to celebrate dad's birthday and mother's day.. after tat.. went to east coast to meet up with them.. have a great fun... and had forget wat had happened...

tuesday went to meet up with them to watch kingdom of heaven... i am late due to attending a last minute interview at joo chiat rd... haha... mummy accompany me wen over there... mummy girl?? hehe.. duno leh.. when i reached there... was already ard 3.45pm.. lolo.. the movie started at 4.15... hehe.. we went to purchase 6.15pm show.. due to nobody wants to be seperate plus... was third row.......... hai~~ erm... i duno whether am i concentrating the show?? or thinking of something else... after tat we went to have our dinner at scotts.... we back to cineleisure for pool games.. after our dinner.. erm... they opened two tables... both were quite far apart...table one got joanna, anton, anton's friend and me.. table two got winston, soo yuan, kevin and lifan's gf... erm.. dun really know how to play.. hehe..anton's friend teaching joanna... me... erm.. walked here and walked there...but luckily never lose.. hehe... been laughing thru the pool session... am i using tat to cover tat i am shy or am i crazy or perharps it was so funny... seriously... over there.. been hearing mandarin sad songs... erm... did let me recalls the past i had.......

asking me whether am i happy now or not.. i really dunno how to answer u.. bcos.. things happened so fast tat i couldn't even catch up with the pace.. sometimes i wondering am i helping pple or just tat i am too busybody... he had left me one month le.. it seems like so long... but.. actually is not long at all... is he in singapore or in shanghai?? i duno.. maybe i also dun wish to know.... hoping to see tat starbucks's guy who will make me smile again ba... otherwise... i also duno wat is happy... happy maybe is to earn lots of money... haha... taking a break... hai~~ tomorrow will be my third interview over there again.. so sian..dun feel like going anymore... if not success.. i think i will give myself one month break.. work for micky first.. then slowly go find for perm jobs... life isn't tat easy as i think.... just like wat senior and jiefu told me... LIFE IS NEVER FAIR...

wow.. today very jialat.. walked whole day sia.. supposed to have an interview at IP at 10am.. ended up i am late.. hai~~ after tat went out with shing yee to shop... and accompany her to go sign her documents... after tat we went down to orchard... suppose to meet linda over there... but ended... she was too busy to help out for her sister to move house... shing yee and i went to for eyebrow trimming.. followed by accompany me to go find korkor at kallang mrt station..

as usual.. kor spot check my hp... hai~~ he saw the msg tat 'kk' msg me... wat to do.. everything burst out.. haha.. shing yee... gt to know i got 2 guys in my life... but everything is already OVER. he asked me to give me one more chance.. haha.. i guess no.. if he is more considered on tat day.. i will not dislike him so much.. maybe give each other some more time.. then we can be friends again ba... told kor abt wat had happened.. as usual.. kor always comfort me.. hehe.. went to kbox.. to sing thru all day.. i know he is trying to help me to vent my anger.. plus.. he knows tat i am sad... haha.... quite enjoyable.. plus he bake roti boy's gave me eat sia.. so sweet... lolo... :P sort of i am really happy tat he is still around... although he is not my brother... to me.. i had already regard him as my big brother.... after kbox, he went over to orchard to meet his friends.. while we walked to bugis to meet ester and ah-han...

we waited ard half an hour for ester n ah-han... lolo... shing yee bought a bag... then she went back home ard 7 plus... i carried on to shop with ester and ah-han.. we went to take neoprints.. hehe.. it seems like we had long time never come out together.. lalaa.. after tat went to brecko to talk crap... everyone been telling FORGET IT!!! maybe going to listen to them ba!!! just let go.. no point tat i carried on to pursue it... nothing going to change the fact..

haha.. nobody will believe tat i had contiune cried for the past two days... tears just roll whenever they like... but thanks.. yesterday got a few friends comfort me... light been helping me thru... today gary send me a gd nite msg... i reply him with a msg... haha.. he such a sweet guy... asking me wat happened?? hehe.. but when he found out wat happened.. then said i am silly.. why should i be sad for tat.. if kana reject by guy than u cried mah.. he arh.. i jio him out to drink... hehe.. so bad of me.. teach bad pple... but anyway just kidding.. i really to put aside everything.. there is nothing i can do now.... just flip thru my testimonial which i got from ANNIE WONG.. she wrote: "she is sweet-tempered, sociable and uncomplaining. she is also a mature and responsible person with an independent mind. Being courteous and sociable, she gets along well with her peers. she shows good team spirit and is willing to do more than others. " and etc...... maybe she was right ba.. thanks teacher... u really let me to step back abt wat i decide to do.. after read finish the testimonial.. i found out tat i never knew tat u understand me so well... Thanks to two Miss Wongs.. who had taught me through my secondary school.......


During this setback... i realise..i no longer close with jiefu.... and ......... Gary reminds me tat i still got a bunch of good friends.. hehe.. he is one of them... seriously.. a thanks to all of you...

Alvin korkor and your bunch of friends... hai~~ actually wat your friend said really make my heart melts sia... but i know he is kidding.. he just want to make me happy... i hope i will not cry anymore cos he dun allow me to drop anymore tears...

today went out with a bunch of friends... okie lah.. quite enjoy... went to catch the movie called "shikoku" such a boring show... after tat we went to marina square to have our dinner... follow with having dessert at bakerinn... and wait for my friend, bulldog, at merlion... we had a chat before we went back hm....... actually the whole bunch of us... not everyone can drink nor they liked to drink... only a few of us... hehee... there was one guy who encountered relationship problem... and needed our advice... i may tell him off and very striaghtforward.. i guess it hurt ba... but rather than he carry on to be "crazy" over her....


a few years ago... a gal might a guy on irc... didn't know tat this guy will be her so called "bf".... four of them were quite close at tat moment... two of them became couple.. while another two of them bcome very close friends.. the girl did had feelings toward tat guy... but she just dun dare to express herself.. is only another guy knew abt it... actually her parents did not object also... due to her mum saw this particular guy before.. this guy did a lot of stuffs tat make her heart melts... but i guess tat guy is kind in nature ba... he will did this to any other girls too.. they chat on phone every day and night... no matter where are they......the girl went for a short trip.. and she thought of him everyday when she was in aus.. is this called love?? when she started to work part-time alone... everytime after work.. he will be calling her.... it had been a habit to her.. she seems so attached to tat guy... but everything changes.... three years later.. they are no longer tat close... they had already seperated.... they had never start nor had an end before........ just tat a very silly gal is waiting for the whole situation to change... even though she started a new relationship.. she realised tat nobody can compare to this guy.. bcos he is so sweet towards her.. and couldn't forget him... she was just trying to work and numb away her feelings... she is still trying her very best to forget him... and get up again......

finally i had completed my 3 years of studies at NYP.. now i am on my own.. except waiting for my graduation ceremony...i learnt a lot during these 12 weeks.. read a testimonial given by my friend... i had complaint a lot abt my supervisor.. but in deed i can said he was a very good supervisor.. he let me understand more stuffs and gain knowledge no matter is towards personality nor studies... actually he let me off to send in my application form to SMU... but sorry sir.. i give up... dunno why.. i just choose to back off.. maybe bcos of the fees nor... i think i most likely won't be able to get in.. at the very last day of the school... went to take pics with a lot of friends... such a memorable 3rd year...

first year.. seldom mixed around... 2nd year... same again.. 3rd year.. .during my FYP and attachment let me knew more friends and get a bit closer.. hehe.. last thursday went out with shing yee to look for jobs.. ended kana scold by rachel and went shopping at bugis... lolo... :P someone helped me to sign my attendance throughout the day....

it is fruitful 3 year.........hope i can pass well for my project ba..........

went to work part-time.. and today tender resign to my manager.. he had accept it.. no choice.. let down my hr department.. hai~~~ but....................................

these few week been rushing for my final presentation... today is my final presentation.. i can says that things happened wasn't what i predicted.. i dun get much questions.. but the problem i encountered... was something which can be prevent.... what i can said was.. after tat presentation.. i feel so sad...... the problems was i spent nites doing on this program.. end up things went haywire... so... what can i says... sit there and laugh meh.. sian.... my dreams of going to uni should be gone.. in order to go in to uni, i need to archieve at least B for my FYP.. while today my 20% of the presentation seems like gone case.. hai~~~ i know someone was worst than me.. they couldn't even run their program... of cos they feel sad.. as compare to them i am considered myself lucky as i only encountered one mistake but that mistake is the biggest mistake which can be prevent.. so disappointed with myself.. why i let this happened...

after school... i went out with ester, tini, tini's sister aka jaya(i duno spell right or wrong), roy, daniel n alex to centrepoint pizza hut... we waited.. half an hour for the guys to reach there... hai~~ we were so hungry and tiring.... most of us skipped our meals for today presentation.. bcos we are trying our best to rush out everything.. and hoping that this presentation will turn out to be a successful presentation..since this will be our last presentation in school.. hai~~~ after tat meal, we walked to cineleisure... after tat we went seperate ways.. they went home... but while ester and me went to HMV.... hai~~ shop for a while and bought miss tan's present... while on the way of sending her to the bus-stop outside duty free shop... we passby lucky plaze and overheard the liveband performance... as to ease our stress for the past few days and the sad moments for today.. we crossed the road and went into indochine.. shiok.... ordered mango maginita... not bad... only 15... inclusive of service charge and tax.. .ye!!! at abt 11... we left and walked towards the bus-stop... alamak.. we walked in the Haagzen shop located at CK tang.. we were the last customer for the day.. hehe.. that bunch of waiters and waitress were so friendly... their service was damn good sia.. ate desirable... hehee.. shiok.. but headache got worst.. maybe of considering tomorrow nt going to school... tat guy very cute sia.. saw us taking pic... he offers to help us to take pic... so good sia... when we will at pizzahut.. we had to ask.. but at Haagen daz... they offered to help us... when i and ester planning to swop place.. tat guy tot we were leaving.. he said out.. thank you.. ended all of us laugh... luckily... this moment makes my day turn brighter a bit.. they are so cheerful and friendly... if i got a chance to make time turn back... i will hope to work with them... hehe...

so slack... this week dun need to work liao.. but promise boss to go back in may.. hai~~ still considering... she still haven give my pay... friday went out my cousin to eat jack's place.. anyway.. she pay for most of it.. bcos she just got her bonus again!!!! after tat went to the cafe at marks and spencer.. and i bought some clothes.. piang.... my heart breaks.. i spend 50 plus on tat.. conclusion for that day was.. i spend reaching $100.. alamak... next week.. better stay at home le...

sat went out with ester tat bunch of friends.. we went to hard rock cafe.. erm.. wat i found it out was... OCBC n UOB had 15% off.. wow.. and SAT is LADIES NITE AND FREE 2 dRINKS.. erm.. almost everyone thinking tat i am hangover.. wahahaa.. erm.. i also duno.. just feel tat today morning when i wake up.. my head is spinning and so painful... today received siao.. email... she said tat simon saw me with a guy... i am stunned when i saw tat email.. i dunno how should i reply her... maybe.. jiefu.. can teach me how to reply... till now maybe jiefu is the only one who knows how i feel now.. feel like a missing bird losing her way.. need someone to guide me how to walk out of the maze... anyway jiefu.. dun need to help me buy.. i got someone to help me buy it out.. cos my friend will be coming in end of may.. and got his permission to buy for me.. lolo.. :P

Well is that true?? erm.. i dunno.. u decide yourself...


SCORPIO WOMAN

> >A simple woman who always show what kind of a moods she is in. You can >tell>> >right way if she up set, or if she is flirting with you. She displays> >herself with her act much more than trying to say it for it's in her> >character.> >> >A Scorpio woman has her own mysterious personality. She is confident and> >deep down inside she is quite proud of herself. She hates to think she is> >borne a woman and so limiting her with a certain social acceptable rules.> >She is a real woman and despite her innocent and childish looks, she has >a> >spirit of free soul. Many men will make mistake if they think she is a >good>> >follower, they are wrong.> >> >She thinks being a plain simple housewife is boring. She likes to have>power> >and control over other people, but this will be only her secret, so you>will> >only see a cute woman. Every things she does will look good, and she has>all> >the woman's trick you can think of. She can manipulate men without they> >knowing it.> >> >If you think she going to do everything you say because she loves you, >then>> >you will be disappointed. She could be a little tomboyish and she can> >understand you by just looking in your eyes. You may say sweet words >which> >could sweep any woman, but not with the Scorpio woman. She will use her> >X-ray eyes reading your thought of what you just said or what you are >going>> >to say. She always smile and she can really hide her feeling.> >> >She will constantly show you that she loves freedom. If she has freedom,>she> >will not leave you, but will even love you more. If she wants something,>she> >will do everything to get it. She has her own sixth sense of people and >you>> >can feel that energy feed back when you around her. She likes a man who >can>> >earn her respect, and she will also respect and feel proud of that man. A> >man with power over her should not threat or challenge her confident. She> >likes to have a good looking , strong and healthy man especially if she> >start to compare with her friends' boyfriends. It is a plus if he hold a> >degree or a good career.> >> >She is a hot lady. She likes heavy music. She either loves or hates, >there> >are no "fond of", or "like" for her. Love has no "may be", or "perhaps". >If>> >she is real mad, she will trash and throw things. Her wind storm can >sweep> >all her dishes and you could get accidentally hit on your head for this> >matter. Be calm, it is just your grand mother favorite china for she has> >good quality as much as her bad tempered.> >> >Sometimes she shows her weakness, but it won't be long. She will put>herself> >together and back to be that hot chili again. If she loves you, it will >be> >no matter what other people may say. Her relationship will be more>important> >than what is right or wrong. Because of this reason, you may know some> >Scorpio woman become a second wife, a mistress.> >> >She is spoil, but she allows her love one to over power her. Dating this> >woman, you should not keep old love letters in your pocket or in your>house.> >It could be a love letter 2 years ago, but never mind she will argue >about> >this since this is a big deal for a suspicious woman. Remember she has a> >temper of the shrew.> >> >If you play a cold war with her, she will treat you likewise and double >it.>> >If you stood her up once, she will stood you up 2-3 times. She is quite>fair> >in justice, so she can accept your apologies as much as she can pretend >to> >accept things for now and wait for a pay back revenge in the future. If >you>> >are nice to hear, she will double that to you as well. A real fair woman.> >> >She likes to make and spent money. She likes to have fame and >reputations,> >and never let herself broke and have no name at the same time. She is too> >proud and will not accept status of being "Poor". She loves to have face,>so> >if you are a manager with small salary, she will be proud more than more> >money being a truck driver. She hates to think and she can not stand a> >feeling of being a "Nobody".> >> >If you like her, play a little hard to get. This will excite her a bit.>When> >you go out on a date, set your schedule, but do not let she knows that >you> >have planned this for weeks. Always go to pick her up on time or better >to> >go 5-10 minutes early.

hehee.. jus now when to ang mo kio with miss tan.. went to eat long john sliver.. erm.. very bad sia.. she always very guai... nowadays.. changed liao.. went out with me during school time.. and we getting more slack.. lolo... when to a comics shop at ang mo kio central there.. the DVD and VCD quite cheap.. saw sun yan zi mtv dvd disc at only 9.90..... bought a DIY pop up card.. since her birthday is coming soon.. maybe give her a surprise by getting her a present.. but first must ask whether shi fu want to share with me or not.. lolo.. :P

yesterday kana sabtoge by alvin korkor.. he eat shit arh.. give other pple by number.. let me blur blur.. got to entertain pple.. since he is my ah-kor's friend.. hai~~~ sian!!!! but these few days been talking to him.. also remind me abt tat time me and his friend.. lolo.. :P tat guy asked me a very silly question.. how u got to know alvin... haaha.. i avoided tat question.. lolo.. i know him thru my ex...a bit regret abt how we broke up... but it was too long ago.....

why guys are so petty.. erm... i really dunno.. was he unhappy with something or what.. just that he jus want to aviod me nowadays.. after sat tat incident..he no longer called me tat often anymore.. but.. is he says want to be friends.. ya.. we are still friends.. no matter wat had happened.. so i................ maybe i really dun understand wat i wants...

banana asking me to go for a trip.. thinking of how to cope out with a lie to go oversea with them.. haha.. haven my project... yet thinking of how to celebrate... dunno whether can ............... or not... touchwood.. hope everything will go smoothly.....

got to get BACK TO WORK!!!! :P

hehee.. jus now when to ang mo kio with miss tan.. went to eat long john sliver.. erm.. very bad sia.. she always very guai... nowadays.. changed liao.. went out with me during school time.. and we getting more slack.. lolo... when to a comics shop at ang mo kio central there.. the DVD and VCD quite cheap.. saw sun yan zi mtv dvd disc at only 9.90..... bought a DIY pop up card.. since her birthday is coming soon.. maybe give her a surprise by getting her a present.. but first must ask whether shi fu want to share with me or not.. lolo.. :P

yesterday kana sabtoge by alvin korkor.. he eat shit arh.. give other pple by number.. let me blur blur.. got to entertain pple.. since he is my ah-kor's friend.. hai~~~ sian!!!! but these few days been talking to him.. also remind me abt tat time me and his friend.. lolo.. :P tat guy asked me a very silly question.. how u got to know alvin... haaha.. i avoided tat question.. lolo.. i know him thru my ex...a bit regret abt how we broke up... but it was too long ago.....

why guys are so petty.. erm... i really dunno.. was he unhappy with something or what.. just that he jus want to aviod me nowadays.. after sat tat incident..he no longer called me tat often anymore.. but.. is he says want to be friends.. ya.. we are still friends.. no matter wat had happened.. so i................ maybe i really dun understand wat i wants...

banana asking me to go for a trip.. thinking of how to cope out with a lie to go oversea with them.. haha.. haven my project... yet thinking of how to celebrate... dunno whether can ............... or not... touchwood.. hope everything will go smoothly.....

want to add in something.. i asked tian tian to give me morning call today.. but i almost late again.. why???? he called me 5 times... i never pick up at all... in the end, he suan me.. sob sob.. u very mean leh... hehee.. :P
got to get BACK TO WORK!!!! :P

erm... yesterday nite... went to tat labordor park...the first impression i had was "What!!!" "So dark"... i also realize there was a resturant over there... w0nd3rng.. how dd t suff3r.. bc0s th3r3 wasn't a l0t of ppl3 ov3r th3r3.. mayb3 i w3nt th3r3 too lat3... so we ch00se an0th3r dr3ct0n.. head up to mt fab3r.. th3 scenery over there was very beautiful.. it will be much more better than the sky tower in sentosa... sp3nd $10 to go up there and come down within 5 mins.. i rather g0 up the way to mt faber... shiok arh.. not i driving also.. hahaa... jus has to enjoy my scenery... last nte was quite crowd3d... after that when to watch the eye 10... erm.. a bit scary.... not bad.. still consider ok... hehee... :P

furthermore want to add in something.. when i reached hm.. i called up jiefu... bcos feel very bad.. asking him to help me to check timing for shows again!!! erm.. he comments on my behaviour.. sob sob sia.... hai~~~ 他说我被惯坏了..... erm.. i also think so.. heheee... :P but thanks leh.. jiefu.. tat day for comforting me.. haha..telling me that at least there is someone who is always there for me.. hehee.... and the world will never die... even though i am unhappy... so i should lead a happier life.. why should i bother to give a damn to tat girl... hahaa..

Today damn piss off.. but no choice.. in school.. force myself to control myself.. no matter how unhappy or how pissed i am ... DUN THROW TEMPER... PLUS SMILE.. but smile seems like doesn't works on me sia.. hai~~~~ Senior told me drink more cold water and jia you.. haha.. never know that he is that good before.. lolo... :P furthermore he willing to help me to do my project... erm.. SUPRISE sia... Last sat went out with yiying they all... in the bus or during meals time.. we are still discussing who will get married first.. hahaa.. in the bus, i told bulldog that someone had already get married.. the first reaction he gave me was... "WHAT" "WHO IS HE/SHE?" hahaa... nobody believe that.. yy ask me to send her the wedding photos... erm.. so i have to search through my yahoo email to find that particular email.. hehe.. yesterday finally manage to find that "email"... Today read the email again.. erm.. maybe that will the only thing tat will make me smile ba.. she so far yet she is so cute.. haha.... so fast.. 3 years passed... and she got married.. now she is leading a happily life with her husband... let me copy and paste some tips here and share with u...

- 我结婚，因为爱到了，他爱我，我爱他．最佳的天时地利人和都齐了
- 我很幸福，婚后，我有更多的人疼爱．所以说，姐妹们，找老公是，记得要看他家的人疼不疼你呢．．．虽然结婚是两个人的事，可周遭的人也很重要．若他家人也很好的话，你会更幸福哦！！！兄弟们，了解了吗？！若她家的人也很喜欢你，你就成功了一半了．
- 我深信自己有着同样的优势直得他的爱．那可是他的福气呢．所以说，兄弟姐妹们，千万不要放弃自己哦！！！就算身边有了人，还是要保持美好的仪容和状态哦！！！若还没有危机感的你，要检讨啦！！！！

last friday nite went hard rock cafe with ester, ah-ying, daniel and roy.. haha.. surprising tat i will went out with them... when i reached home.. i already half dead.. and couldn't believe tat my parents allowed me to go out at ard 10plus.. plus.. dad sent me down to far east.. haha... i am back to my nature.. like to play around.. while we waiting for them.. ah ying and me went to the ladies, we passby a pub.. the bouncer told us $25.. we were like wow... so ex.. but too bad we cannot enter bcos we are underage... after tat we went to vintage... when we reached there.. wow again... ended we we went to hard rock cafe.. this is the first time i been to there.. erm.. nt bad.. quite like it.. furthermore there is live band over there.. shiok.. the live band ended ard 1 plus... therefore... we walked over to cineleisure to catch movie... we watched "Robots"... nt bad lah.. but i still prefer to watch my winnie the pooh.. who will be going to watch with me??? hehee.. when i reached home ard 4 plus.. slept ard 5... wake up ard 9... tat day i am like a panda sia... in the end... my cousin came over to my house... oh my god... my aunt and my mum went to east coast park to find them.. while me.. after work.. i knock off already... half dead sia.. no time for my cousin.. hehe.. but the next day i met her after work at suntec.. we went to IT fair.. it was so crowded.. actually wanted to buy digital camera but.. changed my mind.. maybe next time ba... we went to walked ard city link.. i bought my lip gloss at body shop.. tat was the day where my nightmare aka shopping spree starts....

Tuesday was my presentation.. i was so "gan chiong"... Tat morning.. i also realise that my accessor change... cheong poh yee and lee siew lee.. omg... got a tough presentation.. tat day i couldn't wake up on time.. but due to the sweetest friend i ever had.. tian tian.. gave me morning call.. when he was on his way to school.. so touch sia.. but that presentation was not tat well.. got shoot by a lot of questions.. When out with my pig friends.. bring me to makeup shop to purchase makeup and accessories.. omg.. spent quite a lot for this week.. i guess next week had to be at home... no more outing nor shopping spree for me..

Saturday went out with yy, soo yuan, joanna, gary, winston, anton, kevin.. erm.. was quite surprise to drag so many pple down.. actually tot of a gathering between a few of us.. erm.. in the end.. i bcome organiser.. hope tat day everyone enjoys ba.. but sorry... forget to call lifan and chong ping.. i did mention tat.. but nobody told me wat to do ... nor help me to inform them.. furthermore.. sat afternoon then i inform bulldog them.. i gt nth to do during worktime.. then suddenly remembered.. oh ya.. i forget to ask them... paiseh.. feel so sorry.. how abt a chalet?? took quite a number of pics yesterday.. will post it out soon.. lolo.. :P

sunday.. went out with da-jie aka ester to bugis.. hehe.. erm.. suppose to meet her at 6.30.. but in the end i left home ard tat time.. bcos i was overslept.. too shag.. couldn't imagine myself to work and study at the same time.. now i already canot tahan.. finally today tell boss abt it.. but she was very stunned when i went to find her... so.. i ... blur blur.. just says i need to rush project..


**erm.. yesterday when bulldog n gary first saw they will asking me "Where is your bf?".. i am like stunned... i where got bf.. help me find one lah.. gary will like saying.. i introduce u my friends lah.. wahahaa... crazy fellow... dun worry my pal.. if i am start looking for one or i am found someone suitable.. i will announce it out loud and clear.. hehe.. :P

erm.. korkor been looking for me this whole week... jus now when i am having NE talk.. he actually wanted to come school and look for me.. but i am not free.. nowadays been so busy with my FYP plus my personal life.. haha.. wat does personal life actually means?? erm.. saw friends gone thru in relationship, makes me change my mind.. walk backwards.. instead of front.... parents been noticing how my relationship going on.. and asking me to give myself a chance and the other party a chance.. i asked my friend nt to look backwards.. haha.. but me, myself walking back.. been avoiding both of them at the same time.. seldom pickup calls from them nor msg them... jus hang up the phone with one of them.. he sound unhappy when i mention that nowadays i keep receiving weird calls from pple.. haha... so weird... how come nowadays they contact me... and i am very surprise.. there is a guy told me he is going to thailand today.. haha..

Today Mr Koh called me up and asked me to go his room to look for him.. I am stunned and wondering wat had happened... at first i tot i failed my attachment... but in the end is he recommend me to go for a talk.. can i considered myself as lucky?? erm.. i dun think so as i dun like to wear formal.. i need to wear formal for tat talk.. hai~~~ these few days, i am very slack with my project... today i had been rushing here and there to get things done.. btw.. i am shocked by a news i received today.. My friend's sister passed away... understand her blow... bcos it lets me tot of my cousin.. but he is far away from me... i thinks now she need care, concern and understanding from her friends.... she needed her close friends to be there for her.. and pull her out from sorrow.. hope tat she will stand up soon.. but it will takes times to recover from this blow...

conclusion for this post... need to rush out my presentation stuffs and get it done by friday.. need to complete my NE after my presentation.. haven do my aes for last week.. (haha.. he sure going to nag at me) this weekend got work OT.. hope tat i can inform my boss tat i can only work for her till end of march.. and i need some concentration for my FYP.. or maybe next week will be my last week....

erm.. this week very siong.. monday had swensen.. friday had sakae.. today i had yaki yuki.. omg.... mon-friday of tough training also cannot help me arh.. hai~~ hehe.. but okie lah.. so long never met up with my friends... went out with them to makan.. hehe.. :P still miss the old times i had with them.. erm.. but my wallet burn a big hole.. hehe.. today also sabo gary... wanted to meet him at orchard.. but he ended up that he went to play pool with his friends.. hai~~ but we set tat next week, we will be going out.. and there might had a chalet during the holidays..but for this.. we will be still planning.. but anyway i will keep u all update...

today when i was at my work place.. my phone seems to kana bomb by pple.. and i was wondering how come my phone keeps ringing.. 3 missed calls from korkor, 2 missed calls from my ex collegue, 1 call from my cousin, 2 calls from my parents.. and 1 call from si ren.. hai~~~ when i was thinking of how to solve my coding.. my boss kept informing me that my hp rings... maybe bcos i didn't switch to silent mode.. i was late today bcos i was delay by some work.. hai~~~ sian.. when can i open my mouth and inform my boss tat i need to stop for a while.. .

friday.. went to tampines to have sakae... surprisingly that there was one sakae at the basement of century square but very warm.. my friend's friend accompany us to wait for seats before he left.. one thing i can comment abt him.. blur blur plus very good to bully.. haha.. :P he lives near my house too.. i wondering.. do he know leo they all.. haha...

btw... nowadays pple seems to getting more and more interested in my personal life.. wondering whether do i have a bf.. and who is it.. erm.. pls be patient... if i think tat person suits to be my bf.. i will announce.. u all dun need so gan chiong for me.. bcos now i also a bit blur blur.. i will make my choice wisely... otherwise my parents will be nagging at me also.. furthermore gary says he want to intro his friends to me.. hhhahaa.. wat a joke sia.. next week meet him, must disturb him liao.. hehe.. :P btw.. i did not went chinablack with ester and ah-ying on friday nite.. wanted to go there so much.. after hearing wat both of them said plus mummy and daddy.. in the end.. i choose nt to go... my friend helped me to ask his friend to help me buy liqour back.. erm.. hope it is success.. tat time wanted to ask aunt to buy.. but in the end.. change my mind.. hai~~~ hope there is a chance i can buy back or someone can buy back for me... let's pray hard.. btw he going to pay HALF of it.. hehe.. :P

yesterday went to napfa.. erm.. predicted tat i will fail.. something did happen at nite.. my aunt called up us and inform us to attend a funeral tomorrow nite.. my cousin's grandpa jus passed away.. let me think that life is really very short.. should cherish every moments and seconds, i had now.. today read my friend's blog.. won't be surprise that she had not forget tat relationship... she is such a devoted person.. erm... as my part of friend, i feel that i really never spend enough time with her.. and keep her accompany thru her unhappy times.. she is always there for me yet.. i ......... hai~~~ so disappointed with myself.. Sorry!!!!

So long never post anything up.. i also dunno what should i post or what should i says.. i landed in such a dilemma state.. Saturday went out with my cousin to watch movie and have dinner.. it had been a long time i ever meet her.. so asked her out but again i am late.... so as to apologize for that.. i gave her a treat... When to watch closer.... The movie is not my type.. i dun like it.. feel that it was very boring... like no plot.. bcos they will never indicate the years.. unless the actor/actress mention it.... The guy never know who he likes.. in the end.. being ditched by tat two ladies.....

Sunday went to work.. such a tiring day.. after that went back home and rest... Try to cook butter cereal prawns.. erm.. taste nt bad... lala.. :P

Yesterday.. he went for operation.. I am not there for him either.. this let me recalled of what happened in the past.. last time when d went for operation, neither that i was there for him.. plus further more i went out to play pool with my friends.. he was so angry abt it.. but.. haha.. still forgave me.. Met korkor at city hall mrt station.. after so many things had happened.. he managed to stand up... but despite of so many curious stares.. he still laugh and joke with me... what can i says.. he was much more stronger than wat i expected.. he will be going to undergo a surgery in may.. i promise him that this time i will be there for him.. hai~~~ no mood to type in school.. maybe go back home then contiune the story... commit a sin yesterday... i ate swensen, yami yougurt and gelare ice-cream... hai~~~~ but taste yummy...

erm... though these few days fall sick... mind kept thinking about what should i do and wat should i choose.. jiefu nag at me.. korkor... also nag... hai~~~ i really dunno what should do nor what should i choose... tot of quiting my job soon due to i need to rush my FYP.. so this weekend going over to tell my boss about it... see what she will says... maybe this weekend really need to tot abt everything again.. and had a rest.... hai~~~~

hehe.. luckily yesterday saw turtle aka shifu at food junction in school.. otherwise i will die liao arh.. hehehe... shifu always help me for project.... so touched... lolo... :P sian arh.. but i still haven finish my project.. still got a long way to go... but got quite a good bunch of friend and pals supporting me.. hehe.. thanks arh....winston also offer his help bcos i seek help from him.. hehe... he says after his FYP wor.. lala.. :P

Today i went to polyclinic to see doctor because i am down with flu virus again.. oh my god... i jus recovered one month ago, yet now its back again.. Got one day mc and 5 packets of medicine. I had been staying at home for the whole day and sort of clear up my junks... I saw my POA textbook and notes... It reminds me of xinzhi.. why arh??? Maybe without her, i dun think i can pass my POA.. She is a very good friend, had always been helping others.. Really appecriate what she had done and helped me for the past few years.. Ever since we entered poly, i hardly met up with her nor chat with her. I miss the old days that we had.. but maybe times canot be back the same again..

I considered myself as quite lucky.. I had been meeting up pple who helped me on my path of life and guided me through certain extend.. but i also lost them.. Today also called up ah-kor.. erm.. chatted with him for a while.. also told him what i am stuck with now.. he told me to move on and forget someone.. no point to keep struggling with it.. I got my new perfume aka echo, a bracklet, a teddy bear and a bouquet of flowers as present...... i also duno wat i should want.. should i open the door and let someone to walk out and someone to enter.. or let everything remain the same...

kana suan bcos of my english.. lolo... :P get use to it liao... my english getting worst... needed help.. hehe.. nowadays keep talking to him and learn a few new words from him.. hehe.. :P maybe tat's good.. it showing that our friendship back to normal.... maybe got critize then i will know how to improve my english... thanks pal.. u had been with me for the past few days.. tat's enough.. really wish to cherish this friendship before u decided to go over to oversea to work... take care...

need to go back to do research le... sayo.... ying arh... ester arh.. dun be so busybody.. do your project.. later cannot finish then die liao.... :P :P sian.. counting down to tomorrow to get another present.. hehehe.. plus go out drink... lolo.. :P

hai~~~ i had been hanging up his phone for the past few days.. hahaa :P he said i xiao qi gui.. i also duno why i hang up.. maybe bcos i jealous ba.. he can go tat girl house but nt helping me to celebrate my birthday two years ago.. sad sia... maybe this year i celebrate my birthday.. he will nt come again.. during second day of chinese new year, my cousin asked me "how are you going to celebrate your birthday?" i guess i might cancel my plan to have a chalet.. maybe see who going to celebrate with me ba.... he might be the one who treat me the best... but he is also the one left me..... if really want me to wish him all the best... i won't said out.. bcos i dunno how to says out... maybe type out will be easier... one msg cause a big misunderstanding... and landed us in cold war.. should i blame anyone... NO.. bcos is i send it myself... told myself nt to regret but in the end i regret.. maybe now maintain as gd friends will be better.. but i wish nt tat close... i scare i might landed into again...

hai~~~ never post any msg for the past few days.. everyday in school do research.. sian... thanx tian tian for helping me to find some resource yesterday but sorry.. never use it due to........... hai~~~~ sob sob... last sat wanted to jio leo out to drink.. haha.. but he nt free.. today he jio me go drink.. i wanted to go so much but tomorrow had to wake up early.. sure black out.. somemore now super no mood..... hai~~~~when can i finish my project.. when can i find some progress to this project... sob sob.. couldn't even transform my notepad file to xml format.. how to write xml coding inside vb.net.. i got so many questions.. but nobody can answer my questions... what my supervisor said.. go library and find or go online and do research.. everyday from 8.30-6pm do research.. but nothing seems to work.. hai~~ only manage to show my notepad file inside my form ... the rest s***** couldn't show MS word file due to wat object model of MS office.. found the object model but.. is a execution file... who can help me.. sian arh... sat going out to drink.. hehe.. tht's the best.. hope can forget everything.. sian.. sunday still need to work... hai~~~~~life s*****
Yesterday quarrel with him.. hai~~~~ i dun understand him at all... hai~~~ since we are good friends.. should i care so much.. what he want to do, is his business.. what for i want to get angry or unhappy or even get jealous leh.. maybe next time what ever thing he do.. i shouldn't had care nor ask... maybe that will make my life better... should listen to wat jiefu said.. learn to let off my hand.. keep holding on to it.. will bring hurt to myself.. dun be so silly arh.....

erm.. today had a feast.. hehe... had butter prawn, black-pepper crocodile meat, calamari, soup... plus tawaniese snacks.. i try out strawberry wine today.... shiok.. it taste realyl nice... i like a lot... most importantly, i ate a lot of sashimi... *drooling*.... hehe... :P erm.. tomorrow should be going out to eat.. but i guess no ba.. when i finished school is already 6 plus... furthermore, i still haven do my report nor research nor project scope.. hai~~~~ i try playing mahjong today.. but still dunno how to play.. so complicated... next time find leo to teach me.. hehee :P (he want to kill me more than want to teach me...hai~~~~)

erm.. chinese new year eve went over to granny's house to have renioun dinner.. btw.. tat day skipped school... :P after that, went over to chinatown till abt 1 plus... when i reached home.. i am so tired....

Chinese new year, went to granny's house again... erm.. this time round to take ang-bao... hehe... :P gamble whole day sia... very tiring... hehehe... :P

Chinese new year (2nd day) went over to aunt's house to celebrate... After having lunch and gamble for a while.. we went to catch a movie at jurong point.. 1 out of 9 wanted to watch "I do I do", the rest wanted to watch "constantine"... so in the end of cos we chose to watch constantine.. bagus is the only word that i can use to describe this movie.. i liked a lot.. the ending was constantine is not together with tat girl.. hai~~~ i guess there should part 2 ba...

Chinese new year (3rd day) wen to school.... sob sob :"( if i didn't went to school.. i should be able to join them for the HI-TEA buffet at pheonix hotel.. hai~~~ but got to go back to school.. back struggling so much of not going back to school... bcos of shunu lah... promise him to go back to school... so no choice lah.... being force to go back school... :P

Chinese new year (4th day) received my gifts.. hehe.. should i says i like it or i dun like it.. hehee.. dun telll u... keep it as a secret... lalalaala :P btw... make leo angry today.. actually wanted to meet just now to drink but he said he going chalet... he got jio me lah.. but i shy lah.. no choice (pls dun vomit hor) .. he says i put his aeroplane again.. SORRY!!!!!!!!

tomorrow might be meeting my friends for dinner.. it had been a long time that i ever gather with them.. i wondering how would that be.. :P

hai~~` bought a new phone from m1 today.. again is another regret for me.. hai~~~ erm.. mum and my cousin said nt bad.... so i bought it.. after bought it then i realise no bluetooth nor infra-red.. hai~~~~ heartbreaks... both of my line are now under contract.. there is no way i can get another new phone unless i buy phone without line.. erm.. maybe nt ba... maybe try to find wat this phone data cable can transfer pc files to phone or not.. hai~~~~ wanted so badly when i first saw it.. but now.. realise... it dun really have the function of wat i wants...

hai~~~ everyday fall asleep ard 11 plus.. no longer a midnight owl.. haha :P now being stuck in school to do my FYP.. the life here really very sian.. everyday need to go and find supervisor for help... so hard... hai~~~ no mood at all... today cat, ying and ester all never come.. hai~~~~~ luckily got my partner, Miss tan.. or else die liao.. sian.... finish my gantt chart and poster.. now currently waiting for his instruction....and need to do project scope.. so boring... hai~~~~

monday... went to school for briefing session of my FYP... tay day **** bcos i had to walk ard the school for the whole day... due to communication problems between two different department.. alamak... waited call for the whole day.. hai~~~ after school, went out with ester and ying to toa payoh.. one word to says.. tired.. hai~~~~

tuesday...hai~~ even more worst... finally know who is my supervisor... but got to learn another new programming language called "XML"... omg.... i have never touch it at all.. i sure going to die soon within these 12 weeks.. hai~~~ no mood.. now in school doing research.. to nowhere.. hai~~~~~~~ no mood...